Sunday, September 20, 2015

Day 659 The presence of a baby in nature; silent, stable, lite, fluid.

Yesterday I walked with my young three plus month old nephew. We walked around the house, his hands reaching out to touch what was before him, The baby also being aware of the spatial measure within the distance of his hand and what was before him. He would reach out, draw his arm back and try again. He also would move his arm in a circular motion, as though, as it appeared to me, to sense more than what was directly in front of him that he eventually reached to touch.
Then I went and walked outside in the gardens with him. There was this sudden change in him, in his presence. It was as though this silence to a greater degree became what he was. The degree of this change, into a presence of such silence, astounded me, as it was different than how he was when we walked in the house as how I sensed this in the moment. It was like he took a breath and lowered himself into an ease, as how I saw this, within such a differential degree, I just stopped. I realized in that moment, how that state of silence, was such a state of ease and wonder, I can understand why some gravitate towards babies.
It is not the baby, it is how the baby is within themselves that is what is peace inspiring and comforting. As this is showing the degree of separation from being present and aware of this physical world around us, where the very fabric of this physical world is a stability that is constant, and that moves with ease, the ease of expressing a sound of life information.
It also showed me the degree with which I am a mind consciousness, a shaky limited measure of belief, opinion and idea that considers my survival as knowledge and information without acceptance of life, life that is all around me and there to support me, to allow me to become equal and one with the physical to pass through the eye of the needle into life. 
Hence, the solution is to breath, to slow way down, to forgive the projections of blame and spite, calling something a bad, wanting an entity of mind consciousness to change, an impossibility, as each is the source of one’s own demons, and responsible to see, realize and understand the inner picture show that is the separation from seeing directly here, and being at ease with the very fabric of life that moves in an absolute purpose of expressing what does no harm and takes that which is good, to remain constant and stable, in the value being life in expression, This can only be here.
And, that fear, that sinking within, that sense of a vortex like spiral pulling inward, in protection and self defense in fear of a loss is as much a entity of no real value, and a negative value that manifests as petrification, hence a heaviness to it that has no fluid ease and presence equal to life as the physical fabric of life surrounding us and allowing us to be life here. That fear is what I fear to lose as an idea about myself, and if I slow down and look, I will see, realize and understand that this fear has no real substance and can only define me if I accept and allow it. This fear  has no self directive capacity into that awe and that ease that gives a simple and stable directive capacity. Hence the choice is only to take that which is good and does no harm if we as men want to build a solid and stable world and really become equal and one with creation, meaning if we really want to become the creators we were meant to be.
It is like, to use the constructs of belief we are immersed within and as, we are all ‘ artists’ and we either choose to understand the real art of life as the substance that builds the physical world, or we remain scattered and restless as energy- the by product of our separation. It is like money, as how we are using money, to allow access to a few instead of flowing money as the means to what sustains us and allows us to care for the world around is in common sense ways, to develop this innate ability to care for our environment directly seeing as each part what allows the full potential of all things to express their from and function as life.
As we can all realize, the limited monopolies, that are of a structural rigidity, are to order our separation, And these rigid structures tear apart the physical to build a pyramid scheme that creates our class warfare, and our war economy, and our war on health economy, all of which is ripping asunder the physical world to order and control this separation into mind consciousness. Mind consciousness is a limited story, that can layer within, and as knowledge and information without practical application, it does not fit into the physical, which is why we end up in a bed, shaking as our physical twitches of mis-alignment, our fears clenching us within, consuming the flesh as the physical. The way we are using our resources to support a limited system that is in separation from creation. We end up a shattering mess, in total separation from what we are when we are a baby, which is that silence, that ease, that ability to sense the space of here, and rest in a awe that is of ease, present, silent and expanding in awareness of the physical world, as the physical world is life/god/a gift/ expression of what is good and builds a sound stable existence to create within and as the same substance as what we are.
Accept yourself as life. Stand equal and one here with the physical. Time to get this physical world in order, realizing what is best for all, and becoming equal and one to the flow of life that is the substance of all things, around us in every moment, it is only ourselves that reject and resist, thus no one can bring you back to life but yourself. It is time to self forgive your self back into equality and oneness to and towards life, here.

Friday, September 11, 2015

Day 658 Drowning in limited knowledge and information. What is being polite?

