Day 411 Children love structure

We are not taught to see what is here, as the very life that we are. We are taught to stew in emotions and feelings, energetic insecure imaginations that are in separation from life. A crime that creates porn, starvation, abuse, destruction because it ignores the life that is here, the gift to become equal to creation, to life.

This we all accept and allow because we have lost ourselves of life, this which is structurally right in front of us as the physical world. Instead we built a ladder to the sky, a ladder that leads nowhere, only falling back down to what was real all the time, the physical world. Life. One could call this banging our heads against the wall, because it really is not different.

The state of this system we perpetuate in our ignorance shows us the outcome, just read the news, it is everywhere. Greed, corruption, destruction, abuse. In all common sense, how can climbing a ladder be life? It is such a silly structure, compared to, say, a tree. I mean think about it, a tree at least creates/produces oxygen. A ladder, is not good or bad, but when used incorrectly and made an idol, as a system, is not supportive, it will fall over because it cannot stand on its own. Funny, a ladder looks something like a DNA spiral, perhaps I should have described a spiraling ladder. A tree can bear so much more, and can allow one to rest and enjoy the view. A tree reaches into the earth, and out into the sky, produces and holds steady.  Trees also spiral, tree cutters can read the tree and sense which way they will fall when they no longer are able to live, especially on an earth that is slowly being polluted by a system that competes for profit before life, disregarding the very substance as the earth on which this game is played. A game against life. Which must come to an end because it fears looking at what is real, fears the very thing it seeks which is life.

I had a long talk with a Montessori teacher who had just retired after 33 years of teaching. She had been trained as a dancer at Julliard in her youth, the words she kept repeating again and again were that children love structure. She realized that the present day youth have a very limited structure, in every hand there is a small black box where the words no longer carry the vowels, every word is rendered with the consonants, harsh, no softness that the vowels bring. A reflection of this world? The structure of our words lacking the breath of the vowels? And the words used limited. I remember in teaching in a school, the teachers were of the mind that  teaching vocabulary was very difficult. These words a structure to enable us to speak and be literate, able to have structure in our ability to speak and understand. but in a ladder society, how better to eliminate the competition than to limit structure and thus structural awareness? Might we discover the abusive form as the present system were we able to read the structures i our world, coming from understanding structure instead of imagination? Can’t have slaves reading now can we. Literate; lite i rate, can’t have the slaves being able to rate the light, they might just climb up that ladder or climb that tree and realize themselves as life. There is no greater crime than suppression of life. We can no longer allow the ignorance allowed in placing profit before life. It is unacceptable. That we do not learn to feel the physical world, and that we build an imagination through suppression of physical awareness within and without for ideas in and as mind, as consciousness, being made greater than life, to the point where we have a separate heaven, and men on earth leaders of countries shouting about kissing the hand ( singular) that feeds us, if we cannot see the delusion and sickness of this it is time to stop everything that we are doing and look at this, because it really makes no sense and thus needs to be called out and looked at, without mercy. And realize it is only imagination that is being called out, thus nothing is dying, only an illusion.

I speak with people and when I begin to talk about physical reality, they begin to repeat themselves, like a deja vue, like they do not know where to go. They get very agitated, so much in separation from reality are they, and even as I say this I realize that i am in separation, just because I may have realized my own separation and, by degree, have begun to see the limited patterns as consciousness - a mind made greater than physical reality, does not mean I am out of the darkness we call light, as the imaginings of the mind lit up by energy. I am no different than anyone who has been taught to believe the mind is more than physical reality and it does not matter at this point why this is here, what must be done first is to bring ourselves back to what is real, earth, the physical. Heaven is an illusion of the mind, it is not real. Those with the most money, are laughing every day all the way to the bank. So much labor building citadels to an imaginary existence, that when it existed was of lesser substance. It was not real and could not sustain itself, it needed the earth. The earth did not need it.

Thus it is time to teach our children to become their full potential as life. It is time to teach our children to speak, to have structure, to have clear meanings to words that match the physical world, that do not have layers of emotional values to words, that do not have unclear meanings to words or lack in their vocabulary, it is time to have our children become living words.

This is the responsibility of the parent because this begins at home. our educational system, the same one in America now being bought by a federal government directed by the singular objects as banks and corporation that claim on a piece of paper ownership and make this real, cannot be trusted to educate our children. Not that all that does on is bad, it just is done in a manner that suppresses competition. And, here, the fault is not with these forms that are not understood, it is that we as humanity have abdicated ourselves as life, and must learn to understand what we have systemically accepted and allowed, and stand and change this system to realize the value is life, and thus that life comes before profit.

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410 An Economic System that Withstands the Test of Time

An Economic System that Withstands the Test of Time

As long as we have war, we have not found an economic system that withstands the test of time. And such a system will be hard to transfer into within the present system where so much wealth is siphoned through war to a few. After world war two, the discoveries from using chemicals were then moved into private ownership, even though it was tax payer dollars that supported the research and now this seems to be a pattern. When there is money, as profit to be made, this part moves into private ownership, and when there is potential loss of profit, or the consequences that lead to loss, this is moved into the realm of the masses, the slave wagers, the tax payers, the consumers, the base of the pyramid, the waste end.. Obviously, a pyramid scheme would move in this way, to maintain its scheme, otherwise there is no longer a pinnacle to climb to. This scheme is a antibiosis, the ends of the spectrum as the scheme not beneficial to one another, all of this varying by degree, and in totality destructive and ignorant of physical reality. Our separation from reality, done with limited values that create a more than and a less than because limited values  only lack substance because they are not equal with a constant, and therefor end up being a search for what is constant, within a state of division, as what withstands the test of time proves stability. So, the separation is a division into a lesser substance that perpetuates what it is, division. Thus, a pyramid scheme is the manifestation of a state of division, and does as it is, divides again and again, the pendulum moving from the more than and the less than, polarities, and in its limitation looks at the past, what is previous, and tries to correct, but as this is a state of division from stability, it cannot see the whole because the starting point was of division. This separation is based on an idea in separation from physical reality that which we actually see, this a starting point of consistency, that which is what is equal in everything that exists, that which is constant in everything that exists, that which is same, and that which is the value, the absolute value, (were it not than it would not be), because life is the birth - so to speak- of absolute value. lol So freakin simple, so common sensical, that the behaviors of greed we are allowing are a joke. It is to simply forgive this behavior and create an economic system that can withstand the test of time, meaning an economic system that creates stability on earth, which would bring forth heaven on earth. And, as I have said before, we have been told that we need to bring heaven to earth, that we must become the living word, which is to equalize the within of ourselves with the without, respecting the actual real physical world.

