Day 289 Fear of speaking Reaction dimension cont.

Fear of Speaking Reaction Dimension cont.
I was talking with someone and I went into a reaction with them. I had asked them a simple question and they reacted, then I reacted. I was in essence aggravated that they reacted, becoming accusatory without addressing what was asked, as addressing what was asked was not something wanting to be faced, it meant looking at what had beenaccepted and allowed, it meant then standing up and realizing what is here. So many times I have had such behaviors thrown at me, they are a bully in self defense, projecting indignation, which is what i become and am, I have set the tone and I am getting what I am “setting” within myself, a behavior I have allowed to become a habit, infearior to what is here, in fear because I cannot describe what is here, the space as the movement is not part of the vocabulary, the understanding of what is here is not realized, off goes a sense of vertigo, a physical sense of vertigo, and the means of sensing this is shut down, as judgement as mind has set in. There is no starting point of equality with me, I am too busy being angry, being infearior, being in fear, all behaviors of lack in common sense of here, all behaviors of running away from self as life, all behaviors of not wanting to give up the ghost of the machine, a belief that someone else will solve, an idea that somehow -as if my magic- things will work themselves out, an opinion that humans cannotchange things because of “ this being the way it is” or that a limited “nature” is in fact nature - this in itself ignoring that what is labeled as nature is life, and the life of the human is such despite the fact that children are not born with religion and speech and will imitate their environment, as is known with children raised in the wild by animals, known as feral children. There are so many strings of excuses and all of them the voice of denial, an excuse having no direction as it is an end game, a lack of conception, an expression of limited sense, thus it is just the voice of mimicking a dictate - like what a machine does, a machine is produced to perform a certain action, thus the giving up to a limited idea that things cannot change/transform/realize is a belief as a recitation of doctrine and thus a program, meanwhile what is fueling the voice of this? We are humans fueling the voice of this, and since we cannot replicate what we are - given what we do build as machines- how can we allow others to decide for us when they obviously have no real understanding of life? So, why do we have a system that is deciding that money determines who lives and who dies, within a lack of understanding this physical human body? Thus none of us is greater than, more than this actual physical world, and it is by far the greater, and we are taking this physical world and deciding who gets sustenance from it, we are deciding to take from it without consideration of life as this physical world. Instead of working with this physical world, we are working against it, we work against that to which we are inferior, while this physical world reveals itself, as we can know how t works, it is forgiving and revealing and transparent, we know what pollutes the waters, we know what causes dis-ease in cows, we know that we can work with the sun, etc. and yet we ignore this for the continuation of a profit based system. We know that usury does not work, Christ made this obvious , and even Hitler proved that getting rid of debt supported the people, and yet the presentation of Hitler is only of obviously unacceptable reactive behaviors  - not to say that it was a perfect system and a solution, but that the part as usury does not work, it creates economic slavery. Slavery is abuse, it is not developing/supporting life in all, as one as life, as equal. By focusing on what was bad ONLY and not looking at the parts that worked, as what was good, and having others in our world blow up the "bad" ONLY and bully this onto existence, is the development of confusion, of emotional reactions, unsupportive of life.
We/I have allowed the ghost of the machine to become god, and it is all illusion, as belief, opinion and idea, I am, when I become emotional, reacting to an illusion, the illusion built of a collection of ideas that are a limited composition of what is here, this is why it is seemingly confusing to realize self as life, because the elements of this composition are of life, they are simply broken into bits/bites, so I feel like I am attacking life, yet this is not the case. Break life into bits, spread this around, divide it between peoples as limited values made huge ( and notice I use the same practice as language LIMITED values) where the value is a part of life, thus not to be denied, yet when held onto as the only value, and made a dictate within the tool of the mind as imag-iner/image maker, then trying to suggest that this is something to “give up” is seen as a threat and ignorance, when what is trying to be said is that this is simply out of context of this actual physical world, meaning it is something that cannot be lost as it is here and can be lived and does not need to be placed within a tradition as a culture, as it is a part of this physical world. So, taking values out of context, as here, and carrying them around and defining oneself as them is warping reality, is distorting here, like magnification does, it distorts reality, it is like looking at another dimension that is here, yet within looking through the shaft of the lens of the magnification one is “distorting reality” - so to speak. And this is what the media is doing by plastering pictures of 15 - and even younger - girls/children all over the streets with pixels that create pictures and songs of “love”, this a separation from being in equality to what is real here. I mean taking a cow and forcing something other than what that cow is geared to eat, is going to make that cow sick, or that chicken sick if that chicken is forced to physically grow in distorted and warped ways in ignorance of the physical world, a world we cannot create as the knowledge and information we exist as. We are inferior to the physical world, and yet we act as though we are superior, and this, even if it were the other way- is inequality to life, as it is all life, here.
