Day 356 The lesser self imagination as projection reacting to self judgement.

I have a person staying at my house. I have noticed that they basically have two “ Moods” one is “ dark/closed/vacuous” and the other is lively/smiley/happy.
It’s like, “ who are we today, what face cometh forth? So this perspective I took back to myself. On one side, the negative polarity, I fear failing, I fear rejection, I fear saying the wrong thing, I fear being seen, I fear having to speak up, I fear being ignored, I fear losing what i have. On the other I realize I become authoritative, busy, officious, proud. It is like this is how I project myself as what I have learned to be of purpose within what organizes and is the way to take care of my life. But the values of this as the being of myself within the negative face, the emotional face, is so busy with itself as its’ nature that it does not stop and look here in common sense. The positive “ directive” personification has a whole set of rules about how to be organized and efficient. It is not to ignore some of these guidance structures, as the remediation within what worked and what did not work is fine, but it is to not take this personally - or to label another within such a way also- but to use this to realize what works that prevents a mistake and to reflect where the mistake was not being self as life, meaning in equal consideration of all life, which means using this actual physical world and becoming aware of what works and that perhaps what created any friction and conflict was a self interested desire that rejected and neglected equal consideration as in loving your neighbor as yourself, which means being patient with a neighbor when they are acting in self interest! It is the being of self in self interest within limited consideration that the existent system is one of inequality and that the physical world is what supports us in form and function that is the mis-take, not the person, as the person is capable of understanding life, it might take some time, but there is no other choice, as we all know that anger and stress as fear of loss, the byproducts of inequality supported by unequal distribution of what supports and allows self responsible development physically and mentally , does not a state of health create.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate from a common sense of what is best for all in and as myself as life to judging myself as a failure, to believing myself to be incapable of looking here, to feeling less than in reaction to a reaction of separation from life as the voice of blame and spite and judgement within and as the world I was raised where some values were made bigger than others to suit survival in a pyramid scheme that is the outward manifestation of an inward self abdication of life as myself and every other human on earth.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I created a personification of values, as belief, opinions and ideas, to suit myself to be ready to survive as I hid from myself as life, into and as energy as consciousness , a lesser self, a divided self , and then became automatic within and as this, thereby creating a restlessness within and as me as I was not utilizing myself as life and as such became disquiet in and as myself within into a nervous maintenance of constantly checking the limited order of myself I had created as a lesser self and within this lived a restlessness that had a sense within that somehow the promise of my choices, as ideas learned as a child, did not materialize, and yet it was not the existence in many aspect that was good or bad, it was the limitation that withheld a full sensation and interaction with life here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have inner conversations that were concerned with ideas as to how I was supposed to be as a woman, as a wife, as a female, as a teacher, as social interaction where I did not consider the physical world and the lives of others on earth as the plants and the animals and the soils and the rocks and the water of this earth as I considered only the human societal structure and the proper perspective of keeping a ‘ peace” within this limited interaction that in totality as mankind , was in separation from being one and equal in consideration of all material things that are of this actual physical world.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand how what is here is a sound of life, meaning a movement in and as life, and as such, when in separation causes a friction and conflict with here as it has no real substance to hold onto of which self as life is composed, meaning there is no “ holding” to seek, and thus loses ground and becomes reactive, which can only be directed within the principle of what is best for all as all that is here is of the sound of life, and therefor can only be life when allowing life here, thus any destruction and or killing of life cannot be life, as the only choice is to allow life, as this is an action of understanding life, in all forms, even those people and children, plants and animals, sands and soils in the middle east, thus to bomb a country is not an act of supporting life, of allowing life, and thus is an act against life, as all acts that are of destruction are acts of friction and conflict, which is an indication of a separation from common sense of how the physical world functions and such is acrime against life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand the simplicity of this, and that it is the friction and conflict as a state of being in and as energy, in and as ego, in and as consciousness, as actions of blame and spite, of destruction and disregard that is an extreme state of disease as in fearing a loss, fearing death, that builds a complication when not addressed that develops consequences that take over the directive of ourselves as life in trying to fix the consequence that was created because of a separation from life, from equal consideration of life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that my back chat in and as my mind is the voice of trying to fix the consequence of my own accepted and allowed separation from life only trying to solve within a scenario of pros and cons within limited associations as human society without regard to all life, of which no solution can be found.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how much I listen to the consequence of my separation from life, as the voices of more than and less then being in answer to the consequence of my separation instead of seeing the catch 22 for what it is, this division from life that is myself judging here as what is less than and the means to a more than as the positive, this being in a state of friction an conflict weighing options within limited means, where no answer can be found as the only answer is within and as equality and oneness with and as life, which means being equal and one with all that is here, as the plants and the animals and the trees, and the soils and the water, that none of this can be owned as it is in totality a composition of life here, and thus is the way and means to being life, so destruction of this in any way is inequality with and as life here.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that all reactive expression are of energy and thus cannot touch me unless I accept and allow them, as I am life, as I can stand within and as the directive principle as what i am and become equal and one with and as life in accepting what is here as earth as all on this earth and directing myself within equal consideration as the principle of what is best for all, as what always brings friction and conflict as judgement and fear of loss back to what supports absolutely through understanding how the physical human body functions as consciousness, through explaining how here works, as what is here is many forms in expression of life, and that these forms can be seen realized and understood, it is the separation from self as the sound of life being in full capacity as individual and collective common sense of same substance as what is that which is the basis of all life on this earth and all of existence.