War is the consequence of separation from reality, it is a state of division into ideas of more than and less than, and thus a disrespect of life. In our personalities we are this division, because if we really look at why we are what we are, we will see that what we believe ourselves to be is based on accumulated layers of judgement of what is more than and less than, thus each of us are the micro movement within, that has accumulated to the macro movement as the present economic system that now supports perpetual war to funnel a more than , as money , to the top of the pyramid scheme of more than and less than as our present system. We, all of us, are supporting what exists without because this is what we are within. Watch what you do in your day, is there any moment of comparison within? Are there any reactions of inferiority, as fear of loss because a judgement has been made that someone has something more than yourself? And instead of looking at the discipline that person has within directing themselves, even if it is done in self interest, what is looked at is that this person has something you do not? Within this, this discipline can be learned, we are all able to direct ourselves because we are in essence life, and life as what is birthed is a starting point of absolute value, or we would not be, we have simply imposed a limited value system on top of this, and this imposed limited value system feeds off of what is constant as this absolute value. So, it is not to denigrate discipline, but it is to realize that this shows us we are capable, and that this capacity can only go so far if it serves a lesser “ god” , a system of division into more than and less than, thus a competition instead of this being in developed disciplined expression being the gift of life, that when considered what must be taught/allowed in all life on earth, will bring about heaven on earth. The suppression and lack of this is what maintains the division from life, this a system of division that does as it is.

Thus an economic system that supports all life must be placed on earth. A system that can consistently allow the absolute value of life to be what is expressed, and earth will become a exhilaration of life, absolutely.

To begin a structure of what will give as we receive must be the economic structure placed on earth, where division no longer exists that creates lack; starvation, porn, borders, laws, non development, disease, pollution.  The rape of resource to support excess on one end of a spectrum that is division and disregard of life - of the value being life. The rape of children to feed the imbalance of those in excess, which is imbalance, this imbalance wanting to “ right” itself out which means it is not in a self sustaining state of consistency, which means separation from the value of itself as life. Release of imbalance  is not an end in itself, what is causing the imbalance, must be corrected back to itself as what is constant, and this would be what is best for all, as what is best for all would create a stable and constant state of being. This would be real joy, an absolute value as life, here. 

Thus, what has been developed for generations by the many hands of men, must be given to all to support life, as no one hand has created what is here, it is the collective of life on earth that developed here, and within this , it is to take that which is good, and what is supportive, and to use this to support all equally, and to help in realigning men with what is of absolute value, as what is same in all, as what allowed the birth of life, the realization that the value is being life, here.

Within how we are now, with this one-eyed god as this pyramid scheme being what determines existence on earth, must be re-forned or removed with a new system there in place to direct, into a system that gives as it receives. This would be a Living Income Guarantee, to ensure everyone has at least enough money to have the basic needs to take care of themselves, with those who are willing to work ( which would be most of us, as it is human nature to want to be involved) having twice the amount of the basic living wage/income. This would be a win-win for everyone of us, because this would immediately reduce so much crime, and if crime diminishes, as behaviors of survival become less, that just - for example - realize how much real estate in high crime areas would increase?! This begins within each of us, to realize our mind/consciousness systems are a collection of values that are a limitation as us not being equal in common sense to here, to the gift of life as the physical that works in practical, visible, common sense, able to be understood ways. Our minds are the image and likeness of the survival/pyramid scheme and nature is not this, nature is symbiotic, each part working in harmony with every other part, supporting one another absolutely. It is the resonance of men, as what the mind consciousness system of limited values projects and forces,  that is upsetting this earth, creating lack, allowing abuse. This must be aligned with the without as the physical, this mind, this picture taker, that is taking in the image and likeness of parents in same state of separation. So, the clean up happens within each of us, and without as placing an economic system that becomes what is best for all. Within all this, there is no other choice, because to be beliefs, opinions and ideas of more than and less than is by what it creates, by what it says and does, not in equality to life, not in equality to what life can only be, which is absolutely what is best for all. There is no other choice of being. Ironically, this is what we are under the separation of ourselves as mind, this is what we really seek, this is the real power of ourselves, here.

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Day 409 Self Forgiveness for Separation from Common Sense.