So what we have programed the mind to be, is a distortion of reality, and a few are profiting from this, as they themselves are a program of distortion. Thus must we for give ourselves back to this physical world in commons sense of what is best for all, as what is best for this physical world is best for us as we are one and equal in and as this.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to speak in and as self interest infearior to here, to realizing and moving and living equal and one, in and as common sense of what is real as this actual physical world and how it exists, to see, realize and understand that the present system of inequality is an abusive distortion of reality, where the mind as image tool is made reality as this is a means of control in and as a separation from life, as being inferior to and as life as what we are here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become reactive to behaviors of life here, that are in separation of common sense of what is physically here, where the present system is a ghost as a machine of magnifying parts of this physical existence, that are of value, yet when placed conceptually out of context and followed as dictates the living existence of the human is no longer equal and one to and as life, in common sense of this actual physical world, this mind greater than physical existence a separation from a relationship of equality, meaning realizing here as the physical being equal and one, this equality being equal to and as life, here, as equality and oneness, in believing no one thing to be more than another, is the expression of and as life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself not to see, realize and understand my own behaviors of separation from and as life, with and as every breath I take, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself not to see, realize and understand behaviors of separation within and without, where facing the fear as separation as survival management is lack of direction as life regulation in common sense of being one and equal to and as the physical world as earth, this separation manifest as emotions, thoughtsand feelings as energy polarized through judgements of more than and less than beliefs, opinions and ideas, that are fear of loss, leading to justification as positive feelings of pride, righteousness, needs used to define a positive state that is short lived indicating the lack of substance and sustain ability in expression of self as life, as such short lived desires lack an absolute purpose in and as the principle of what is best for all, as the being of self in separation from what is best for all is to be separate from the nature of life as being life absolutely, in totality, here, absolutely self honest, absolutely self directed, absolutely at ease, where the speaking of self is equal and one to and as here, as what is best for all can only be seen in common sense, here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that a system of separation in and as bureaucracies determining life based on statistics on a piece of paper, within a system of profit, is the same structure without as the mind has become as the human within, where dictates are followed that try and fit a profit for the few onto reality, the physical warped into a an expression of profit as being a belief that parts of this physical world are of a more than, this being a god personification that by nature is a separation from equality and oneness as self as life, as the very substance that is equal and one in all that is here as earth, as this is life.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the physical world as earth is the gift of life, here as all that is here is the very fabric in and as life, thus, blaming and spiting what is here is an act of ignorance, of protest for how here exists and thus a separation of self realizing self as the directive capacity in and as life, which means realignment into equality with this physical world, as this physical world being used to support all life in equality and oneness here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself as life, with every word I speak, to remain equal and one to fear within and without, to direct within and as what is best for all, without reaction as blame and spite, and to realize such behaviors within and to stop and to breath and to bring myself back to a state of ease, where nothing is taken personally, which everyone of us has experienced at one time or another in our lives, thus it is a question to ask oneself, “ why did I not react “that time” yet, i reacted “ this time?”
I commit myself to realize that I can slow myself down and recognize my own separations with and as every breath, at least to realize when I am allowing and accepting behaviors of separation in and as an emotional storm as energy as this being the signature of separation from myself as life, based on my past, enacting a projection of loss into the future, which means I have become inequality to and as life, and have no substantive ability to direct myself within and as self honesty.
I commit myself to breathing, and to walking the steps to equalize myself to and as life, to develop my own physical common sense in and as life, here which takes myself breathing and slowing down to become aware of the space here as life, every inch, every detail, which will take a process, as this has not been what was taught, as the very fabric of myself as life, is able to sense the very fabric of life here as the physical, in all common sense, as what real supposed god would have it any other way as life is the value.