Within resistance, I realize that I have ideas/beliefs/opinions that I have allowed to be more than being here, in common sense of practical living. Within the word politeness, I cater to the beliefs/opinions and ideas of another, which is really protecting my own beliefs/opinions.ideas. None of this self definition based on not having been practical in a physical world, using what a feral child uses to learn to smell like a wolf- focusing the physical body into sensing here- can create a presence as that sensory/reflective ability to see directly here as the physical world.  That self definition is a secondary, metaphysical construction composed of the division of reality into a  energetic entity that is a separation into a limitation as what is real, as being the act of being present within the real physical world around us. The actual physical world is what works to support life, to express life. For example, nature has no borders, it is symbiotic, its waters flow everywhere ( unless an idea that disrespect this, cuts down a forest without spatial awareness of the consequences of such an act, and in so doing washes away all the organic matter that holds the water- or allows the water to circulate above the sedimentary rocks etc.) Such an act reflects the separation into limited respect of physical existence. It is a hued man chasing a metaphysical ideological construct which has been said is the making false idols. False idols are demonic, because they impose that limitation which in the end , as the word suggests, de-mans self as a physical expression of life. Then the physical, as that forest, is torn apart and scattered, like the fairy tales tell us, we become fractionalized into spread out parts, like Humpty Dumpty- where no systemic men can put you back together again, as only you as that substance can refocus yourself here, back into what is real, which is the physical- no metaphysical construction necessary.
If we look at our monetary system is it the image and likeness of what we are doing to ourselves within.  A false god that has no regard for life and the capacity of that life to create is lost. What is  lost is the choice of life as the action and directive of what does no harm, taking that which is good.
Thus politeness is answering to the metaphysical construct and not being practical here. And, because this has been allowed and practiced it is like a entity running as the a mind consciousness that consumes the flesh, tearing it apart, where in death, the body begins to shut down, twitching and suddenly shaking as the information releases and plays out, the presence buried in delusions of the past, as one’s self definitions has nothing else to consume. Meanwhile, what is left gasps for air, fearing to lose that self definition, where there is no longer any physical left to maintain the vessel of life as the physical body. The body itself, tied in knots as the consequence of constant suppression,  as the effort to maintain that ideological self has lost all ease of movement, fighting to maintain this idea self.
It begins on day one, because the adults model this, and the child absorbs this measure, this measure of sub-traction from being life. The schools perpetuate this, forcing the limited story of the victors that are also this, yet just happen to be on the systemic gain side of this fractionalizing system that has the same outcome no matter where one happens to be in this life within where one is placed at birth/ as their berth on earth.
Thus, ego is the expression of a limited story, using the parts of a picture, which can then be brought back down to practical living. One must really slow way down, and realize the spin of the meta-physical construction within, and with every breath as a marker, cross reference the real , actual physical world. 
One can respect the metaphysical part for a moment, and draw it back down to the ordinary, giving the ease to move here, equal and one with and as the physical world that is life in expression which is creation.
So what is real politeness?  It is to see the justifications as the polarity that is the nature of justifying a limited self definition as what a metaphysical mind construction would be, and realize that that ideological mind consciousness is rejecting qualities of reality in fear of loss of that construction. And, it is to realize that we all are this, the marker of which is a loss of being in common sense of what is physically happening to every part of this world, and, also, not seeing, realizing and understanding the nature of the accepted and allowed systemic design that creates consequences that are not what is best for all. Overall, to realize that one cannot place a child/tiger in a box, and expect that child/tiger to reach its full potential. And it is not that placing a child in a classroom to listen to information is bad, it is that placing a child in a classroom for six hours a day, is like placing that child underwater, too much of anything can cause one to drown- so to speak. This is what is meant by a false positive. Any adult can realize that being in the real practice of physical living, teaches awareness more than any sound picture as words written by the victors of this system of self interest for a few when the experiences are not enough to realize the sound formations, and even here, to realize that the physical must always be cross referenced- a scaffold only a means to build in a moment or to communicate a sound multidimensional structure that in itself, cannot be made more than the actual physical. Our system is moving in the opposite way, against life, it cannot work and it is not working. It is time to take that which is good and transform our system, and to bring what we believe is heaven, as mind consciousness, back down to earth, to stand as the real creators we were meant to be, to begin to realize, as live, the full potential of our physical bodies.
I have to, in every moment, slow way down and breath, realize where I resist, as this is where I do not consider reality as the physical, to ground myself here, equal and one to and with the physical world. As this is myself as life, here, being forgiving with and to life as what I am.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become a mind consciousness, disrespecting the life that is me around me as the physical.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that I can, in every moment, with every breath, slow way down and cross reference the actual real physical world.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become inferior to life, and within such an emotion, to not within breath, to cross reference where I fear to lose some ideological construct that I have accepted and allowed to define me, and as such made into a superior entity as belief, opinion and idea,  a metaphysical smoke and mirrors show that is like a de-manning of my presence to see directly here, to allow myself to respect life, and as such become equal and one to and as life here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear the depression of knowledge and information, as though it can suppress the presence of myself as life, as within and as me as who I am as life, is able to move through the storm of emotions and feelings, and ground myself in common sense in and as the small measure that is in front of me in the moment, as the physical world is composed of small steps, working in symbiotic ways which is the way and the means to ground myself here, and take that which is good and does no harm, as this is the message of equality and oneness with and as life here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear the ‘ big brother ‘ of a mind consciousness composed of limited knowledge and information, false positives and rejection of qualities that are the real measure of life, as the means to live as myself in full potential of being presence here, being the directive capacity of myself here, building self trust, self responsibility equal and one with what supports life, as what is real, is that which takes that which is good and does no harm, considering all things.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that I am my own self punishment when and as I accept only the polarity of belief as mind consciousness in separation from practical living/life as is the nature of life in expression as the physical.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become angry of my own separation, that i have accepted and allowed and to fear the consequences of such a separation, where the solution is to walk myself back into what is always right here in front of me, as the practice of respecting the physical world, as moving in small steps to reach equality and oneness with the physical world.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that constant struggle, fighting, is a resistance that has no rest as the quality of its signature, and to let this go, forgive, and follow through as in grounding myself here, realizing resistances as a gift to align myself equal and one to myself as life, to stand as the living word of equality and oneness where my false positive heaven, is brought down to earth, to become the creator I was meant to be, here.

