Sunday, March 29, 2015

Day 622 Equality with The Physical, Grounding Oursleves Here in Practice.

There have been times when playing in a quartet, that a rushing starts, or an insecurity in the playing, and things start to “ come undone” so to speak.  If anyone has ever watched a sport game, and is seeing the patterns of the players moving, a pattern can set in, a ‘ state of mind” that appears to become stuck and getting out of this appears to be impossible. Often, the pattern remains but there are many stories where the pattern, the ‘ psycho- logic’  changes and a ‘ comeback” happens. We love these stories , we find them amazing.
Back to the quartet. Performing with a quartet, such ‘ psycho-logic’ states can come to pass where the players are on edge appearing to have lost a groundedness and focus more on their individual parts are become undone because the focus on the whole and the individual part is lost/misssed/separated-from. As the leader, the first violin, what I have had to do, is really become stable within myself and really place the volume of myself into the part, which means into my part and the parts of the others, and to ‘ make loud’ the measure of overall ‘ beat’ pattern so-to-speak. Sometimes, I have had to hold this, sometimes the other players would ground themselves and a sense of placement in the total, as the space and time of the piece and the moment would return. Then, an ease would come and more ‘ play’ as in more ‘ wiggle room’ within the music. I notice in such situations, more eye contact was made, more cross reference between one another. One could also say, more intimacy.
I had never really realized this same behavior as being applicable in every moment of my life, in every interaction. I mean, I am a product of the present socially engineered school system, where I sat in a box, away from practical reality looking at pictures and taking in a presented measure of the past, and the way we move numbers around in formulas- which is another notated form of dividing volume and space, and moving the ‘ amounts’ around. And this was done in notation only without any real application. This abstracting without application, can be fun and yet lacking in real substance, because I enjoyed algebra for this very reason, moving the numbers around like a game, but not seeing other information because it had no real context. What I spent time on in such a model was really very limiting.  Being in a  quartet has more living interaction though still limited, it is dealing directly with different objects moving in different ways,  and I would say in more quantum ways because it was more dimensional overall. 
We live in this physical world of many shapes and forms and sounds and qualities. If I can be trained to sense rhythm and sound duration and staccato, and the way each wooden string instrument sounds, and the way the sound changes in a different hall space, performance space and adjust myself accordingly, then what I am as a man, can sense the space around me, with great capacity. So, what happens when that capacity is placed in a separate and limited environment that lacks all the sensations of our physical world ? What happens with this awareness? What does this form within as an experience, as a memory? Is this a distraction, using this quality of men as a memory builder, like a computer, to limit its natural perception?  Does this not take away the opportunity to become aware of all the formations of life on this earth, that earth we drive over to get to work? That earth we feed ourselves from? That earth that allows us to walk over  it with our two feet? That earth that is a formation, one that men see, right in front of us? Are we actually allowing a matrix of memory, as mind living only, that is the cause of the malfunction of and as the problems on this earth? Is this how wealth has accumulated into the hands of a very few, who then have the means to socially engineer the systems, which is really all of us, because we believed our memories to have more value than actual living?
Like a quartet, if the parts do not remain in awareness of one another, as in being more than just/only performing the measure of one’s part, then the whole thing begins to fall apart. It is like the group has to breath together as one. If one person focuses only on their part, it begins to fall apart, because it is the whole that guides the overall form and measure of the form being expressed.  In other words, on a physical world that is in expression, one cannot become automatic, because a sense of the space must always be in focus, which really means always being here and not only in one’s mind.
Men as a organic form that can sense the parts and the whole, the form and the function, the movement and its consequences within this physical world, means that one cannot take such a fine machine and force it to do repetitive tasks within a limited environment, because it forces a sensory machine into limitation and the energy accumulates, a dis-use presence and this has to eventually come out so-to-speak, especially if it has not had the opportunity to build a structural awareness of its environment, because it was fed limited controlled imagery and information away from what was real, the actual physical world around it.
The only real way to clean up this earth, with what is here, is to allow the means for that presence in men, to awaken, because that presence, with focus on the forms and functions of what is here, sense the total expressive means of it, and work with it, in ways that do no harm. It would be the most efficient means of cleaning up this earth. This and using the technology that has been created because of this separation, as this would help refocus us here, and expedite the reformation back into what respects what is here and does no harm. I mean, look, each part defines who and what we are, so that we become aware of what it means to be life, to create, because life is creation. It is really very simple. The limitation of belief in and as the mind is what complicates; complicated means not seeing the parts and the whole, not having the information clearly enough within to reflect life, as the actual real physical without.



Monday, March 23, 2015

Day 621 Presence as mind only or presence as Equality to life? Which is the choice of freedom?