Day 288 Fear of Speaking Reaction Dimension

Speak, Taste, Eat, Breathe, Etc. (Photo credit: redteam)

Fear of Speaking Reaction Dimension
I realize that sometimes when I don’t get an expected response, I immediately have some back chat of childhood names , and memories of reactive behaviors from the past when I went to say something. I fear these names and reactions being what I am here, instead of looking at what is being said as my words, in common sense. I become the fear ofjudgement from my past, which means i am not here, present in common sense of what is physically here existing within the principle of what is best for all. I allow amind/alternate reality to become my expression, this being of no substance as it is not calm, at ease and constant, in self honesty as life. Within “being of no substance” I become uncertain, and if I really look at this, it is like being in a state of vertigo, and I lose common sense of here, a directive capacity, here. I start trying to catch myself, justify, hide, becoming one big storm of emotion and feeling, my responses that of seeking validation for my own separation. I am not at ease, and even within my words, there is fear, edgy spite leading to blame, as justification, because I know I am not here, I am no longer at ease. And much of this behavior, has become a norm.


I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become a memory from my past, triggered by the words of another, as a reaction to what I speak, where I separate from here, from common sense of what is here, in this moment, within and as what is best for all as what is here, where within this separation what I interact as is energy, focused on ideas, opinions and beliefs, limited and judgmental, based on accepted and allowed past experiences wherein the full story of what is here is not realized, an existence in self interest alone as personification, creating a belief that i am alone, when I am here, as life, on earth, as all one, as all as one as equal.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that nick names given by family members, such names themselves of limited awareness, lacking a sound mind of as self being directive within and as self honesty with what includes actual practical physical reality, equal and one, an inclusion of what is here as what supports life, this very real world that which is imposed with systems that separate this physical reality in promotion of religions and systemic structures given a life of their own as though they were what always existed yet in reality have been built by men, as these systems are here with the advent of men, such as the present economic system, which is given the status of being self directive when in fact it is not, as it is simply a structure where it is men that built it, accepted it, allowed it and use it to move what is here around the globe, this illusion as this addition of it having a life of its own, that is so obviously illusionary, but this is the means with which control of what is here as this actual real physical world is maintained through the development of warping and distorting reality, into and as a system of inequality, where the illusion given is the illusion created, that some are more than others, went all flesh is of the same substance, thus this system of an “unseen” force as a “god” is telling us that what is really happening is that some believe themselves to be more than others, and this is what is taught, an illusion of a more than and a less than, all a separation from what is the real more than, which is the value being life, simply being here in and as the very substance of and as life, given equally to all as the physical world, to enable all to exist as life, to experience life, as this is the value.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not listen to what is here, to allow ideas, opinions and beliefs of more than and less than to direct myself here, not realizing that all of this is an energetic emotional moving to feeling storm in a bubble that separates myself from life, thus making this cell of life that I am on an organism as earth, a prison cell of my own creation.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand when and as i become fear, to walk through my own self commitment statements, to bring myself back to here, to become the walking of myself equal and one to the focus of myself here, aligned to speak in common sense of what is here, without separation into and as fear, as this is the illusion, the separation, as the gift is the physical world, as the substance of life by nature is forgiving as life, considerate of all life, in all common sense.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that in each and every moment here, the only choice is to slow down, breath, and to stop thevoices as the blueprint in and as my mind of the past, the resonance of incomplete stories that reveal their own incompleteness in and as that they are of complaint and not of direction in ease, thus the very tenor of self as life, is visible in and as the very nature of the words and the substance of the sound as the voice of each and every one, as the voice of direction is solid, sound and directive without threat, where an in-substantive threat gives no real direction, as life would always direct allowing what is here to be self directive, absolutely.
I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understand that I am here, as life, and thus I can breath and slow myself down, move as the the words of equality and oneness as what is best for all, where I bring myself here, and move in practical evaluation of what is here within and as what is best for all.
When and as I begin to feel emotional and feeling reactions within and as myself, where the vertigo of the past begins to rain down from the mind, this map of what I have accepted and allowed in and as judgements within a system of inequality, and the pressure of past compounded emotions and feelings build up within my back, I stop and I breath, and I realize this is movement within and as my human physical body of separation into and as energy, as fear of loss, an idea only, that then moves into and as a tension physically through my human physical body where I become a supposed “positive” justification that is really a more intense energy, seemingly “lighter” yet actually heavier, as my limbs begin to feel heavier, more inflexible, and if I really look at this it is actually painful, as it is an energetic consumption of my human flesh as myself in separation from being equal and one to and as myself as the “sound” of myself as life, thus is fear/survival behaviors/loss myself mis-playing myself as life, here, and thus am I no longer equal and one to and as life, and am abusing myself as my human physical body with my own accepted and allowed separations.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that this movement into feeling, this which seems “good” as this is pride and a feeling of gain, is a false self directive, as it is a thin belief in gain that is simply a self justification within limited ideologies, which is what i have been taught within a system of separation from life, from equality, the labels as this supposed “higher” positive being of myself, that follow the labels of character within and as the present system, as I pretend the roles I was taught, and walk in and as mind, as accepted and allowed behaviors, where I allow the measure of myself in relationship to limited beliefs, this manifesting within hope of survival as pride, as I am my own judge and juror relating to personification and care-actor relationships towards survival within a system of division into hierarchy, the very structure of which images more than and less than, a crystal shape reaching into the earth, the earth the support up this eye sore on its horizon that gives without a signature of ownership, as the value is being here, equal and one in and as life.

Day 287 Children and the "concrete stage"

