Monday, July 31, 2017

More deconstruction of MLM forms Day 787

I have had this back chat that is, as always, a complaint, which is a projection of blame and spite to and towards things around me, as expectations of how things should be. This is myself not looking here, not doing the math, to see, realize and understand here, this reality, this physical reality. This reality that on paper is slowly being owned by a few, which begs a question, as to what is real, as the separation from here, as religion and so much of our entertainment, and the very design of our schools, and taxing system, is all about separation from looking here. It is a diversion tactic, as what is real, is made insignificant, and what is real, the real means, is through paper castles, owned by a few. The system is a reflection of how much we make our personification larger than the reality. Thus, it is each of us, that allows this diversion tactic, because it is simply a reflection of what we are allowing within ourselves. What we practice, accumulates and becomes what we are, because it is what we practice personalizing, personifying. It is composed of relationships.  

We are a twist on that statement of and as ‘ trying to get a fish to climb a tree.”  We are, trying to get ideas, beliefs and opinions of ourselves to be more real than the reality around us. That busy work of self abdication of self responsibility becomes a personification of values, that creates a busyness of rejecting all of what we are as the real values that compose this physical reality, and we become a kind of displaced form, like a fish tryng to climb a tree. It cannot work, does not work, and will not work, we need only look around and realize this in application, even within simply realizing how the system, a system that controls this lack as well, that is also a mirrored reflection of maintaining the distraction and taking control of what is actually real. The irony is that nothing can be owned, and everything that is here is freely given, as it is the means of creation, as it is what manifests from what is practiced. What is real, can withstand the timing of a state of separation that is a out of synch focus. In a way, one must learn control of self, before one can move forward effectively.  Creation is amazing! It is a gift.

Thus within my own process, somehow, at this point I am looking at once again the MLM umbrella , as a belief, that is warped and then related to any form of structure, thereby being a misinterpretation of order and structure. 

A tree is a structure, where the sum of parts work together creating a whole.  One could label and define separate parts as more than or less than, when each part must have the other part to function. A multi level marketing form, is of separate parts living separate and small actions that lead to the end gal of what that multi level form is bringing to the market place of reality. A system of bringing things to market, is composed of different parts doing different sums, as actions that complete the whole and bring forward the things that are there to, hopefully improve our existence.  There are schemes where money is transferred within this, that are supposed to increase one’s money. As we all can realize, this can be abused, and yet the basic inherent form is not a bad, if anything it is natural. Yet, would not a government, that desires to own, under the guise of government, hidden behind a corporation as that which seems to eventually own things, that also works as a multi level marketing form, push, as manipulate when a form is abused, thougt as said, inherently good, manipulate within demonizing a form, and placing all under that umbrella, making itself larger than life, as that government and hidden corps, behind this projected fish being told to climb a tree? I mean, it begins to become quite obvious. It is astounding that we conceptually can’t see what is in plain sight, as we are all so busy projecting our own personal survival belief systems, we cannot see what is here, because we stand in front of our own created curtains! I mean, perhaps in the story of the Wizard of Oz, the mis-take was that that curtain, was not in front of the man manipulating the buttons, it was a curtain self composed, self accepted, self allowed ! 

Have a look, within words that are swimming around in our educational research system. This term, I should say, of and as a zone of proximal development, means that one comes forward within knowing a form to move with, so well, one then expands in one’s awareness of the form. When one moves from where one is at, one expands. if one tries to jump that expansion, one has a greater difficulty, because one is having to process more information suddenly, instead of building from what is known, into what is as of yet unknown. And this, with that inherent ability to absorb and understand. All of this, can be slowed down, creating confusion, if one is not equal to where and what one is doing, or trying to do something in which what one physically is, is not well suited for and as.  Liken this to learning to play an instrument, one masters the instrument to a certain extent and then begins to play with others, and then can begin to register the reactions of the audience, and even play with the sound, in terms of seeing what directs the focus of the audience onto the music, etc. This is all the means of moving into greater awareness, much like moving into the awareness of the multiple levels of and as how something works. This is the natural ability of each of us, thus removing opportunity is to slow this down, and stagnate this. In a system of survival, it is going to happen, that the natural ability of each of us, will face this natural ability to expand, from happening. Within this, I can see where the entertainment industry is that means to an end, and here, there is nothing wrong with information being shared via media ( real live connection may be best, but media sharing is also a way to begin to build a general scaffold ! ) . In all of this, what we do, as what we allow at the moment, one could not really criticize the parts, yet, when relating the parts to the whole, and to allowing a human being to realize their potential, suddenly that form, of good sounding parts, begins to fall short. Yet, there is a whole system, of multiple levels, holding that market of offering, in place! And that is being held in place, as a means of survival, yet, overall, each part, that is capable of realizing this, is ignoring this, Ultimately, as I state in words here, in relation to this, we are not stupid, yet we are accepting ignorance, in self interest, and that becomes a stagnation of our capacity, and an abuse on those freely given resources that are the gift of self realization as life. 

Sometimes, things cannot be denied, no matter how much what has been accepted and allowed, as that personification that screams survival, is and does, the separation from reality is visible in plain sight if we take the time to slow down and LOOK at the patterns, and how much the words we speak, are not grounded in the practical living reality around us. Within this, I had the thought yesterday, that words are in themselves, the slowing down of sound, to allow man to really begin to LOOK, they are, a great means of realizing the math, the real math, and the presented math, as structure around us in this world, and how much sound is manipulated. The game becomes like shifting sands, never having the same form each day, hard to catch, seemingly impossible to realize, yet, within each, is the inherent capacity, to realize each grain of sand, and each shifting wind, to see the sum of the parts in their constant movement to and towards balance, where it is only ignorance that warps that inherent expression of life, always here, to move into what is best for all, if we simply allow ourselves to realize who and what we are, as life. 

