Day 613 Presence as mind only or presence as Equality to life? Which is the choice of freedom?

When I am playing in a Chamber group, I have to listen to all the parts, and the whole, like I am the parts and thew whole. Depending on where I sit, I also have to pay attention to the movement of the bow of the section leader and/or person in front of me, because the bow can also tell/show me the measure of what is being played in relation to the whole, kind of like the bow can be another metronome ( nominal meter/measure) of space and time within the context of playing. 

In so many ways, this is the same action as learning how to walk; it is sensing this world, the physical space of this actual real physical world. Our ability to see this directly informs the very ‘ measure of us, here. In all common sense, because of this, we can really only be here because this is where we are - mental simulations or not, -we can, because we are here, only be here. In the end this is us living life, respecting it.

I was at a meeting last night, and I found myself getting tense. My left leg and my chest were tensing up. It all started to hurt, as I sat in a chair and talked/interacted with the people present in body/mind in the space. 

A lot of the talk was about health.  In tandem with this talk about what we eat, was talk about being positive. One woman said that since she has taken more care of what she eats, she notices that she is more aware of her environment. I am not in her head, so I cannot know what experiences she had to justify this are true or not true. What I noticed more, was that she never really said anything, everything was about being positive, and such statements about how much she noticed her environment, without any real explanation as to what precisely that meant in any intimate detailed way. Making a statement that one is noticing their world more, only, reveals nothing about what that means. Collectively the group becomes this kind of stagnate awe, and I start to get tense, because I feel that I am having to accept something, to agree, without really knowing what is meant because it is not made clear with any sense of detail. I mean, some general statement of “ being more aware of the environment” really is not saying anything when only these words are presented. If I accept this, then what I am accepted is an idea without any real practical defining/clarification in detail. I move more into assumption or embarrassment because I have not had this experience. And yet, how do I know if i have had this or not if it is not clarified and only accepted as a statement? This is acceptance without investigation, without practice, it is a conceptual end game/name.

I notice the quiet in the group, evident in that no one asks for clarification as to what that meant in detail. Some just remain silent, some smile and place an expression of awe on the faces. Since this was a group of people involved in health, I realize that each had a desire to become healthy, and were ‘ dreaming’ of becoming healthy. I mean, this is cool to want to become more aware of one’s body, which taking the time to consider what one places in their body, is cool because it is a step in the direction of becoming more self responsible. This imagining “ becoming” healthy” only, is another way to self realize our own stagnate conceptual ability, so slow is the movement within, and yet, we learned to walk, to crawl, which meant conceptualizing in a direct way, building a structural awareness that directed in efficient and effective ways, which is our capacity, yet somehow we begin to move as molasses and get stuck in slow motion, where the motions are not bad and our capacity to inform on a another is diminished as awe as behavior, like an excitement, becomes us. In science, excited states can create chemical reactions within that we can become addicted to,  and the “ more’ in idea only, becomes a form of entertainment within, and we feel good because we have allowed this heightened inner sense to define us, but there is always a crash, and then the struggle begins. This inner polarized emotional/feeling state over practical application, which is being here, equal and one in practice of being physical, is making the within greater than the without. This is separation from the value being life, where this value is respected, thus the physical world is respected as life.

Overall, this in total shows how much one can get caught in an idea, and not question things, because the idea has become like an idol in one’s head, like an obsession that is so much as self interest that being present here, and asking questions in detail about what another means in practice  is seldom if ever walked through. It is a stagnate state of expressing, where presence here to and with the parts and the whole as the “ music” of the space of here, is not ‘ played’ with, is not cross referenced, is not made intimate. The irony is, if we opened up with one another beyond such statement of “ I am more aware of my environment”  we could all learn from looking outward in equal measure to what we are within. We are really only, most of the time, conceptualizing in our heads only, without opening up and sharing, in detail, with the environment around us. Because of this, we live outwardly statements that have no real clarification. In other words we do not really come here, we do not really bring our presence here, thus we are not really living here. Most of our lives are spent in our heads.

Meanwhile, I am getting tense, and as this is myself on a journey to life, because I am the one who has to do this, as no one can do this for me, I have to stop myself from going into judgment and slow down, breath, ground myself here. My own tension, is because I am judging, I am looking at the measure within this group, the measure of presence being focused within, via the words that are not very descriptive, and how I, as a socially accepted behavioral measure, must remain within the group as the measure of my own expression. I do speak up, at times, but I also realize to jump from statements of general ideas, to intimate details, can be too much of a sudden change of measure. What do you think moving through the eye of the needle means? It means to conceptually be fluid in being able to move in space here, in this physical world, even understanding the form and flow of our present system,. If we really look at it, we will see that it really makes no sense in terms of supporting life. And life is the value.

When I get tense, I am within my own ideas about what should be, how to bring what I believe into the measure of the moment.  If I am not aware of how a person becomes the very measure of insight as what they are, as their focus within on ideas, because the within is a measure of reality which is an idea about reality, and what is going on without, as this actual physical world in its movement and measure in detail, meaning the way the very minerals and other components exist in this space of reality, then I cannot really be aware of here, I am not really present, I cannot move in sync with the whole, just as I am when playing in a musical group. I have to be aware of the time and space length, duration, intensity, physical movement of things etc. to remain in the measure as the piece in total! So, playing in a musical group, is like how life should be lived! 

A  note - so to speak, is a unit, a measure that builds,  it is the focus here, here, here , here, as the physical world, that brings the ease, because the measure of the whole as self being this within, is what focuses self as life to become equal to the very volume of life as everything, because the physical is as much life as what is going in inside the head ONLY. When statements are made, and oggled at, without developing the understanding in detail within the whole, one is really living in mind only, so conceptually, ones moving within in a very limited con-text as mind, and is not equal to life, because life would not divide into ignoring some aspects, it would accept all aspects and move and breath and interconnect as one, each separate part moving as one, each individual expression moving as one, and for this, each part must be present, equal within to the without, as the physical.  Thus, the system of inequality on earth, is a crime against life. Each member of this orchestra of life, must be, in presence measure, listening to the whole and the parts, developing an awareness of the outer and the inner measure of this world as self within and the physical without and the systems we have accepted and allowed that are the measure of having lived within without reference to the without as the physical as being of equal import as who and what we are, where nothing is more than another because each part expresses life. A socially engineered .system of hierarchy that suppresses the presence of life within will not work, because it does not give the space and time for the presence within all things to be the response of life as what each is. Such a system cannot and will not work, no words of justification, no one sided touting will  change this, no armies bullying an idea from some centralized dictate will change this, it simply cannot be done because it is not the nature of life.  In this, we all need one another to be present in equal measure to the space without and the space within - so to speak.  This can only happen here, in this moment. Our memories must be equal to here, of equal measure in focus to here. 