4 children's cubes and carrot (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I am looking at the educational concept of a child being ready for school when a “concrete” stage sets in, around seven years of age. This would mean that there is an ability to have a directing - so to speak - “constructive ability” within being able to understand a social interactive structure enough to move within this, thus, at this point a child is “ready” for school; a child is ready to sit and listen, to control their own behavior in relation to the group.
This would imply that there is a developmental stage where a child can hold a picture, a map, or a plan and follow a series of steps. Meaning, a child can follow a plan, hold a plan in and as their memory/mind. Which, in turn makes it clear that this is what the mind does, it creates maps - so to speak.
What if this map became what dominated actions, instead of that which created the “map”? And what is being fed to the child as the composition of this “map”?
Given the state of this world , would it not be clear that somehow this “map” is limited, as this world in definitely NOT in order? And how is it that this obviously limited “map” leaves behind what actually created this in the first place?
Children are not born with language, nor with religion. And here I think of some of the stories where spiritual/religious leaders have actually killed children because they were not “grasping” the religion fast enough for the parents obsessed with the ideas of such a fantastic existence as an alternate reality that is not here. Incredible.
Could this “map” become the carrot on the end of a string, and the actual physical/donkey that created the illusive-never-able-to-be-reached-carrot what is real? Is this in essence what we are doing to ourselves and our children?
And is this carrot a composition of limited beliefs, opinions and ideas, that are parts of this existence, divided up in different ways throughout this world within cultural divisions, where all the values exist they are merely spread out and sectioned off instead of being allowed expression directly through the physical, where this mind/map holder is really a means to aid in expression within allowing the physical to remain directive as the creator that it is able to create the map, and move itself here, sense here as is its nature, it being life, where this map, is a picture from a moment and not directly the substance of life, and only a secondary image? And would this not be an inter-dimensional replication of what man has created outwardly on this planet? And has this not become what directs us, just as our supposed mind/maps become what is believed to be reality, when in fact it is just a picture of reality, and even here, refractions of reality, pieces of the whole, as limited values - that in themselves are not necessarily good or bad, yet when made idol and all that is seen, destructive because it is a limitation in separation from realizing the whole with each breath, taking a picture of here, with each step, using this map in this way to move within what is immediate within one’s environment to be aware of what is actually physically real, to consider all that exists, so that all is moving as an expression of itself as life, and thus naturally being life, and thus being what is best for all, as this is what life is, as is the nature of life, life being absolutely considerate of itself in totality?
And if this is what has been accepted and allowed, by men, on this for-giving earth, this carrot/mind/map made bigger than life, are we not missing life?
And would not this, limited carrot/map/mind image actually be the fault of each and every human, in that the limited values of this, these selected values, not good or bad, but simply limited, be directives because they were made bigger than life, as this was feared to be let go of, because this was all that was seen, as self as life forgot life? Because, selfthought that self as object as image, was better than another. was better than something outside of self that was of the same substance as life as self, so this forgetting of self as life, is the root cause of separation, as this is separation from the equality and oneness of life in all existent on this earth, in fact in all that is here as life? Thus has this continued, compounding through eons of time, to where we are today, on an earth, rapidly being destroyed in the name of profit based on an idea, at the end of a string in the shape of a carrot, and meanwhile behind that carrot at the end of that string/stick is a whole see/sea of life, here to allow ourselves as life, be and live in equality and oneness in and as life.
Desteni is taking us to the water, yet each of us must stop and drink. For our children, there is placed a screen in front of that water/physical/creator filled with images of a pornographic nature, of war, of diamond rings, of Cinderella, of bearded gods, and thus our children die, become the cinder, a much less expected potential then what was felt when they were young, as they are starving because the water, as themselves as life, is denied them, and it is right here, ever present, it is simply being ignored and all because a carrot, as limited beliefs, opinions and ideas, is what they have been taught to follow.
And though I know I am no better than what I describe, any and all self pity or embarrassment, or potential attack about this, must be faced because the only way out of this is to self forgive the separation from life, to realign oneself equal and one to the physical, to realize this is the value and the means of life, that this present system must realign with the structures and forms that are here, to support the needs of this physical existence in ways that support all the life here equally, as life is the value.

Parenting - Perfecting the Human Race Series

Day 286 The Buried King Philip's War

As I look at what Capitalism is as it exist in form and focus and function, it follows NOT all the principles laid out for it’s purpose. It is a structure to support life, to allow humanity to thrive, to become self supportive, to be able to take care of oneself in a state of ease, as this would be happiness, a state of ease.

I think of the King Phillips’s war in America at the end of the 1600’s.

The stage was set at this time, with the colonists having developed much of the land along the eastern seaboard of the present United States. They had productive farms and had organized themselves enough to begin to enjoy more things of leisure. They also started to attend church less and less. No longer did they find a need to hope and pray, they had physically organized themselves and were prosperous.

What happened at this time, was that suddenly there was a move from thinking the new land was endless , to the land becoming finite.

Also, the church was not receiving as many funds from the people, as they had stopped attending church, as they no longer needed “god” or realized that it was not god who had developed the land, but themselves, in all common sense.

The American Indians, who had become somewhat a part of the community - there was even a university ( well schools where really seminaries ) set up to educate them. In other words they were not treated as heathens, they were viewed as becoming a part of the society.

What happened, is that the America indians realized, started to realize, that the Europeans believed, really believed, that they could own the land, and they were slowly taking over the land. The American indians did not conceptually believe this, and they were right in that this earth cannot be owned, as it is a gift that gives and supports life. Yet the Europeans thought they could own this, and even abuse what they, the Europeans thought of as “right” in the face of common sense - that this earth cannot be owned except through an idea, or belief imposed - lacking all common sense , yet, here the American Indians whose culture did not include what was in all common sense given as a gift for life, did not realize the sickness of the European until it was too late. So they went in and destroyed all that was of value to the European settlers in their delusion that something can be owned in self interest. There were more deaths in relation to the population from this war than in any other war America has ever had since. This is how powerful the American Indian was and how much they fought to wipe out the disease of ownership without regard for the life that existed, where this ownership was stamped out, this self interest and ignorance of life.

So, the Europeans began to blame the American indian for taking that which they had taken, blaming the American Indian and labeling them as evil, removing all that had been supposedly “given” to them, placing them in camps where they basically starved and suffered. The takers were punishing those who they had taken from, ignored and devalued in the name of profit and greed in self interest. And this, even when it was noted how healthy the American Indians were compared to the Europeans. Obviously, the American Indians, if they were noted to have been so healthy, were doing something that was beneficial, more so than what the Europeans were doing, yet again this was ignored in the face of reason, as self interest was the choice, in greed, lacking consideration and placing one’s limited view despite the existence of something that had created men who were healthier and organized.

The only place that was not completely destroyed was Boston. The colonies had been laid to waste, as the Indians had destroyed what was of value, they had gone in and destroyed all the crops, and all the live stock. They basically set the colonies back one hundred years.

What did the Europeans do with this situation once the Indians were dealt with? Did they learn their lesson? NO. They continued with the same self interest. And this began to play out with the Salem witch trials.

There were no men, they had all been killed in the King Phillips war. So the women of Salem, were man-less and this was proving to be a dangerous situation; too many women and not enough men.

Yet the lesson that the land was finite was remembered, so how could this situation be used to get the land from the widows?