In realizing the good, and choosing what does no harm, we can rejoice in the children to come, and the parents to share and show, to move from our present zone of proximal development into being equal and one to the essence of the expression of life, which is to create and expand and live. It is time to master the instrument of life that is you, which means mastering your words, to learn to sound the inherent and natural creation that is you as life. 

Sunday, July 30, 2017

Teenagers and Multi Level Markets Day 786

Yesterday I was talking with a father about their children. There is a lot of conflict with the children in terms of being self directed and at ease in their world. I have to remember that we as humans are happy when we are focused and anxious when we are not.

When I was in my teems, spending summers in a summer resort town on the ocean, I started to have jobs at 16. I would go to the job some days a week, and earn money. I felt a sense of accomplishment in doing this. Also, there were may other families doing the same, thus there were a number of teenagers my age in the town, working and interacting with one another. This no longer exists in this summer resort town. Families no longer come here for the whole summer.  Thus, there are no groups of teenage children working and having time to interact on the beaches or at local summer dances, with time in between to sail or meet at ponds to swim and interact.

This person with whom I spoke, was telling me how they had a summer job at 14, where they would work from 2 in the afternoon until 12 at night. They earned their own spending money, and learned to work with a group to accomplish set goals , as run a restaurant effectively, living a sense of accomplishment and know how, in practical ways and means. This no longer exists either, as there are laws within how many hours a child under 18 can work. I had this with my son when he started summer jobs. He could only work a small number of hours a week. On the one hand I can understand this, as anything can be abused. And yet, in this summer town,  this gave a 14 or 16 year old a sense of accomplishment, and brought the opportunity of valuable lessons in working together as a team.  It is astounding, that somehow, this is no longer allowed, especially in a summer town.  It begs the question as to why our teenage children are having behavioral problems, in relation to not being happy, not being focused, not having the opportunity to be focused and have a sense of accompishment  What is it that they have to focus upon? Or, is what they have the opportunity to focus upon not enough for them to be fulfilled as human beings? Have we allowed a system that is so worried about abuse that this worry has actually become a limitation that curtails the capacity of the natural abilities of a human being? How does one not see that in existing within a doom and gloom scenario, one actually creates a loss of opportunity that causes a state of anxiety that is simply a lack of being able to apply one’s self to develop real abilities to live processing information in ways that enable one to really do in this reality? 

I have to look at myself here, to slow down and look at my own anecdotal experiences to see my own resistances and suppressions that curtailed opportunities and lead to becoming a limited movement in this reality. Where was I not willing, because of worry, as only seeing worse case scenarios, that became larger than life, because I was not living a real processing, as a real respect for this practical and physical world? Where was I accepting limitations based on projected ideas that was only myself not focused on the practical as the physical around me? Where was I allowing more a worry about what others might think based on a limited set body of values that had some good, yet were not myself focused on this reality, to consider all things, and realize the totality of what I am here? Where was I moving within associating to a limited construct of self defining values that were a separation from this reality? Who was I within what I allowed, as only thinking  about myself, and a construct of values, resonant within, that ignored what I am before this construct accumulated into a elephant in the room, as my hard drive of a resonance of what I accepted and allowed, as value judgements that became a busy work I protected, and thereby distracted myself from real looking and seeing of this physical and practical reality. One some levels, this becomes so evident, and so in our face. The separation becomes so loud, of such a static, it is a wonder we have not realized this sooner. 

I have gone through and read articles that attempt to disqualify systems. Mostly, as this point in time, I see them as eliminating competition, or demonizing anything that could possibly turn this tide of a resonant disconnect from reality,  from the practical, from what would direct a non-focus into an effective focus, thereby removing anxiety and bringing forward what would make humans happy, as being focused here, processing the information of what is here, and what has been allowed as a resonant state of separation, composed of limited value systems. 

What I notice about articles of nay sayers, is that it appears to be a career. This means that someone is paying a person to do this, it is their job. Since there is a small body of people on this planet that have accumulated massive amounts of wealth, and become ideas that they are social engineers, that naysayer, writing against things, must be paid by them. Otherwise, they simply and practically cannot survive! It is simple. it needs no conspiracy dragon adage! 

There other complaint is placed under the umbrella of Multi Level Marketing, where it was stated in one article, that one could remove the middle man and lower costs. Somehow this is a lie-by-omission because it does not consider that we actually have a government with many many people processing multiple sheets of paper, that must be paid, were it not then our taxes would not be so hi! Why is it in one area, there is this need to remove the processors of things, and in another, they must exist? I mean, to put up 30 feet of fence in my yard today, had an estimate of about 6000$. This endeavor takes layers of human activity, each part of the series of steps to get that fence onto my yard, must be paid a living wage, or the whole society begins to crumble. How can a reaction to something, in the form of an article, suggest that something could be cheaper, and is a MLM scheme, when nothing in this reality can be done by one? Such an argument moves so against the tide of practical reality, it is astounding we still fall victim to such reasoning. If we are not actually paying for something in this reality, we are not considering the labor of others, period. using an tiny sound bite, and repeating it again and again, does not make what is said so.  In contrast, we have young teenagers that are not having effective opportunities to become more responsible and at the same time earn something, to then begin to learn about money and group interaction within a set goal, and we have troll articles demonizing the very form that must exist in order to get things done, under the heading of being a scam as an MLM. It makes absolutely no sense,  On a local level to pay the labor to set up the fence, and pay for the must-be-in-practical-common-sense labor to get that fence up, must cost something! This one little story, as a sequence of events on a step-by-step timeline, belies the information in storied article format! 