Day 355 Addressing the parts of separation

Addressing the parts of separation

Thinking about education and the school scenario. The initial exposure of a child is the family life. Depending on the stability of that family, which in itself is determined by the generation before in terms of economic stability and educational development - whether done through a system or by the parents themselves, the child will become a reflection of that environment in thought, word and deed. As the expressive ability of the parents is learned by the child as this is what is presented to the child. THe child picks up the structures of the environment, which means a human child is able to imitate and use as a tool the structures, the conceptual developments of his environment, his/her world. Amazing ability inherent in the nature of the human. So, why is this not realized within creating a society that uses this within what is best for all? Why is this ability of the physical not developed to create children and parents that become self responsible within understanding the form of this earth and how it functions within being self sustaining and supportive of the life that is here? In all common sense there is no reason for this not to be what exists here, absolutely.
As an adult , as I look back, I learned another language. I remember, with effort - as I had to push myself at times because there was resistance, that once I had a certain number of words comfortable within my easy use, it became easier to hear/distinguish/ retain new words. Once I started being able to use the language my retention improved. And even here there were stages where I had to push to move to another level. This probably happened with greater ease when I was younger, as I probably did not have personal insecurities and ideas about what I was supposed to be socially and developmentally. Not to mention the politics of in-laws and the cultural differences being a part of the whole experience. Being out and talking with natives and interacting contextually brought greater development than sitting in a classroom memorizing word lists, even though this does benefit, but this alone is very slow.
It is no different for a child in a classroom, especially a classroom of children with different cultural and economic backgrounds. Sorting all these differences out by one teacherwith 20 or more students is not really possible, especially since an understanding of how the human functions is not really understood. Bits and pieces of it are understood, as the answers are here, but these are not brought into a contextual understanding with absolute specificity. The degrees of lack exhibited as emotional and feeling limitations, being reactions, as the modeled development of parents of same lack/ ignorance/un-taught /mis-understanding of a natural ability of the human physical body to take in form and structure, only perpetuate a leveled state of development as what is lived here on this earth . I mean, how can the present educational system address this? It can’t. And in many ways it was not formed to do this. The nature of its design does not allow the redress of the many degrees of separation of lack in self awareness and self responsibility.
The very economic system allows only so much to support education, and naturally this would be by design if some were allowed more than others, and that wanted to be retained. All of this a crime against life, because it dis-allows the inherent ability of the human physical body to have the exposure needed to do what it does naturally. Those of us that are educated have experienced the same as myself in learning a discipline, there is the point where a plateau happens and then this is transcended and moves onto another level of ease and ability. This continues, unless that opportunity is not available. Such is a crime, as it is the non-development of life and not acceptable.