When I am playing in a Chamber group, I have to listen to all the parts, and the whole, like I am the parts and thew whole. Depending on where I sit, I also have to pay attention to the movement of the bow of the section leader and/or person in front of me, because the bow can also tell/show me the measure of what is being played in relation to the whole, kind of like the bow can be another metronome ( nominal meter/measure) of space and time within the context of playing. 
In so many ways, this is the same action as learning how to walk; it is sensing this world, the physical space of this actual real physical world. Our ability to see this directly informs the very ‘ measure of us, here. In all common sense, because of this, we can really only be here because this is where we are - mental simulations or not, -we can, because we are here, only be here. In the end this is us living life, respecting it.
I was at a meeting last night, and I found myself getting tense. My left leg and my chest were tensing up. It all started to hurt, as I sat in a chair and talked/interacted with the people present in body/mind in the space. 
A lot of the talk was about health.  In tandem with this talk about what we eat, was talk about being positive. One woman said that since she has taken more care of what she eats, she notices that she is more aware of her environment. I am not in her head, so I cannot know what experiences she had to justify this are true or not true. What I noticed more, was that she never really said anything, everything was about being positive, and such statements about how much she noticed her environment, without any real explanation as to what precisely that meant in any intimate detailed way. Making a statement that one is noticing their world more, only, reveals nothing about what that means. Collectively the group becomes this kind of stagnate awe, and I start to get tense, because I feel that I am having to accept something, to agree, without really knowing what is meant because it is not made clear with any sense of detail. I mean, some general statement of “ being more aware of the environment” really is not saying anything when only these words are presented. If I accept this, then what I am accepted is an idea without any real practical defining/clarification in detail. I move more into assumption or embarrassment because I have not had this experience. And yet, how do I know if i have had this or not if it is not clarified and only accepted as a statement? This is acceptance without investigation, without practice, it is a conceptual end game/name.
I notice the quiet in the group, evident in that no one asks for clarification as to what that meant in detail. Some just remain silent, some smile and place an expression of awe on the faces. Since this was a group of people involved in health, I realize that each had a desire to become healthy, and were ‘ dreaming’ of becoming healthy. I mean, this is cool to want to become more aware of one’s body, which taking the time to consider what one places in their body, is cool because it is a step in the direction of becoming more self responsible. This imagining “ becoming” healthy” only, is another way to self realize our own stagnate conceptual ability, so slow is the movement within, and yet, we learned to walk, to crawl, which meant conceptualizing in a direct way, building a structural awareness that directed in efficient and effective ways, which is our capacity, yet somehow we begin to move as molasses and get stuck in slow motion, where the motions are not bad and our capacity to inform on a another is diminished as awe as behavior, like an excitement, becomes us. In science, excited states can create chemical reactions within that we can become addicted to,  and the “ more’ in idea only, becomes a form of entertainment within, and we feel good because we have allowed this heightened inner sense to define us, but there is always a crash, and then the struggle begins. This inner polarized emotional/feeling state over practical application, which is being here, equal and one in practice of being physical, is making the within greater than the without. This is separation from the value being life, where this value is respected, thus the physical world is respected as life.
Overall, this in total shows how much one can get caught in an idea, and not question things, because the idea has become like an idol in one’s head, like an obsession that is so much as self interest that being present here, and asking questions in detail about what another means in practice  is seldom if ever walked through. It is a stagnate state of expressing, where presence here to and with the parts and the whole as the “ music” of the space of here, is not ‘ played’ with, is not cross referenced, is not made intimate. The irony is, if we opened up with one another beyond such statement of “ I am more aware of my environment”  we could all learn from looking outward in equal measure to what we are within. We are really only, most of the time, conceptualizing in our heads only, without opening up and sharing, in detail, with the environment around us. Because of this, we live outwardly statements that have no real clarification. In other words we do not really come here, we do not really bring our presence here, thus we are not really living here. Most of our lives are spent in our heads.
Meanwhile, I am getting tense, and as this is myself on a journey to life, because I am the one who has to do this, as no one can do this for me, I have to stop myself from going into judgment and slow down, breath, ground myself here. My own tension, is because I am judging, I am looking at the measure within this group, the measure of presence being focused within, via the words that are not very descriptive, and how I, as a socially accepted behavioral measure, must remain within the group as the measure of my own expression. I do speak up, at times, but I also realize to jump from statements of general ideas, to intimate details, can be too much of a sudden change of measure. What do you think moving through the eye of the needle means? It means to conceptually be fluid in being able to move in space here, in this physical world, even understanding the form and flow of our present system,. If we really look at it, we will see that it really makes no sense in terms of supporting life. And life is the value.
When I get tense, I am within my own ideas about what should be, how to bring what I believe into the measure of the moment.  If I am not aware of how a person becomes the very measure of insight as what they are, as their focus within on ideas, because the within is a measure of reality which is an idea about reality, and what is going on without, as this actual physical world in its movement and measure in detail, meaning the way the very minerals and other components exist in this space of reality, then I cannot really be aware of here, I am not really present, I cannot move in sync with the whole, just as I am when playing in a musical group. I have to be aware of the time and space length, duration, intensity, physical movement of things etc. to remain in the measure as the piece in total! So, playing in a musical group, is like how life should be lived! 
A  note - so to speak, is a unit, a measure that builds,  it is the focus here, here, here , here, as the physical world, that brings the ease, because the measure of the whole as self being this within, is what focuses self as life to become equal to the very volume of life as everything, because the physical is as much life as what is going in inside the head ONLY. When statements are made, and oggled at, without developing the understanding in detail within the whole, one is really living in mind only, so conceptually, ones moving within in a very limited con-text as mind, and is not equal to life, because life would not divide into ignoring some aspects, it would accept all aspects and move and breath and interconnect as one, each separate part moving as one, each individual expression moving as one, and for this, each part must be present, equal within to the without, as the physical.  Thus, the system of inequality on earth, is a crime against life. Each member of this orchestra of life, must be, in presence measure, listening to the whole and the parts, developing an awareness of the outer and the inner measure of this world as self within and the physical without and the systems we have accepted and allowed that are the measure of having lived within without reference to the without as the physical as being of equal import as who and what we are, where nothing is more than another because each part expresses life. A socially engineered .system of hierarchy that suppresses the presence of life within will not work, because it does not give the space and time for the presence within all things to be the response of life as what each is. Such a system cannot and will not work, no words of justification, no one sided touting will  change this, no armies bullying an idea from some centralized dictate will change this, it simply cannot be done because it is not the nature of life.  In this, we all need one another to be present in equal measure to the space without and the space within - so to speak.  This can only happen here, in this moment. Our memories must be equal to here, of equal measure in focus to here. 