Meanwhile, back to myself again. lol. It is not that looking at this, in measure, that is the problem within myself, it is where I allow myself to become upset about it, because becoming upset is not being present in the measure and expanding that measure to become a balanced within and without equality. This is me realizing what I have done, as I have not really lived life because I was the same, which was being an end game as mind only so much of my life. When I react to this emotionally. I allow this to bother me as though it is some great injustice. And being this state of being as thinking this is some great injustice, I am no different than the women who becomes an awe about some idea without taking the time to consider in practice what such a statement made by another really mans in practice.   And this is the solution, to slow down, to realize the measure of self within, and to bring focus and presence awareness to the without world as the physical - within and without - where the dis-ease is also the within presence not being aware of itself in detail within!  And within this to realize the separation because one has to correct a practice of separation, and bring this back down to earth, ground this here because one can only hear what is going on in practice, in expression, here. One has to take that presence ability to measure space , and relate to the physical and self, as this is respecting all life.

My tension is myself inferior to life and it is me rushing within to judge as a point of superiority, as in all common sense, the only thing that can be done in such a situation is to begin to walk the presence of self back into the measure of awareness of the inner beingness being focused here to the outer world as the physical. The hierarchies as the mind, are what separates and creates the existential system imposed on the physical by men, without. It is a system that forces separation and it is here because each of us has believed that what imagery we hold within is more that what allows that imagery to exist, which is the physical world. Thus, our present system cannot work, no touted words using the means of life as sound are going to make it work, it simply cannot work by design. Like the mind, in each , the signs of hierarchy into inequality  are disrupting the physical, and the outcome is as the story of the bible, one that ends in total annihilation of life. Period. 

In this situation, I cannot react, I can only journey myself back to life, to inform myself equally within to the without, the above to the below to stand as two or more in the name of life as the substance of the physical, as cross referencing the physical world in ways that do no harm, to remain stable in respect of this, yesterday, today and tomorrow, as this is giving as I would receive, which is the equation in word of equality and oneness, which is being here, listening here to reality, being respectful and gracious of the life that is me, without, walking the practice of being in equal measure to all things which is consideration of all things.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist as idea only.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to react to a measure of awareness within expressed in words, in statements, not seeing realizing and understanding that I can understand this, as it does not define me, and as such I can accept the measure here, to understand and then forgive that measure through bringing it back into practical application as what would ground in understanding here as respecting the physical world which means looking at the sound, the form, the function of the actual physical world, and the systems accepted and allowed that miimic limitation that must come to support all life as being the value, which begins with myself here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself into ideas as mind only.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge, to punish a measure of presence in another, to believe that this is separate from me, to not see, realize and understand that this is a measure, a volume of presence and that the solution within this, is to equalize in awareness of physical reality, in all the measures of space here, as length, duration, intensity, volume, quality, tempo, to become the presence of self absorbing here, this reality as being life, realizing that this is the definition of being life because life would be a structure that expresses as what the physical world is.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to react to statements that are not followed through in detail, and to within this, judge the statement and the person making the statement as less, not seeing realizing and understanding that this is me in another live as awareness of the measure of the expression of life in form, and the informed within and as mind.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how when I judge and become a reaction in any way, I am separating from practical application of living and  by the default as mind only, moving into energy as polarizing into values of more than and less then to justify, which is not being practical here, equal and one to the measure of life in expression, as creation as the physical world here, the way and the means of life in expression, the way and the means of creation here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become an energy of superiority, judging the limitations of presence locked in idea only, as being less than myself, as this is not what I would want from another for myself, thus I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become as that which I judged, to label another as less, not seeing realizing and understanding the measure of the presence of life, and modeling/living/practicing that which grounds here, into equal consideration of all life, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear change, to fear the change, the segue process in movement within into equalizing presence to the without as the physical world, as there is nothing to judge within and as this, as in every moment it is to consider all things and to take that which is good, to ground oneself here, and to within this, see, realize and understand that in every moment this is in so many ways a reciprocal action as the without reveals the very measure of myself within.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have expectations, which is my within separating from the without, as ignoring the gift of myself as life to sense with the presence of myself as life, as self, the space and movement and measure of here as the physical as creation, where I stand equal and one in walking my presence as grounding myself here, with creation, within and as that which does not harm, using the means of expression, as word and deed, ensuring that my thoughts are a cross reference to here, as the physical world, respecting life and realizing within this that the separation from life as the minds of men, exists because of what has been accepted and allowed, thus, as life, it is to model life, which requires no judgement, and to be thankful that when and as I move into judgement, the energy of this, that which is unsound, becomes a movement within and as me as my human physical body being unbalanced and in a state of dis-ease, meaning lacking the ease of focus here, without judgement, as the self equal and one in full volume of and as life here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have had thoughts to and towards limited statements within and as my mind, such as “ this in incredibly ignorant” or, ‘ why does this woman not see that she is not really saying anything” or “ how the hell am I supposed to deal with this” 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to move into emotions of believing that the process of journeying myself into life, here, is impossible.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress myself, as in tensing up in my chest area and in my left leg, not wanting to look at my own self interested desires, wants and needs based on ideas, that I  have allowed to have me behave in superior ways which is not modeling, expressing living here, equal and one in measure of consideration of physical reality, as this is life in expression here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I am not good enough and that I am a failure within and as creating a change where others recognize themselves as life in physical formation here, when I have walked this process for some time and realize that it is a journey of resounding self back into grounding oneself here equal and one with and as the physical world, thus all I can do is practice walking into becoming equal and one with reality, which is to ground myself here, in consideration of what does no harm to the physical and as such considers all things.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire recognition through myself here, when the greatest gift is to allow another the self discovery of self as life, as this is the strongest measure of standing as life here, because it is giving as one would want to receive, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to punish myself based on having ideas about how things should move, which is a separation within from being present here, walking the practice of respect for all life as the physical, which is to walk into the moment to become the solution of considering all things and taking that which is good and does no harm here.