And how could the church get the people back into the pews to give funds and support that pastor and maintain control through an illusionary separate reality?

And with the emerging study of as a scientific method, how could this be imposed and used as a new ways of looking at the world. A perfect platform to apply a more scientific approach to an existent more “superstitious” society?

Low and behold, women were labeled as witches, their lands could be taken by those who wanted more, who used this excuse to grab an earth that is freely given. The scientists could prove that satan could be measured scientifically, and the church could re-enslave men to beg for forgiveness from a supposed god, even in the face of god having nothing to do with the work they had done in developing their lives.

Yet in our history books in the schools this war is never talked about, just foot noted.

The Salem witch trials are related to the “red commi scare” of the thirties, which makes no sense, and I had to watch this being taught to my children in the schools. This Mcarthy Era, as it is called. Like we are allowed to criticize actions the American system took in the past and then believe we have learned to criticize when we in fact have not learned any critical skills at all, because not enough of this story is told. What lead up to the existence of the Salem witch trials, and why were there so many women? None is this is explained within this unit. 

It was years later that more of the story was told. I thought, why was this not clear then? Children are very capable of understanding this real scenario, and perhaps so many children are bored in school and see no point of the history presented because they don’t see a real story, what is presented is vague and illogical, lacking in detail, and having no common sense. What one does is memorize a story full of gaps and non-explanations. Perhaps our children, in not being taught the whole story, see no story of any common sense, and thus really have nothing to hold onto? And then we are actually scared, the adults to have the real story told, because this would mean we have to actually look at what we are accepting and allowing, and would end up losing what we believe we have, which is just more of the same story full of holes , a story lacking wholes, a continuation of the same that came, a people of lesser health maintaining that lesser health in the name of believing that this land can be owned. And the same upsets and manipulations in the name of a few wanting to grab more and more and more. As this is a game of mono=polies, ignorant of life, this earth, this form and function of the natural world as earth, believing that the science of man has all the answers, when the quest sought is a desire for more, instead of working with what is here in common sense telling the whole story, all the details, even the emotions and feelings and thoughts and how they are created and what they are the product of as indicators of fear/survival behaviors, that are in separation from what is best for all, even when this “best” or indication that something is stronger, than what the cultural facing a visible noted difference lacks by comparison, is potentially doing, where an example of a stronger human is standing right there in front of their faces.

Non of what I say here is to criticize one group  above another, but this is an example of where what was good within what existed was ignored in favor of traditions that lacked in comparison to other traditions. What was good, was not considered.  In the end the whole movement here is within limited beliefs, opinions and ideas that lack actually looking at what is here in common sense of what is best for all. Thus, the whole story must be told, the whole scenario in detail must be looked at, hiding details just means there is an agenda. Hiding creates a hierarchy, a morality in separation from what is best for all, as what is best for all is that all absolutely realize how here functions as this earth, in totality, as this is the only way to get this organism in order, in working thriving, at ease order.

Our children are being fed half truths and these limited stories are then coupled with a loose logic of no real substance, to feed a program of self interest in the name of profit for a few only and this is causing disease, as the nature of that child is forced into limitations and not allowed expression -as life and the consequence of this is disease. In common sense we all know this, and thus we must give up everything to enable us to have everything, and that is our children, knowing the whole story, understanding this earth, and working with this earth as life, as their nature, as ease. The outcome will be the existence of life on this earth, at ease, in expression of life.