Meanwhile, back to myself again. lol. It is not that looking at this, in measure, that is the problem within myself, it is where I allow myself to become upset about it, because becoming upset is not being present in the measure and expanding that measure to become a balanced within and without equality. This is me realizing what I have done, as I have not really lived life because I was the same, which was being an end game as mind only so much of my life. When I react to this emotionally. I allow this to bother me as though it is some great injustice. And being this state of being as thinking this is some great injustice, I am no different than the women who becomes an awe about some idea without taking the time to consider in practice what such a statement made by another really mans in practice.   And this is the solution, to slow down, to realize the measure of self within, and to bring focus and presence awareness to the without world as the physical - within and without - where the dis-ease is also the within presence not being aware of itself in detail within!  And within this to realize the separation because one has to correct a practice of separation, and bring this back down to earth, ground this here because one can only hear what is going on in practice, in expression, here. One has to take that presence ability to measure space , and relate to the physical and self, as this is respecting all life.
My tension is myself inferior to life and it is me rushing within to judge as a point of superiority, as in all common sense, the only thing that can be done in such a situation is to begin to walk the presence of self back into the measure of awareness of the inner beingness being focused here to the outer world as the physical. The hierarchies as the mind, are what separates and creates the existential system imposed on the physical by men, without. It is a system that forces separation and it is here because each of us has believed that what imagery we hold within is more that what allows that imagery to exist, which is the physical world. Thus, our present system cannot work, no touted words using the means of life as sound are going to make it work, it simply cannot work by design. Like the mind, in each , the signs of hierarchy into inequality  are disrupting the physical, and the outcome is as the story of the bible, one that ends in total annihilation of life. Period. 
In this situation, I cannot react, I can only journey myself back to life, to inform myself equally within to the without, the above to the below to stand as two or more in the name of life as the substance of the physical, as cross referencing the physical world in ways that do no harm, to remain stable in respect of this, yesterday, today and tomorrow, as this is giving as I would receive, which is the equation in word of equality and oneness, which is being here, listening here to reality, being respectful and gracious of the life that is me, without, walking the practice of being in equal measure to all things which is consideration of all things.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist as idea only.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to react to a measure of awareness within expressed in words, in statements, not seeing realizing and understanding that I can understand this, as it does not define me, and as such I can accept the measure here, to understand and then forgive that measure through bringing it back into practical application as what would ground in understanding here as respecting the physical world which means looking at the sound, the form, the function of the actual physical world, and the systems accepted and allowed that miimic limitation that must come to support all life as being the value, which begins with myself here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself into ideas as mind only.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge, to punish a measure of presence in another, to believe that this is separate from me, to not see, realize and understand that this is a measure, a volume of presence and that the solution within this, is to equalize in awareness of physical reality, in all the measures of space here, as length, duration, intensity, volume, quality, tempo, to become the presence of self absorbing here, this reality as being life, realizing that this is the definition of being life because life would be a structure that expresses as what the physical world is.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to react to statements that are not followed through in detail, and to within this, judge the statement and the person making the statement as less, not seeing realizing and understanding that this is me in another live as awareness of the measure of the expression of life in form, and the informed within and as mind.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how when I judge and become a reaction in any way, I am separating from practical application of living and  by the default as mind only, moving into energy as polarizing into values of more than and less then to justify, which is not being practical here, equal and one to the measure of life in expression, as creation as the physical world here, the way and the means of life in expression, the way and the means of creation here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become an energy of superiority, judging the limitations of presence locked in idea only, as being less than myself, as this is not what I would want from another for myself, thus I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become as that which I judged, to label another as less, not seeing realizing and understanding the measure of the presence of life, and modeling/living/practicing that which grounds here, into equal consideration of all life, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear change, to fear the change, the segue process in movement within into equalizing presence to the without as the physical world, as there is nothing to judge within and as this, as in every moment it is to consider all things and to take that which is good, to ground oneself here, and to within this, see, realize and understand that in every moment this is in so many ways a reciprocal action as the without reveals the very measure of myself within.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have expectations, which is my within separating from the without, as ignoring the gift of myself as life to sense with the presence of myself as life, as self, the space and movement and measure of here as the physical as creation, where I stand equal and one in walking my presence as grounding myself here, with creation, within and as that which does not harm, using the means of expression, as word and deed, ensuring that my thoughts are a cross reference to here, as the physical world, respecting life and realizing within this that the separation from life as the minds of men, exists because of what has been accepted and allowed, thus, as life, it is to model life, which requires no judgement, and to be thankful that when and as I move into judgement, the energy of this, that which is unsound, becomes a movement within and as me as my human physical body being unbalanced and in a state of dis-ease, meaning lacking the ease of focus here, without judgement, as the self equal and one in full volume of and as life here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have had thoughts to and towards limited statements within and as my mind, such as “ this in incredibly ignorant” or, ‘ why does this woman not see that she is not really saying anything” or “ how the hell am I supposed to deal with this” 
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to move into emotions of believing that the process of journeying myself into life, here, is impossible.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress myself, as in tensing up in my chest area and in my left leg, not wanting to look at my own self interested desires, wants and needs based on ideas, that I  have allowed to have me behave in superior ways which is not modeling, expressing living here, equal and one in measure of consideration of physical reality, as this is life in expression here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I am not good enough and that I am a failure within and as creating a change where others recognize themselves as life in physical formation here, when I have walked this process for some time and realize that it is a journey of resounding self back into grounding oneself here equal and one with and as the physical world, thus all I can do is practice walking into becoming equal and one with reality, which is to ground myself here, in consideration of what does no harm to the physical and as such considers all things.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire recognition through myself here, when the greatest gift is to allow another the self discovery of self as life, as this is the strongest measure of standing as life here, because it is giving as one would want to receive, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to punish myself based on having ideas about how things should move, which is a separation within from being present here, walking the practice of respect for all life as the physical, which is to walk into the moment to become the solution of considering all things and taking that which is good and does no harm here.