When and as I find myself becoming confused, I stop I breath, I slow myself down, I take the part as in listening to here, as the separations and the actual practice of what respects and accepts the physical world, to see, realize and understand that which is good and does no harm, to live equality and oneness to and as life here.
When and as I find myself becoming tense, as in my shoulders moving into defense, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down and I see realize and understand, through listening, where I am within a mind consciousness of limited knowledge and information and I stop, I cross reference the practical physical world, to allow myself to build a self directive capacity that gives myself the ease, as that comes with self trust within and as myself respecting life, the physical that is all around me.
When and as find myself becoming heavy within and as my solar plexus area I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I bring this de-man into my heart, to self correct , forgiving spite and blame projections as self pity and fear of loss, to realize the practical steps that ground myself here, equal and one, to enjoy the full potential of life as the physical.
When and a s I find myself moving into projections of spite and blame, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I self correct into what would practice what is constructive in communicating the small measures necessary to communicate with ease, what grounds my presence as myself as life, here.
When and as I find myself in fear of loss, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I self correct through forgiving any spite and blame, into and as what is the small step as myself here, in the practice of respecting physical life that is me, here.

This, the solution to being polite is pulling on the strings of separation, and bringing the ego back into the small as the ordinary that grounds into the gentle and humble ease of being focused here, equal and one, building self trust in self honesty with and as the life that is me being present here, in respect of life, to which I commit myself to stand as equality and oneness with the physical, here.

Tuesday, September 8, 2015

Day 657 What leads is the past information, as what is here as the physical. What is Generation?

