Day 540 Being a Leader and Being Self Responsible

Being a leader and being self responsible.

I remember when I first went and lived in Europe that I felt overwhelmed by the towns, like the very stones in the cities were filled with stories that were a burden, heavy. I would find solace in nature, under a tree. And I remember asking myself why I found more ease under a tree than I did in a city street, when the tree was around far longer than that city.

In all, though the burden of discord as the past of the behaviors of men, the abuse of labor etc. may be in every measure of stone, to allow myself to be influenced by this, is in itself a rejection of what is basically a story, that is all. I can’t really understand how we got to where we are if I don’t understand the movements that lead to all that is within me, as my reactions and all that is without me, as the world around me.

If I resist, then that which I resist persists, because it is myself rejecting something, which means I am not clear with something to the point where i am at ease. To be at ease, is to have no fear, to be clear in understanding, to realize that I am able to move with what is here, and that I cannot be hurt unless I am not paying attention. Also, at where we are now, as what has been accepted and allowed on earth, there are, in common sense, some things that one does not participate within, because humans have become, basically zombies caught in a web of their own making, that is not a web of support and respect and “ understanding” development of what it means to life as a physical bio-organic entity on this earth, where this physical beingness is a visible and practical expression, as real expression is. 

I remember saying to people when they viewed me as being talented because I played the violin, I would say, no, it has nothing to do with this, it is simply walking the steps and doing it, that is all. In all common sense. But then, this is being responsible. Pretty words are just pretty words, “ real “ words look at what is here, real words are living words, that lead, that give direction, that show development. Real words that do not punish or reward, give direction, give the ability of each human, to become self empowered, self directed, responsible. Thus, leading is giving self empowerment, absolutely. Real leadership, expects no reward, because it understands that the real reward is to direct all that is here, as each human being, the ability to become self responsible.  Because this increases the ability of men to create as each point, as each man, can come together and create a world that enables the whole orchestra to perform, and that it is this that builds a sound of life. So, when we support this physical world, in ways that do no harm, we create a web of life that is in full function, full expression, full potential, because this is how we support ourselves to our fullest.

We need the perspective of every person on the ground, to have the insight needed to understand what supports and builds a planet where every inch is performing as its form allows it. one man’s idea as the mind, cannot possibly realize this, hence the idea of a superman is an impulse to create a dream connection instead of an equal connection to what enables us to exist in life formation, which is the physical world.

It must be understood that every leaf on every tree is moving with the total expression of what is best for all, every turn, every sway, every single movement, it is an absolute purpose of allowing life to express in full potential. When we humans impose ideas onto this, we become separate from this, we become unequal to life.

I have somehow, reacted to misunderstanding as rejection, which means I am expecting understanding without standing consistently as understanding, and as such listening to realize the limitation/rejection/measure/focus cannot hurt me unless I accept and allow it, because as human beings, what we inform ourselves as, is what we become. If our information within is not equal in understanding to that which we are without, then that separation causes an inability to direct ourselves leading to a consequence of instability that develops a lack of self trust. 

When my husband died, I would weep. A very strange sensation to have rivers of water flow from your eyes, to such an extent, that your shirt becomes all wet. This crying is really the shame self faces for not standing equal and one to and as life here. It is the recognition that life is not being lived, and the hurt is really self not living, which self cannot blame anything other that self.

The only way out is to stand, here, equal and one in common sense of practical physical reality, to move within the purpose of realizing that this is it, what we create here, is what we get, and it is the whole of this planet that is to be considered with every breath we take.

As long as I believe I am not being understood due to any measure of loss, and am hurting because of this, I am not here, I am not becoming responsible for what I am within and for the effects of this without because I can only direct as what is best for all if that ease as life is to become what it is that is the I am, as myself as life here. And to realize, that that interaction, that communication, is the expression of myself as life here.

So, when I have an emotion of resistance I look to the belief behind that emotion.

When I feel hurt, I look to what expectations I have had and where I am not being clear about how we as humans are informed and how we have believed that information within to be more real than the physical world of life without.

What I need to exist - besides practical basic needs given what we have allowed to form as life on earth - is myself as life, here, as this is what allows even that fantasy as mind, as consciousness that is what presently exists in men that is not equal in measure to the composition of ourselves which is reality, here which is what enables life. The solution, to equalize ourselves within to create a world without, that is an expression of leading ourselves as life, is to support a Living Income Guarantee, so that we can begin to equalize ourselves to what supports this world in ways that do no harm, because it will allow us to see our own cognitive dissonance, our misinformation,  our chaos, to become what is very simple, ourselves as life in-formation.

Day 372 Heaven was a lesser dimension, the mind is the sound of your separation.

I remember an event I had in Europe after I had I moved there. I had asked a woman a question about her relationship. I was sitting after an orchestral practice with the musicians and we were chatting away, when she had made some comment about her relationship. So, I asked a question and this woman reacted to my question as though she was incensed that I could ask something like this. There was someone else there who stepped in and said that in Europe one did not ask questions like this. So, I stopped and looked at this, and the woman calmed down and I did not press this because I went into looking at what this other woman had said to me. At the time I was really looking at such things, because it seemed to me that the “ facade” of different cultures was composed of differing measures of giving here and withholding there - so to speak. I remember practicing holding my self in socially, to not allow so much of my American exuberance to  be my facade, which is all really personification. I remember coming back to America, and my mother saying Europe had been good for me, I was more “ controlled.” which may be true, but it is not standing back and looking at all of this in totality,  and relating this to  the whole form of what we are as our accepted and allowed measures of withholding and giving as expressions, and what these “ on/off” switches of self presentation in manner and focus create and that since there is so much destruction in this world, so much disrespect for nature and water and the lives of people on this planet endure, this must be looked at in detail as what we are doing, and the effect this has on the whole.  This woman I had this conversation with was within a belief that there were secrets about her relationship, taboo intangible things that one simply did not talk about. In the context my question was probably my self validating my own self interest, also not considering the whole, so I am not saying that I was any better than this woman because I was doing the same, because I, though realizing things as character were measured in different ways, I did not exactly direct myself in relation to the whole as I had not been taught this, I only had this opportunity, having moved into a foreign country to actually live a subtle change in how we as humans present ourselves.