I  am being the image and likeness of my separation, this is my superstition on reality inflating my points of insecurity here as I did not investigate here in common sense, I took an idea and made it larger than life, I separated myself from common sense, my own common sense, my natural ability to be equal and one with and as the life that is the physical here, where I read the physical, and not the idea, as a picture in separation as mind, and allow, and accept, that within of judgement as separation to become larger than life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to inflate an idea to be more than life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to create a more than as an idea within, pushing anything away that is not equal to my accepted and allowed within as an idea, my own inflation in separation from life here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow myself to not see, realize and understand that I am, in this process of inflation within as idea, as limited value, being negative about this world, believing a superstition to be more than life, this that has gone on for a very long time, for generations, and thus was a heaven created in separation from life, until a man came and said that  heaven must be brought back to earth as the superstition was creating a state of suffering in the physical, life, and this division was based on an idea that an object as a god was a leader, a state of separation from existing as a symbiotic relationship where one gives as one would like to receive, a state of being where the value is being self as life, self in common sense, the natural learning ability of a child before it is taught values of more than and less than.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the behaviors of the child into memory as the within being made bigger than life, being inflated, create an alternate reality that is life in separation from itself as life, from common sense, where the beliefs, opinions and ideas of what i am as a character, as a survival personality is the signifier of my separation, where my within is not equal to my without as the actual real sustaining physical world, thus what I am as thought, emotions and feelings is my inflated inner self, the halo of my separation as this halo can be seen, even within how the eyes of the human move, as the human is reading a screen as the memory , a within in separation from the without, replendent in the words a human speaks, the behaviors in thought, word and deed, as the human is expressing what it has built, an within that is not equal to the without, thus there is no escape from what we have accepted and allowed, as it is visible here, and thus this separation must be brought back in equality and oneness without for life to begin.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become inferior to life, through believing that one thing is more than another, manifest as complaint, as comparison, as spite and blame, as the storm of self in separation from equality and oneness, from the within being equal to the without here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to  compare myself to another when I do not have a pre-desired outcome and/or when I do have a pre-desired outcome, an expectation, thus I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge myself within interaction with others instead of looking at the within and the without that is often another and myself lost in the mind as limited values as belief, opinion and idea, a collection of values, and thus limited as this is not reading the physical world here, where this inequality, as the lack of understanding equal to here, is bypassed to inflate what  limited ideas that support a superstitious separation  as a me-mory consciousness for survival, this that I allow that creates an inner movement as a reaction, an emotional reaction or a feeling reaction to hide the negative reaction as energy which, through breath, I slow myself down and bring myself back to equality with here, and from here direct myself within investigation as the physical world around me to live the principle of what is best for all absolutely, this becoming common sense, the natural ability I am as life as the physical being respectful of here absolutely.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be inferior to here, reacting emotionally, allowing myself to become a belief that something can be lost when all that can be lost is an inflated idea only, as the physical moves in common sense practical symbiotic ways, in equality and oneness, where all life is supported, and thus is nature not a monopoly of limited ideas, which we can see playing out on earth, as the animals, like bears for instance are coming into human areas and searching for food, as the human has allowed the devastation of nature , trying to force nature into limited monocultures not seeing realizing and understanding that this is not working and cannot work so evident in the pollution and disease existent on earth.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to  become a reaction of inferiority, to believe myself to be less than another because I have an expectation that  I am not being understood, which is myself in separation from here, as an emotional reaction, and thus I separate myself from the principle of what is best for all, from directing, from following through with every breath, as the solution of what is best for all, where I investigate how this system within and without is not in equality and oneness, which is self being forgiving as life, being respectful of all life in every action taken on earth,  to absolutely stand stable here, where no emotional storm moves within.

When and as I have a movement within that is not myself moving at ease, I stop and I breath, and I look at what I have realized as accepted and allowed limited values used to direct myself within survival and I bring this behavior back to myself and direct within the solution of becoming equal and one to myself as life, here, which is to give as I would like to receive, to be what is best for all realizing that nothing can be lost if I am equal to here in respect of here as the physical, aligning myself to being equal and one to and as life, as the solution of what is best for all is best for self.

I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding what thoughts, emotions and feelings come up within as an energetic reaction, a movement within that is not of still, calm, nothingness,  and I investigate the thought, the imagination, the emotions and feelings, as the reactions as my physical body the accumulation of thoughts as value judgements as survival behavior, I have used to direct myself in self interest creating a consequence of instability that is myself believing a superstition of a more than as mind to be greater than life here, where I am reading my self aggrandizement in the order of survival before life, and within this abdicating my power as myself as life, choosing powerlessness over life, as the only real power to be life is being equal within to the physical world without, as this physical world is the manifestation of life, on which our accepted and allowed projections of more than and less than ride, thus the only choice is to stand equal and one with and as the physical world here, to become equal within to the without, which means every movement of self as life is what is best for all, which means looking here at this physical world as what is real, absolutely, being forgiving in every moment to here the solution to being life.

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Day 408 Is that turn into looking too difficult? Or is the change only a different feeling?

I have been very emotional lately, loopy. So I look to my past and the words that I have heard that linger, these words have been here many times before. The words are “ what you are trying to do is too difficult.”  But it is not difficult, it simply needs to be walked. That turn into looking is probably the most difficult part, moving out of the para-noise of the unknown - a construct of limited values where the very substance of the physical is bypassed for our accepted imprint of limited looking, our ORDER of survival, - into knowing where, ironically, the known is here as the physical showing the way, the gift of life, here. The steps only need be walked. Just stop and breath, here.

I have allowed myself to become reactive to this statement instead of looking here in practical common sense and standing up, speaking up. Going into detail as to how the mind works, into thoughts emotions and feelings being what separates us from here, this mechanism that creates a lesser ephemeral existence that ignores the physical. Just open a newspaper, look around at the obesity, the disease, the state of our waters, the air we breath, the nuclear accidents, the number of children dying of cancer - of which there were three recently in my area alone, and where I live is not densely populated. This is all a red flag, not something to dismiss.  The news of what is going on is all around us, there are gatherings here, where locals stand and talk about a ubiquitous drug culture, there are politicians who are figuring out that the law system is a system of smoke and mirrors, there are oyster men who see that suddenly the reports of horse crab populations are “ confidential” even though it has been pointed out that the Pharmaceutical industryi s taking them for their blue blood and that the state is not monitoring this, and getting angry when someone calls and asks, the state person on that point in our accepted hierarchy lying with ridiculous statements  such as “ the state horseshoe crab monitor  goes at might”, I mean really absurd things are being said in self abdication of being responsible and within common sense about what is happening and no one is speaking up because everyone is fearful of losing their job.  We, each of us are the cause of what is happening and we are allowing ourselves to stand behind the words “ it is too difficult to change.” Well that change that is going to happen at the end is going to be much more difficult than standing up here and realizing this system must change. That death due to the lack of care for earth and all that is of the earth is going to be much more painful than stepping out of ideas such as “ it is too difficult” so I would suggest standing up and changing what we have accepted and allowed within and without. What we are on earth exist as because of what we have allowed within.