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Day 354 The lesser self Fear dimension

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become a shadow self in and as a presence in and as an idea of what I am as a human, as a woman, as my culture, as my venue of expression within a system of inequality determined through and by money, where money determines life, a system we have all accepted and allowed in hopes of, and a belief in there being something more when this presence as idea as there being something more is ourselves fearing to stand equal and one to and as ourselves here as life, as we have allowed ourselves to become a presence, a definition of what we are based on images in relation to something we perceive is outside of ourselves as we are stuck in believing that our creation is more than another, as what we are, when we are of the same substance as all that is here, as the starting point, substance/medium/ source/sound of and as life that is the primary expression of life from nothing, and so I clung to the something from the nothing as a starting point instead of realizing the nothing is everything.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that it is from nothing to something that is the movement of myself here, that can be lost when I lose myself within and as the principle of being an absolute purpose of life, which is the principle of what is best for all is best for self, where all the parts can only direct themselves within and as the principle of what is best for all, as this is how the expression in and as life maintains itself in and as being life, as form , as design, as in how to move here, thus this presence within and as me, built of relationships in separation of physical reality, of specific understanding of how the physical world works, and the allowed and accepted systemic design of role play defined within borders in and as collective relationships to move self within a limited field of view, not good or bad, but when imposed as non-transparency of how the unit as earth functions absolutely, the parts become unaware of the whole, which is being unaware of self in all aspects of definition as the manifestation of substance revealing how here works where each part can then make practical decisions as to what works within and as what will be best for all, as the whole, thus each part must be allowed, must accept, must come to understand how here works, which can happen through direct democracy, through direct sharing of awareness of here as how here works in ways that support all parts absolutely, which can be done through the present technology within and as words, to begin to comprehend here as how here functions so that each part can stand in awareness of here, from a point of nothingness to life, always cleaning the slate of judgement and looking here at functionality and directing as self as life, as what is best for all as the directive is the expression of life within and as the principle of what is best for all.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe and cling to and associate with in and as ideas as culture as gender role play believing myself to need the oppositesex to direct me here as I had rejected what i did not understand, where it is to work together in equality as life, and to direct within a principle that is the nature in and as life, which is to simply be, where in order to simply be what is, must be allowed to be itself as life here, using what is physically real here as earth to support here one and equal in and as us as what we are, as what i am here, as this is respect for life, and as the physical is life, this means respecting the physical world in allowing what is here to be itself as what it is, and thus any act that suppresses or diminishes what is here as can be seen in the inherent form and function as the very shape and movement of what is here reveals its purpose if looked at without judgement and the borders of limitation that has been accepted and allowed through the way money has come to determine life here, determine what is given or not given, authoring self development into a hierarchy structure that has not considered and started from the point of respecting nothing in something and the something as been considered to be reality when the nothing is just as much reality as the birth of life, into and as an expression, thus the expression as life must be realized as the value.