If we cannot process information into, onto living reality, we will follow these stories not realizing they make no sense, and are written by someone somewhere that must be paid, because if they are not earring a living, they cannot be sitting at a computer writing these very formulated articles that are essentially a math of sound bites that are not reality, and that use, by slight of hand, seemingly anecdotal evidence that can sound so real, but has little common sense of reality. 

We need only look at our living environments and realize that we must earn for our labor, or we will not survive. And, that no one labor is more than another. And, that those who have learned to use words to a certain extent, have the responsibility to call such things out by name, even within being patient towards those who have not had the opportunity.  I don’t think that putting up a fence is a multi level marketing scheme, nor is anything that people are doing as a system. The way things can be manipulated is astounding, especially when tiny sound bites as words, are echoed by those who have accumulated wealth and believe they must social engineer this reality, must be realized as a protection and defense expression, one that uses slight of hand to eliminate competition. It is a warping of reality. Yet, this is what we do, when we allow this, and do not slow down to process effectively. It is when we do not slow down to do the math, and realize how things are done. 

How does this relate to the teenagers that are no longer living early stages of having a summer job and learning to work with a group and earning money? These teenagers that have more extreme behavioral issues?  And, in a system where the best paying jobs are those for the present government system? These jobs that are the multi levels of the market that supports a government that has become a corporation that funnels one-size-fits-all profit making schemes that can then hire that troll to manipulate sound bites to serve that real pyramid in the sky scheme? I mean, look, this is what this is? And, why so many in these fields reject the consequence as a reaction to this, as our present president, who is moving to limit this very structure? Life is by nature, a movement into balance. There for, when one things grows too large, what will come forward is that which moves towards balance.  That balance, will move towards removing an elephant in the room, that multi-level-market of earning to survive, that has not considered all things!  Our market place, has become so limited, it must have a reaction in the overall body. The anecdotal actions of lack, accumulate, and they grow to balance out what is and cannot work. Therefor, the only choice, is to do what is best for all. It is that simple.  To believe that it is not that simple, is to be in separation from reality, from the practical, and yet, the practical is all around us! 

What we are essentially doing with our teenagers, is trying to get a tiger to live effectively in a zoo. It cannot work, it will not work, and it is not working. It is that simple.  That structure of creating that zoo, is not necessarily all bad, as it is a structure, as it takes many hands to build, as no one single thing in this world was built by one, and no label of a CEO being the superman that created something, is the real story. Multi level markets are how things are done- it is that simple. Demonizing them, creating a little sound bite of information, colored with a value judgement, does not remove the practical reality - unless we do not look.  To those who react as a statement of all labor endeavors being placed under multi-level-marketing schemes, I will answer, that we must not confuse how things are done as the order of multi level markets being how things are done as the labor of men.  Again, we must not confuse deceptive lending schemes with what is a natural form as the reality of multi level markets.  That fence I wanted to put in my yard, costs what it does, because it practically involves a multi-level-market to process freely given natural resources, as the infamous, farm to table market is and does!  We have to ask ourselves why so much of our food is subsidized. Here,  why are we are not directly choosing with our own earning, to pay real costs? That also is a manipulation and in reality, is a network of marketing, with many levels, of control in terms of what we eat. It is a form of an inversion of multi level market forms. This is a form that has a good as a form, that is being abused in the self interests of a few. Do the math, play with the numbers and see the real score.  When we pay the greater of goods as real costs, we choose to support the multi-levels of the necessary means to bring that product to others. When we allow schemes that subsidize that, we give away our awareness of reality and we allow others to decide for us, and they in turn, become addicted to that power, and then create a platform that buys the space to place manipulative and threatening words of and as a play with sound bites that have a threat of you-are-either-with-us-or-against-us, which is all an illusory show of deception.  Those who have jobs supporting that mis-use of a natural form, fear losing that means of survival despite realizing what they are doing. As we have allowed money to determine life, or one could say, to be god. 

