Day 490 Our soldiers that are the living dead. They are us, we are them.

http://www.alternet.org/news-amp-politics/i-worked-us-drone-program-heres-what-really-happens?fb_action_ids=10201698025066387&fb_action_types=og.likes&fb_source=aggregation&fb_aggregation_id=288381481237582

“But here's the thing: I may not have been on the ground in Afghanistan, but I watched parts of the conflict in great detail on a screen for days on end. I know the feeling you experience when you see someone die. Horrifying barely covers it. And when you are exposed to it over and over again it becomes like a small video, embedded in your head, forever on repeat, causing psychological pain and suffering that many people will hopefully never experience. UAV troops are victim to not only the haunting memories of this work that they carry with them, but also the guilt of always being a little unsure of how accurate their confirmations of weapons or identification of hostile individuals were.

Of course, we are trained to not experience these feelings, and we fight it, and become bitter. Some troops seek help in mental health clinics provided by the military, but we are limited on who we can talk to and where, because of the secrecy of our missions. I find it interesting that the suicide statistics in this career field aren't reported, nor are the data on how many troops working in UAV positions are heavily medicated for depression, sleep disorders and anxiety.”

Humans have a mind consciousness system that carries the images of what we accept and allowed physically within and as us as mind. These images can accumulate and replay over and over again. I think of medieval paintings of so called “ saints” that have a halo floating above their heads. Have we made the mind more than the physical?

Are these soldiers that carry their actions with them as imagery, as mind, haunted by their past as their memories are what actions they accepted and allowed in a world where there are limited choices within providing a means to have access to money to provide food, shelter, clean water and education for their families?

Is what we allow without accumulating within, which means there is no escape for what we each have allowed on earth? Is the covering of what is allowed done within ignoring what is actually happening on the ground and/or creating a wall of separation from this abuse through reiterating so-called positive thinking, which is just placing a sugar layer on top of what has not been cleaned up as the negative consequence of initial lack of awareness/respect for what is real as the actual physical world? Thus, the ignorance remains as the accepted and allowed abuses, where no manner of gloss as ideological “ good” diminishes the fact as the consequences remain both physically and within as imagery?

There is no denial that what desteni is saying is or is not true, when we have soldiers that are living everyday what the point of what desteni is saying in actual fact:  that we carry an imagination of what we have done as how we have moved on this earth with us, and that eventually our choices catch up to us and consume us as that underlying abuse gets louder and louder, and no manner of drugs, or at present systemic mental health can remove this.

Each of us must do this for ourselves, and we must all forgive what has collectively been accepted and allowed as the present system and create a system that respects and supports all life including all of the very fabric of the physical as life, as life is the value.

What is done is done. Crying over spilt milk as the saying goes does not clean up that spilt milk. Expecting someone else to do it is not a solution, this is waiting and not wanting to face what has been accepted and allowed by humans.

No matter where you are and what you do, as you remain in place, stand and support a system that realizes the value is life, and the actual real physical world is the fabric of life and as this, it is the only way through to becoming equal to life, as existing in an imagination of horror is not life; it is the road map of our separation - this separation the cause of the conflict.

Support a Living Income Guarantee. Time to realize that each man, woman and child, needs enough money to live in dignity and to have the time to investigate what is best, to stop choosing actions that we know are unacceptable but because we have allowed money to determine life, we are forced to make choices that we know are not supportive, which must come to an end if we want a planet that supports our children as life. As we are now, our children will not have a life that allows the full potential we see within them when they are young before the memories begin to accumulate and slow their own awareness of life, this that is their natural ability. In essence they begin to follow the imagery of the fathers because this is what is around them and placed within them, so each generation follows the sins of the previous generation. And so the separation from what is real, as the physical is lost.

We can learn to realize ourselves as mind and equalize this back into a common sense of physical reality. As we do this within we clean up our separation. To do this, we must also practically walk what supports the physical world absolutely. Once decided this will be much easier than we realize, because the physical that is right in front of us, will reveal what works and what does not support us. Many have investigated solutions, yet many of these solutions are withheld, because they do not serve what has become systems that we all depend on for money that we all know do not serve us as life, yet we fear not having a job to survive. This web must be allowed to change. No one can really own our national resources, they belong to life.