When and as I find myself becoming tense within and as me, I slow myself down, I breath, I ground myself here, I forgive the judgmental measure within and as me as a movement within as rejection of some quality that I make a bad because I fear it defining me, and I accept that and I look at what I want to ‘ push’ onto the situation as a movement within, where there is a sucking like a pulling to push a value as an idea out to grab the attention of others onto that which I want to validate within and as me, as this is where I project blame onto another, or spite the measure in protection of myself as mind, as belief, as idea, and I stop,, breath, forgive the thoughts, the movement of myself within that is of energy, racing, desiring, based on limited insight, not being equal to here, and I resound the parts and the whole, to become the resounding of the physical world, something that will take time, as this was not learned, though this was self that learned to crawl, to walk, as this is the way as myself as the gift of life into equality and oneness with creation, accepting all life, which means to accept the physical world, which means to bring heaven to earth, to exist in equality and oneness to and as life here.

When and as I find myself becoming tense, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down and I investigate the actual physical quality of what is here, to understand practical purpose, of the physical, to realize what would be a movement that does no harm, that considers all things, to ground myself here, to begin the practice of moving through the eye-of-the-needle to equalize myself to life through cross reference, investigation of here as physical means of life and the practice thereof, to begin a journey to become a steward of this earth, this home, this that is me in another form, the physical.

When and as I find myself having the thought that this is too much, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and see realize and understand that though it may be too late for earth because the separation from self as life within and as mankind, I see , realize and understand that the only solution, no matter what, is to walk myself, to journey myself back into equality and oneness with and as life here as the real living ease that we all seek, is to ground ourselves here, equal and one to build a memory that sees directly here, equal and one with and as the physical world here.
When and as I find myself tensing up within and as my chest and left leg, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down and I see realize and understand that the sense of me as life, is a presence that is so able by nature to move through the eye of the needle, as the physical, to sense form and function, just as the presence of myself can hear the parts and the whole of the music within a group, something that can develop with time, and can begin to move exponentially if one focuses here, as this is the nature of self as life, just as the nature of a child can learn to crawl and to walk, such is the greatness of the movement of life here, as men will be creative and inventive as can be seen with all the technologies that develop practices that are less abusive to this earth, such as solar power, such as eating healthy nutrient dense foods, such as allowing children to interact directly with the greatest technology that exists which is the actual real physical earth world here, all of which means that we can order this earth in ways that support all life, where no matter where our children walk, they encounter no harm, which is what we would have wanted for ourselves.

When and as I find myself having the thought that another is limited, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I assess the measure of belief, and I investigate the actual real physical world here, and I share my own investigations as suggestions about information that I understand, or am beginning to understand to ask the questions as to what are we not seeing realizing and understanding within a practical physical reality, as this is the carrier of ourselves here as life,

When and as I find myself losing my breath, as iN breathing without ease, as in breathing in an erratic way, I stop and I slow way down, and ground myself here, becoming silent within, forgiving  ideas, beliefs and opinions of doom and gloom, “ what if’s” such as “ this person will reject me, or will no longer ‘ like’ me” and I stop, I breath, and I realize that this cannot define me, as what define me is life here, as the physical as this is how I  exist period.





Saturday, March 21, 2015

Day 620 We are all holding this system of abusing life in place.

Do I practice and become the measure of here as this physical reality? Or, do I become inferior to it based on an idea, a belief or an opinion within and as me. How focused am I here in this practice of living, a physical living where all outcomes are obvious? Do I react as belief, because I spent so much of my childhood in a box, learning to abstract number and words away from physical reality? Did I allow the drug of thought only, using parts that were placed within me, as supposed truths, where ironically, the object did exist and did move around, but I have no direct experience with such objects because they are the past, and the parts given to me in story only, in a box, are whatI  have because this is what was placed within me, which I accepted.
And for what, to divide me from reality, using my common sense, my ability to measure spatially what actually really physical exists here. And then the television, another story teller with scripted words and arranged pictures. And outside the window, the waters are polluted and the water companies tout their life saving tactics of refining the water, and needing to pay for the failing and aging infrastructure, of which is placed on men, men who formed a government and paid taxes for such services, but somehow over time, with divisions in justifications, for salaries etc, for war- to grab more- the governing systems seem to be systems of justification for salary increases, and the failing, aging infrastructure replacement costs are on the users. But then, again, if perception of reality is lost, the whole picture of all of this is not realized. And, we sit in our entertainments of thought only, and praise our inner fantasizing, because in effect this is what this is only. 
This reminds me of the tolls on some of the highways around Boston, in Massachusetts. If one does not have the change, as I have been in the situation of, because I do not travel too much west of Boston, for the tolls, then one is fined way beyond the cost of the toll. I mean the toll is, in some instances 1.25 and the charge , in one instance, for not having a dollar and twenty five cents, because I use a debt card all the time, is now 50$. I wonder how many times tourists run into this problem. I have asked other people in the area, if they notice an excessive ticketing system in Boston, and they say yes. I mean one time, my son exited the city, and evidently turned from one road onto another, into a bus lane. he does not know the city too well, and sometimes there is a lot of traffic, so it is easy to turn onto a bus lane, where the yellow ground markings are worn. There are cameras in these areas and they take a picture of your car, and then you get a 50$ fine in the mail, WTF! I started to say, gee,  that kettle at the end of the rainbow was PLACED there by MEN, and then made  into a fairy tale. lol.
With all our modern technology, there really is no excuse for this practice. One could use a debt card to pay the toll, and thereby reduce the costs overall, and reduce the labor of a man, in doing a tedious collection of money ( or lack of money ) and, as the present situation is being used for, punishing people who find themselves in a new place, which is really just collecting money in self interest.
My local politician, state politician, voted to have the salaries increased for the government officials, because if the salaries were lowered , then less professional people would be in the offices of governing, But i have to ask myself, given what is going on in Boston with money collection that is not being changed, with  modern technology, all of this could change, the whole way of directing money could change. It is all really a measurable thing. And this is the point, the  roles people play in the system, ones that do not in any way use the full potential of people, are being used to get money, without any consideration for living, thus, what we are calling professionals are not professionals in the title name, they are really professionals at flowing money to themselves in any way possible without any respect for life. And my local state rep. is participating in the game. It is money before life, before common sense. And, as I said earlier, common sense was distracted, was placed in a box, taught to conceptualize mentally ONLY, with limited knowledge and information. It gets pretty obvious after a while if one takes the time to look at form and structure. In America, after being in the New York area, I notice that so many of the roads are crumbling, they really are a mess, parched and bumpy, crowded and congested with traffic. I can’t see much difference in our roads, in some instances and the roads in Africa! 
So, while our so-called professionals are collecting through ancient infrastructure that has no money for change because it is all flowing to administrations who have no conceptual ability ( because if the really really did then what is here would not be here!)  our world is crumbling around us. 
We really have to wake up. We can take all that ability of men, that ‘ labor’ used in war, that story where roles of killing “ enemies”  comes to define us and are aggrandized and maintained through television and story in boxes and end up costing us our lives, punishing us for the self interest of some over others when we are all the same, and come back down to earth in practice. That labor, can be used to build systems that do not harm the environment, creating water companies who tout the good they are doing without thinking about how the earth really works as a system that recycles water in ways that clean it, without needing these huge systems to clean the pollution caused by building the systems that themselves did not work with the earth in ways that cause no harm. It is that we are placing systems on earth that are about collecting money, and money really has no value, none, because we cannot live without the water, we cannot learn and expand without opportunity and connection. 
Common sense is important because it imports what we see, and if what we are placed in front of to see, is in separation from reality, then we lose our common sense to very narrow conception, and this causes a pressure on the human ‘ spirit’ of common sense, creating uncertainty, which is the disease of depression, ADHD, ADD, to name a few.  All of these are because our common sense is not equal to the volume of life here, the physical, where we actually physically live our lives. As we can see our lives are not being lived, they are being lived as fantasies in our minds only, a fantasy that does not match life, a fantasy that is layered over time into the flesh through repetition, because life would accept all things. 