I can see the travesty of the refugee system where whole masses of people are running from bombs and destruction as drones and planes fly over and bomb this earth. How in any way does this make any sense?
Human beings can create wonderful things, they are very very capable of doing, of walking small details in small actions to complete something that is amazing, this is how things are built on this world and how things are cared for and understood. We are, we humans, the perfect sensory mechanisms to do this, I mean, a child imitates a smile on the face of an adult in a manner of weeks!
Yet somehow, we have lead ourselves to believe that that smile has another significance other than that organic machine that is able to imitate every single movement of the world in which they have manifested! That smile is nothing other than the physical sensory machine of physicality imitating what it sees/experiences/senses.
If that machine does not have the means to self dis-cover what it is and what it is actually doing, and ideas/beliefs/opinions are created around that movement, a measure, an icon, a morality, then that definition becomes more than what is actually physically happening. This creates a massive separation from reality. And what happens?
The ideas that create the borders become more than the physical expression of life as what this earth is. And, masses of people are moved around, under the guise of what- do any of us really know anymore? These people come from a country that at one time was self sufficient. These people come from a land that has natural resources that are ordered in a way to be owned by a corporation that wants one way for that resource to flow, and that way is to support an illusionary construct of hierarchy where some men, by means of their self defined measure that was LEARNED/ABSORBED/INPUT after they were born as that infant who copied every movement in their world until that ‘ measure’ was given precedence over all other measure. Yet this means that we become what we are exposed to, and we become what we are allowed exposure to, and that when we do not have a measure that is what is best for all, as in a measure that leads to an understanding of what it means to be physical beings on a physical world,  we are in separation from what it is that we are. The default is a combination of past traditions that were really only technical operations to exist on this physical world that we allowed to define us, which is how the separation started; our definitions did not include what we really are, which is the expression of life, that of course must be physical. I mean why create a separation from the physical world into the whole idea of a heaven? This reveals that all religions, were in so many ways, the first tele-visions of separation for those that believed their self definitions were more than another, having lost all sense of life.
Evidently, this happened even before the modern day religions, as the Sumerians and the Babylonians already started the story of Christ, of the child of god, creating a separation into there being one figure head that had a child. The irony is that the leader is the follower, as the leader is really what came before, in many ways, and the information as what came before brought into the child, which happens again and again and again with each generation of physical life on this earth as men. This is to say what leads, is the information that is here as the physical and the awareness that is expressed and passed onto the child. Thus, it is the measure of presence in physical living that is the real ‘ god’ in a way. What we allow to inform us, is what we become. Something of great beauty that can be abused if we all accept and allow it.

The refugees are people, they are life in expression, they are us in another life. They are the means to create heaven on earth. They are the power to put an end to this hierarchy as what people are and are able to be and do. What would be what is best for those lost in the separation as a belief in power, is the real power which is being present and equal to creation, which is the physical.

                  We can stand and become the stewards of heaven on earth, equal and one real-eye-zing the value is life.

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Day 656 It is time to come home.