When and as I find myself becoming tense within and as me, I slow myself down, I breath, I ground myself here, I forgive the judgmental measure within and as me as a movement within as rejection of some quality that I make a bad because I fear it defining me, and I accept that and I look at what I want to ‘ push’ onto the situation as a movement within, where there is a sucking like a pulling to push a value as an idea out to grab the attention of others onto that which I want to validate within and as me, as this is where I project blame onto another, or spite the measure in protection of myself as mind, as belief, as idea, and I stop,, breath, forgive the thoughts, the movement of myself within that is of energy, racing, desiring, based on limited insight, not being equal to here, and I resound the parts and the whole, to become the resounding of the physical world, something that will take time, as this was not learned, though this was self that learned to crawl, to walk, as this is the way as myself as the gift of life into equality and oneness with creation, accepting all life, which means to accept the physical world, which means to bring heaven to earth, to exist in equality and oneness to and as life here.

When and as I find myself becoming tense, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down and I investigate the actual physical quality of what is here, to understand practical purpose, of the physical, to realize what would be a movement that does no harm, that considers all things, to ground myself here, to begin the practice of moving through the eye-of-the-needle to equalize myself to life through cross reference, investigation of here as physical means of life and the practice thereof, to begin a journey to become a steward of this earth, this home, this that is me in another form, the physical.

When and as I find myself having the thought that this is too much, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and see realize and understand that though it may be too late for earth because the separation from self as life within and as mankind, I see , realize and understand that the only solution, no matter what, is to walk myself, to journey myself back into equality and oneness with and as life here as the real living ease that we all seek, is to ground ourselves here, equal and one to build a memory that sees directly here, equal and one with and as the physical world here.

When and as I find myself tensing up within and as my chest and left leg, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down and I see realize and understand that the sense of me as life, is a presence that is so able by nature to move through the eye of the needle, as the physical, to sense form and function, just as the presence of myself can hear the parts and the whole of the music within a group, something that can develop with time, and can begin to move exponentially if one focuses here, as this is the nature of self as life, just as the nature of a child can learn to crawl and to walk, such is the greatness of the movement of life here, as men will be creative and inventive as can be seen with all the technologies that develop practices that are less abusive to this earth, such as solar power, such as eating healthy nutrient dense foods, such as allowing children to interact directly with the greatest technology that exists which is the actual real physical earth world here, all of which means that we can order this earth in ways that support all life, where no matter where our children walk, they encounter no harm, which is what we would have wanted for ourselves.

When and as I find myself having the thought that another is limited, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I assess the measure of belief, and I investigate the actual real physical world here, and I share my own investigations as suggestions about information that I understand, or am beginning to understand to ask the questions as to what are we not seeing realizing and understanding within a practical physical reality, as this is the carrier of ourselves here as life,

When and as I find myself losing my breath, as iN breathing without ease, as in breathing in an erratic way, I stop and I slow way down, and ground myself here, becoming silent within, forgiving  ideas, beliefs and opinions of doom and gloom, “ what if’s” such as “ this person will reject me, or will no longer ‘ like’ me” and I stop, I breath, and I realize that this cannot define me, as what define me is life here, as the physical as this is how I  exist period.

Day 495 Minimum Wage and our Children: An Addiction to short sounds bites of knowledge and information.

Many understand that the minimum wage is not a Living Wage, does not take too much to understand this. A person who is going to work every day in any of the steps required to get a hamburger, for example, onto a plate, must have enough income to pay their bills and exist within a degree of stability to have the peace of mind to observe their surroundings, as worry and stress are a major cause of dis-ease, and dis-ease comes in many forms, behavioral, and physical illness. Dis-ease is a separation from practical common sense, response-ability to care for here, the physical. If one does not have money, one cannot be responsible. If a human physical body has not been trained to be responsible, then the object blame does not solve the problem, what solves the problem is structure, which leads to responsibility. Thus a system of profit for a few, and consequence of  abuse in order to have that profit, takes responsibility, as structural access within and without, away, and disease manifests, meaning a dis-ease with here, communication with here. So, systemically, as we stand now on earth, does not, cannot, will not work. So, we are collectively to blame for any disease manifest anywhere on earth.

In a profit based system, where profit is the law, the cost of distribution and processing can be taken from the profits,  and does not regard this value of the human worker being in a state of ease, when it pays a wage the is not supportive of the human being and remaining stable within a state of ease, as in lacking dis-ease physically and behaviorally. The cost of process has not been paid in full. Period.

Such dis-ease, is then passed onto the children, and in turn causing the same discord to reverberate within all the systems. In the case of the child this reverberates within the schools, and this in turn effects the development of all the children, because it is a sound as a behavior or disease existent within the environment of the school, so in effect we all suffer what exists within our environment. Even the act within of ignorance, is a movement within self as what self is, and this takes the focus of the person, the self, and does effect concentration and development. Therefor, even those who do well are being influenced by everything that exists. Thus the dis-ease of every individual is the concern of all of us if we care about the development of our children. Do we even consider the “ no significant difference” each of what appears as “ little tiny discords” all along the way, in every day, of every year of our lives? if we allow one we allow the cumulative effect of the many “ no-significant differences.”  Is this perhaps why more children are beginning to die of cancer than accident in the last twenty years? I mean,we know that tumors are filled with pesticides, and that many cancers have to do with our “ state of being.” 

And, we cannot blame the object of the dis-ease, because every human is dependent of the system,  a web held in place by the collective, so what is allowed within the system that is not supportive of the human, of which a minimum wage is not, then what is a consequence of that lack, is the responsibility of every single human being participating in the web, which is all of us, because we are on an earth where no matter what is put into the water, on any part, comes to effect all of us. As such, any dis-ease can probably be traced to a conglomerate of causes, so if there is even the minutest indication that something does harm, it cannot be allowed. Also the consequence of an accumulation of ill-effects hidden in the words “ no significant difference” must be realized  as, yes, there is a difference, thus this small difference can accumulate with all effects and create problems over time. 

We can see the problems growing. I mean, even within my local environment, in the last two years as far as I can see, and it is a small group, there has been at lease one suicide a year, last year there were two, and a death of a child from cancer. In a town of about 3000 people, this is of concern, especially when the numbers of residents within towns grow, are the numbers somewhat the same? And do we not notice because we are removed as we are busy in our lives? Do we not look unless it effects us directly? And/or do we live in end game short bites of information, where we end our involvement as our attention, when we say things like, “ she is concerned about this because it directly effected her”? And then the subject changes in the conversation, as though we honor statement making instead of follow through to solution.