In reality, we are unhappy when we are not focused, ( a tiger in a zoo cannot be focused, as utilizing their real capacity), and happy when we are focused, as in full employment of what we are in total, which is physical organic expressions of life, that can build, as the many are what builds anything on this earth,  as being the means to the end. Therefor, we live, in a way, in relation to what I compose here; we are a living multi level market of physical relationships communicating to be in support of life. When extreme imbalances happen, the counter action cannot be suppressed  The illusions of paid trolls, which so many of our supposed news writers are today, is supporting a system of inequality to life, building a very limited cage that is not in consideration of who and what we are here on this physical planet called earth, that is life, in expression. This expression is a beautiful design, if we would only realize our real value, as being life, and embrace what is here, choosing the principle of doing what is best for all, which in itself, is the perfect means to socially engineer what is natural, which is that the nature of real creation, is to take that which is good and does no harm.  There need be no other law, as this is the law that is equal to the real nature of the essence of what we are.  This functions as a series of relationships, multiple ones, that exist interconnected on many levels, to create a market of sharing that is natural and is the means to an end, as creating a fabric of and as the life that is us, in expression.  Our teenagers must have the opportunity to participate effectively within that, as it orders them, and teaches them the means to the end, which is how a multi level market is a form in existence that is how things work. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I cannot process information, effectively.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear moving against a conspiracy dragon of information, and that within this, I will be punished for not gping along with something, when  can speak up, and realize to remove illusions, and ground myself here, even within the consequences of accepting and allowing such dis-realization to exist as existential outflows of a lack of respect for the practical and my own ability that is natural to be common sense here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into anxiety, and to not process the information that is me here, as a physical state of being, as who and what I am here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that everything I accept and allow, comes to resonate within and as me, as the capacity for me to understand, as reflect on, what is here, is natural, and a means to understand, to realize actions that are what i would want for myself, within and as realizing that punishment is not being a state of living solutions, as respecting all things, taking that which is good and does no harm.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to punish myself for not immediately recognizing as doing the math in common sense of the practical on a physical world, and when and as I find myself blaming myself, for not recognizing an expression as a processing of information, to live what is best for all, that it is not to label myself as being in lack, it is to look, forgive, and process what is here, as be in recognition of, a thankful for, what I am here, as a physical being, to see realize and understand to live the only choice, which is the choice, to do no harm, taking that which is good, lending opportunity in relation to realizing the multi levels, dimensions of and as what is the reality as the market that is this physical and practical living expression as life here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize and respect the mark, the form, the small as the sum of all parts, as what is here, to realize an effective math, as form and function, of this reality, where all things are related, as symbiotic, working in tandem that is overall, life in expression, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have accumulated a resonance that being here, and processing the information here, is too much, and thereby, casing myself anxiety, as focusing only on this, instead of using that same capacity to focus here, and respect all things, to build real understanding in respect of the very nature of life, to live the principle of oneness and equality, to live what is best for all, in thought word and deed, to become a architect of life, realizing that all that is here, is me, in another life, of same substance.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I am not processing information effectively, as what this is, is to realize that as resonances of limited and set bodies of information, causing personas of polarities, of the game of good and evil, right and wrong, as a false morality, that becomes a religion that is built from the environment that is the past, I must slow down, and realize the patterns, and then ground them into the practical, a process that is realized step by step, to see more directly the multi levels/dimensions of and as, what composes this reality, so the within as me, reflects and realizes the equality in substance of what is around me, as being the means to the end of and as who and what i am as a physical state of being, that is life in expression, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that there is no rush within this, and that I am here, and can stand in the quiet that can hear, as process forms and expressions, to build an understanding that can then make choices that are in accord with the nature of life, which is to take that which is good and does no harm.

When and as I find myself becoming anxious, I stop, and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I see, realize and understand, through becoming calm, not rushing, remaining steady in listening, fearing no loss, realizing where i have an expectation of a gain, and come into respect of, the multi levels of the market of the sharing of goods and services that take the labor and resources, freely given, of this reality, that are in support of this living reality, that have also been abused, and ground myself in the practical realizing a resonance of separation, that is a story, of a series of values, and events, reflecting values, that need not define the moment that is here, in a practical world that is physical.

When and as I find myself moving into anxiety, I stop and I breath, and  slow myself down, and I check myself to realize habits turned resonant as belief, opinions and ideas, to forgive this, and do the math, within and as what is best for all, as the math of consequences, of and as polarities of value judgements based on a false morality, existent and yet able to refocus, into and with respect for all things here, to begin to reform through unfolding, or dis-covering what is natural, which is the essence of life as substance within each and everything here, to bring forward the nature of life, as the expression of and as taking that which is good and does no harm.

When and as I find myself becoming confused, I stop and I breath, and I check the resonant voices of and as beliefs, opinions and ideas, and I forgive , process the information, to realize my own in-formation, to then inform myself in respect of this physical living reality, to choose, as act, to and towards the nature of life, which is to take that which is good, respect all things, and choose what does no harm here. 

Friday, July 28, 2017

Feeling and Structure and walking a dog. Day 785

I notice that there appears to me to be two sides happening. Somehow they are within utilization of an inherent absorbent ability and utilizing structure. 

Somehow, the gap, must come together between the two as I see it at the moment. It appears to me that there are two schools, so-to-speak, of moving from sensing as discovering,  within not bringing in too much structure, and utilizing structure as a means to an end.  In reality, it is both, it is a balance and interchange within both. Too little structure, and one spends too much time in finding self direction. Too much structure being given, as a form, to only follow, and one misses a sense of self within having perspective within that structure, which can in itself, cause a separation, and fear, as insecurity, because one loses grounding in a way. It somehow ties into the fact that we learn more from a sum of parts, the subject and the object, cross referencing within the two, that must come to a balance, where the processing between both moves with greater awareness. After all, separation is caused through limitation.

I find when I have back chat in competition, as comparing myself to another, or from a point of fearing to lose something, which means I want to win something, I am in a point of fear, and hence self interest, forgetting who and what I am here. What  I find supports me, is to realize that I have this world around me, the physical, and myself, and the group, mirroring the same as me, working through processes that are similar to my own.  Meaning, there remains this idea that I have to do this myself, which is a truth, and yet, it must also, must need, the world around me, the people, the plants, the animals, this as a structural awareness.  

This balance between listening, as ordering, as listing, form and function, movement and expression, be it of a considerate focus of all things, or be it, within a state of separation, as self interest, always with a quality of and as a “rush” being present.  When I have back chat in competition, the comparisons come up, and I am within ordering in self interest and not considering all things, where solutions are always the way forward. It is seeing the thoughts and what is in-between the thoughts, it is always, being grounded in realizing I am, and that I-am is physical. Within things that have happened in my life, what remains is myself here. What has real longevity, is the I am. What is around me, is what allows the I am. This is in a way, the same as god is.  Some people have said to me. “ that is Buddism.”  Yet, Christ said the same thing.  This is the same as the story of the Hansel and Gretel fairy tale, as the old woman in the woods, is the princess in another life, thus we are all the same, life in expression, each an expression in another life. We are here. I am.  Have we ever asked how that old woman came to the end of her life living in those woods? What shaped and formed her. I mean, we tend to choose families and cultures similar to our own, because we understand that our surroundings influence our children! 

The power to call things by their name, is being the living word. This is also buried, or made evident in our fairy tales. 