Day 353 The lesser self self commitment statements

I commit myself to seeing realizing and bringing back to myself the voices as ideas, opinions and beliefs of what I have accepted and allowed as energetic projections as a protection and self defense within a system of inequality as the construct of many men all participating within the same action as fearing to stand as self as life and to realize the ignorance as the beliefs, opinions and ideas I have used to justify the lesser self as me, in not acing myself here, to stop and to breath and to self forgive such separations to no longer allow this to give meaning to this idea that I aggrandize myself through and as when I manage to survive and gain acceptance, money, position, and/or burden myself with self judgement as believing myself to have lost something, to potentially end us living on the street or in my car, or without food, or on another level of this leveled scale in separation from life, believe myself to potentially have said or done something to cause the lowering of myself within and down on this social scale of being more than another or less than another, to no longer allow myself to move within such associations and relationships existent within and as me within and as a bubble that in itself - no matter in which degree I am developed- is in itself a total separation from life, thus as such I stop and I breath and I direct myself in thought word and deed within and as what is best for all, letting go of a fear of loss as one can walk in practical understanding of how this world functions and apply oneself to stand within and as what is here in common sense as what is best for all.
I commit myself to breath and to slow down and to align how I have separated myself into and as separation from life here, as this separation is heavy, is uncertain, is fear, is unstable , is illusive in that it needs as its nature in and as being in a belief in and as a state of energy as need, and as such seeks constant renewal and validation because it does not stand equal in and as life, here, thus the allowed presence of such cannot be resisted as what one resists persists as it is self accepted and allowed to be projected outward through division/separation from equality and oneness as what is constant which is life here, where there exists no need, want or desire, as what one is as life is what self is as thought word and deed, and as such in equal movement in and as life here, thus nothing can be lost.
I commit myself to slow myself down and breath when and as I experience within and as me any sense of righteousness , where I immediately move into judgement of blame and spite, projecting a sense of blame on a singular point in my exterior world to hide myself from facing my own fear and/or lack in having stood up as myself in totality in self honesty in self responsibility in and as life, here, because i was not taught, because I feared confrontation, because I feared leaving what was comfortable, because I did not know where to go, because I feared to look here because of all of the previous reasons, and to stop this, and to investigate here and how what is presently on earth works to see, realize and understand within myself and without as the manifested systemic design of the same action I was/am within, without, and to stop and to begin to walk what is best for all in detail within and as a practical applicative corrective action that manifests what is best for all as I see, realize and understand that something is not working until is works for all life on earth, absolutely.
I commit myself to breathing, to slowing myself down, to realizing thought words and deeds as belief, opinion and ideal, based on relationships inconsiderate of the whole, to stop and look to the whole as all of earth to realize practically what prevents abuse as the lack of opportunity in self development, physically and mentally has an outcome , as an undeveloped life in form with and as earth will find/seek whatever means available, to maintain itself as life, thus all behaviors of abuse on earth are the cause of a system that does not in fact support life, for which we are all responsible for we all accept and allow it, where turning a blind eye is no excuse, as we have accepted and allowed theaddictions of consumerism to occupy our existence instead of to be constant in consideration of self as life and as such of this home, earth, this that is the platform on which we exist as life.
I commit myself to realizing my projected lesser self is myself inferior, and thus in fear of life, in fear of myself as life, and here, to stop and to breath, to align myself with my physical body as breath, and to simply let the uncertainty as fear go, and in the process to see what beliefs, opinions and ideas, as ego, I have accepted and allowed and to align this within and as what is best for all, as principle, to support the principle being life, the value being life here, to no longer punish myself with my own constructed protective and divisive illusory self, the weight of which clouds my perceptive ability as myself as life and the being of which consumes myself as life as the physical, diminishing myself as life here as what I resist persists and compounds and enslaves until I stand equal and one in self responsibility to and as it bringing it back to myself and aligning this in common sense within and as the principle of what is best for all, as it is this action of blame and spite that is separation, and not the being of myself within and as what is best for all here, as I cannot control here - so to speak- I can only be the directive in and as life, which is to be in thought word and deed what is best for all as and within myself here, to and towards what I face here.