When I hear these words I allow myself to feel that I am being too pushy, too aggressive, that I might upset the other. But what I have to realize is that, yes, actually taking the time to look here, will require to make a change and to let go of beliefs, opinions and ideas, and yet there is a structure to walk into, to take into our hands and use to self correct what is here to create an earth that is self sustaining, that supports all life, where life is the value. It really is about taking the limitation and bringing it back to fit with this physical earth in common sense. It is letting go of skimming our way through life and actually reading what is here. This is allowing self to become alive, a living being, HERE. Very simple, no voodoo, what we are existing as is the voodoo! Ironic. This voodoo is what is making our lives difficult. Remove the lack of insight, gain some integrity with the physical ( physical integration ) and the state of “ difficult” will end.

How can we seriously think that destroying the earth is inevitable as supposedly “human nature” will not change? The same issues are going to be here, there is no place to go, they must be faced. Destruction means starting all over again and this is not going to be what will bring us any closer to life, it will be what will take us farther away from life. Thus it is not a solution, the only solution is to stop and stand as life, as life being the value. Thus to say that something is too difficult is to just simply be ignorance, and of course ignorance is going to think that something is complicated, because that is what ignorance is and does. We are walking oxymorons.

I was working with a computer program today, and the simplest  thing needed to be done, it was right there in front of me, and here I was getting all nervous, looking things up on line trying to figure out what I was missing, and what I was missing was right there in front of me. I had expected, based on some idea, that the color of the box would change, and it did not so I thought it was not working. It was me that was not working. The only thing stopping me, and us, is not looking here, and not helping one another to look, this is why blame and spite must end, because it is spending time not looking and pushing the fact that we are not doing the simplest thing in the world which is what are physical bodies are capable of doing, which is looking here instead of at ephemeral pictures in and as our minds of limited beliefs, ideas and opinions.  All baed on self judgements, as fear of losing something, fear of losing an idea that we have to be something, when the being of what we are is dependent on the physical, because without the physical I/we are simply not here! In all common sense, it really does not matter if there even is a heaven, because taking care of here, of this physical world should be done just because it is here and thus must be taken care of with respect for the life that it is. The idea of some alternate existence is really a scam because it makes no sense. The idea of going to heaven and having so called virgins to fuck is ridiculous. I mean who would want to do that all the time anyway? If you want to test out being repetitive, go work in a China i phone factory, you will learn what doing the same thing over and over again will mean. Actually, a iphone factory might be more fun that pumping and grinding away with a dick and a vagina all day. That is just common sense. What needs to be asked here is why the need for the idea of such a thing, and why this release is so believed to be a thing sought after? Stop and look at that image, what is that, I mean that is so one dimensional, thus it does not match physical reality, thus it is a limited construct/thing/state, and because it is limited/singular, it has taken parts of life warped them/inflated them and rerun them again and again, sucking the life as the physical to sustain, and we humans are addicted to that image and that sucking. We never really got past the thumb sucking stage. We just hid it in a picture show as the mind. lol

There are simple words here, that have been given to answer and solve the abuse on earth. They are to give as one would like to receive, they are to become the living word - to say what you mean in clarity, they are to cause no harm and take that which is good - meaning to do what one is capable of doing with those two eyes on your head - to support what is here as the physical, to give what sustains the physical absolutely, they are to realize that as above so below, meaning that it is our above as our minds as belief, opinion and idea being made into something larger than life to the point where a lesser existence in separation from life was thought to be more than life and that it was this that needed to be brought down to earth, to be realized as the illusion that it was, as ideas of one thing being more than another that needed to stop.

We are the system on earth, a system that is a false believing, a false be living as life, it is the allowance of what we are inside that is causing the separation from life.

This is taught to us by parents taught by parents, taught by others that over time created the separation from life, from being equal and one to life, as an idea was made more than simply being here. If you stop and look at your words you will notice images and pictures and back chat as memories coming up, all with judgements where you feel that you are not understood. Guess what everyone feels the same way, and this is because no one is being themselves, no one is being understood as what they are as life, because everyone is in the same pity patter, and is we look at our words we see that they are the living word of the dead, the belief that no one understands me, and this is because we are not standing up as life, thus we are not being under-stood as life, and thus we are not being life. We are not taking care of here, and if we cannot do this how can we expect to be that which we are not giving? We cannot be this until everything that is here is this because all that is here supports this as what it is. How is this difficult? What is really being said is that I am afraid to be myself and that I am so accustomed to fearing to be myself that all I want to do is whine about it instead of doing it, and all that needs to be done is to do it. Within this, it must be realized that there is this system of separation that has been allowed for so long it has to be cleaned up. So even those who believe that they are too old to do  something and the next generation can do this, must realize that it will take the ones who are older and the ones who are younger, it will take all of us, there is no more saying that someone else can do this, because it will take all of us.

What need to be done is to look here, to create a large standing in supporting a system that changes the system, which would be to support a Living Income Wage to get what is here out of survival mode and into having the space outside of a racing stressed existence that is us simply following limited ideas as the total of our awareness to look here. Thus we give up everything as being limited ideas only, and accept life as the physical, here, tangible, showing us, giving us life in common sense with it. So very simple. Not difficult at all. Life is right here. Right in front of us.