In this, a fear of making a mistake, is an illusion, and that same ability to move from sensing a form, to see structure, is also realizing the structure, as the structure is the means to the end, just as the physical is the means to the end, as though both are the same. Creativity, as I see it at this point, is realizing change can happen, within realizing to always  choose what does no harm. 

It is the realization that too much water is detrimental, as is too little, there must be a balance. This same realization is used to divide and conquer, in, for example, our health systems, that use imbalance to make a profit before bringing forward health from creating balance in the basic needs of the physical to remain in balance and function. Instead, imbalance, is created, to force needs that then must be balanced out. Yet, this is done in a way to perpetuate the need for pills, that perpetual payment, where one’s labor moves towards purchasing that pill, for the rest of one's life, where that pill is not concerned with creating stability, but maintaining an instability to not only direct labor, but also, to create a perpetual state of imbalance, because if one discovered this overall, it would no longer have the power to influence one, and one would begin to discover real support. This means, as the distraction is so ubiquitous, that it is a busy work to maintain the deception, because the potential to understand is more natural. It is like a perpetual static. This is much like the back chat within me, when I move into competition, manifest as back chat of a projection of a more and a state of being less.  And it is the same, in that what is here, as I am, is the physical, which moves in creative ways, as the principle of and as to do no harm, which is to consider all things. 

I have two ears and one mouth, which means that it is to listen more than speak.  Since I have back chat, at times, it means to listen even more, than speak, because of my own separations and the practice of listening to here, to the I am, to realizing what is in between the thoughts, as the thoughts are colored with value judgements and are not that kind of reflection of what is here, as those moments, when I am interrupted and  see through the veil of my own spin in value judgements, based on the past, based on the acceptance and allowance of a culture that is based on an environment and that experience made a construct or structure to guide one, that forgot from whence it came, as the physical world.  It is , as I see it, still a stagnation into fearing to really feel.  And yet, real joy would be to really feel. Within this, not fearing to make mistakes, and that includes using past mistakes to justify where I am at at present within bringing myself back into equality and oneness in respect of and as what and who I am as a physical state of being, that means living practical awareness, here.  Because, creation is practical, which is really cool, and so simple. What is in plain sight is simple, it is a chaos that separates it.

Yesterday, I was asked to go and to talk with some people that had experienced a bad situation regarding a dog belonging to someone I know. I knew that I was going to have to face their venting, and I realized it could not define me, and that it was to apologize, and lend my regards in understanding why they were angry. I hesitated when it came to do this, as I did not want to face that metaphysical state of blame and anger coming at me.  This is my past, and it is a fear of loss, a fear of being defined at the values within the venting. I have to tell myself that I have faced such and not reacted, and even done this, before I started to walk this process, in quite natural ways and means. Still, there is some fear of this, a fear of facing this event. it is a pattern of not wanting to face this, and becoming angry. Yet, what would I want if the tides were turned and I was them? Where I am at at the moment, is to realize there are only solutions, where punishment is not being and living a structural means of bringing forth a presence that lives not having a repeat of the problem.  Thus, even though I realize this on the one hand, there remains this fear of facing this chaos, because it will be loaded with so many things - or so I believe. This is more than likely, yet, not necessarily so. There may come more compassion than I am expecting.  Which, overall, I have been surprised with before. And, lol, expected other times, only to find I face a lot of anger and venting!

Living solutions, as realizing there are no problems and only solutions, means taking responsibility, no matter what. It means investigating until one understands enough. Fear is, in many ways, not having investigated something enough. It means not having really looked and considered more than one’s immediate survival needs. It is recognizable in being caught in a construct of the lesser evil, which causes a spin of weighing values, which is not being in that space between thoughts, where one realizes the existent structure and the creation in expression, at the same time, feeling the creative ability inherent in the overall design, to change and choose what does no harm, and respects all things. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself t move into competition, as living a comparison within values, in self interest, not being realizing and understanding that the I am that is me, is within a limited idea, belief, or opinion, in fear of survival, and forgetful of the I am, that is me, that is here, that is the physical creation in expression here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to project outside of me that there is a lack within me, that I must defend, which is myself not being present, equal and one, feeling here, being in the simple joy of realizing what is here, is me, in another life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself toot see, realize and understand, what it means to be strong, for example, as I have lived this , within and as other areas of my life, where i was steady, and stable, and directive, thus, as life, in feeling here, this is actually a more natural state of being, than allowing back chats within and as me, of comparison, imagining success or worst-case-scenarios.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear, being myself, feeling here.

i forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear feeling, intros instance, the anger and venting of another, as though this can define me, as though this is impossible to deal with, when it is a consequence of other actions of lack, where the only solution is to realize directive structures that lend ease and a absence of a fear of feeling, as in this case it is a dog that has had little social interaction opportunities with other dogs. thus, the solution is here, and can be walked, and the anger from those who suffered the consequences of the lack in the dog, within the present system, will and may come towards me, as from one perspective, they are the victims of this lack.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when and as I react within and as protection and defense, within and as what is here, is to realize actions of complete responsibility to and towards what is best for all, as life, as living solutions, realizing that there are no problems only solutions, here, and to see, realize and understand that there must be more awareness structurally of and as the practical applications that have not been lived, in relation to this dog, that are the solution.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that just as it is well known in the research in reading development, most criminals are those who have no means of communication, that in itself causes a consequence of greater frustration and inability to communicate effectively, building a seed of dissonance and disconnect, where the inability to communicate, causes greater and greater loss of opportunity, leading to more ineffective behaviors in social situations, a self perpetuating storm of dis-clarity, and aggressive behaviors,  where the real solution is to rebuild effective structures of  a reciprocal nature as being able to simultaneously call things by name, and respect what is here as the very structure and expression of the physical, and the creative nature of this, as the ability to change, within and as realizing the only choice is to do no harm, as to respect all things, here. 