Day 352 Methods of Division

One time I talked about Methodism. It was decided at the time that the name fit the crime. And crime it is.
The workers in England were drinking too much gin. The cause was that with the advent of gin, cheap alcohol was now available for the working/laboring classes. So, there needed to be a way to get this under control. Hence “ methodism”. It was a religious denomination to bring the inebriated laborers “ in line” and producing the goods for society.
Now this religious denomination is moving their way up in American culture. Or so they think. And I have had it said to me based on my cultural upbringing denomination, that they, the methodists “ work for their money”. I always wanted to laugh, but in this group, women are not supposed to laugh at men.
I also went to a few embassy parties in Switzerland. And I noticed that it did not matter so much the race, but the class, as within each race, the women more towards the “ top” of the pyramid were educated. They managed their weight better, moved with seemingly more ease, were more open and conversational. They could be Indian, or Spanish, or French or Turkish. It did not matter.
So the common thread was that the upper classes tended to educate their women and the lower did not.
Now an educated mother would tend to create a more stable environment, also because she would probably connect with a more educated man. Thus, financially the wholefamily life would be more stable, and thus the children would be more stable and exposed to a broader vocabulary. I have read, or heard that the intellectual capacity of the child is based on the education of the mother, generally, as the first seven years the child would normally spend time with the mother, as the father is usually out working. So, in general ( as there is also data within educational studies that if one takes the time to look, a non-educated parent can work with a child and learn with the child, and achieve the same results as those, that more than likely will do well in school because they came, from a background of higher level educated parents)
So, back to Methodism. The gender roles are very clearly defined and regulated. The woman serves the man, she cooks, she cleans, she keeps her mouth shut and defers to the man. This would not happen within a stable environment where the girl children were expected to get an education, to marry a man who was educated and thus raise children, as that girl child would need to be able to practice communication and conversation and also be treated more as an equal to feel secure and participate in discussion, as the very treatment of the girl and her own self esteem would need to be developed and made secure so that she could then raise children within a secure environment, and thus maintain the continued development of educated children.
If a women is raised within a “ lower ecelon” within a system of inequality, how would that suppression of her self esteem and intellectual development be maintained to ensure that she was not educated, not verbal, subservient and therefor undeveloped so that her children would become of the same caliber as herself, lacking in what she lacked?
One way is to create leveled religious denominations with specific gender and authority role play. This, becoming automatic with each succeeding generation, with each generating of children within the lack of development and thus the same or similar emotional and feeling natures, these a separation from self as life, unknown , unseen, consuming, to the point where these “ lacks” as separation, as parts made huge because they are not resolved, these would seek like “ state of separation as energy” as whine of separation, thereby as an individual action being expressions of woe, unrest and as a collective of like minded , “ conscious” methodic development within defined limitations , such would come together, gravitate towards one another and therefor perpetuating the same picture - emotional/feeling show again and again.
Therefor, it would make sense that despite race, one could meet a woman from another race and be able to converse with them at relative ease, immediately because the construct is the same.
This can vary by degree, and this can then be made huge, the slight variations by degree, and this difference made really big, a slight of hand by degree, and thus class exists,division within development based on ideas of role and gender, and within each level the status quo of the whole maintained. The separation that are so slight, and that reveal that the nature of man, the living expression of man, can be controlled by what is given and allowed and by what is not given, not allowed. And this means that there is something beyond the totality of all this withheldness varying by degree. This means that all of this must stop. It is a game of division that is the cause of all the abuse existent on earth. And what has been the part given, either a little or more than, is, all of it, not reality, it is so caught up in itself that it can no longer see what is real , here under our feet.
Yes, there are exceptions to these general rules I have outlined above. The point is that the rules are the limitations to the ability shown by the exception! The laws, as the ideas and beliefs within class are the limitations that are the cog in the wheel, that diminish awareness as the role as idea is made a self definition and touted to validate self within feeling like they are within a place but this is illusion as it is not self as life in being self in full potential. And the byproduct of this limitation of self as life absolutely are the existential excesses of abuse to the physical, as self, as actions of brutality to women, men and children, as sexual abuse, as substance/drug abuse, as alcohol addiction, as mental disease, as psychotic behaviors. One can never suppress, as what is suppressed will inevitable find a release, a reckless release, as there has been given no directive that takes the total life of each of us as humans into our full potential. The means are here, but this must be given as self by self to all, as anything that does not develop a human being fully is a crime against life, because this is life not being allowed to be.
This is why the prevention of abuse is the best cure of abuse, the end of the suppression of life as the human away from and as accepted and allowed limited self definitions within gender, class, race, nationality, education, color etc. as one being more than another, the parts being of a inter-dimensional system as consciousness as mind that accumulates within as expressions as energy, a lesser expression of self as life from being in equality and oneness with self as life realizing this same “ force: as life in all, being connected and one with it. A living proof of this would be the end of abuse, as what is equal in all would be realized as this substance as the sound of life, is the value. Thus to not see this is to be separate, as to see this would mean the end of dis-ease in life. Since there is so much dis-ease in life at present, here on earth, what we are, as what we believe, as what we speak, as what we create, as what we accept and allow on earth, as war, and rape and pollution, as poverty as neglect of children and animals and plants are indicators of our separation.
And this consciousness is a collection of relationships made huge without directive principle as awareness as self as life, manifest as the actual living of the words, give as you would life to receive, love your neighbor as yourself, respect life and it will respect you back. But first the mind as consciousness as the voices of comparison and fear of loss, of anxiety, of past events and playouts of superhero dreams as the power of suggestion via our movies and our fairy tales and our beliefs, opinions and ideas, brought forth and placed all around us by those who have managed to accumulate money, as in holding the principle and the resources, believing these can be owned and selling this idea to each of us, gathering up the space here in their self interested name and branding this everywhere using the fire of electricity in a glass tube, building “ test tube” babies as our minds with which we then dream our lives away never really living. We have accepted and allowed a matrix as consciousness as mind without and within. This a separation from life. The only way to see this is to stop the mind. And the mind can be stopped.
We are not living with life, with earth, with the physical world here. We are as a consequence rejecting life. The amount of abuse and pollution and destruction is a testament to our separation from life. And we are failing the test as this to prove ourselves worthy of life as we are not becoming equal to and as it.
Become yourself as life, listen to the eqafe interviews, inner views. The voices of those who consumed the dictates of the mind, as limited values constructed of past events and as inequalities and un-acceptances of life as self trying to resolve and justify separation and living as hope only, a dream of something better, when it is that life is here, right here, as it should be.
Stand up and support a system of equality to and as life as what we are, with Equal Money. Build an Equal Life foundation for earth. Realize the right to life and all the needs of the physical for all of this physical world must be met into and as the order of supporting life of which every person, and thing on this planet is as its nature and form in full expression the sound as self as the muse of life. it only means letting self be self here.
I would listen to the Eqafe interviews on Parenting, to see, understand and realize how we become what we become from day one. Listen to the After death interview of the person who died from being struck by lightning. Learn to see the shadow of your lesser self you have accepted and allowed yourself to be and become, this which occupies your life experience as how you believe you will survive. In the end, what will be realized within accepting this half measure of self, is that you have not survived life, as you have never accepted and allowed the gift of life to be you as what you are.