         Your Halo as your mind is the cart before the horse. It is mind unequal to physical common sense.

This means to also begin cleaning up the mind, realizing that our thoughts are judgements, and not absolutely supportive of here, of what is best for all and that the emotional storms are our judgements responding as what we have accumulated as belief, opinion and idea over time that we are powerless as life, that we have lost something when nothing has been lost, it is only a belief that something has been lost. Powerlessness is believing that something has been lost, when nothing has been lost because the physical is right here, the answer to being life is right here, the mechanism of the physical to be life as what we are is the manifestation of life, and this of much more sense that anything that is of the mind. You are physical, before mind, the mind was built after the physical, this must be realized and lived.

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Day 407 Existential Emotional Soup

I have had this real huge , as my perception goes,  this heavy emotion come up that I have had all my life. I remember walking into this house sale one time, the woman had died and the house was open to sell everything in the house. A yard sale that was everything. I walked in the front door with the person I was with and they immediately turned around and walked out, excused themselves. I was hit with this sense of such chaos, such despair. The house was a mess. Navigating through the house meant walking through tunnels. I was so shocked, even by the gloom, I had to walk through the whole thing. I just stood there in this house , and “ went into it” so to speak, because I wanted to know how such a thing could happen. Like I was trying to read how something, a human, got to this point of such despair and such squalor. The house was in a really nice area, and was, from the exterior, in good shape. At this time I had this reaction of wanting to get away, but also going against this feeling and walking into this. I just kept telling myself the person was dead, so whatever I was sensing ( at that time)  was so extreme I had to investigate.

It was like that after my husband’s death. I was not supposed to go back,but when alone, I did, I had to go into this. In this case, when I went back, there was nothing there, just an attic . In 1999, I was walking down the street in Zurich. I stopped and looked up at the sky. I suddenly felt like the whole fabric of existence changed somehow, in one moment, that everything would be lighter somehow. So, when I went back to the attic, I knew there was not going to be anything there, I had to move against the belief, I could not let the superstition remain, I had to walk into it, and there was nothing there.  Knowing is a like a state of being where there is a sense but no real structure, evident in not being able to place the experience in detail into words.

 Through my life, I have woken up in the morning with this huge heavy weight like thing in me, as me. For years I was terrified of this, and then I began to go into it, only to find that there was nothing there. Is this unclarity, my separation, that comes in measure of sometimes being a concentrated presence and sometimes my action of fear, depending on  how I ‘ wear it” , perceive it, place this as perspective, where this exists because there is a lack of clear definition, meaning perspective?

So, I was up in Boston yesterday, driving around, because I was lost ( thank fully I had Wazs on my iphone!) and I noticed that I was having this same sense of  heaviness which I registered into an idea of ( I am trying to describe it )  existential gloom, meaning existential weight. I have had these dreams where I can’t move, where it is like I am in a thick soup and can’t move because of the soup I am in, sometimes this comes up as a “ web”, but within this “ state of being” personification, it is like a soup, a ubiquitous soup. All kinds of thoughts come up, the closeness of the houses together, the lack of nature, the varying degree of decay of the homes, the ultra polish of some, the overlapping styles of the homes, where the architectural landscape tells a story of the decades through style change where the “ new” style is superimposed in patches around the old. The story from nature, to farms to the Victorian, to the twentieth century beginnings of modernism, and then from each period modifications, additions, creating hodge podge homes and stores. I stop and I look at the whole of this, with all the people walking around, and I get this sense of existential soup, and it is so hard to move in this, it is so heavy. And then, I walk, and buried under a bridge, under pavement, is a stream, so buried, and with the noise of the city, that sound of that water tricking cannot be heard. And yet, still it moves. 

I have always needed to have some nature around, even if it is a tree, because this is like the only escape from this. I actually have had a hard time breathing sometimes in just getting up and facing the world, a world that has to be faced, that has to be walked through. 

Yesterday, as well I had to talk with some costumers, and there was a lot of talk, the woman asked millions of questions, interrupting me. I had to stop and say things again and again, and try not to say things the same way. It began to dawn on me, how the layers of belief, opinion and idea, as the past, as the person, exist, where the nature of the person is as buried as that stream. And, what is layered is as many ideas as styles that have been expressed on the landscape of earth, some in decay, some changed and morphed into something else, some all polished and taken care of. As within so without. And always this sense of knowing without any real structure. So much mirage, this so thin yet determining so much of what we allow ourselves to be.

What is cool about writing things out is I start to see what I am telling myself. lol

Within this day, yesterday I saw more clearly what i am doing, as in pushing this “ bad” away as the judgements as the gloom, and the soup of ideological play based on ideas, beliefs and opinions, the infinite loop of a cult ( occult )soup that is ideological play, where the parts are not good or bad, and where some of the technology aids us in our separation from the physical to the point where to get through this maze, because nature is so buried, life is so buried, what actually sustains us,  we have to rely on  an external tracking device to find our way. I mean,  some dogs  can find their way without any external machine, across thousands of miles. It is that we have become our own lab rats, and we can no longer navigate the self created human maze, we have to rely on as external device to direct us. Somehow, this is really a waste of life, so obvious if we take the time to look. This world is a mess of self accepted and allowed limitations as in lack of accepting life, and plastering this cult, this soup all over this earth, having ideas become bigger than nature, becoming a mirage of shifting ideas, and not actually working with this earth in best practice, thereby not only respecting earth, but working with earth, this being prevention os the best cure. In the end, I would rather be like a dog, and be able to navigate with all of me, no external device needed, because I could sense here, I could sense nature. I mean , we must ask ourselves how this can exist in physical form, this means this can be done! Would this not be a lighter existence? Would this not remove the heaviness of ideological play, so dense in some places that the streams are buried. What must be realized within this, is that we humans, as personalities and characters, are a composition of generational ideologies, built on top of one another, without any real consideration for life. And this to the point where we now have a system that will “ hodge-podge” your past, and build what is needed in the self interest of what controls money, which is all of us as we accept and allow this, as we are the anonymous holding this form of separation, we are the creators of the NSA which does exactly what we do within. This is a structure of separation, as a hierarchy in place through allowance, through conjecture as opinion, belief and idea being more than, and thus not including reality in totality, we are our own occult that through ignorance has become destructive our ourselves as life and this planet.