When and as I find myself moving into fear, into believing it is too much to face the storm, of and as not moving in and as the realization in practical action, in every moment, as realizing there are no problems and only solutions, I stop, and i breath, and I slow myself down, and I recognize my own pattern of fear, as resistance, as feeling overwhelmed, as fearing to be defined, of believing I am responsible - as believing I must problem solve, or have all the answers, etc, - I stop and I breath, as I see realize and understand that this idea that I am responsible, is an idea, that I then self blame, becoming a perpetual state of not feeling worthy, a separation within itself, and also the answer, as in some ways we all realize we can problem solve, as we are the perfect forms to do so,  thus, it is to stop hating myself and to become patient and calm, realizing the solutions are always here, even if colored with a past of a consciousness of separation from realizing self as life, here, as being physical.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that i should have recognized this before it happened, as this dog has been kept in  a yard, after being used to breed other dogs and as such having lived in a kennel, without any real socialization, and there for,  being life, wanting to interact with other dogs and yet fearing them at the same time, thus, there was not a recognition that the dog needed some socialization, which was lacking, and somehow it was my responsibility to have prevented what happened from happening, yet it is not my dog, and I cannot physically be in many places at once, therefor, and because of where I am , in this moment, it is to face the storm and realize the solutions.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to in some ways, trust myself, within and as seeing realizing and understanding that I cam capable to assessing, as investigating, as in taking the time to understand, and within this, need not move into anxiety, fearing to be labeled, or defined as not being enough, or moving into self blame, based on expectations, within and as some idea, and instead to realize this as a past pattern, and to embrace it, forgive it, redirect it, within and as making as accepting a natural ability to assess and understand, as gather information, to realize there are no problems only solutions in living actions as who and what I am as a physical state of being as life in expression, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to take things personally, to not within this, slow down, and breath, and ground myself here, in calm, giving as I would receive, as not reacting to emotional outflows, as the story of good and bad, right and wrong, more than and less than, and to within this, give as lend understanding, assessing and realizing solutions,  as standing equal and one to physical creation, as creation would be and do, as this is being creative here. 

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand,  practical awareness, as respect of the physical as who and what i am is always here, and as such the potential to always from solutions, within an as there are no problems,  is always here, and within this, to realize consequence within not realizing this sound principle, is a process, thus, with each breath, with each step, it is to birth life fro the physical, to realize the principle of oneness and equality as the golden rule, in practical action, as to give as one would receive, here.

When and as I find myself becoming overwhelmed and spinning into anxiety, I stop, I slow down, and I breath, and I take the space to respect here, to listen more than I speak, to hear more than wanting to speak up, to practice grounding and referencing here, as assessing what is here, seeing realizing and understanding the storms of energy, as separation, into a catch 22, or a more than and a less than, of fear of loss and desire for gain in self interest as belief, opinion and idea, to embrace this, forgive and to listen to what is here, to realize that it is natural to assess what is here,  and anxiety is more a protection and defense, as a justification which is a fear of loss,, instead of respecting what is here as life as the practical as the physical reality , the living physical reality around me, to practice when and as I move into taking things personally, fearing to be defined, as them, to then to forgive and to follow through into realizing what is best for all, here. 

lol, When and as I find myself reacting, as becoming frustrated, or resistant, to slow down and breath, to listen, to assess, to  cross reference my own back chat, and the tension within my physical body, to realize that just as a unsocialized dog does not know how to act with other dogs, so am I, within and as being  past as a practice of fear, spinning into anxiety, as a lack of processing, as a lack of respect of the practical, where the protection and defense, is in a way, a non - looking here at the practical,  as being in respect of creation, as all cultures are products of the environment, and to realize that I am physical, and that I can assess, real-eyes, feel, as life here, and enjoy, here,  in the same way, I have actually socialized a dog, who did not know, as never had the opportunity, to interact with other dogs , for example, on a walk, and as such, have lived that change, that change that came with the opportunity, and as such, it is a process, thus, when and as I find myself moving into anxiety, I stop, I breath, I slow myself down,  and I forgive  personalities from the past that may arise, and I look here,  to build effective communication with here, as this reality as all things, that are me in another life, to practice realigning into equality and oneness with life, that is physical and in plain sight/site here. 

When and as I find myself facing a situation where I experience what i call ‘ venting’ I stop, I breath, I slow myself down, and I assess, check myself,  listen , realize to not take this personally, and ground myself,  as check to ensure  I am calm,  to realize that I can assess problems, and move with them into realizing there are no problems and only solutions here.

Friday, July 14, 2017

Mental Graphic Novel Business Day 784

This week I was working with a child, who I noticed as the behaviors, was, ‘ standing in something’ that was the best match for what they felt. I likened this to how absorbent I am, we are, as our innate capacity to understand. The child appeared to me to be trying this out, being the effects of this behavior and at the same time expressing how they felt.  It appeared to me to be the whole child, and not as much the way adults can be, where they do not look as their presence, as their ‘ state of being” ( in this case it is similar yet not as incorperated). This being, as the adult being  instead a built series of such experiences as this child, manifesting as multiple experiences  of such a reference. Again, what caught my attention, was how this was the child, they were embodying this and testing this out, while it somehow matched something they had experienced. 

In the desteni I process, I find that I have so many times said the words, spoke the forms, and yet as things come more into focus, the reality of allowing myself to be both the subject and the object at the same time, without resistance, and realizing there is no need to be afraid, is a process, and yet, it is like an uncovering of what we already know.  It is as it says it is, in that it is the removal of self denial as the capacity to sense what is here, and be here, respecting what is here. How can what is a simple thing become such a messy thing and so ignored for so long as a loss of self recognition? How can a busyness of ordering stuck up in a resonant spin using ordering, become such a dissonance from reality? I ask the obvious question, yet is this not a part of the process, as as-king is a powerful tool of reflection. 