 So, there is avoiding follow through to hide practices accepted, and there is social conversational non-follow through because we accept short bits of information and do not even realize that we rush to closure, which is itself a dis-ease with the environment because perceptually we move into the next story, to rush into the tension, the high and the resolution, which means we within and as ourselves have no real stability, here. We remain in a constant state of highs and lows. Reminds me of the weather in America at the moment, where the temperatures are moving from a few degrees above freezing, and then plunging into very frigid temperatures, as though the environment mimics our accepted and allowed short attention span, small information bits to move through a dopamine high of tension release, as an inner energy fix. This addiction to this is causing a dis-ease, because it is not paying attention to the consequences of our actions in total.

And we wonder why our children cannot read and write by the time they leave the education system. And we wonder why  children are labeled and not dealt with in the schools. How can teachers that are products of this system be able to deal with the consequential frustrations that are composition of lack in perception when they themselves are the product of this as well? And as such limited in space/time as the format of the school where the children then go home to parents who do not have enough to have a peace of mind , a mind also used to short bits of information, to monitor and direct that child? And even here, our educated, have not solved this problem. Which means they are not realizing the whole. Had they, then they would see the structure of the form of our society as a collective and stood for a change, instead such is marginalized by the few, and these few probably looked outside the box, went beyond the short sound bites of information that had no extended shelf life ( or one could say that extended shelf life has not value, meaning it is dead and what is missing is what cycles the life within)  as what extends in a physical planet is a cyclical process as the physical that must be maintained and cared for without any harm in order for the lack of disease to exist, which means that the physical is what is real. The physical is the real story and not that short information, as an equation in our minds based on a limited awareness of physical reality, choosing idea over common sense - this meaning to include what we cannot exist without.

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Day 396 The Paranoia of Unknowing, The Equivalence of Dis-Ease

The Paranoia of Unknowing

Because we are not taught about the physical world and how it functions in practical phyact, we are unknowing of the world, we unknow the ability of our innate common sense as the very essence of the life force that we are, as this is what is common in all because it is what we are, the very composition of and as.

We unknow, we are ignorant of the very form and structure, and thus movement and function of the present system.

We unknow,, we are ignorant, of how our human physical bodies function, we unknow, we are ignorant of how we have a mind that we call consciousness holds, takes pictures of what we physically are.

If the mind, as consciousness takes pictures of what is here, and then we are not taught how here functions, are we actually here? Are we holding the place of here? If we follow the picture show of consciousness developed in separation from here through parents, education, society and media and thus have no real understanding of here, what are we? Are we ignorant of here, are we unknowing of here?

Within this, we can know here to some degree, and this varies from person to person, but n the end, there are ones who remain in extreme unknowing and those who have a very small level of knowing and they use this to their advantage, but it is still an unknowing, and the manipulation of, based on the fear of not knowing, the fear as the instability that unknowing creates. This is one reason why education is very important, We cannot be responsible if we are separate from knowing , understanding here, ourselves as how we function and how here functions, and how the present system built from unknowing came to be and how it functions as creating so much unknowingness of here. I mean, just look around at what is happening on earth, there is a lot , too much, and unacceptable, unknowingness/ignorance going on.

the cloud of unknowing,  life malfunction system  inflated as reality

And to avoid becoming a knowing, an owning of here within being able to be self responsible, self directive, self honest, we have accepted and allowed a positive to hide the unknowing/ignoring of the negative caused because of the very thing we are moving as, as not looking, that is a positive to hide a negative, to avoid the negative, the destructive as what allowing the negative is, as the negative is a judgement that something is less than something else that is here as a part of this earth, an earth that is interconnected, were it not than starvation would not exist, nor would interest lending, because interest lending is a vacuum that allows the values built by many here, into what supports life, aids life, as this principle as the value allotted to money that is them lent out, with the self interest of the few who have a tiny bit of less unknowing, in such a way that that principle is never lost, never really leaves and allows more principle to accrue, and the interest payment is how the principle flows right back, and thus is continuously owned by the few. The debt, the unknowing, the ignorance,  remains/ accrues with the many. And the many struggle in their ignorance, because unknowing, lack of understanding, would make it very difficult to move with ease here on earth. And we cannot blame the ones who are a little bit less unknowing/ignoring than the rest of us, because we are participating within the unknowing, the ignorance, as this is a state of not looking here, with our innate common sense as life. Look, we can all agree that our politicians are not of sound mind, and that a military industrial complex is not a structure of sound mind. This is the sound of destruction and self interest, it is the sound of greed and bullying, it is the sound of killing children, it is the sound of recklessly raping the earth, of raping children, obsolescence for constant principle flow in self interest, rendering the other side of the equation, away from balance, an unknown, treating it as obsolete, meaningless as the survival of the extreme hidden in the presentation of the mean as data on paper. It is a crime against life, and remaining an unknowing of this is the same. This picture show of unknowing, this weaving of unknowing, this propagated ignorance is the elephant in the room. The room, the space of this world and the space in our heads, as consciousness, as a memory, as a picture inflated into representing life. And this is just it, this is a representation of life. It is not what is physically real, it is not our common sense as life as being equal and one to and as the physical. We are making , allowing the one thing that is real, obsolete through unknowing of it, through ignorance.

If we allow ourselves to become blame and spite, the depression as what this is, as this is a be having of anger and fear, accumulating, an action inwardly. We become the accumulation of our blame and spite, our frustration, and thus we become despondent, anxious, depressed, heavy, separate, we forget our common sense, our ease as ourselves as life, here. So, by the very nature of blame we depress ourselves, we abdicate our very common sense into a restriction ( thoughts or more than and less than) away from self direction, from self responsibility, from self honesty, from knowing the physical as in looking at how the physical actually functions and how the separation from the physical as a systemic form of inequality actually functions. This is why equality with the physical is the gift of life, because it practically shows us what works in ease and what does not. The mind as pictures can warp and bend into any fantasy fairy tale imaginable, full of all manner of super-heros where only the collective can really create heaven on earth,  which is why such a state is taught, and accepted. Accepted because our separation does not have to be addressed, and taught because it allows a few that are a tiny tiny bit less unknowing to maintain their fairy tale for real.