Day 285 Fear of speaking The behavior of commercial speak

I am rushing and thus I am missing what is here, as this consumerist society advertises promise, the promise of more, the promise of being more should one have what is offered and then that promise , the thing gotten does not satisfy as it was not the thing itself that was bought in practical common sense of what is here, but was promised something more. It is really being addicted to the “mystery” of the promise offered, and the excitement of this promise is the drug, a total separation from being one and equal to here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to participate within the excitement of the “promise” of more, my words directed towards this promise unless I listen to what it is that I speak in absolute detail.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to get caught up in the promise of “more,” to exist within the whine of wanting more as a behavior instead of remaining here in common sense.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the promise of more, is just this, the energetic high of being within a dream/promise of “more” which is a total separation from reality, from being practically physically here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to compare men to one another, not seeing realizing and understanding that meanwhile I am constantly told that all men are the same, yet when I date a man, there is all this criticism about the man I am dating, thus, the drive, as what I am told to do, is to find a man, and that all men are the same, and then the switch to the criticism of the man and what he lacks, when a man is “found” , so there is this switch from “ all men are the same” to criticism of the man then chosen, all a driving force of name calling within limitations moving through different dimensions of life, with out addressing the life itself in practical common sense of what is here, enjoying the very substance of life here, from the small to the large, and thus the limitations of what is accepted and allowed and the process of criticizing those limitations is really ourselves telling ourselves of the very limitations we accept and allow, as the limited ideologies we accept is what we have become, the voice of what we allow being thevoice of what we are, and thus become we, the human, a limitation, and thus a stagnation, a separation from life here, ignoring the detail of here, separating from the actual physical world as its parts and the whole, and thus missing the very substance of what is here, the gift of life here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when ever I criticize I am not actually here unless I move any and all label directing, immediately into and as what is best for all, in common sense, the moment I call something a less than and expect this less than to suddenly magically become a supposed “more than” without consideration of what I exist as or this system exists as, I am existing as limited judgement and demand only without awareness or directive capacity, as what is here, accepted and allowed is not in fact supporting this world.
Within this, I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I am not in fact here, realizing that everything that is here is myself, equal and one, on a planet, a physical world. where the development of what is here is known and yet not followed, as profit for the few, the few seeking a “more than” scenario, themselves absolutely in separation from life, chasing the promise of “more” are literally mentally deranged within and as the illusion of the “ promise of more” that supposed material possessions will bring, when the gift is this actual physical world, where the process of self development and nurturing care of life, as what is needed to nurture life, to allow life to thrive and be an expression of life, is known, and thus this “state of being” that is “promise” of more is an illusion and this illusion is being broadcast through the media diverting the life here into and as the same distortion existent as those who have the control of what is presented by the media, as this system of money is a system of inequality and thus separation from here, economic inequality is a crime against life and a separation from the known needs that allow development of the human child, born without religion, without language, where the language taught as the various cultures of selected limited values, where the values are not good or bad, they are simply limited and warped into justifications of the limitations being a more than, when no culture on this planet has created a world that is best for all, thus the parts to build a world of heaven are here, yet the existent cultures are too busy ignoring what develops absolutely in favor of creating limited role play to allow parts of this world to have a more than, not seeing realizing and understanding that all life must develop and be a total expression of itself absolutely, as what is best for self is best for all.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that this charade of “more-than-promise”, was created by each and every human, as anacceptance and allowance is what is used in each of us as a creation, and this, allowing a system of limited values that embed within as images and made huge as mind, isabusing the total capacity of the physical common sense of what is here, this seen in children at a young age when they rapidly learn, which is then shut down as the resonanceof limited ideas, beliefs and opinions of a promise of “more than”, this which is not aligned within the principle of what is best for all, of forgiving of self as life in expression as life, this resonance is the human physical body littered, polluted with the same limited ideas as images plastered all over this planet, and the existences of those that are living where resources are taken from the earth, places where the currency is systemically devalued to allow the profit monetarily to be transferred off shore, where some then present an idea of philanthropy on top of this, hiding this “first action/step” within then presenting philanthropy as “help” AFTER taking, and even here aligning the tiny amount given after taking within what will bring a profit, and thus are the lives existent on the earth not considered and only given a “commercial” voice as a story of doing supposed “good” to create a picture ONLY of a “more than” for the takers, a perpetual state of the promise of “more” for the few, a state of distortion and abuse of what is real, this actual physical world, which must stop, as this is a state of disease and it is causing disease on the ground to plant, animal and human, a crime against life, and yet, when each and every one of us chase an idea of a “more than promise” we are one and the same as this abuse, thus it is the responsibility of each and every one of us to stand and to realize the only choice is to create a system of equality, where all life is considered within and as the common sense of what is best for all, until what exists on this earth is a state of ease, equal in everysingle thing that is on the face of this earth.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be and become the role play dictated by a consumerist profit driven society of promise, or a heavily religious society of promise should I only follow, and then will my rewards be “great” which is another illusive “promise: causing waiting and hoping and charity in the face of being self interested in gain for the “promise” and the development of the actual physical existence here, is ignored, which is so delusional, so abusive, so ignorant, and so unacceptable, as the value is life, and it is to realize within this that there is no other choice, there is not excuse, no reasoning that can deny that the value is life, that to deny life support is to deny life, and thus is a crime against life, especially when that denial is based on some idea in and as the mind, as belief, and opinion based on some illusion that no one has ever seen.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that within this consumerist society, the promise of an object elevating a human is a separation because it is being human as being physically here that is the gift, and yet a picture of the human as this or that, has been taught as being more than, instead of the fact that it is being here physically that is the value, and yet the imagery of the human all dressed up and/or sitting next to some elevated person as an image “promising more” in some supposed after life” is what is taught, so busy is the human with this ideology, a supposed charitable giving, as the advertising all over this world is “free” in that one can walk down the street and see this, thus the dictates are all over the place seemingly “free” when in fact they are not because one cannot live without money, and how we are allowing money to “flow” is allowing all this - ( I was in a communist country when I was 10 or 11, and it was very quiet, no pictures all over the place, thus it was peaceful. It took a while to realize the difference) we the human have allowed the shit that is plastered all over this planet, we have allowed the limitations that are sent across the screens of the technology and the screens of the mind, and thus we are the cause of a separation from life, here this actual physical world, that is what is real that is what supports us, we have programmed ourselves and are programming our children with a limited program that is in separation from common sense of the actual physical world, which is a crime against life, and it is becoming obvious that nature is no longer going to put up with the human, as the human has not proved themselves worthy of life, just go and research the viruses beginning to develop.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand where and how I started to separate from myself into and as a promise of a more than, instead of enjoying the actual physical world in common sense, which means being one and equal to and as this actual physical world, respecting all of this world, as this physical world is life, and thus what is real and the very gift of life.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that any and all speaking and giving of words that are misleading the human away from common sense of this actual physical world are a crime against life.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that speaking up about how words used are misleading, will cause massive reactions within and as people around me, and yet there is no choice, as the chasing of the promise must stop, must be brought back to common sense of this actual physical world, as this is standing up for and as life here.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding, that there is running but there is no hiding, so forget about this, and forgive yourself to what is best for all, equal and one, as the value being life here, and thus all life here, as earth must be cared for as this is the way to life, in all common sense.
I commit myself to, instead of making decision for another, to stop and to breath, and to direct in such a way that common sense of here is what is used, to the best of my ability, as i have been taught to chase after the “promise” of more, and keep this in secret, not for the hope of it, but because I know, and we all know, that what we are doing is a crime against life, thus present silence is really shame for accepting and allowing an addiction to a promise of more, instead of being here, equal and one to and as life, thus reactive behaviors are really the exposure of the running to a promise of supposed “more”, and our silence is laden with shame, instead of a silence of peace, as ease, as being present equal and one, to and as life, in equality and oneness, here.