If I can only focus on one thing at a time, then the small is here right in front of me for me to use to direct myself in ways that do no harm. I have to feel here, the space around me, just as a young baby does, sensing the space as that arm begins to move from it’s side to an object hanging above.
Yesterday, I had a conversation with someone and I started to argue the limitations, instead of taking the small, as the words of and as the physical objects used to tag values onto , creating a story. By this I mean I reacted to the ideas and argued about the ideas, instead of looking at the objects used to back the ideas, and grounding these little things into a practice of living in common sense of the physical.
Within this, in the next moment, as I had slowed down, in response to the previous moment, and breathed, calming myself until I breathed with ease, I let the previous moment go and focused on what was in front of me in practical terms, telling myself that the previous moment was no longer here, and that I could assess and self correct.  In some ways , at the moment, I begin to realize that conceptually, I move in a very sluggish way, and it is here that I lose what may be an ease that has a quality of being fluid, able to assess and address in ways that allow a constant that is stable, and it is remaining within the small, that I can critique and create, as this is how one stands equal and one to creation, as this is how one can move through the eye of the needle. If I rush, as idea, as wanting to impose a picture of belief onto reality around me, I get bigger as my idea, I rush forward with this, and it does not fit, and it causes more conflict , even if some parts are correct, and I get so busy ‘ creating as mind consciousness ‘ only that I lose a sense of physical reality, and the communication with it, that I can no longer fit through the eye of the needle - so to speak.
I can only move with the small, taking the small physical means of life information, and grounding them here, within the practice of how we really live on a physical world that is life information. The physical is really ‘ the higher mind’ as it is what manifests, what forms into living. What uses the physical to build self definitions is what imposes an energy spin onto the physical, sucking from it, destroying it back into nothingness, because what does not support the physical is not small enough to create with- so to speak. Our money system is the model of this inner self interested action without, as it supports the self interest of a few, allowing control from an e-go of separation into ideas, beliefs and opinions that have lost all sense of the small as the means of creation, thus those who are caught in this,  reveal to us what we are allowing ourselves because we participate in this. Here, as mind consciousness only as ideas, beliefs and opinions, as ego,  we are not equal to life, to the small, to the means of physical creation that is life information. And our physical bodies show the degree of separation we have accepted in a loss of our spatial sense that is so alive at birth. Just watch a baby, they are building in into this awareness. This begs the question, “ Is all that information constantly touted through media developing this spatial awareness being built, as a natural act, or is it informing in ways that build a separation from what is real and right in front of us? Who profits from this? No one.
I mean, how does a dancer become a dancer? They ‘ program’ themselves to move their bodies and this information through physical actions that then becomes what directs their flesh with ease and of which can become automated if we do not understand how this works, and as that automation only, over time, lose ourselves to our own creation, leading to a breaking down of our creation as our programmed directives. And/or as we self aggrandize our own self development, becoming that self interested self aggrandizing spinning around as idea, belief and opinion in our picture show minds- or a ‘ good’ programming - instead of enjoying how we can create ourselves, and how this works, and is the means to express ourselves as life.
I may, bring myself back into the physical, forgive what has accumulated, ground it back into the practice of living, taking the small as I can only be in one moment at a time, and directing myself within this understanding to build self trust as what and who I am as life as a physical state of being. The physical can be what helps me to see where I am not equal to creation, and also, be the means of creating, this is the gift of life, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand the rush of the mind as idea, belief and opinion.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to, within this, believe that something, that sum thing as an accumulation as ideas, beliefs and opinions as value judgements can be lost- when in essence that ideological mental picture show is just this, a televised picture show and not myself as life equal to the means of life as the physical, as not myself being focused in equality and oneness with the physical.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to use the small, as what I can focus on in common sense of and as the physical, to ground this here, in and as the real practice of living, where the starting point is the same as the ending point, in and as being equal and one , as being in common sense of the physical, grounded, calm, serene, at ease, being in joy equal and one with creation here, this that is the small creating the means of life in expression here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how this works and to have believed ideas, beliefs and opinions as a mind consciousness only, in separation from real living,  a default system of self validating in self interest, making this  self created and self allowed in-position as imagination/fantasy/ self definition larger than the life that is the gift of expression as who and what I am as a physical beingness here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand in and with every breath, to slow way down, to see realize and understand real living here, becoming into being equal and one with and as life as the physical here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not use the physical reality in conversations as how things work, and to ground using the small, as a thought as what I bring forward as communication, as how men speak, to see the small, as this is what is right in front of me in the moment,  and to, as one and the same, create with the small, in respect of all life as the physical, to become fluid with creation here.

When and as I become confused, I stop, I breath, I slow myself down, and I see realize and understand that I am sorting through a fantasy, an imaginative idea/belief/opinion, creating a conflict that has the nature of confusion that is a separation from practical common sense of the physical, the physical being the means of life in expression, the real ‘ higher mind’ as what builds an information that does no harm, that takes that which respects all life, where life is the value, and the physical being the means of life.

When and as I find myself feeling loopy, I stop, I breath, I slow myself down, and I bring myself here, grounding myself in the physical, using a common sense of the physical, taking the small and creating with it, within the principle of considering all things, and taking that which is good and does no harm, doing as I would want for myself, focusing here, building a self trust, that is fluid, and moves with ease, realizing and accepting the creator that is me as life as the physical, and the physical world around me, and at the moment, the separations that are a storm of not being equal and one with and as the physical world here as a mind consciousness only.
I commit myself to slowing down, to seeing the ghost in the machine of and as the physical body that is me here, and I breath, and I assess the small, focusing on what is real as the physical, as the practice of living on a physical planet here, to respect and care for life, as life is the value, as beingness in expression, equal and one to and with creation as the physical, here.

Within this, I slow myself down and see realize and understand where I have allowed myself to become automated within a personality of values I believe define me,  and I journey myself through being present here, as in respecting the life around me that is physical, until I am present here, equal and one with life, being thankful, humble/small and gracious to and towards the physical world around me, as this is me, equal and one, as life in expression.