One might say, and I have heard this said, “ but I like my memories!” not realizing that it is not to like or not like your memories, it is to not make them bigger than life, or to warp them, as they are just a picture, it is to not inflate them as a more because this becomes a “ more” that is chased that is not a real more, hence the chasing, a metaphysical carrot, a paranormal event, superstition. Thus, this is a state of unknowing, a paranoise of unknowing, a paranoia of being self as life, self as life being a using of an innate common sense of self as what self is as life. Here, in the physical, the “fairy tale” can become real, with every inch of one’s beingness, a fairy tale of so much more substance  and solid state of sound than seemingly lived at present by only a few. As though in the big scheme of things, the amount living a somewhat comfortable life, which is about 1 %, is one and equal to the parts of ourselves, individually ,actually living in and with our common sense. In fact, disease is greater than life on earth. Change?  First, this world must be ordered to support what is real, respect what is real, what is interconnected as the parts of this physical world, that are the gift of life, to understand life, to become equal and one to and as life, to stop the heavy disease of spite and blame, depression and economical anxiety, survival, disease, all the consequence of inequality to and as life.

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375 Paranoia of the unKNOWN Self Forgiveness Thought

So, I am constricting in my back, trying to balance what is going on , where I notice a lot of imagination as my characters coming up and taking my attention, which I allow, the paranormal behaviors that fit a grid of inequality, where it is believed that scarcity must exist as an order, and this order has created disorder and thus the form is unequal to life as it is destructive, thus inequality does not work.

If children can learn to speak another language at a very young age, even grow up in a household where they learn to speak two languages as young children, then they obviously can learn to speak many words in a short period of time. Then why do our school systems function in teaching so few words every year, every grade year? Would this not slow the child down and diminish an obviously innate capacity. And how does this relate to inequality, an order as inequality, that believes in scarcity, in purposeful development of lack, which in essence is suppression, confinement? This would mean that the ability of a person to express as life is not accepted and allowed and known how to direct within being its own absolute purpose as its capacity. This is like, being a fear of being directive, of living. Perhaps inherent in this is a fear that someone might gain, get ahead of another, and this scares the hell out of someone. There are times in our lives where we learn to walk and thus need the aid of others, and times when we help others to walk, it is not just one or the other, it is an ebb and flow between the two in expansion. Our present system tries to fix us in one or the other, which suits a system of forced order, as denying development. Such a system denies common sense, ignores what is here, based on fear, based on paranoia, based on a paranormal judgement, a disallowance of a norm, the norm being life, as the capacity of a human in full expression. In this, nature is symbiotic, many things working together in all space of this earth, it is not a monoculture, thus, men, can do many things , learn many things, being equal and one with the ground of earth. Inhibit the capacity of men, is to inhibit the communicative capacity of men with the rest of this physical existence, and then to build a structure that tries to order a system of lack, which would only create disorder, which is what we see on earth at present. 

The present structure is one of limitation instead of normal awareness the human is developmentally capable of as the child able to learn language with ease when it is given the opportunity. In a way, the development of the child within language is the equalizing of the child to the sound of men, a lack will disable the child to become equal to life, as the very substance of communication, equality, is denied.  It is no different than placing a cow in a confined cage. As I have said before , and we see on this earth, monocultures do not work. And yet, as we have developed this earth, at present we may have to continue some of the things we have allowed in order to reorder ourselves to become equal with this common ground of earth, and we can do this with as little abuse as possible. For instance, there is enough field to allow the cows out into pastures to graze. And, our children can be exposed to language and order, for which they crave. Children in a classroom will take order and direction, they crave it really. When a teacher leaves the room, a teacher they come to depend on, they will become unnerved, which is tragic, because these children should feel self empowered, comfortable in being here, self directive in a situation where they as humans have come together to absorb some understanding as a group. if their understanding was clear, then there would not be any dis-ease, what-so-ever. Such uncertainty means that the order of this world is not working, it is not creating a state of ease and awareness. This needs to be realized and changed, as these children really should feel welcomed and equal to this world they are in, enjoying the process of becoming aware of this world, knowing that they are here, nurtured and developing themselves in becoming equal in awareness with where they are as beings. This having been said, the only choice on earth is a directive within an absolute purpose of being aware of physical existence, of the very substance that forms this physical existence. In this, our present system denies the gift of life, the gift of learning to work with the very substance of what creates this world.

I take this into my present deconstruction of my own paranoia of the unknown. I have noticed, in my 51 years in earth, that often my minds I/eye will imagine a doom and gloom scenario about the future, or an event that I will face in the morrow, and then when I go to face the situation,  the outcome is not at all what i imagined in my mind. Then I go home, relieved and realizing I was an idiot, to have imagined the worst case scenario, and how I wasted my time dreaming such, when I could have, weeded the garden, for example, or sat down and taken care of some paper work, or  sat and listened to my son. And I realized the moment is gone, and I spent it worrying, being paranormal; so busy in fear, being infearior to here, in common sense.

Now, imagine that we have built a system equal to such behavior? And that, this system in reflection to such behavior is controlling us from without. Imagine a child coming to a parent who is in worry, and speaking something, that parent will more than likely, because they are in gloom and doom, react, as the fantastic gloom and doom horror, absent from the actual physical practical living action, is where the parent is instead of being present in the moment. This creates a present of mixed dimensions, the real one here, and the imagined one as one’s mind: and this in a system that is a consequence of such action. In essence we have created a paranormal society. In my worry, I am living a fear of a unknown, instead of using common sense, which means being equal to what is physically here, practically looking here at this earth, at this actual physical world. Now, imagine not even having the communication skills to be able to realize this? Imagine having been raised in an environment of paranormal activity, where the parents are always in fear, inferior to here economically, as they have become second to a outward manifestation of an inward state of being that in itself was in separation from practical physical reality? This becomes one big dimensional mess. And our present system cannot clear this up, the only way is to develop life, to be and become equal to this actual physical world, as what each human has the capacity to do because they are the very substance of life!