Hard to believe that this soup of separation is energy, is our own fear of self, is actually a system inferior to life, is as how we compose this soup, this mirage, as the landscape mirrors of idol playing that we were warned against, and that the way out was to bring this back to ourselves, equalize ourselves to the physical, and to do this we had to bring heaven to earth. Hard to fathom, from our state of separation, that we must become like a dog, and stop trying to be god. We have become, in essence, less than a dog ( and yes I am playing with accepted and allowed values) It appears to me that that dog is a much more efficient and sustainable system.

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Day 406 Programming and the word.

Programming and the Word.

Words are structures, they explain/show/describe an expression, as a noun, or a movement as a verb, or a characteristic, as an adjective or how something moves as an adverb, If our words are not clear, as in being equal to what is here in fact, then we are not clear. We have the words as the structures to be clear here and to share this clarity.

If words can be programmed in, and our words are not clear in meaning, them are we as the words, as the program clear?  I mean, are we programming the human to be here? Or are we like the NSA, creating stories based on the past to suit a purpose of survival, of gain in self interest?

Think about how we use words: Your daughter is drawing on a wall, and you are occupied with paying that bill, or making that deadline, or ill with disease. So, you say to your daughter, in a rush - due to your limited “ hereness” as you are occupied - don’t draw on that wall. Your daughter tests here, to understand here, to make sure she gets the program as the words correctly and turns and draws on the wall again. Now, you say, “ Please do not draw on that wall, because then you will not get any of the cake that is on the table” ( In a real sweet voice because you think is you say it nice enough, she will listen - but she is listening!)  So, now, your daughter will once again draw on that wall, and look at the cake to see if it disappears. I mean, according to the words, this is clear.  So, now you are aggravated, and thinking why do I have to deal with this, and become agitated and reprimand your daughter for the superstition you have taught. A superstition of ambiguity, a superstition that is lack, as what superstition is in fact. Will your daughter have any trust in you? You have just taught your daughter that your words do not describe what is here!

Not only has your daughter been programmed with a superstition, a dis-clarity,  a non full disclosure ( and we wonder why our government does this! As within so without.) she has also been programmed with your state of being as being partially here, as the separation of what occupies your mind as your survival suit behaviors, this spinning around of you as mind caused because of your own programmed lack of understanding here, the physical in detail,  your own superstition in separation from equality to physical practical common sense.

And then we wonder why our children grow up without common sense? We wonder how they can become limited as ideas, opinions and beliefs that are a lesser awareness, and thus a superstition of no real integrity? Their common sense is a sense of  “knowing” without being given any real structure, any real clarity. And then, they go to school and cannot answer as this common sense, this knowing, and begin to lose all self confidence. And the behaviors at home, are an emotional mess of  “ I know, I know” yelled out in a cry, and the storm gets bigger, and the lack of confidence gets bigger and bigger, and all communication stops.

Also, as teenagers our children no longer want to listen to us, we can’t understand why they do not realize that we have their own interests at heart ( well most of the time)? According to our words as our programs, we were not clear, so how can we be trusted when we are not clear and do not realize how much we move as superstition?

For me, it is an odd twist to the construct of myself, to realize this. And to deconstruct this, I shake, as I have to change the superstitious habit of myself and this involves going against the grain of my own superstitious programming. I have to realize every time I begin to shake that it is just myself filling in the spaces of lack to “ right” myself equal to here, to bear witness to life, to become a person of integrity, to have substance as life, to walk through the fear that is superstition. It is interesting to walk into fear, as there is nothing there, but this is the point. There is nothing there because there was nothing equalized to life, to here, to practical physical reality. How long did I cling to an idea as an invisible hand, or invisible market forces, or a god on high? All these propagated and programmed superstitions that are causing the harm on earth, as they lack any understanding, any real witness to life.

On one hand this is why it is so difficult to figure here out, because of a programmed mind of limitations, and therefor not necessarily bad, the lack, the inequality to physical reality. And we, as mind spend all our time trying to find answers in the knowledge and information that is either not applied to the physical in detail, or/and is believed to be more than reality, or is filled with holes, meaning lack, a separate reality that becomes a directive that has no real substance.

So, we get all emotional, trying to get others to believe our sense through a vocabulary of lack, our superstition, and this program that we believe to be so real, is not understood by others because their superstitions are of a slightly different measure and they are following their superstitions, believing this to be real. So, like in the Novel The Tin Drum, we are basically all fighting one another, and screaming all the time our own lack expecting others to read between the lines. as this is the program coming out.  No one can hear us because we really have no integrity, no substance, as we are a lesser self lost in superstition made god, made directive,  where we push away that which would make our superstition clear, here and because we fear losing our ideological self, our idiot self, our personas, our survival suits - at this point because this inequality to reality has manifested without, as we have created this through sounding the superstition again and again and again until the sound of this reverberates through all of earth- our superstitious selfs as mind. Ironically we fear losing our lack.  lol

In all, this process shows us that we are able to take in even overcomplicated superstition, which means we are able to learn, to understand, even if it is mis-understanding, and there is a lot of mis-understanding on this earth - just open the newspaper and read the news and you will see the outplay of superstition all over the earth, our accepted behaviors of lack, our rejection of what is real the physical, life. Here, many walk in self pity, believing that no one understands them. What has not been under-stood/supported is life. Thus, until all life is supported, we as ourselves as life are not supported and we as ourselves as life cannot be what we are. So, we are all alone in our superstitious state of not being understood, thus the pity patter can stop. The good news is that you are not alone is “ feeling” that no one understands, because none of us is allowing ourselves to feel as life! 