Day 284 The Story of Inequality, No sustainability

http://www.outlookindia.com/article.aspx?280234
Is is an interesting thing to realize that there are times when I was calm, and did not let the politics of greed bother me. I remained calm as though I could see a pattern that would eventually end, as there was no sustenance within the game being played.
I suppose I saw this within the politics of an orchestral group. And this existed within what was needed to hold oneself steady, that which had to be learned , or rather simply followed, as one had been burned to many times within becoming fearful.
Sometimes I would lead a section. And inevitably there came competition to usurp my spot. Sometimes I fell because I allowed this to get to me. Other times the whine of the competitor drove the administration and the conductor to give in, just to stop the incessant complaint.
But what would happen, is the complainer had no sustaining ability, the learning to complain had taken all sustenance out, the character had been set, and the desire to win had taken over. So, once something was won, off they went to another battle. And I was put back where i was, until the next aggressor came along. It took time for me to learn this.
The really nasty ones, who also eventually left- much like the stories of the kings and queens of medieval court- sought to eliminate, to remove the face of their desired place. Sometimes I was removed, only to sort out my own feelings of having lost something. I was not raised to be aggressive. And in the course of watching such, knew this was not an option I wanted to emulate. Yet, those times I came to believe myself inferior, I lost my own directive capacity and fell.
And this is not to say that i am better because I was not raised to be aggressive, it is just what was. There are moments when I digress and think that maybe it would have been better, but this pondering is crying over spilt milk, and there is no point in this. It is not what would sort out the existence of competition that is not supportive of life, the expression of life here on earth, meaning the absence of a need to eliminate, or abuse, or smother another voice.
I learned to remain calm in the face of the loud aggressive screaming for dominance, and waited to allow the drama to play out, as the actor of this proved to lack staying power, as is the nature of the breeding of such behavior. Similar to the aggression for power on earth, in the end there will be no staying power with men, unless they realize this is not how life can sustain itself on earth. It simply will not work, and it is not working. It is destructive, and the destruction from this is happening all over the globe. Support is sustaining, not the seeking of power. And the plants and the animals and the soils and people on earth are not being sustained, they are being moved around for power and supposed profit of more than, an illusion, as the value is life, is being, is interacting with this physical world, learning to express in and as the very substance of life, here.
So, I am reading this article today about what is happening in India with the grab of privatization of resources, where a few get a piece of paper saying they own something freely given by earth, and ignore all life in an effort to reap their supposed rewards, and to play dress up with a value given to blingy possessions, meanwhile there has been noeducation as to how to be life, to move as life, here, to transcend death, in becoming equal and one to and as life here. Whole peoples are moved off of vast stretches of land and armies are called in to stop the protest of these people who are forced to live in poverty. Is it any wonder why the poor continue protest, what else do they have, there are no other options for them really. And the media does what a purple pro does best, give the dispossessed a new perception label and tout it all over the media until it is believed. Thus do the poor who have had everything taken from them become, in this case, Maoist Gorillas. I mean really. This is as bad as the worst cartoon ever created. In fact it is a cartoon. Unfortunately, it is, as is a cartoon, an imagery so devoid of any depth of reality, with the promotion of stereotypes of good and bad, it is no wonder that few have considered how married the good and the bad are, as the two in totality being the problem, that this is really the play of inequality existent on earth that is the problem. The good and the bad, the more than and the less than, is a drama of inequality, endlessly running on screens all over the world, and so caught up in this drama is the human, that they cannot see this for what it is. We are being banged over the head with what we are allowing, and still we cannot see it. Incredible. The polarity game of inequality, the source of all stories, and no one sees that it is one entity so caught up in itself that it realizes its own destruction NOT. The snake eating its own tale/tail.

Mankind is the story of inequality. It is the story of destruction, it is the story of what not to allow. It is the story of dis-ease. It is the story of the separation from life.

Will there come a day, when children born on earth are told the story of man existing in inequality? That the monster under the bed was simply a belief made so huge as inequality that life was lost.

You decide.