I commit myself to realizing, seeing and understanding information flow within and as the mind, a reference of information as mind, collecting into an emotional feeling body, sporadic, uneasy, lacking constancy, bypassing the heart, of and as me, and I stop, I breath, I slow down, and then I breath, and I slow down some more, until I am calm, serene, silent,  and I remember myself to the physical taking the words that show the physical world and equalizing them to common sense of the practice of living on a physical planet, and here, I use my heart, to become one and equal to the hearth, this earth, to sense the space around me, and I assess in every moment, using the small, to realize here-ness, bringing what I hear, here, and grounding this into the practice of and as how the physical functions, in ways that do no harm, and take that which is good. 
Within this, I see realize and understand that all emotion and feeling, cannot touch the sensory skill of the heart, the sensory skill of the hearth of life as this earth, this physical world that is the means of expression of and as life and that understanding how this works brings great joy, as it is what lives equality and oneness to and as life here to be and become an expression of life as life was meant to be here as this is the acceptance of being the creators we were meant to be.

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Day 655 Personalities bouncing around as the pressures of life take their toll.

I was having a conversation about a family friend's daughter who had become the prodigal son- so to speak. This girl had rejected her family traditions and married someone outside of her culture. This is not necessarily a bad thing, but it can lead to division if time is not taken to understand and develop common sense with living, as in understanding the different cultural measures and working together.
When life gets more difficult, when the children begin to turn into teenagers, the differences , if not worked on, and/or if one longs for the comforts of their childhood, because, as I said the stress of life, then personalities, as the measure of our childhood, begin to emerge beyond what motivated a mixed culture relationship.
I married a European, as an America, I had to learn some of their ways. Some I accepted and some I choose the way I had learned to do things, it became mixed. Cultures that are more different, I would imagine would bring on a greater need for balance.
Within the conversation, this daughter of this family, was suddenly interacting with her parents again, after some time estranged from them. She, according to the story I heard, was moving into personality swings. 
The conversation was about how strange her behavior was, how erratic, yet, if we understand how we develop personalities and how they can become a mind consciousness of likes and dislikes, as preferences that define us, in separation from using common sense as physical beingness on a physical world, a time in one’s life in a time of difficulty, will begin to move into what is comfortable within oneself as a measure of living, and begin to resort to that measure, not seeing that this whole scenario, reveals how we work as personalities that are the measure of values we learned during childhood. A prodigal son is the story of rejection of these values, and a return to them when things get tough.
Ofcourse there are children who reject family values and do well in times of conflict. Any measure is possible. It is not a one-size situation. What is revealed here is that we become personalities that cannot get along with others which means our personalities are measures of values, of beliefs, that we hold as bigger than being practical living. Our likes and dislikes are ideas about things, and do not really have anything to do with accepting the physical world around us with understanding. As such we lose sight of the small measure of being in common sense of what we do in every move on a physical planet. We become walking value judgements instead of being the practice of respecting what life is, a physical form. I mean why separate physical reality from life in the first place?
Because of our personalities, we have a monetary system that does not support and value life. We have an education system that suppresses life by placing a multi sensory being into a box to abstract knowledge and information to associate from in assessing the physical world, when this is placing the cart before the horse! That does not work, and it can’t work and it is not working. If it only works for a few, then it does not work!

We have a medical system that is not about health, it is about maintaining dis-ease for profit. Our health systems are considered alternative, and our emotional states, which are our personalities, are regarded as what makes us special when that could not be farther from the truth. If a feral child can learn to smell like a wolf, what is special about us that we have the capacity to understand this physical world and emulate it with ease, developing great abilities that would make living on this earth really fun! I mean it would be really cool to be able to smell that rabbit from a distance instead of looking on an iPhone! It would be really cool to sense this space with all of me, rather than seeing a picture about something, as a picture has no depth, cannot be sensed through smell-for example, nothing to touch that reveals what is soft about something or what is textured.  This is why we believe that going and shooting a tiger defines us, without any real consideration of the tiger’s body being the means for a sensory life, and what a sudden interruption of that life feels like! None of us would want this for ourselves, not one. When our emotional lives are upset, we get very reactive and dislike this interruption, seeing it as a threat- even when this is not using the means of the physical body as what we are, and really sensing the world around us. Thus, even in our limitations that we believe are real, we dislike the pain of loss, and it is this loss of an idea, belief, opinion that is of energy that we have allowed to define us, that is what separates us from being equal and one to the physical, where we would respect the physical, as the tiger, and do no harm because this is the real nature of ourselves as life.