Changing the system to one that gives all a Living Income Guarantee, will allow us to  slow down, investigate, reform, organize, and all the while continue to move ourselves as what we have built as structures and to transform these into what does no harm. Thus not all that we have built is so called “ bad” but much of the structure can be used as is.

One example, are the many hands of men within our military, it is an organized group that can carry out actions that build supportive infrastructure that then leads to more self responsible governance, where all understand how the physical works and our ability to organize. In reality, that physical action is as important as that action of looking at a picture of something in terms of organizing pictures of measure as what administration is and does, one is not more than another, both are acts of measure to order this physical world. We have allowed one to be more than another, which is the separation from common sense of life as the physical. It is time to end this game of judgement causing abuse because it ignores common sense, this being the realization that the physical is the starting point of life, not what is the mind.

Start walking yourself back into equality and oneness as the physical. Self forgive the separation into a mind consciousness system that is the image and likeness of our separation into judgement, where a polarity game of good and bad becomes the measure of us, instead of equality and oneness to the gift of life as the physical. The physical is a story and a real “ game” meaning a real multi-sensory experience that is so much greater than any video game, than any fairy tale - so to speak. We need to discover what this means, because humans have lived as mind for so long no one can remember what this actually is, so great is our separation.

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Day 423 Understanding equality within direct movement of myself here.

In learning to walk here, in equality I have to not allow myself to become stuck in programmed opinions and always, in all ways, look in common sense as to what is here, as all men being equal, limited only through belief as the divisive element.

I was talking with a man who was the head of a men’s club, and of the course of the belief, being a men’s club means that men interact with men only. I did not catch myself, I realized as the moment passed that, yes, this is a men’s club, but these men are not only men, they are fathers, grandfathers, brothers, nephews, sons, uncles. What is an extended part of them as their world is all that is around them. Thus, this club that is for men, that also hosts family events,  can present what is happening in the community to the extended family members as men as a development of their role as men. Especially since this group of men are involved in a system of discipline to work towards understanding here, as this is the basis of this club.

I got stuck in thinking of this group within a limited context as a belief, that this was only for men, which it is, but as this group, directing within support of the community, that which they joined the group for in self development, to share this with all extensions of themselves as the roles they are as what they are as men, this venue of an exclusive club can do and be all the while maintaining their group as men. ( just said the same thing again in a different way!)

Here I can see how much we are caught in judgement, where divisions are defined within limitation, not realizing the form can stay the same and yet also involve the dimensions of what we are in totality. The form need not limit, it can remain what it is and yet reach out, view out into the world not only interacting as its starting point but also bringing development as what it stands for to the extensions of itself.

This is the practice of opportunity for the offer of unity, which is the point of this group, to understand and become more in union with how the world functions. Communion does not change what we are here, it adds to our own self directive capacity within the existent structures.