Thus, my paranoia of the unknown is myself fearing to become aware of here, to learn to walk here, to speak about here, to speak about the accepted and allowed paranoia. I cannot become intimate with here if I do not speak about what i have accepted and allowed as what is in my mind, as how i have separated myself from here, even as what i fear losing, as in judging myself as less than another, to look at this and realize what I am not understanding in common sense as this physical world. And, within this, to realize, that what is here at present is a consequence of eons of not having accepted and allowed life as the value, thus what is here is in depression, so to speak, and must be realigned to becoming equal and one to life. The paranormal must be dispersed and forgiven and life accepted. This is where ease with life exists.

So, I am going to start with self forgiveness on being worry and fear, allowing imagination of gloom and doom, and within this realizing that the present system is a consequence of generations of such behavior, and thus will need realignment and common sense in working with this system trying to order a separation from life not seeing itself, its own systemic limitation in trying to order and structure  existent limitations within its parts when the parts themselves are what makes the whole, thus the parts as the human within must be cared for and taught self direction as life, at ease with life, as the very substance of what each part is the composition of, thus able to learn and expand in awareness to become self directive as life, here, where then the whole will function as life because the parts of life are equal and one to life. This will end the present expression of scarcity as life, as what we have allowed. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear for the future.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become a paranormal imagination of fear of loss, of worry, of gloom and doom, in separation from life, as such imagination is not myself equal and one to and as life in practical common sense of this actual physical world, and where in separation from that scenario of which I imagine in fear and try to control from afar, I physically have no ability to exist in common sense because I am not physically present within the situation, and to realize within this, that yes, some situations require preparation, meaning I cannot just walk into a dance performance, for example, and expect to be able to perform, thus it is to also realize in common sense that I must prepare myself of which if I use my common sense as myself within myself, I can see when I have prepared myself for that which I am responsible and when I have not.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that if I am unprepared, it is for me to perhaps realize how i spent my time, was I more existing in fear, or was I directing myself, walking myself into becoming aware of what i was doing?

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand what I am in thought, word and deed with each and every breath I take to realize how I am directing myself in every moment, when I am allowing paranormal activity in and as my mind and when I am being practical as in walking the steps and practice necessary to do what i have taken on as a responsibility within my life, and within this to realize that it is often my own fear and imagination as mind that limits my actions here in the physical.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to express myself within and as my secret mind, to reveal to myself my own judgements that are limited as in accepting limited values in how i look, what i say, etc. and to realize this is a paranormal state of being, which is a state of limited dimension, and this abusive and disrespectful of life, and as such I miss what is here in common sense, and when common sense is not the consequence of my life, I must stop and realize I have not lived as common sense, thus my existence has an outcome of no respect to and towards common sense because I ignored this! Thus, I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to abdicate my own self responsibility as life, and to become blame or spite, because this is simply more of the same, myself in separation from life,  ignoring common sense of what is here as life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to think in protection and defense, in worry and fear of loss, instead of being practical with what exists, here and becoming a practice of being equal and one to and as this actual physical existence in common sense in respect of life, for which the reward of that life will respect me back.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the only way for myself to become aware is to pay my respects to life, as this life around me is me, as all is of the same substance in and as life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become a fear of the unknown, to make this an imagination so huge, I separate myself from myself as life, and limit myself within being able to communicate, as all that exists as my mind within this inferior state is restriction and thus this is what I will become because this is what I have practiced, and thus I cannot blame another for what I have accepted and allowed, as I am life, and thus as life, I direct myself, and since this life as me is of same substance as all that is here, there really is no one that can do this for me, thus it is only myself that can direct myself as life, and within this to realize that since this inner abdication of life has existed to the point where it is manifested without, there are many suffering to such a degree that those of us that have the chance to read articles on the internet, we are the ones who must stand and be the change to heaven on earth through equality and oneness, which means supporting all life absolutely, which means allowing life to be life, which means a systemic form of equal support, as Equal Money,  so that those in extreme lack can begin to stand as themselves, self directive as life, so that each part stand as life and thus creating a whole that is of life absolutely.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear facing the unknown, and within this to see, realize and understand that I am the one allowing and accepting the existence of an unknown, and that it is myself as this unknown that creates a paranormal existence of ambiguous understanding and thus respect for the life that I am, the gift given to be and express here as life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that allowing myself to exist within paranoia, I am accepting and allowing paranormal activity in and as my mind, and thus limiting my awareness of the normal actual, real physical world, where I must realize that the eye of the needle, meaning equality and oneness with and as life, is through common sense of this substantive world as earth, as the physical; as the present limited and separate behaviors and projections of the mind ( and even the projections two feet above the ground of this earth, that  are of lesser dimension and that no longer exist ) are what has been made bigger than life within each human as fear and anxiety in fear of loss scenarios as imagination,  now being maintained by an outward system mirroring this inner state, thus the only solution is to start within each of us to walk self forgiveness within our separations  and to come back down to earth, to walk in practical common sense of life , here, and from here to begin to place into existence policies which support life absolutely, to be and become a directive principle of equality and oneness as what is best for all as our absolute purpose being to respect what we are as life.

Quantum Systemization

Death Research

The Quantum Mechanics Paranormal Events

The Metaphysics of Imagination

Parenting: Perfecting the Human Race

Day 335 Killing is not life

The Problem:
A state of being of judgement creating conflict of a more-than and a less-than the consequence of which creates war. Killing is killing, whether it is in Afghanistan or in Boston, whether it is a bomb, or a gun aimed at two boys, it is destruction and thus abuse, it is not what is best for America or any other country on this earth. Ensuring the security of America is ensuring the security of all life on earth. What is for the common good of America is what is for the common good of all man kind.

There are standard studies that reveal that an income of 60,000 dollars a year is enough to allow a family to be content. Thus, this is what would end war on earth, and this is what would be best for America and the world. Taking the present military and using the hands of men that make up the soldiers, this earth could become stable and at peace in a very short period of time. Thus, there is absolutely no excuse for killing Afghanistanis, Americans and children anywhere on this planet.

To kill is to ignore and reject life. What we do to a part of life in judging life, we do to all life. Thus respect for all life and care for all life will bring stability. This is an act ofaccepting life and forgiving judgement of one thing being more than another. Thus accepting what is here and doing what is best for all is what is in the best interest of America and this world. Since the people on this earth are life, as they are here, this is the real voice of democracy. Killing is not the voice of democracy, it cannot be, because killing is a rejection of life no matter where, no matter how, no matter what.

All humans are the same, it is only a belief, a thought, a judgement in separation from physical reality, that projects a superstition that one is more than another.