Day 283 Fear of speaking Reaction dimension

Fear of speaking Reaction dimension

How do I separate myself from here when i speak, what are my words considering, what assumptions am I making, what division of more than and less than do I answer to in fear of creating personal division from the minds of others, themselves existing in separation from the physical, as being a product of a mind generation as being reality as product of fear and separation, as reaction, when not answering to this mind of limited selected beliefs, opinion and ideas following wants, desires and needs, the consumer info of culture that is in totality in separation from life? What is the double speak coming from myself in protection and defense in fear of loss socially? And this in a society in separation from life? Is there really anything to lose? What does exist is common sense.
Here I go again, relating this to something in my life. I have a relative who believes in the health industry. They take all the pills proscribed. I have for years said to read what independent people/doctors/chemists are saying about the present drugs, to step back and take another look, to question and look into alternatives. The answer is no. Total faith in the system. Now the side effects are manifesting, but this was refused to be questioned. Perhaps the outcome would have been the same, but then at least the illusion that a profit based system has our best interests at heart, would not have been supported. but this is all water under the bridge, because what is unacceptable must stop, and this system is not taking care of this earth or life.
In the world of news article, I watched a discussion on how loans are formed by banks simply adding digits on a computer screen and then charging interest. The commentators said that this is the system and what is needed is faith that this works. That people need houses and thus loans to get the house. Again the blind faith. What was not looked at here, is that the interest paid back to money created from thin air, means that not all loans can be repaid, as the money created does not cover the interest paid back. Thus, for this interest to be paid back, war is created, as Peter must steal from Paul because all there exists is “the original amount” in circulation, thus where does the interest money come from? So, not only does the money exist as digits, each loan has to take the “real imagined money” and find this to pay back the interest - the more than, which means there are many who simply cannot, no matter how hard they work, have the money to pay back their loans. So, eventually the debt gets bigger than the real “valued” money. One must remember that it is a game of monopoly, there can be only one winner at the end. Unless we stop, and reform.
If common sense is ignored, then all real freedom as life is lost.
In the end, one cannot blame anyone but oneself for having given up common sense.Even self pity and punishment does nothing, the only choice is to be what self is as life, common sense of which the physical world, as the substance of life, is the gift to realize self as life, through becoming one and equal to and as it.

                                                  Faith                Hope              Charity

                                               Speak                     See                 Hear
                                                                         No Evil
                                                             
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear speaking up in common sense, to fear the faith of the blind.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear losing something should I speak up in common sense of what is physically real.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to look through the roto of belief , opinion and idea, knowledge and information, as the selected limited values of the culture in which I live to give a safe answer/response in fear of having to explain myself within possibly getting the stubborn resistance of blind faith, hope and charity.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that perhaps I will receive resistance of the blind, and would this not be any worse than discovering that perhaps I was the one being blind, which is to realize that all there is, is common sense of what is here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge another according to their faith, hope and charity and to answer in accord to this, not seeing realizing and understanding that in answering to this faith, hope and charity my response is in reverse; a re-verse of separation into and as belief, opinions and ideas lacking common sense, such beliefs, opinions and ideas collections of limited values turned into personalities of dictate of what is better than, or more than, and/or how something other than self is lacking in what is believed to be more than, or better, completely disregarding directive physical development and the needs of the physical world to exist and simply be, here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to address the blind of ignorance that is faith, hope and charity.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that dispersing/illuminating faith, hope and charity for the limitation that it creates, is being difficult or non-complying, where in fact what is really being done in addressing blind faith, hope and charity is taking the div/diff-from cult, and non from compliance in and as facing reality, the actual physical world as what is real here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that faith, hope and charity can only exist within the development of self trust in and as being here, equal and one with and as common sense of this actual physical world as the gift of self realization in and as life, here, being equal and one to and as the physical, including all life , as this physical world as being of equal value, is where self trust as life exists, and thus is this physical world the actual doorway, eye of the needle, away from separation and division/fear, into and as becoming equal and one to and as life here.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that the answer in common sense is right here in front of me, as real life would place itself right here as it would have no need to hide anything, as real life would want equal and one understanding of and as life, thus the gift of life is here, where any and all struggle is an indication that one is not equal and one to and as life, here, where any suggestion/propagation of/ belief in/ presentation of an idea, suggestion, law, allowance of anonymity is in and as itself a contradiction of the very substance and nature/mature of life.
I commit myself to slowing myself down and breathing to answer to blind faith, hope and charity, to bring such separations as self abdications as life, back to what is real, as the physical, as the gift of life, to become equal and one in common sense that what is here as life, which would make sense , as life includes all life, as is the nature of life.
I commit myself to slowing myself down, to breathing, when and as I notice I miss a breath, I notice that I become tense and “gasp” for air, as though I have missed a breath, which I have seen children do when they are moving into reading, or have a moment where they are uncertain within and as reading, they seem to tense up and have a behavior where they gasp for air, which is a physical indication of separation from here into and as fear and yet at the same time a movement towards finding breath, stabilizing self here.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding what my human physical body is speaking, indicating my own separation from being here, where just as the children can stop and breath and slow themselves down, so can I as I am equal and one, in and as a human in a physical body, here, being given the gift of life, and to add to this, what would such gasping and fear manifest over a long period of time? disease?
I commit myself to allways/always slowing myself down, to take the time to look and breath, to bring myself here, to place myself within common sense, in detail, as much as i am able with continual practice, equal and one to the physical, to align myself in common sense with what is here.
I commit myself to slowing myself down, to breathing to realize where I separate from here, into and as a rotor file in and as my mind, of beliefs, opinions and ideas, that answer to happy face behaviors masking separations/fears that are an inner energetic gasping of fear/separation into and as polarities as a story of inequality fearing it’s own shadow that is self abdicating common sense.
I commit myself to slowing myself down, to breathing, where, breathing is the means to slow myself down, here, and to see, realize and understand that silence will not remove the fog ( fear, obligation,guilt) of faith, hope and charity that is the mask of fear/separation in the self interest of ego, the energy in and as the mind of thoughts, feelings andemotions as taught beliefs, opinions and ideas.

                                                                          EMC