On the greater stage, I look at articles about Syria and other areas in the middle east, that describe the rubble left behind from bombs. I read a book written by a local author who experienced the Russians coming into eastern Germany and basically expelling the Germans and replacing them with Polish people, at the end of WW2  They just simply came and pushed some people out and replaced them with others, and this after coming in and taking all the livestock and crops, leaving the people with nothing.  What would motivate such an action that has no regard for the life, the resources of men and planet? Could it be a construct of values floating in the minds of men that are a separation from reality? How has that obviously resonant limitation come to be larger than life?  And why, can we not realize, especially in understanding the import- ance of education that it is possible to inFORM a person with a measured math as a measured value system that is not inclusive of all values as this physical reality?  Is it so difficult to realize that our within is not equal to the without, our ‘ above’s ‘ not equal to the practical ‘ below’? 

This is such a waste of capable resources. This is such a mis-use of what we are. What astounds me the most, as this is as astonishing as realizing the depth of a self imposed through a great effort to suppress,  as devastating as the bombs on the land,  of the self as life, as presence as the capacity to be here, and not so busy with graphing out what is to come, what might come, what is possible, based on an idea that is of something out there, in some place that is not here, as here is where things get done, as nothing was ever done within thinking about it- the focus to do demands all of one's attention on here, which also reveals that one must understand here, to get something done? And this, begs the question as to why we are placing our children in front of television sets and in schools that are boxes,  that are not reality?  And to not move into anther polarized value judgement to the extent we deny such things a television, as a proper use of television, can be supportive! I mean, Imagine creating one of those holographic programs that show the life and sequence of a seed? That would be really cool in terms of bringing attention to the expressive life of nature that is a constant surrounding us. Remember, trees create oxygen for us to breath. I do not think that any human apparatus is as symbiotic and self replicating as that tree within the very fabric of and as what nature is. In other words, nature is a great technology, one that, by some recollections, something that terra formed this earth, and may have been brought from somewhere else- thus, if we look at the pyramids, that some argue were built with a greater skill set than known today, could it be that those with this supposed ‘ greater skill set’ have realized that the fabric of plants and bugs and animals, was something worth sustaining, as it could not be recreated because of its inherent efficiency? Why reinvent the wheel into something less than what already exists that has a sustainable balance? 

If I am so busy graphing things out, and having learned about the world in a box, it would make sense that actions that are not what is best for life, as life, as bombing this earth for some graphed out idea that is in itself a separation from considering all things as being the problem!  That self constructed and accepted as imposed  graph of information, of IN FORM ation,  has been made larger that what is real! 

Within myself  I realize how much time I spent in time! lol, Meaning how much I resisted and rejected and composed myself in self interest, as the same that is the problem that is an act of separation from who and what I am that is of the same fabric as the tree that is a fabric of life that is self sustaining and self creating and in balance if we would allow it to be the expression of what it is!

In the movement, as the practice as the process in slowing down to recognize this, I also realize within a process of elimination of being as busy within composing a belief system, and uncovering being less fearful in meeting other graphic novels as the expression as the colored energies of others being the same as myself as a state of resonant separation,  that the degree with which I have allowed this, can be re-versed back into being in humbleness with this reality. This meaning that I can, with joy, acknowledge my mis-takes on reality, redo the math, and live solutions. This does not demand that I graph out all possible scenarios, within self protection and defense, because the means is the practical reality around me.  Those shadows as ‘ state of colored being’ need not define me, and can be used , or recognized for what they are, without fear,  as standing here, in respect of the practical and the physical reality.  It is to say, why not enjoy being/becoming the uncovering as the self discovery of the life that is here as the physical, which is what is natural?

I can, lol, imagine if we reformed this earth into realizing that we can be what we naturally are, as discovering how this reality functions, within and as self directing within the principle that all that is here is us, as the very fabric of creation. 

It is actually fun to call things out by name, to be clear about what is around us, and to realize that this clarity deepens, just as learning an instrument has that quality of a depending understanding that is a joy of discovery, slowed down only by a threat of survival that can consume one’s natural presence as an innate ability to completely absorb something and stand as it, just as we do as babies when we learn to crawl and to walk and to talk- we embody something, we embody the world around us, we embody the states of value that are not necessarily bad, yet can become automated and stagnant, in our parents that are directed by survival in a forgetfulness of the very fabric of what we are as that physical manifestation of form and function that is of a design that is self sustaining, and self generating and self balancing. 

I mean, why do I write as script this out? Why do I sit here and write this out? What am I using to do this? I am using words, as small degrees of sound, to map out, to graph out, to bring my words into equality and oneness with what equalizes me to this physical creation that I cannot live without. I mean, look at the mankind having to leave their homes, their lives disrupted, their basic needs questionable in being met,  the resources turned into rubble unnecessarily,  because of some idea imposed on reality! It makes no sense. And, the answer I am so often given, as “ if common sense were common, then it would be utilized “ is an endgame answer that reveals that lack of insight that is the real problem. Such a statement reveals the problem, as a non-looking that lends the solution, which is to LOOK HERE. In looking here at the practical, the graphic superimposed, resonantly metaphysical reality known as ego, is an active rejection of innate common sense, as that absorbent ability! 

What is interesting in tandem with all of this, is that physically I feel that my chest is going to burst out, to the extent that moving into thinking, is becoming more and more impossible, it is too limited.  It is like being a compassion without a desire for gain. The moment I move into a colored value, I lose  catching, or reading, or reeding what is here. I remember this, because I had to be this to perform, it was the only way, no matter what, no matter what politics were around me, it took some time and I would not say I was perfect at it. At the same time, in some ways, I also isolated myself because of being this. Interesting how we have a secret shadow mid of fear, and a secret sense of recognizing the separation of ourselves from the reality around us. I mean, that sense within me, that what we are doing makes no sense, is the same as that of which I speak.