We become the good and the ' bad' as values we believe define us, which are our personalities. These are the measure of our experience, as what we take from our parents as they are our early environment.  We become a personification. In understanding this, we can understand personality dis-orders as being what is not equal to real practical living. When things don't work, we return to the values we learned as children, because they are the most imbedded and have a comfort value attached. Thus, we become what we practice, and if this is not respecting life, our person-hoods/self definitions cause conflict with reality, because they cannot work in practice if they are not equal to what it means to live a physical life, which is to live in respect of, and forgiveness towards the physical world/creation manifest. Our measure within must be equal to the measure without.

Friday, August 21, 2015

Day 654 I may ground myself here, into equality and oneness with the physical to stand equal and one to life.

If I carry around my past, as all the experiences I have that are charged with fear, I cannot see the potential of what is here as the physical as life in expression. My reptilian brain stands with the weight of that charge, slowing me down, and all I see is threat and possibility of what I fear happening, which is a fear of being called a name that was my fear. So, I run from a fear of being called something. Which means I feel quilty about something I did or did not do. Do I think of correction within my actions or have I allowed the fear to become greater than the rate of correction?

I can only be here in this moment, moving equal to the physical, thus I can only address my fear in practical application, I can in essence only give myself to the moment and forgive any name I may or may not be called. I can slow way down, assess and correct. The principle of doing what is best for all, in every moment , in small detail, is always right in front of me. A shadow of fear, is the illusion.

Acting in self interest only, is fear because we live on a symbiotic physical planet,  meaning the means of being is physical, so cross referencing physical reality, is what grounds us. If I reference my fear, my past directed by this fear, I cannot see this physical means, and I separate myself from my own natural spatial awareness of this physical world. I then slowly age, no longer being present and equal to life, and I notice this in how when I walk, I begin to lose sense of that step before that door, or can no longer drive my car. I have separated myself from life and become a mind consciousness only. 

 I have become the limited knowledge and information that directs in associative ways only, very linear ways, so much so that I can not envision beyond a certain consequence of understanding, I can no longer see the whole and the parts, as was the gift of life as me as a child. As I child, I had not yet learned to communicate in words what I could see, and the way words were used, was not equal and one with the physical world. I learned to use words in fear, in a limited game of association only, each word charged up with reference to the world of fear, of inferiority, as a mind consciousness system only. 

I can only , in every breath, step outside of my comfort zone, and live in each moment, within the principle of what is best for all, and be thankful for every limitation I believe comes before me, because every limitation I accept is the shadow of my belief, opinion and idea based on fear and not the real presence of myself. My potential is so much more than the limited measure of and as fear, as my own constructed and accepted mind consciousness. 

I may allow the presence of myself as life, that was and is always here, to breath, and to live in the moment. And I may give as I am as life, and receive  the potential of life that is here all around me. I may be the absolute purpose of life, and become equal and one with and as life here. 

The means are in every moment, as I can address and be the small measure in every moment because what is real, as the physical is here right in front of me in every moment.

In every moment, the choice is to stand as solution, as what life really is. Life is physical, the physical is life information. Thus I reference the physical, with every breath, in gratitude, to realize there is nothing to fear, as life is right here, as the physical, to reveal in practice the way and the means of living. 

Any resistance means I have fallen into my mind consciousness , a valley of smoke and mirrors, of judgement, of values all charged up with emotion in self interest, that becomes an end game of a death for a false god composed of beliefs, opinions and ideas, that suck the substance of life from me, until I am a whitened wick of limited knowledge and information, moving by association manifest as telling the same limited and justifying story again and again, never having accepted life, and equalized my within to the without, my above to the ground that is the means of me as the physical world below my feet. 