The program has to be cleaned up, ordered in clarity. And, yes, this will cause a shaking up of the superstitious programs that are only  a lack, a separation from life, where the parts are not all good or bad, simply a partial story that is not equal and one to and as the actual real physical world. You have been had and this will continue if we accept and allow the superstition to be what we are.

We have allowed our words to become a cross of lack that we bear/bare the separation from life, and yet, the word is the key, the structure, to becoming a living person, here.

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Day 405 Clyde

My dog from childhood.

I saw a picture of a dog being boiled in water alive last fall and it really got to me. I just could not believe that this existed on earth. And then I remembered that we in  the west boil lobsters alive. So, if we have a big reaction to dogs being boiled alive we need to remember that we are no different. It is only our culture that has decided that a dog is more than a lobster, when both are life and both perform functions in the maintenance of life.

The dog we had when I was a child stopped my mother from spanking me one time. This normally gentle and quiet dog came and growled at my mother in no uncertain terms. It was a sudden change in behavior. And my dog, his name was Clyde, was not going to stand down, he meant it, baring his teeth and growling as he faced my mother. I mean we had been spanked before, but for some reason this time the dog stood up and said, NO!A few years later my parents were traveling and my sisters and i were alone at our summer place. Clyde was with us. We were all in our mid to late teens. Clyde had a tumor on his back that started to grow. There were no adults and we did not have a car, so we did not do anything about the dog and the tumor. Clyde appeared to be normal, he ate and moved around, did not cry. The tumor them opened and flies started to infest the tumor, and suddenly Clyde stopped getting up and lay under this one bush, panting. This went on for a couple of days and then suddenly Clyde was dead.

Normally, when animals die, our pets, we buried them, everyone helping to bury the dog. This time I could not, I could not stop weeping, I could not stop shaking, I was so upset that I was useless. Everytime I think about this I cry. I think I am getting over something and find that I still have a reaction, and with dogs this is the case, I still have a huge reaction to seeing a dog being abused, a dog in pain. If I am in public it takes every ounce of myself to not become the same behavior I had on that day my sisters and I, and our grandmother who lived down the road, buried Clyde.

This photo of this dog in a vat of boiling water, trying desperately to get out, unable to pull itself out because at that point it was in so much suffering and pain it had not the strength to climb out all there was for this dog was the pain, the burning water it was surrounded by with no escape. No human would want this for themselves and humans are as much flesh and blood as a dog, so why do we do to what we are in ignorance that it must be unbearable pain? Why are we allowing pain to this physical earth when we would experience the same exact sensation and not want that?

Having said this, had we taken Clyde to the vet would the tumor had been diminished and removed? Probably not. What might have happened is Clyde would have been sent home and monitored until he appeared to be in pain and then put down. Later as an adult i had an older dog that suddenly had flies laying eggs all over her. The vet came and we could find no indication of anything wrong. I had to carry this big collie in and out of the house because she could barely walk. One night I put her out to eat in the cooler evening air right on the yard right next to the kitchen. I was washing the dishes when there was this commotion on the road. I stopped. My dog had gotten up and walked to the road. The cars had stopped for her - it is a small residential road -  and as she walked she fell under a  stopped pick-up truck ( because she really had a hard time walking ) and the truck ran over her as it started to move again, thinking the dog had passed. Ellie, this dog, died in moments, I managed to get there before the convulsions stopped. I was shocked that she had gotten up and walked, and she had only been a few feet from me. I mean I have window out onto the yard.  What is interesting is that a woman told me a couple of days ago that she had a cat that did the same thing. She knew the cat was not well, and was watching the cat. One night her cat got up, went and lay under the heighbor’s truck. When the neighbor got into the truck and pulled out of the driveway, the cat was run over. THe woman telling me the story said that the cat, as far as she knew, did not have the habit of going to the neighbor’s yard, and had been so ill, had not moved much. My dog Ellie, was basically not moving much, and was being carried around, so did she actually go to the road to fall under a truck with purpose? Even having said this, is this what she wanted or was it simply an act of desperation, knowing her body was no longer functioning and that a solution was not forth coming by humans?

Both of these acts mean that dogs and cats are much more aware than we think. Our judgement that they are not aware is simply an indication of some values being made bigger than others. because a dog does not look a certain way, or have money, or speak knowledge and information without application, means that a dog is less than a human. Because a dog is not making some values bigger than others, means that that dog is less than we are, and therefor can be boiled alive, because it does not have the limited values of a human, means it is not properly feeling life and therefor must not have any feelings. Where does this have any common sense people?

Here, in this world, we have people who place value on a piece of paper, and then greedily take that value and hold onto it to use it to make some values our own through purchasing these values in excess, and then we make this ability to purchase these limited values another value, all in the face of abusing and ignoring this physical world. This is one really messed up, delusional state of being. So, who is more aware, us or that dog? I would say, the dog is more aware than the human. The human is only aware of the game placed on earth of a pyramid scheme that in itself uses limited values as the measure of its worth. And this worth made huge, is destroying this earth. Humans are existing as a limited value system, and thus ignorance. None  of this is acceptable or affective. Our limited value system of how much money a person has, how they look and how educated they are is not taking care of this world.  These limited values are a state of delusion creating an ignorance of life. Our limited values are a state of lack, our minds are the manifestation of our lack, to place it right in our faces so that we see how much we have abdicated life, what is real. And we  are placing value onto a piece of paper and using this to uphold our limited values, ignoring what is real in this process of separation and resistance to reality, the physical and common sense of what works in sustaining this real physical world.