Day 351 Self Forgiveness of a lesser self. Fear Dimension

I was looking at a memory the other day and I realize that I had reacted to something said to me because of belief in an injustice, as in an accusation made that was not what happened. Yet behind this was something else.
I realized that I was not being myself, but I realized this as myself being a lesser self - so to speak, and I called it my half self. Good or bad that is what I called it. As though within this memory I was aware that I was projecting a less than, a partial sensation of myself. Which is interesting because I did this once when I performed, I actually had a conversation with myself, while on the stage, that I could not put myself into the playing as me, as all of me- the “ all of me” was the sense that I had, which is deciding to be a lesser self - so to speak.
So, it is like hiding oneself from here, to participate with here.
I ask myself why did I do this, why would I choose this?
What comes up at this moment it, because I did not know where else to go. But then, if I am so busy projecting a lesser self, would I have practiced where to go with that which I was not allowing to be?
So I will do forgiveness on this “ hiding character” this acceptance of a lesser self. And I will ask myself what I used to project this lesser self, what ideas I used to generate this lesser personification to the world.

Fear Dimension
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to project a lesser version of myself out onto the world.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to choose to project a lesser self and to not stand back and see, realize and understand why I would choose such a thing to be.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear myself and thus hide behind a lesser/half self in order to get along and go along with this world here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress myself here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I needed to suppress myself here
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to keep myself occupied through being less than myself, being half of myself, a quarter of myself, an eight of myself here, just to maintain a persona acceptable to here, or so I believed and for this I forgive myself.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to accept and allow a lesser version, part of myself here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being other than this lesser self here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand how being this lesser self is essentially myself fearing to use the full sense of myself as life here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear giving up this “ lesser self” for fear that others will find out that i had been doing this all along and thus been a lie, through omitting the “ fullness” of myself for fear that it would be too much , or that it was unacceptable or that this “ full self” did not somehow fit into what was acceptable here, as though it was too much sensation for here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that perhaps I had no idea where to go with this self that was not the lesser self because I had never tried to go anywhere with it.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that suddenly knowing where to go with all of self, from a starting point of discovering a lesser self, might appear , as change , to be something daunting , but so it is when one turns to something new and must deconstruct what has been discovered to be less than.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel shame and loss because of having accepted and allowed a “ lesser” self within and as a belief that this was the way to survive, not seeing realizing and understanding that being a lesser self, cannot possibly be a way to survive, because it denies awareness and is only an act of politicking for lesser self being, as only a part of self is actually being used, thus it is an existence of lack.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have ideas only about how I should appear here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to lesson myself with ideas about how i should be based on traditions within culture and race, gender and class to remain within an acceptable norm as the world around me, spending so much time doing this that I never stop to question why such exists and that if I am doing this than the chances are that many, if not all are doing the same, and thus why does this exist, especially if there is more to me than what I am allowing to exist here?
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that accepting a lesser self is like living a life in a masked ball, allowing self to be ever vigilant as to whether someone might find out that I am not in fact here as all of me, but just moving along as a projected lesser self using ideas, opinions and beliefs as the lessons learned to participate here within how I perceived the world without standing up and questioning why such existed.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I did not know where to go, especially when right there was an awareness that I was being a half self, which meant that the whole self was there all along, and for ignoring this, I forgive myself.

Day 350 It is many hands that care for earth.