 I stand here, equal and one, to and with the physical world, in support of myself as I am life. I take that which is good, which allows the full potential of life to stand as life, equal and one, in oneness and equality as all things here, as what is here, as the physical is life inFORMation. The scream of limitation as my reptilian brain can only be a large as I accept and allow it, what is real is life, as the physical world here. I stand here, equal and one to the physical, and I ground all time into referencing the physical world around me to bring an accepted and allowed mind consciousness into equality and oneness with and as life, as the physical, as this is real life, this is heaven on earth. I focus here, as this is what allows me to act in accord with life and since i can only move here in this moment, in small steps, the way is always before me. I accept and allow myself to be here. I practice physical living = life.

Thursday, August 20, 2015

Day 653 What if the gift of patience? The gift of self discovery.

I was standing talking to a crowd, all the while it was as though the weight of fear was there, in each and every one,  I noticed that this sense of futility came up, and yet, I could see this and remain within moving through this, as in not only seeing this, and speaking up for what grounds and allows a more self directive capacity, the self discovery through the limitation.

And I realize that in my life, there were opportunities where I could have slowed way down and described what was happening within me, with those around me in my world.  Instead I reacted, kept insight to myself, and did not communicate openly. I had allowed a chaos of reaction, as energized ideas to define me over what was best for all. I had rejected communicating the measure of myself, and in so doing, dis-allowed the time to process through into an understanding, openly, that those around me were the same as me, lost in a mind consciousness game that separated one’s self from practical living. I allowed this, I accepted this.

It is like, in all practical measure, one cannot sort out what is not brought to the table.

Fear is really an inferiority to life, a loss of one’s innate common sense as a biological machine composed of the same things as the world around us. Our personalities are what hides what we fear, thus our personalities reveal what we reject and how we have projected ideas onto this physical world’s objects to avoid losing our self definitions that are a protection and self defense for what we believe defines us so we can survive never slowing down to realize that life is eternal, and need not waste time in survival and that our systems are a reflection of this belief in survival and not what is real as creation information as the physical. What we are allowing to define us, is a personification of values to hide our separation from ourselves as life. 

Having no real substance, this manifests as energy. Try sustaining this, and one would need a break, as it is not what allows one to stand eternally, never needing to hide. to escape from one’s community, never needing to snap and be impatient.

Thus, for myself, the choice is to become patience, to forgive myself and others, and to stand as what is best for all, using the gift of life, as my physical self, to see realize and understand what is practical and connected to reality, a physical reality, because this is what I really am here.

The smoke and mirrors of fear can only last a short time, thus I can stand in stability and calm, serenity and silence, to allow the revelation of separation as the personality gasps its last stance into seeing, realizing and understanding its own limitation- and this is what I would want for myself. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not use the gift of patience.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to want to rush, to run from limitation, as though the energy of others, as idea, belief and opinion could define me, when what I feared was the opposition to my own protective personification.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear the measure as belief, opinion and idea expressed as energy, as projected personification, not seeing realizing and understanding how this was a separation from practical living, from what grounded presence into taking that which is good and does no harm, as this is the real nature of all men on earth.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to be patient within and without, to and towards all the life around me, to move past the smoke and mirrors of fear,  into what is eternal, as myself grounding in equality and oneness with and as life here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear the ghost in the machine.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have not shared my own ghost that I accepted and allowed within myself as my physical body, to realize equality and oneness with and as life here, and as this to stand equal and one with what is eternal, as what takes that which is good and does no harm.

When and as I find myself becoming anxious, I stop, I breath, I slow myself down, I become patient, as the gift of life is right here, and I use patience to weather the storm of energy, as opinion, belief and idea rushing to shield a mis-take on reality, as life, and to see, realize and understand that ability of life to self dis-cover through the storm of voices of justification that is in essence  a process and solution into seeking and self dis-covering life.

When and as I find myself believing the game of separation to be bigger than myself, I stop, I breath , I slow myself down, and I ground myself here, allowing the mis-take on real living to rage into self dis-covery.

When and as I find myself fearing energy, as self validating of personalities, I stop, I breath, I slow myself down and I see, realize and understand the infinitesi-mal  of value judgements spinning as a mind consciousness seeking oneness and equality to and with life here and as this, I become patient, standing serene, calm, silent, breathing, forgiving myself within and without, as what is here is myself in another life, and I facilitate within this silent patience the movement out of mind consciousness energy into and through the ability of self to self discover what separates from life into what grounds self into equality and oneness with this practical physical world, as this world is the means of life in expression.