The problem with our present system is that it touts this democratic action, yet builds beliefs as programs against this through the automation of limited viewpoint as an “ only”. These automated beliefs within, for example, role play relationships then maintain the divisions of actions of inequality, as rejection of what does not fit into an idea that is in itself a limitation - yet held fast as a rule of thumb  instead of taking the golden rule, which is to give as one would like to receive within one’s point of formation. This is to remember that we are a machine of collectively working parts, which is what democracy is the point of, yet under this is a automation of division instead of the awareness that we are all one and the same at a physical direct seeing relationship, and are able to understand one another and then voice what is best for all.  Our minds are programs of limited beliefs, opinion and ideas, as what has gone in with a judgement of a right and a wrong/ fixed intent as form in limitation losing all mutability, with money being the thing lost if one does not remain within the limitation, and thus to step outside, yet remain where we are, as in understanding here, of which we are capable because we are the same substance, and we are born with the natural ability to sense here, the programs as mind are made huge, taking us away from here, the without, leading to an automation of limited insight/ideas,  in separation from being equal within to the without. And then our output becomes limited and rejects the movement of here with insight to allow input from all forms. Another way to say this is to realize how much we see only a limited aspect of object, instead of realizing the essence of all that is here is a subject of life.  The object of form is to become a subject of the substance of life. The present systems teaches only subject of hierarchy, an imposition on earth, a placement on earth, an earth that is proving to not work within monoculture as life is not a monoculture, it is a multidimensional system. Problems are created due to a lack of perspective, and thus the solution, is always right there in front of us, because the problem screams its limitation as mind made huge is the being of self in limitation, an idea within  as mind in separation from the ability of self as life to be equality to the without/ physical, a state of “ reading” that is common sense use as self life substance that is not of the mind, our inherent capacity to learn/earn life equality. The limited information has nothing else to speak because this limitation is all that is seen, this limitation has become a more than as a belief, warping common sense. And we wonder why there are problems in this world. Knowledge and information is useless without practical application. The problem is what we each have accepted and allowed within as being the only insight to here, which is why being equal to the without from within is so necessary, as this would end separation and limitation as what we are allowing on earth as how we are, here.

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Day 42 my sons

Day 42 

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to worry about my sons.

I forgive myself for for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that worrying about my sons is not the solution, to stop this worry and to explain how this world system works, so that my sons desire to understand this system through self motivated research and to within this recognize and understand their own influences and behaviors and the influences they will face as they become adults within a system that does not place the value that is here, that is life, before anything else.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to want an instant understanding of what is here, where, when my son reads a self forgiveness blog he becomes silent and then falls asleep, as he has told me he is scared of the world and fears facing this world, which means he must learn to realize fear for what it is and within this I realize that I must remain calm and breath, otherwise I tend to go into a mother persona instead of relating to my son as all as one as equal and place my self in his shoes.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not realize that my son is talking to me more, and thus this is a small step, one of many that will be needed to stop the dominance of the mind as the authority on earth and birth life into the physical, something that has never existed here on this earth, where we all know we have separated ourselves from this physical world, as we age and die without any understanding or awareness of this physical world, where if the human had understanding there would no longer be starvation, disease, pollution, animal extinction, as these behaviors, accepted and allowed are indicative of a world that is not in fact organized to support that which we are, that which supports us as what we are, life, and within this, a realization that if this cannot be seen and understood than there is seriously something amiss with the human.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not realize that any person/human that is able to read and access the internet that encounters this message, the message of oneness and equality, and the presentation of a system that supports all life, an equal money system, that does not realize that what is here, as this physical world, that which support life as what we are, that is presently in a mess, with extinction, child sex trafficking,  starvation, plastic islands floating out in the middle of our oceans, radiation, depleted uranium affecting the formation of human babies and the lives of soldiers, and does not see, realize and understand how much of a fuck up this is is indicative that that human is lacking development and is a walking programmed set of words without any real awareness.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to blame my self for what lack of awareness and existence as fear my sons have become, where within this I have no time for self pity, or self blame, as what is here must stop, as what need be done is every step necessary to put and end to this self destruction of the earth caused by the very fear existent within my sons and my self.

I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to realize that there is no time for fear, as fear, when it is what i become,  must be faced with breath and self forgiveness and self corrective application as, fear is the separation of my self from my self as life.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not realize that any thought, any emotion, and feeling is a red flag of my separation from my self as life.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not realize that I am a programmable organic robot and that the present system that exists seeks profit for the few, and thus promotes all manner of desires, wants and needs to fill the focus of my self and direct me into wants, needs and desires that never satisfy and only lead to death, a death of no awareness of what lies beyond death, where I am so brainwashed that I actually believe that I cannot know what comes at death and that this is in the hands of some separate god, where as a parent with two sons, all I would want for my children is that they be able to direct themselves as life and that a “real” god, would want nothing else but life, want nothing else but self development towards a self perfected being and not what is allowed and accepted on this earth, where children are sold into sex, where animals are disregarded and become extinct, where the waters of this world have huge floating islands of plastic, where sons and daughters of men are afraid of life.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not see, realize and understand that the very fabric of what is here has not created a world that is absent of abuse, thus the very fabric of what exists is the problem and not singular relationships within this system that have become the focus of men, lost in one thread of this fabric at a time, no longer able to see the whole tapestry of the very structure of what is accepted and allowed on this earth as the way resource is distributed via a piece of paper that gives ownership to a few and thus does not consider all life.