Thus it is the measure of our common sense within that is the cause of abuse on this earth. So, we as humans are holding this in place, because we accepted and allowed a separation from reality and we maintain this separation in jobs that are no longer needed given the technology developed by that same common sense that is ingenious when given opportunity to live, because that innate sense within will expand when placed in front of what is real, it is the nature of life, as what life would be and do. What happens to another human on this earth is the fault of us all, if we do not pay attention , read what is going on, understand the systemic structures. I would have to say, it would be better not to send your child to school, and instead to teach them about the real world from home.  I would also say to support a Basic Income Guarantee, a Living Income, because this will allow the form of the present abusive systems to change, as so many fear change because they see no other way to have an income, because we have allowed money to determine life. Turn money into something that allows opportunity and development, choose life, choose what is best for all as this is best for self.


Friday, March 20, 2015

Day 619 The FearObligationGuilt of Doubt separating myself from using doubt to cross reference reality.

Doubt.
There have been times when I face limitation, and I begin to doubt. Sometimes it is moving into self judgement, as an act of comparison to limited values, I stop and I breath, I slow down, I accept myself as who and what I am in as far as the shape of my nose etc.
But in being aware of space and time, I realize I have to reassess what is here as much as I am able, so that when I speak it is as close to common sense as I can possibly be, it is much like playing in tune on a violin. In playing there comes a point where one just senses in some way when something is in tune, one has to really listen without listening if that makes sense.
So, doubt is a lot like this, I can get stuck in an idea that I do not know well enough to explain, as in not having enough sense of detail and or, the sense of swimming in uncertainty where a sense of listening is no longer being used. And then, in allowing a belief, as being in separation from listening here, one gets caught in fearing a loss, but there is no loss, as there is only listening here. 
And like playing the violin one needs structure to express. So, one’s memory has to move with structure, not the past, but the here, as this physical world. Then does one know the score.  So, if one’s inner self is not mirroring the outer world, developing a sense of it, then one is not here in understanding, and then one cannot grow, thus the control of the imagination by media and knowledge and information without practical application is a crime against life, which means the  pyramid scheme in place though financial structures that suppress life will never work and cannot work, it is a useless endeavor. It will lead no nowhere. The mind must be here, equal and one with the physical world.
We are like computers where we build neurons that map this world, the physical can grow sensibility to function here, with great plasticity, like humans are a self building robot when given what is needed to build as the nutrients as things that are the same as on this earth- so to speak. If our access is enclosed in a box, and we are feed pictures with drama, we are distracted from reality, overall, and we become a chaos, in separation from the physical world, which is what is happening. Our children are so in separation  and the fantasy is a program that disconnects the child from life, from the physical world. They are not given, or allowed access to substantiating structure, and/or the lack thereof takes a lifetime to correct and then life as passed and the flesh is consumed by the television imagination as mind, a state of inequality to life, here. Thus potential cannot be reached. Thus the present system is one of insanity, and is life in destruction.
It must be forgiven,  because it cannot work.  We are like walking bubbles of snow storm, and this is the valley of the shadow of good and evil, the self in separation from life.
Life was for us to become creators and for this to happen, each must become equal and one to the physical, remembering self with substance that forms the physical, seeing the parts and the whole.
So, all insult is the bully of limitation and cannot define us unless we accept and allow it. Insult has no solution.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear insult.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to doubt
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become doubt as an end game and to not look at doubt as a sign to cross reference my sense of here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I am obligated to stand as the beliefs of another as a mind consciousness system.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to cloud myself as mind into a thought of fear of loss, as in guilt, as an idea that respect means to accept another's ideas, beliefs, opinions as valid and that this is the end of the line, when this is building understanding of a starting point that can then be moved into what is best for all, as in cross referencing reality, here, no matter what, to realize in thought word and deed that which is good and does no harm.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear insult
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that something can be lost, and to see, realize and understand that doubt is simply a sense that I can reconnect, to realign, to check alignment to expand in awareness in practical common sense of physical reality, to investigate here, as this physical world.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that I can stop, slow down and breathe, and say out loud, okay, I want to cross reference something, to investigate the form as belief, opinion and idea here, to take a look and reconsider what is best for all, as this is the only choice to reach the full potential of myself as life here, as what is best for self, is best for all
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to, when and as I become doubt, to simply say, wait a moment, I am doubting what I am saying, and want to recheck, to investigate, to rebook here, to make sure I am clear in where I stand, as life changes in every moment and nothing is fixed, and yet here is understandable, because life would life, and for life to exist each point must be aware of itself ,as to be life is to share life, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become locked in doubt.