How can we work with what is here, as the physical if we cannot move within completely understanding what is here, to come together with what is here, to become pregnant with what is here, meaning to form a concept of what is here and develop this to a greater and greater degree, where we build on the smallest parts and see/look at how these move as a whole as the physical and not idea only?
If we are in fear, in uncertainty, in anxiety, we are seeing only a potential for loss, and the being within a potential for loss as our behavior means that we are not in awareness of what is actually physically here, as what is here is a form, which means that it is a conception. Who would create such a conception and deny understanding of it? Why create something and not want understanding of it? It is just a form. There would be no point in not allowing/sharing the forms of what is here, to allow them to be seen, understood and enjoyed, and the whole process of seeing, enjoying and moving with the forms of what is here would be the value. We all, well most of us, love to play with the form of water, many of us go on holidays just to play, swim, be on, move on, immerse ourselves in water. It is a substance as a form, made of the same elements as ourselves. It is a from of life, here.
Words are the same, a means of using sound to place into forms to communicate, kind of like playing with water if we stop and look at this in a certain way. So denying the development of each of us within this, is like denying the development of self and denying the chance to be and become equal and one with and as words, as the “ substance “ of communication, using words to describe the forms of what is here as this physical world of which is composed of forms for us to enjoy and work with.
But what if this earth that is composed of the forms of things , this that sustains us, is believed to be owned by a few, who then obviously do not understand the forms or they would not in any way what-so-ever allow any amount or kind of abuse to come to what is here, especially as the men on earth as they have chosen to be, cannot create what is here. The awareness of what created what is here, is awareness and respect for the forms that are here. It is the use of what is here that disrupts a movement with here as an experience is in a state of communication and ease.
So, we have accepted and allowed a system that is not equal in understanding, to the forms that are here, and this inequality is fear, as fear is being in separation from being able to direct self, here. Fear is a belief of loss, a lie by omission of here, a skimming of the surface of here, a rejecting of what self is as life here. A state that does not move in development of being conception of here and thus respect for what is here.