I commit my self to sharing blogs with my son.

I commit my self to sharing my own behaviors that are my self in separation from my self as life.

I commit my self to sharing the order of my personalities as a collection of my past as what I have accepted and allowed to be what I believe my self to be that is in separation from what is actually physically here and only reveal to my self my own collection of believed and accepted inferiorities and feel good superiorities, that if i have a look have no awareness of this physical world.

I commit my self to sharing how I face my own fears, where often my son has insight that has helped me to face my own habituated fears as he is life, and thus are we one and equal to one another and need not fear exposing our own accepted and allowed fears.

Day 29: Family is home.

My family is here, mother’s day, mother and sister came, sons are home. All in one day. My self, I become so aware of trying to communicate and remain here with ease and I find my self  trying to bridge a gap away from creating more patterns of separation, to not react but to direct, through not reacting. Meanwhile, this sense of being depressed comes, where as heaviness comes that is my self not expressing my self, as though this is not allowed. So, it is just trying to not become this, to use common sense to be here with what is real and to realize that this is all I can do, is be here and not allow any emotions and feelings and thoughts of judgement that are past on perceptions of inferiority and superiority to be real, to not measure and compare, as this is only the mind in separation from my self as being an expression of life, to realizing that all that is here is my self in another life, and thus one and equal to me here. So I breath. Even though I may not know where to go in common sense, hanging onto a more than or less than belief is simply not an option. It is more of, “ not going there into judgement,”  as though this “tiger” must be tamed and realized.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to believe that there is a personality of my self that is all that there is, and that this is what is real.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to take the conversation, the small talk about how and why things are, what they are, and how they move, from family members as something to combat, or feel inferior to, or take as a threat, or react to, or judge as a waste of time.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to want effects as reactions and responses from family members.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to feel I am in a state of simply not allowing any emotional reactions to come up as this is my self as my mind and thus my self existing in my past, based on memories that are self judgements of more than and less than, inferiority and superiority.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to at times speak to validate my self,  which is my self validating a personality as an idea based on my past.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not realize that at the moment it is enough to simply not be a reaction,to not take things personally and to stand up from this habit of taking things personally.

I commit my self to not taking things personally.

I commit my self to breathing through any reactions and to stand here without allowing my self to react to what is said by others within my world at the moment.

I commit my self to remaining here in breath, to being gentle with my self and facing what I allow my self to exist as emotionally and to realize this is based on ideas of more than and less than, and thus not what is real, not what is directive as what is best for all, to clean up what has existed as relationships separate from the principle of what is best for all, here.

I commit my self to remaining calm and directed with my self, to bring everything back to self, and directing my self from the principle of oneness in equality, to what is best for all, as I remain and move in and as breath while my sons are here for the next few days.

I commit my self to not becoming sad about what has been accepted and allowed within the role of my self as a mother within a system of profit, of all the beliefs and ideas that has been the movement of my self within a role geared towards the support of survival, competition and thus comparison leading to fragmented personality development and not an awareness of what has been allowed on this earth and thus a lack of awareness of my self as life, and the self that is what is my sons as themselves as life, where this sadness is not a solution and must be forgiven as the only choice is to realize what has been accepted and allowed, to forgive, and to correct within the principle of what is best for all is best for self.

I commit my self to not allowing my self to seek a positive experience where i am validated within the choices I make, and to use such desires to reveal my own separations of believing something is lost, or can be lost, and to direct my self not as mind, but through breathing and remaining here, where just as I continue to breath life into and as my human physical body, so will I breath life into what is here, through remaining within breath before speaking, as the only response is as what is best for all.