I forgive myself for allowing and  accepting myself to tense up, in and as my chest area, to doubt, to fear being wrong, and to move into righteousness, into blame and spite, where I project justifications in a belief that something outside of myself is a hinderance forgoing my own gift as myself as life as an innate ability to sense reality in quality, duration, extent, dimension, movement, development, substance, my resistance as rejection of here into a belief to ostensively   protect myself from a personal idea of fear of loss,  for example, that I must be perfect or that something bad will happen if my words are not accepted in a way that leads to immediate mutual understanding , not seeing realizing and understand that every moment is change, and that change can be realized in every moment, thus doubt is a gift to fine tune oneself, like double checking oneself here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear exposing a moment of doubt as though having a doubt means there is something wrong with me, as though I am supposed to be certain in every moment, which is a belief that distracts, a stagnant inner act of self interest in separation from here.
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize and understand that it is with all life as every form around me that I understand myself here, as this is creative play, thus, interacting with all of the physical world, considering it,  is the way and the means to the end as in creating in ways that do no harm.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see, realize and understand that bullying is arguing limitations, and as such cannot define who and what I am, as it is the physical that defines who and what I am.
When and as I find myself reacting to my own sense of doubt, and moving into an energetic reaction of inferiority, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I bring myself here,, grounding myself in practical reality as the physical, and I assess practically what it means to be life, what it means to exist as a physical beingness here, to take that which is good and does no harm, and to see, realize and understand that I am a physical beingness that as life can investigate this physical world and understand what is best for all.
When and as I find myself making doubt larger than life, I stop, I breath, I slow myself down, I humble myself, ground myself, become thankful, gracious and give gratitude to reality as in respecting what it means to be a physical being, because the physical is the way and the means of life here, because the physical is life in expression.





Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Day 618 Remember in School when you really just wanted to particpate?


Remember in school when you really just wanted to participate? Remember wishing you could speak up and interact?
I think this is the real nature of men. I see it in my town, outside the local morning coffee and talk watering hole, a local store. Someone had a problem with their car, and the locals joined in to try and help. When we are in certain situations on the ground, everyone wants to join in and help, wants to participate. So that nature within remains.
Why do we not apply this to global news stories on the other side of the globe? Why do we not realize that we would not want what we read about happening to others, happening to us? And if we were there, would we not, just as we are inclined to do, at times, reach out and help? In our cities, people are inclined not to help, each a stranger to one another, there is a distance between our nature to help and actually reaching out that shows an accumulation of separation from our original natures. 
One thing I found in standing in front of a class of children is that they all want to participate. Even when there is resistance they look, specially when they have become comfortable, all their eyes move to the front of the room. They are ready.
As they move into the third grade they begin to form groups and borders build as to whom they will associate with and who they will not. By middle school, they build behaviors, to hide their lack, or to act superior when they have more of the means to participate in the instruction. I remember a boy who would get himself up every day and go to school, even though there was no parent doing this for him, He would only act up when he had to read. Somehow he could not get around this process, his embarrassment and fear were too great, and yet he managed to get himself to school, to be around people, to have community. 
In a small town, when  situations comes up directly, people will help one another. In a city, the borders are already up. I bet it takes work to keep this ignorance up, I mean, we are all aware of needing to get beyond the veil, so given that our behaviors of judgement are learned, and our behaviors of wanting to participate are natural, our veils of ignorance are created, accepted and allowed by us. We are the cause of our own judgements because we accept them, we allow them to accumulate and define our behavior, which means that our thoughts create who we are as they are value accumulations based on separating ourselves from ourselves, our real desire to participate.
Is this desire to participate that same initiative we have as young children to learn to walk? At this stage, we are not rejecting, we are learning about the world, using  our senses. How have we come to be a person who ignores what is happening in Syria in a practical physical way, as something that we would not want to be happening to us? How is it that the impetus for justifying such horrendous acts of violence from a country, the United State,  that has become a military arm for large corporations grabbing resources has been in any common sense way justified? These people in that land are just like us, they want to enjoy their families, and food, and community and nature and discover things about the world. That the cut of their clothes is different and something that had developed over time according to the climate and environment in which they live, does not define them as less than our own traditions based on our own climates and living environments. Even if we look at religion, they all follow the golden rule to treat others as one would want to be treated, which is a formula of valuing life, a starting point of realizing we are all the same, because the principle in doing unto another as one would have done unto one’s self, is the equation in word, of equality, which is realizing that the physical is life. The veil of separation is accumulated judgements creating borders composed of thoughts of that one thing “is bad” and another “is good”, and they are to hide a belief self accepted that has forgotten, or hides, that initial desire to participate and sense this physical life.