It is also to realize that each of us has this same thing within ourselves. We can recognize this. I find more and more, that people will listen. They can recognize. It is a matter of reforming the sound, finding a structure that can he held, that can be grasped enough for greater reflection of the practical without loss of where one is and the demands of our present system of survival.  Real-eyezing  being grounded in the practical is using that natural ability to organize, to realize the ordinary in the practical as being the joy as it allows the busyness of ordering things to be more expeditious and not as large or overwhelming as one might suppose when one is in a resonance of values graphed by the self, absorbed from others, as the loss of presence in the practical reality of a physical life. 

If we make spelling our words with ease, then our focus can be opened up to more than momentary graphs of things we absorb as our natural capacity to understand what is here as this reality. This is because human use words to communicate. It is as though, language is a means to equalize one’s presence into this reality. It is the instrument of what we are, to realize the clarity of ourselves within as life. Life being what takes what is good and does no harm, as that reciprocity that is the nature of our natural absorbent ability.  Recognition of something can be fun,  and a self discovering mechanism into clarity

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

as- KING Day 783

In working with children, I realize how much that absorbent ability, as the child, does not have boundaries. Meaning that absorbent ability takes in what is around it, and becomes it. There is no separation. Yet, this is and what would be the very nature of our natural absorbent ability! We learn to define the qualities we absorb over time and define ourselves as that, when that is really a process of clarifying what we are seeing and what we are being, as a expression in a relationship. I say relationship because I am here, on a physical planet, moving in a relationship with all that is here, composing an expression as the whole as the physical as this earth, as creation. 

I can get caught up in my review of the reflection of what I have taken in as a value within the process of defining who and what I am as a physical form on a physical planet. I can forget what iI am and take the resonant ‘ copy’ as what I absorbed as a form, and make that larger than life. Then I become a con-sciouness of separation.  Amazing how our schools are this manifest, showing ourselves to ourselves as how we are allowing informing as separation from the practical reality. And we do this with words, mis-using sound, to create more and accumulating consciousness’s of separation. An instored/in-spired/in- layered/in-storied set body of information. Can we ask ourselves why we can’t remember what we did last year? If we are following a resonant construct of limited - information,  as a set body of information, how can we be present realizing the reality around us, in ways that do not cause conflict with the physical reality? Our actions do not fit into that reality, the one we absorbed that created a picture that then, through allowance, became larger than life!  

This begs the question, as as-KING, as self reflection with regard for what and who we are as physical beings on a physical PLAN-it,  where there is a at-most-fear,  why such a thing as shaking within ourselves exists? Is it possible that the sha- KING is countering a set body of resonant information? One moves against acceptances and allowances, as a resonant construction, when one QUEST- ions with as-KING ? Meaning, when one reviews one’s reality outside of that set body of resonant belief, as limited information, where one no longer is using that natural absorbent ability that can have no boundaries, as the process of understanding this reality, that is a natural action and is how we expand and realize who and what we are here? 

Within me, I can, in this moment, sense a righteousness. Meaning, my manner of wondering why we cannot see this, is in itself colored as being righteous. As always a truth is present, yet when made larger that life, it can lead to righteousness. Which is doing the same as what I speak of, making something larger than the practical. 

I can realize how stagnant I am from my own acceptance and separation from processing what is here, from reading what is here. In so many ways, it really is to get my processing speeds moving, meaning to realize what I am allowing as what I have absorbed without principle, and at the same time, reconnecting to having a real relationship with the physical reality around me. It is to become a master of who and what I am, to ground myself in this reality, a physical reality here.

That righteousness is a form of wanting to fix things, as rebalance things. It is wanting to have things move suddenly, which is an expectation. Then, that expectation is not lived out, and a reassessment takes place, which is a process. Yet, being present in this reality, within the realization of the principle of life, as being as doing no harm, is not yet lived with that natural absorbent ability in every moment, as this is the only real choice. In this, there is realizing in every moment, wth every breath, that there are no problems and only solutions.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not recognize moving into righteousness, as the colors, as the hyperbolized value judgements, rushing within me,  as an accepted and allowed practice of and as a false morality, that when and as I move against my own acceptances and allowances, I begin to shake, revealing my acceptances and allowances to myself, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to move as an idea, as an expectation , instead of slowing down and breathing, cross referencing here, assessing here, investigating here, to listen to here, to as-KING here, to ensure a stable and steady balance, within regarding and respecting all things, as who and what I am here, as life, that is physical in manifestation as creation, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to slow down and realize, see, and understand every movement within and as me, as a intellectual set body of information, believed to make me superior, as a more, within a survival game, not realizing how I work as life, and rushing to win, to conquer, when I am here, inherently able to absorb the form and movement as expression of what is here as the physical, to become aware of, as myself, to define me, within relationships of all that is here,  and the balance of and as what does no harm, taking that which is good, leading to a living breathing, changing, expression of life in FORMation here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to move, to self direct as a set body of information, from and as a consciousness of separation instead of  moving from the heart of me, as life. 

When and as I find myself moving into conflict as resistance,/rejection/reaction, I stop and I breath, and I embrace with as-KING  to ground myself here, to assess and investigate, to balance and realize  the practical in the moment, the simple ordinary, the hum --bell expression within realizing a principle of recognizing and respecting living reality as the expression of life, composed of relationships of and as working/breathing/living in harmonious balance, that moves with ease, as there is no rush, there is here, where the value is being life.