Our consciousness is a mirror of our separation, a mirror of a fantasy that we fear losing, as it is only parts of here, selected, or allowed, where others have been rejected. An ignorance of the forms and how they move here.
This was taught as this is what has been here, as this is the state of generations of people on this planet, generations of people who have worked with what is here in not looking at what is here. THough in some instances people have looked here, so what is needed to support here is already discovered it is only at this point to realize this, accept what is here and work with it, to accept here, absolutely.
So, if a separation from here was the state of man on earth, and this is what is given to each child, then this continues. It is the continuance of selected values that become the means to survive within systemic consequence of separation that has been going on for a long time, and this is something that needs to be realized and realigned and “ cleaned up”, or, placed back into the order as the forms of what is here function as, to remove the separation that is the cause of the abuse on earth. All the abuse on earth is the cause of not respecting the forms of life here, not allowing here to exist as life and instead forcing what is here into fulfilling the limited values that hold no real substance and thus as limited ideas hold no real full potential development.
The tool of the mind to image the forms here are imagining limited states of being, and thus building personalities of abuse, of ignorance, an e-go of limitation. And we wonder why our relationships do not work, are so difficult?
We even have a president that supposedly said to “ get down on your knees and kiss the hand that feeds you.” That is a statement of a real separation from life, and he believes this, and those behind him who prompted such a statement is the manifestation of insanity, of complete lack in conceptual form taking in ability, with how this earth works. It is this earth that provides the substance of what sustains us, and it is the hands, the many many many hands of men that have for generations developed and made a value of what is here that sustains us. To have skimmed this actual form of earth into a limited idea of “ a hand” that is what sustains us, is a complete disconnect from life. It is the personification of illusion, ignorance and separation from reality.
That is a person omitting physical reality as form and function, and projecting a fantasy as a limited belief that “A hand feeds” is, an organizing and/or an administering hand ONLY, as himself, as the government, forgetting that the government was formed by the people for the people to organize this world, this physical world into what supports life. Somehow instead of remembering this, a lesser idea as self aggrandizement has become the singular personification of our president and the men around the president, as the men who sit in offices moving pieces of paper around completely disconnected from the earth, no longer able to conceive of the form of earth as the physical in any capacity. Had they, then this world would not have a hollywood like picture show of a military story played out in Boston with a subsequent announcement of cities needing drones while many Americans lack jobs and food and housing. And the ability to organize such a show, in and as being able to organize, says loud and clear that organizing exists, it is what is being organized and the directives of this organization by men who are completely disconnected from a conceptual ability of what is real as the physical form of earth, earth being what provides for men to be able to use their many hands to conceive with and become pregnant with what is here as that which is equal in all life, as the very substance of life here.
The images in the minds of out supposed representatives are of self idolization, of self aggrandizement where this idol of self has been made bigger that reality, where a organizing movement has been considered “ god-like” and thus justifiable as in being the hand that feeds, ignoring all the cogs and wheels and HANDS and generations and earth resources that enable the existence and viability of being life here. This is serious ego illness/separation from life, from reality, and the abusive effects of this lack of awareness of physical reality in common sense and practical application of indeed taking care of this earth are lost in self interested survival. And yet, this is the cause of all men on earth, having abdicated self responsibility as life. This state of separation lacking a state of being here, is simply one and the same in all of us that have the ability to investigate and realize this present system known as capitalism that uses usury and has made money what determines life is a separation from physical reality.
And all because our chosen organizers fear what fear, losing the elevated position of being more-than on a scheme of inequality that has created many more “ less thans” of which no one wants to exist as.Being confined within limited development is a separation from life. Who wants to be separate from life, who does not want the opportunity to swim in water, to work with words with ease, to be here and able to interact and communicate with others? This is the natural inclination of life, this is communication with life, this is acceptance of life. Our politicians are standing limitations speaking delusions of grandeur. And they believe this to such an extent that they believe that drones should be here to protect, but what is really being said, as the limited conception, is that we need to control and maintain our personification of grandeur. They are no different that the loonies doing the same thing in other institutions, the ones that we also separate from life.
If a life is not developed , then is has no self direction, it is in a state of lack. What would be the behaviors of such? If what is taught is of limited insight then what would the actions of that form of life be and become? If what is needed for life is not given what happens? Behaviors of survival, behaviors of lack? The from of our present system of organizing this world is not working, it has not organized a system that respects the form of life that is here. Just open the newspaper and read, the behaviors of lack are becoming bigger and bigger, closing in. Thus it is time to remove the system of lack, as this is what it is and in it’s inability to see its own self aggrandizement and thus to give up its delusional state of believing itself to be more than, the collective that allowed and accepted this must stand together, conceive together and form a system that supports all life. There is enough here, and naturally, what is presented within limited descriptions of here by those who cannot see here, as the news and media and education, are not of practical common sense of the actual physical reality; the capacity of us to grow and transport enough food, the ability of us to work together, the capacity of a child to develop when in a stable environment.
If we look at what is happening in Detroit where there are no longer supermarkets, and thus, where the people are using the land to grow food to sustain themselves, we see that we as men, with two hands are capable of working with this earth as the form of this earth and taking care of ourselves, creating stable environments. What is best for America is a stable world where all children are raised in stable environments, having education, food, shelter and clean water. This would make a stable world where what is here as the form of earth here, providing our needs and using the many hands of men that are the hands that use what gives as this earth, thus it is to respect this earth, as it is this earth that gives, it is the MANY hands of men that develop a value from it. The action of organization is also needed but it is not to make this of greater value than any other action in the process of existing on this earth, as all are needed to sustain life. Every movement, every action is to be respected as equal and one as what is needed to create stability on earth, And stability on earth is what is best for America. period. This is an action of sharing and working with. Thus actions of bombing and war are in direct opposition to life.
It is like we are taking away self responsibility, or not allowing its development and then getting mad at the thing not developed when it did not have the opportunity to do so!
And we have accepted and allowed a system of money, where the principle of money is owned and printed by a few, and the non existent interest is indebted to the many, this which does not exist and therefor can never be repaid. Our present system is the delusion of one thing being more than another, and thinking, conceptualizing that one form is more than another is a separation from the functioning and needs of life, here. This is so simple.
Time to change our accepted and allowed limited conception and come back to earth, come back to what is real as life, which is this physical earth, this that feeds us, this that allows the many hands of men to exist.

President Obama did not place in the policies alone, what has been developed was done by generations of men, and is done by many hands. It can be done because it has been done. It only takes standing up and organizing and collectively coming together to form a party to stand in politics and vote in what ensures a care and respect for life, understanding what builds stable environments to produce stable children that can communicate and be all that they are as life, to remove behaviors of lack, to remove reactions of frustration and inability to communicate and interact, to remove behaviors of survival on an earth that gives without judgement, without making one thing more than another as can be seen in the very symbiotic nature of earth where there does not exist a from of monopoly. What exits in earth is an interaction of a variety of forms which is what creates and orchestra of life, a heaven on earth, a variety of life, here.