The present system is a manifestation of this separation from life, and war and killing is the consequence of this separation from life, from physical reality. Killing is a STATE of being in separation from how the physical world as a form functions, killing is a state of ignorance, killing is the antithesis of life. The killing in Afganistan and America of children are based on ideas that are creating states of being that are in totality a separation from this physical world that is life. There is no excuse for it. none. And it is not what is best for America, because it is not what is best for all, for life.


The solution:
Is to take care of all life on this planet, to come back to earth, realizing that the physical is what supports us as life, as what we are. We destroy life, the physical world and we destroy ourselves. Our conflict of separation is believing as ideas , that one thing is more than another, when we are all the same. We express ourselves in different ways but our basic needs are all the same, we need food, shelter and water. We need this earth to be healthy for us to live. Stabilize this and war will stop. Killing is not the answer, it is the consequence of disease from life. Killing is the human moving as an idea, a singular idea in a bubble, ignoring what is right here, as what supports us, as this actual physical world. Killing is reaction instead of taking what is here, and using it to support life. Killing is a state if dis-ease with how the physical world functions. The profit is life, and this is the value. As long as each and every one of us allow this, it will continue, and like all disease, if not stopped, if not taken care of, it will consume this planet. Killing is disease and we are all to blame as we have accepted this by allowing ourselves to be a state of ignorance, as placing the blame onto something else, this is an omission as belief that if we are not directly involved we are not to blame. Yet we are BeingLAME in allowing killing to exist in our home this earth.

The solution is to realize that what is accepted and allowed on this earth is the responsibility of each and every one of us. Because of this, it is out responsibility to become aware of the life that is here as us, and to stand and to change what is not best for the individual that is consequently not best for all. What we do not want for ourselves is the responsibility of ourselves to become aware of as what this means, as a structure, that allows what we all want to be as a state of being, which is to enjoy our families, to enjoy this earth, to enjoy our children, to have a roof over our heads, to have food on the table, to enjoy ourselves in our physical bodies while we are here. There is enough ingenuity in men, to grow enough food, to work with and understand what is here. And yet, we are allowing this ingenuity to serve killing in ignorance of life, and all because we have allowed a state of being as singular ideas as mind to place one thing above another, without looking at the whole, at the symbiotic nature of this physical world.
We all know, with some investigation, that monocultures do not work, they are in opposition to how nature functions. War is becoming a monoculture on earth, and killing as war is an act that is in direct opposition to working with the life here. Killing is not being self forgiving as life.

The solution is to take what is here, and to realize no one can own what is here, as what is here is life, and can be used to support all life in ways that is not destructive. There is enough here to support all life in dignity. Thus it is for each of us to stand and to realize that we as the expression of life as the human, are responsible for standing up and supporting life as being the value as this is what we are. Until we have not realized what we are we will not have lived because we have not become equal and one in understanding and responsibility as the being of life. Thus, there will be no heaven for us until we do, because we have not become equal and one in totality, and then actually proving our collective ability to be life, as what we manifest on earth as a state of being in totality on earth.
Equality with life means, realizing we are equal and one to all men, to all life, and to prove this , the human must become this with every thought word and deed. Killing is obviously not the way to becoming this, killing is a state of being denying equality and oneness with and as life. There will be no heaven until we become equal to life.
It would make sense to place those who are not equal to life on a planet to sort themselves out, where they would have to realize equality and oneness with others in order to self realize as life. Where in order for life to begin, each and every human being must become life for any single one to become life. And in common sense, this is the only solution, to ensure that each single part realizes the importance of realizing life, and thus not being able to actually be life until all were self realized. So, each of us is basically screwed until each of us realize life. To start, is to realize that killing is not the way and means to become life, thus it must stop.
Standing up and organizing a structure that supports all life, with what we have allowed, which is money taking on the value of what is developed by the hands of many men, for generations, to using this medium as money, to be given to all to enable each to take care of themselves and thus having the opportunity to become responsible as life here, is the solution.
This is a system of bringing ourselves back to life, to proving that we are equal and one to and as life, and that we respect all life, and give as life as what we would like to receive.

The solution is a system of equality, as Equal Money.


The rewards:
The reward is what is best for all, as what is best for self is what is best for all. The perfect balance of life in expression. Thus there is not really choice, there is only what is best for all, as what is best for self is what is best for life, because self is life.

Investigate how the present system functions. Investigate how usury is by its very design a pyramid scheme ( interest lending). Investigate how the nature and design of this form leads to a few owning everything. Investigate how a few owning everything will become a state of being as greed, which is really protection and defense within a delusion that something can be owned, where ownership has been believed to be more than self actually being what is the real value, which is being life, here, equal and one to self as a physical being in a human body expressing life.

The rewards are the end of killing, the end of killing children.

The rewards are a healthy functioning earth, where all children are born into a system realizing their potential as life. Put an end to killing the life that is here, through standing up and voting and supporting a system that supports life, as this is what we all want, if we just slow down for a moment and breath and realize our thoughts, emotions and feelingsare ideas, beliefs and opinions as the part of ourselves as mind as singularities as fear, that are energetic projections consuming us as how we are allowing ourselves to move and be here. This is ignorance of life. What we are being within is creating the killing without as the present system is a reflection of our own ignorance. Killing is ignorance of life. Killing is not an act of being life.

Live the reward of life, Support Equal Money and bring yourself back to yourself as life. Learn to self realize self separation into and as limited and stagnant ideas, beliefs and opinions, become aware of your emotions, thought and feelings, walk the desteni I process, beginning with the FREE desteni lite course. Listen to the interviews, some are free ( we all have to earn money until this present system changes - as this system is the consequence of what we have allowed) on Eqafe.com to begin to walk yourself out of ignorance of life, here.