We have to stop allowing a media that feeds our own allowance of separation from ourselves as life. This media is only a reflection of what we have forgotten, which is our desire as life, to absorb and communicate and participate in life, to understand it and become more aware of the functional means of the world around us. If we are so caught up in defending our beliefs, we have separated from this sensing-of-the-physical-world ability, consequentially losing our own connection with life. If we stop, the media image-and-likeness-story will end, and the abuse of life in another country where there are people just like us will come to an end because it will no longer be accepted from the starting point of its conception which is each of us. We are the matrix that has created the conflicts that separate what exists on this earth that would life, which means to move in thought, word and deed within and as to take that which is good and does no harm.


Monday, March 16, 2015

Day 617 The limitations of our thoughts as knowledge and information only, and the suppression of our presence.

Accepting the form of sound structures and aligning them to the whole.
I live in a world of information given through words, as human language. Words describe, they paint pictures of things. They sound what is here, be it the physical or some  ideological metaphysical construct. We know this because we know that  when something  is repeated enough it comes to be believed as fact, even Machiavelli realized this, and politics uses this, in self interest. This is the use of limitation for personal gain, not telling the whole story, manipulating through this. The parts are not necessarily bad, just limited- which can become a violence to life because it is not considering the physical and respecting it. I mean, people can shatter glass with sound, so what we sound is our responsibility.
Structurally, as a human being, as a man, I am responsible for what I resonate, I am responsible to be present here, which means being self honest, which is to not act in my own self interest only. A limited form places pressure on the presence of a child, human being, and this causes suffering because it forces an innate conceptual ability as the physical of the physical into a narrow limited description. It is like forcing something that is too big into some very tiny jeans that are two sizes too small- you know, where one cannot even walk or move because the legs are so constricted!
And the difficult part is that what is presented cannot really be argued against, because it has a truth, but the truth is tied to an only this or that one sided conversation, with the threat of doom and gloom if one steps out of this, like a bullying through limitation, that then creates a morality of good and bad, as the limitations that do not tell the whole story limit and cause consequences, and since this is the only information that defines the self, change becomes a fear, because limitation has to stop its mis-take through limitation and correct which takes time. Like a train racing along, where one cannot see outside the window because the train is moving too fast, this is what a mind of limitation can become in practical application, not realizing its own demise.

I think of the platform of our media, where our so-called representatives present through a one way stream and announce limited information with this or that gloom and doom scenarios. Think terrorism and the  supposed extremist Islamic people, way out there on the other side of the world, where satellite pictures show there lights in the cities are dark. Makes me wonder what resources are there that the chaos is created for to sneak-under-the-radar/chaos-and-grab. And meanwhile, the children are suffering, as opportunity to grow is denied because someone believes they are god, some one believes they know how to social engineer a world that was already here, that functioned in symbiotic ways and managed to expand without some human social engineering through the suppression of presence, which is through the suppression of awareness, which is the suppression of life, that creative spark, that desire to absorb everything about the world, that child. Somehow, the suppression really makes no sense, because the plants and the animals that were here before man, all developed sensory abilities to expand the expression of life, so why suppress when the nature of life is to expand? This means that the answer is not to suppress the presence, as absorbing presence of men, but to allow it to flourish, to reach its full potential! 
So this starts with myself  which means to accept every form, be it physically existent or a metaphysical construct  of limited idea, or belief or opinion and transform that into equality and oneness with practical reality, to become what sounds life, as in what tells the whole story.  On a more global scale, this could be done with a more direct democracy; I mean with our technology, we could do direct voting, where people could even opt to have the vote be made public! This would be sound transparency! And, because this is how logistical fallacies could be cleared up! This is how we can realize how present we are in fact, as in realizing the limitation of the metaphysical story that is a pressure on us that causes suppression of this innate ability within as how much of the story of the whole one has.
There are farmers who realize that the health of their animals means that the animals must be outside on the land to live a humane existence, one that is of more benefit to the natural world- the health of the physical form, and not a shock in forcing the form of life into some scenario that does not fit the form. The consequences of humans allowing this is causing massive harm to life on earth, it is causing the presence of life to fade and the structure to weaken, just look at how the density of wood for building houses no longer has any real density, nor the nutrient density of our meats. 
Thus, placing our children into confined learning spaces that have no connection with the physical world, is placing pressure on the presence to fit into a limited story, a story that is not the whole story of which that presence as life within the child as the form, is beautifully designed to be and do. To suppress this causes massive suffering to the life within, the presence innate in the form as he child. It is a crime we all allow when we continue to accept this and / or expect a school to solve the behavioral problems of a child, because it is us not being present here and looking at the nature of the forms we have accepted and allowed as our public school systems and our belief systems, and our political systems. These systems mimic the very pressure on our presence that each accepted in fear of standing up as life.  The only choice is to move outside the box, and become present with what is real, as nature, as this actual real physical world
How do we remove the pressure done through limited story? We deconstruct our belief systems and reconstruct a system that regards all things as their inherent structural nature to change the present limitation into what allows that presence to reach full awareness of this physical life, because thus is where a child lives that life.


We remove the limited story, and ground ourselves back into the real story of what it means to live practically on a physical planet. A Basic Income Guarantee, a Living Income Guarantee would expedite this change into opening up the life presence that has been suppressed through limited stories because it removes the pressure of survival caused by two competing limited stories that have separated from their presence as life. We know all these limitations, the parts not “ bad” simply limited. These are the confines of our borders, our class system, our nationalities, our race delineations, because under the skin color and the national anthem, we are all the same, we have basic needs that support our natural sensibility as life, our presence to focus here, in reality, to enjoy being physical beingness on a physical planet.

Thursday, March 12, 2015

Day 616 We are resonant beings, what we allow we become.