Each of us is doing this within. The singular and thus limited values we hold cannot direct in common sense because they do not include looking at the physical in reality. Thus the ease with which this earth can function is bypassed to serve a lesser god of survival, the outflow of ideas, idols made bigger than life. Meanwhile what is here, as what we are, is a natural ability to take in - we are just selectively taking in limited values - building a inner GPS - with these limited values, to suit an outward system that is the mirror image of what we have accepted within, what is without as this system is the accumulation of ideas made bigger that life, and thus directing us, and thus causing a separation, where we then try and place the idea, as a world system, the melody of each of us, onto this physical world. We are like a program of limited values, limited pictures, and we are only seeing this, and directing ourselves as this, becoming walking whines of constant association making within a limited text.  What the NSA is doing is not different than what each of us as limited beliefs are doing, weaving the past to justify a future, never HERE in fact. The limitations varying by degree, as the levels of word usage and clear understanding each class, as degree, exists as. The perfect system of maintenance for a pyramid scheme. Naturally, whistle blowers will be considered by the grid of this pyramid as being detrimental to this scheme, this limited design, and naturally what the whistle blowers are saying as the outcome of this design is not what is best for all, and is what ends up stagnating and suppressing the ability of each of us as life to be what we are in form and function as life. Thus the pyramid on the horizon as our present system can only see itself, it is lost in a space of limited dimension, warping reality, it is a false idol.  We were told, so there is no one to blame but ourselves.

We have to clean up the within and the without. The within through cleaning up our words and developing the ability to use words, which so many lack. All lack manifests eventually, and instead of pushing it away into prisons and institutions of beating it down , lack must be corrected into self responsibility as life. This means what supports the physical must be given. Therefor giving of earth’s resources must be consistent and constant, as this is what has lasted the test of time, the actual physical world, it is what we all see, it is what is here, it is what is real. Within we must realize our limited values, and how we walk in directives that compare within these limited associations as the very words we speak reveal our limitations, both within what we can describe and the extent of the ambiguity we exist as within understanding - seeing - how what is here actually in fact functions as physical reality. A person cannot be self responsible if they cannot see, and not being able to describe in words what is here, not having the structure within to match the structure without,  limits expression and thus understanding and thus seeing. In so many ways life is so beautifully designed to be life, and yet what we are allowing is really a rejection of life. This is done as judgement, which is what blame and spite is, judgement as it has no directive capacity. We were told to not judge, and here we are bearing the consequences of our judgement as how we are allowing ourselves to inner rest within ourselves as limited values, which is limited development. We are the NSA.

I had to be 14 or 15 when Clyde died, lying there with a huge open tumor on its back, under that bush. Why did I do I wept,  with such self devastation, where I cannot even physically bring myself to pick up the shovel and help dig the whole? I mean, I had  dug a hole before. Interesting that I mistyped whole instead of hole at first. Herein do I see the frustration I existed as, a sense of powerlessness in  “ digging” the whole, in understanding  life, in being able to take a direction to solve the problem of the existence of a tumor in the first place, because , we all know the only real solution is to prevent such outcomes, as they are unacceptable. There is no associative value as a belief that can justify this. Thus there is only the principle of what is best for all.

My weeping was my own frustration, my own inability to really be able to do anything of any real substance. And I did not even have the words to put this into directives that enabled me to stand and look at why this was, and how this needed to change, because I had allowed myself to not look, in a world, as a child, that was not taught to look , to not really look. I was taught to survive, to pay homage to a pyramid scheme on the horizon of a physical earth that gives to support life.

Thus, was I crying for myself, I was crying for myself as life.

It is time for a system change. 

It is time to give up the goating greed of the mark of the beast of separation, of rejection of life, based on fear of loss of an idea that is believed to be more than life, the physical, where the idea is not good or bad, only placed out of contest of physical reality in practice.

Nobody, a no - body as mind, can tell me or anyone else what I/they can know and what I/they cannot know, unless we accept and allowed such ignorance, when the physical world is right here, the gift of life, showing herself/himself as what we are, right in front of us, it is only limited ideas, opinions and beliefs, as what is touted by a system of inequality, to serve what we are all doing, which is accepting and allowing a state of paranoia of unknowing because we, each of us, accepted and allowed an idea to be greater than life, separating ourselves from the nature , as the natural state of life, to give as one would like to receive, to do what is best for all. Had I/we taken the time to investigate, then the prevention of inequality would have been the best cure. 

A lack of full disclosure within the present system is a crime against life. There is nothing that is private, and a system that has access to what every person is saying and doing, and yet, does not fully disclose what it is doing is a form of self interest, blatant self interest. Especially, since this system has not solved the problems within the principle of what is best for all. What is presented is a false general statement as idea only, without any detail as to how such is going to be done. Within this the only choice is to create a system that allows money to circulate to all, as money represents life sustaining resources, and the value created from the labor of men, thus in order for men to labor in full potential, their physical and developmental needs must be a given, absolutely, continuously, within self generative autonomy as what they, we, you, I am as life. Therefor, what sustains as “ righting the human form and function” must be given fluidly as money, as this organizes the distribution of basic needs. Nationalizing the resources will allow this movement, as the costs will only be what enables money to circulate to allow access to basic needs. And thus the price of resources will not be based on competition. This will allow the elite to continue creating products to profit from and remove the never ending game of maintaining a systemic grid that is really the walls of a castle closing in on itself. A Living Income Guarantee will open the castle walls without the loss of the castle itself, and since there will no longer be the need for protection and defense to the extent that it presently exists, there will be more than enough money for the acquired comforts within the castle wall.

I mean,  perhaps there are comforts never imagined because all the top have been doing is living in a state of protection and defense, a stew that just takes longer to cook the flesh into a life never lived, at least perhaps we can show some grace and stop taking the dogs down with us.