Day 312 Extreme Shock and Trauma: Accidents, Disease, Mental DisOrder

This then brings in the Next Level of Shock, which are: Accidents, Disease, Mental Disorder and Events that Cause Trauma – bringing a Sudden Stop the Consciousness-Illusion. When this Happens, a Chance exist that the Being may become Aware – but because everyone around a Being is Still Trapped in their Consciousness-Illusion: they will do their Utmost to Convince the one in Shock, that the Shock wasn’t Real. And so, Most even with a Great Traumatic Shock – will eventually Return to the Consciousness-Illusion. 
http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/03/day-320-awareness-and-conception-in.html

Extreme Shock and Trauma
Bernard Poolman has talked about extreme shock and trauma being a trigger/catalyst for seeing more than consciousness. Well, in my case this is basically what happened.
I found my husband hanging by his neck in the attic of our Zurich apartment building in the Spring of 2000.
We were a normal middle class family, two healthy boys who did well in school,our marriage was not one of argument,we did not drink much, we enjoyed skiing - would ski all day when we skied. We loved to walk and be out in nature. We had friends and dinner parties, swam in the Zurich See. My husband had been going to France on the weekends to fly Ultra-light planes, as he had been a hand glider and loved to fly.
As I understood it, he was the head of the design unit for the renovation of the Zurich Airport, purportedly the biggest project ever in Switzerland at that time. His company had paid for him to take a very expensive managerial course. He also was working with Siemann’s and would fly to England to interact with an engineer, who was English. This engineer would also come to Zurich and stay with us in our apartment. It was a nice apartment, because there were always bird sounds, we were so close to the Zurich See.
I moved back to the states. It must have been about 5 or six weeks after the suicide that my sister “dragged” me out to socialize with the summer crowd at a local restaurant. There I sat at the table with about six or seven other people, all of whom I knew for many years. I was basically numb, like being in a state of nothing. In fact I felt nothing, it was as though everything was nothing. Nothing mattered, nothing, nothing, nothing, all was nothing.
Suddenly, every single person at that table had a bubble around them. Their eyes were not here, they were on the screen in front of their eyes. The big tree that was a part of the patio of this restaurant was blowing in the wind, like a giant stream it seemed, like it was in a stream - come to think of it. Anyway, not one single person at that table was really listening to anyone else. NO one was listening to anyone else. All anyone was doing was trying to ( and I am going to describe it as I saw it at that time) force/pull/divert/get attention onto, themselves. It was like they wanted to prove something, and all that mattered was taking anything, using any word, direct everything to and towards themselves to prove, to win, to substantiate themselves. it was like they were hungry for this and nothing else mattered. And there were like, these stream things moving from their eyes out and then back again - which I think one of the quantum mind interviews on Eqafe describe perfectly as how it was.
Mean while, I am sitting there thinking, what the fuck is that! What is going on, oh my god, what is that, no one is listening to anyone else!!!!! Silence. Okay.
I think at that point i snapped back into nothingness, silence, numbness. I forgot about this but other things started to happen, I started to have some problems with people sometimes. And I started to do odd things like just stop and look at another person, and I would just see them being obsessed with their own story.
I also did not want to talk too much. But this is a state of shock.
About a year later, I was doing my student teaching. I had just taught a lesson on some math process to a fourth grade class. Now, I had anxiety that I was not good enough to teach these children. I actually had thoughts of, how can I do this, I could not save/stop what happened to my husband.
So, I had just finished teaching this lesson, had practiced some of the process with the students and was handing this over for them to do on their own. So, I was standing back and watching the group work quietly on their own. One of the boys looked up from his desk and stared in front of him - like he was “staring a hole in the wall” as the saying goes. ( I mean why so we do this? And why does this have a “name”?) Suddenly, above his head was a metallic looking ball, and it was spinning around. This boy was erratic in his behavior, he could read at a higher level than anyone in the class, and he could figure out math problems that as far as I was concerned, he had not been taught. I knew his parents, they owned a fast food restaurant. Okay, what was that? is what I thought, I actually looked at this thing, and could see it had impressed lines around it, like the stitches on a baseball , it was this deep grey color with a hint of bronze coloring and it spun, like those typewriter balls on electric type writers. Back and forth, changing direction. Can you imagine suddenly seeing something like this? What would you do, it is not like I was sick, I was functioning, eating, doing, living, taking care of children, going to school, just normal like anyone else, and this very strange stuff was happening.
Now something like this had happened in my twenties, and I had seen a bubble like thing around something. I had searched for someone else describing such a thing, but found nothing. The next time I was in New York City I went to that big esoteric book store Samual Weiser? I think it was called, and started to look for someone or something describing a bubble around “things”. This time I found something, it was in a Colin Wilson book, the supposed “great sceptic” where a man who had moved into a house had encountered a “man”, as I remember this, that was a “bear” and he began to speak with this entity. Anyway, he. the man that had this encounter, described a bubble being around this entity. That was the only description I found in twenty odd years until I found desteni.
What I saw as a bubble like facade as the “screen” people were “reading” happened in the summer of 2000. I did not find desteni until 2009. I found them when I had gotten to a point where I did not know where to look anymore, nothing made sense, and something was wrong, in a moment of “ four sheets to the wind” I reached out and asked a question, and desteni answered.
The first video was of Veno in Sunette’s body talking about the mind consciousness system. I think this was the second time in my life that I went into shock, someone was talking about bubbles being round people, about a system in the mind, an inter-dimensional system that limited, that was like a retainment of self abdication as life, manifest as fear, as separation from self as life, which would fit with what I saw, as everyone at that table trying desperately, aggressively, obsessively, trying to get all attention onto them as ideas, and opinions and beliefs to prove that they were “right” that their way was THE WAY, and all of it was a self hiding from facing self as life, here.
What I felt as I saw this, as I moved from seeing this to myself in that moment in 2000, was that I was way, way, way down at the end of some really really long tunnel, so far away, so small, so diminished, so timy, and that whole tunnel before me was my separation from life, that somehow this HUGE thing was a storm so great, that reaching here, as in reaching those around me was a divide. But what I remember from this, was how buried I was within this.
So, yes there are bubbles around all of us, even those no longer in the physical existence as a person in a body, in a physical form. If I can see this so can you. If I look back, I realize that the times these things have happened I was very quiet - so to speak- and evidently this is a trait in another branch of my family history, so I am not “special” within this, as this is something that has been realized here, as part of the story of here. I had a great Aunt, who told me one time that I was like the Riotte family, who were half Mayan, so is this an echo of how the MAyans did what they did, in becoming very quiet, they listened and within this learned to see what is here making a lot of noise right in front of them as their fear and desire to be more than, contained in a bubble?

Everything is here, what we are is in all the stories and words we speak, we have simply separated everything into a quantum structure that evaluates into more and less without application into and as realizing that everything has a value, and that not one value is more than another and in this process we are in separation from life, from being one and equal with and as the sound of life as the substance of life.

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