I watched this interview with Noam Chomsky here.
What I see is that he follows a principle, within taking that which is good and does no harm, as in pointing out actions that are not beneficial to humanity. This crosses all racial, class, nationality borders.  This practice in itself exposes  the spin of a media controlled by the law of profit before the principle of respecting this earth. The earth, just like a child, was here without religion, without human language, without borders. Today, we have financial/corporate systems  of control in limited self-as-belief-construct interest that divide values created from freely given resources through the labor of men, and animals into a forced value system that is against life, via the media, All men were born without religion, without language, without judgements that one man was more than another, that a man was more than an animal, that a man was more than the soil. Our young children have no judgements about such things until this is placed as an idea within them. What children do is investigate, they put everything into their mouths, they touch everything, they explore, their natural drive is to understand the physical, what is here, this life information.
The sins of the fathers, an old term that has been around for a very very long time tells us something; it tells us that we are resonant beings, and that what we allow as the forms accepted and allowed as belief, opinion and idea within us, can be transferred to others, to the next generation.  We see this same understanding in cultures of a belief  that if a man sleeps with a woman, she is then dirty. So something is being passed around resonantly. Is it ironic that in both phrases, these being ‘ the sins of the fathers’ and this belief that once a man sleeps with a woman she is dirty, that the blame is placed on something other than the object speaking the words or carrying the blame for the consequence!?  That is like saying I am  not responsible for what is within me!
Also, our education system, as education, is what enables us to ‘ climb’ the ladder of success. Education systems do research and that research makes it clear that exposure builds awareness, because exposure is building awareness of what? Of practical reality, or- and this is part of the smoke and mirrors show- learning a code, as language and numbers, to move imaginative structures around on paper as a way to separate what is real from one another, which is what actually happens on the ground. I mean, that plant grows because of that seed planted, and that seed grows when it has exposure to sunlight, and water, etc. etc. So, we know, that children become what is placed within them. And we know that lack of opportunity means a person who has had little opportunity to direct themselves in this world. Those babies in the orphanages in Romania, the ones that we left without care, their development was non-existent, at three they were still lying in bed as though they were new borns. This is a crime against life. Punishing that three year old child for acting like a new born, what does that do? It does nothing, absolutely nothing. It is a crime against life. The only solution here, is to take that child, and rebuild, through slow and steady, repetitive exposure, with care, with space and time to expand, and yes, it will be slower than had this been done from the beginning,  but it can be done. And, there may be a few, who don’t make it, but more than likely 85% percent will make it, as studies/experiments suggest, that when homeless are given money, at least 85 percent will go and spend it on basic needs, the rest, those who are probably to far gone and have given up, will spend it on things that are not what is best for them. And within this, if 85% of those who are in lack were given the opportunity to expand through doing, through opportunity,  then so many of those objects of blame the rest of us see these beings as, would become self responsible people who no longer could be the object of ridicule, an act that hurts the person ridiculing too,  because it is an act of continued ignorance of reality and not an action of investigation into understanding how this world works. Which is a very important point Noam Chomsky pointed out; that when reactive and potentially and real destructive behaviors become the expression of men, it is to understand why and how this came about, especially since we know what develops a child, and because we know that children are not born with language and we know that resonantly what we allow in one generation remains and expresses itself as the sins of the fathers, because we are resonant beings. There is no mumbo jumbo about this, the reality of it is here right in front of us through so much of our understanding and our research as to how we form etc.
And yet, we have allowed a media, that is the voice of a corporate structure that follows the law of profit before life and touts it again and again through limited perspective - like a false representation that because of how we humans work and absorb, becomes  dis-information that is mis-information - which agains means we are resonant beings that learn through or absorb when EXPOSED to forms!.  Look, our present system is the same as communism, but with a more  layered system order. We have a government that touts democracy, and a financial/corporate system that divides and conquers using religion ( which was a earlier layer of division - of the soul- into a belief that there is something more out there, somewhere that no one has ever seen - with any consistency, and measured through science - so it does not exist this afterlife, which is ironically called an after-life, lol - where supposedly we  can go and listen to an old man on a chair talk about what ? I don’t really know because no one has come back with any consistency to tell us- and or, a place where there are lots of clean woman ...... to make dirty? I guess - lol. This makes no sense really.) and national borders based on regions that developed traditions based on agricultural practices that then define someone, and have to be maintained, and on and on and on goes the spin, and science cannot be for real because we would lose our traditions, because we cannot change traditions. But traditions were developed from practice, and things change, so this is also a separation from presence, here, being in resonance with reality, here, moving with creation here, this place that is of afterlife. Does this make sense?  Anyone?
Back to the present layer of the onion, an opinion onion. Interesting, ‘ opinion’ has pi in the onion. So, opinion is circle upon circle. Sounds like this could be the halo effect, maybe when we could still see it, as in the medieval period where people painted this?!  And, you know those saints were the educated, the ones with time to think, to think from paper lines ( earlier misuse of media?), to build inner constructs of thinking, as abstractions of life, as imaginations of IDEAS- sounds to me like what television does today! You know, that veil that eastern religions say we have to remove. Is it not interesting that Jesus said to forgive. Perhaps it was to forgive this onion pi we carry that is the things placed into us we allow to define us because in the original sin sense we each accepted and allowed ideas to define us, in lieu of practical reality, instead of taking that which is good and does no harm, living the principle of doing what is best for all, where one is not for or against any group, but is a practivist, a principled person, who points out what does not work, and what does work, and takes the time to understand that we are all the same, and that our basic needs as physical resonant beings, must be met, and that with opportunity we can learn, and that change happens and that joy of life is to interact and discover, and expand and grow and that no one has to be left behind, as we are all parts of this expression that is THE life, here, this earth, this is it. We decide.
Change yourself, equalize yourself to life. Be the change you wish to see. DIPLite