If we are habituated to our presentations, our personifications, imagine how hard it would be to change? And could we, do we have the spatial ability, within understanding and seeing in a moment all the differences as this without judgement and reaction? Are we mutable enough to recognize this and communicate with this in a moment? Are we developed enough, have enough understanding of this to move with it? And, do we see the whole of this enough to be able to relate this to what we have allowed in existence on earth in totality? Are we aware enough of the present system and how is functions, how it moves in detail, which means following the money, and the workings of the hands of men, to look here at the actual movement of the physical process of developing resources on this earth, to such a degree that we realize what specifically is happening on this earth? Are we aware of our within compositions and our “ without” compositions on this earth, the total “ song” orchestration of what we, as humans have allowed on this earth?  Is the conversation in our minds the voice of our “ facade” presentation, our personification of the measure of what is allowed and accepted according to culture, and our place with that culture, our role play in gender, our values systems of what is allowed to be expressed and to what degree that is allowed to be an acceptable presentation, to survive in a system of dividing resources in unequal measure via money that allows some to have their lives “ turned on and or turned off” because their values and their facade demand something more because it is fantastically believed to be “ more than’? And if questioned does the measures of self as the personification of self become  a behavior of fear of loss in believing it is threatened and reacts, when the degrees of this presentation really are so subtle and ignore the totality that being this is really just a lack in common sense? In the end if we used our common sense and stepped out of our bubbles that maintain a singular point in this terrain of earth, might we not see that our habits, as our personifications are ignorance of the whole, and that it is the being within this ignorance that is the real problem, and that this would solve the behavior of hiding of certain aspects within as the context of the whole would allow self realization that the formation of ourselves as values to turn on and off is suppression because it is limited, lacking in common sense? That our whole belief system is in separation from this physical real, able to be seen, physical world?

Is the pollution of our common sense ignorance embedded within our genes , programmed into each passing generation until we align ourselves with a common sense of this whole earth, and is the pollution accumulating on earth with our ignorant practices into some having more and others less ( which denies the fact that each of us are able to be developed) , accumulating as the within of what we accept and allow? All of it in separation from common sense? And where, naturally, would this all end? What would be the outcome of such? Obviously destruction, and then we will have to begin again, because eventually we must face ourselves as life, this gift is not going to go away, it must be faced, so we either chose to stew in our limitations and continue abuse or we stand and structure ourselves to support all life, realizing life is the value, and within this realize heaven on earth. ( Within this, within the words I speak here, I realize how much of a programmable organic robot I am, and thus how much the need for a principle that directs, and that principle is “ do unto another as you would unto yourself” which is the realization that life is the value.) Wake up. Accept yourself as life, learn to live.

There are interviews on Eqafe that explain what we are within, as our genes as our minds, and the consequences of what we have allowed within our belief systems that create our characters, our facades, our personifications. Fearing change is simply letting go of limitations ( and yes there are the consequences on earth of this system where there are those who have barely enough to sustain themselves and their fear of change is fear of not having that one piece of bread the next day, and they are so suppressed that this has become their focus, which is unacceptable and must stop because allowing this is a disrespect of life, simply through allowing a lack of self as life within being common sense of life, here)

There is the system of Equal Money, a  common sense form to get this earth in order of what is best for all, as this is best for self, as self must become in common sense with this physical world to be a real, complete expression of life, to live the gift of life, manifest as heaven on earth, where in no matter what shoes our feet are placed, we are actual expressions of life in full potential. 

There is the Equal Life Foundation that places into policy the value being life, the common sense of respecting this physical world as the means to be and allow all their full potential as life.

There is self forgiveness to slow down and breath, and realize the limited characters we have allowed that have been passed down for generations ( generating) as it is what is not aligned with life, equal with life. To stop our minds, to stop the voice of our separation and become in common sense with what we have accepted and allowed, and that we that are here in the physical have this responsibility to all. Here, to see what we have allowed , which the voices in our minds show us,  and to bring these limitations back into a common sense of life, of the whole, to equalize ourselves with life. It is like losing everything you are as your limitations only and deconstructing this to recompose yourself in common sense of the whole, which is to recompose yourself as life, which means gaining everything, seemingly like something will be lost, but it is really only a limited habit realigned back into the whole of life, so really it is like taking a very very deep breath and opening yourself back up to yourself as life, it is becoming a portal of life, it is learning to actually breath, here, equal and one to and as life here.  So, in essence, nothing is lost and everything is gained, it only appears to be a loss because one has to stop and turn off the program of the mind, which, as the mind as become so loud, and so habituated, it seems that turning off the radio as the mind, means death, and yet this could not be further from the truth. So, I invite you to turn off the radio as the mind, and see what is the common sense as self as life, in the silence behind the incessant chatter of the mind, the backchat as the voices in the head, as the limited value systems taught by those who came before us that were the habit of separation from life, the habit of ignorance of common sense of this actual physical real world, of which “ heaven” was a lesser dimension floating about two feet off the ground of this actual physical earth. Well maybe it was a foot, any way, it was a manifested cycle of separation from equality with and as life as the physical, and because of this it no longer exists, so the only choice is to align oneself with this actual physical world if one wants to learn to be life, wants to become equal and one with and as life here. Better get to work, because this is the only choice.