Day 557 A belief as " having to contend with a group."

Memory pops up of middle school. Lost my “ best “ friend. When I found out she was running for Orchestra President, I decided to run too. I ran and I won. She cried at the bus stop that day. I was a mixture of elation at having won and guilt that I had run in reaction. I realize at that moment too, that she had moved into another circle of friends, all of whom were more sexually mature than I. 

So, this memory, this imagination comes up with the word “ some.”  A sense that I have to begin to contend with the collective, the forces of social groups, more like I become aware of them. And with this a sense that I have to comply with this or lose ground.  A sense that the limitation of this, cannot be, I can’t allow it.

It is this idea that i have to contend with a group, a social group. But inherent in the “ contend” is the belief that a group is contentious in relation to me. That there is a con - dition in relation to being involved with the social groups formed around me. When I am with a group I must tend to the “ intentions “ of the group. I have already separated myself from myself as life in and as a belief that I as life must live by the limited, but not all “ bad” values of the group and forgo myself com[pletely. But, in reality, as physical beings in life expression, there is really only that which is best for all, as what is best for this physical world, as the expression of life, is what is best for me. Anything, any resistance is really a resistance to being myself as life in common sense of respect for the physical formation of and as life, the manifestation of  creation, the physical showing what works and what resists the expression of life, all of which moves and changes, and which, as this change, as this manifestation, can only happen here. It is only HERE that life can exist. It is only here, that direct seeing can exist. And here, words on paper, and more words on paper as laws that bind them, can create a world that lives in a past, a selective past, which is a limitation. Which means that a control in self interest fears change, and has taken an idea about itself, and made it more than life, wanting the world around it, to change in an order that allows it to remain the same. And the physical world is always in a state of movement, so such must limit the life moving around it.

So, either moving as myself here, or within a group, as in facing the social groups within this present system, the principle that directs must remain the same, which is to be self as life, which is to move as what is best for all, which is common sense. One can investigate, and the group can investigate, to ensure that what is in action, is what considers all life and does what is best for all. The present divisions each clusters into to survive, that each lies by omission to remain within, a form of ignorance, that change over time as the limitation accepted as the group belief system, eventually does change, because the limitation turns into a sense of loss and/or becomes aware of its own limitation, and a more is sought, self not realizing that it is self who has accepted the limitation, which has nothing to do with the group. So the group disperses, not wanting to admit that the choice to be in the group in the first place, had a starting point of limitation, having believed that the group would be a gain. And as such all constancy is lost, and one does not build an awareness that allows one to stand the same, today, tomorrow and yesterday, where one has the directive capacity to respect the life that is here.

A group is a gain, as in men working together, but the principle directing the group must be equal to the principle within self, which is to do what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for self, as self is a physical manifestation of and as life, the physical being the means of life.

I mean we see this in the practices of men all around the world, how the physical substance of this world is being used and divided without regard for consequences. Not only is the resources of and as the very physical means of the expression of life taken apart, divided and then marketed to create a demand based on an idea that is a truth about singular aspects of practical living, but also, the spoils of such is transferred onto paper and divided in unequal ways, and the waste is left for the ones who actually did the labor, and the means of access, as money, is upholding a group sustaining an idea of being more based on appearance of values, selective ones,  and the vocal means to tout them, having accumulated the wealth that is an illusionary value placed onto a piece of paper. It is like a collective amnesia has become what mankind is. And this amnesia, is self fearing to stand as what self is, as life, where what would disperse this amnesia, is a directive, as a principle, to do what is best for all.

So, I stand as the principle of what is best for all, as this is what is best for self, and as this is what can withstand the fickle nature of groups that give no stability because the motivation is based on beliefs, opinions and ideas, and as this is what can lead to stability within self, to see directly here, something that would bring a constancy instead of a con-tention, to see directly  and look for what supports this world, this physical manifestation of and as life, in ways that allow a participation that leaves no one behind, that leaves no waste, that has no one getting to a point where they become a belief that they have to contend with a group. Each has done this, and each knows it is a separation from self as life,here. It is time to put an end to this, and to stand as what is best for all, as this is what is best for self.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I have to contend with a group, as a starting point.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to see a group as separate from me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give a group an ominous presence, as something that is composed of idea only, and not what is real, as the physical formation of and as life, as that inherent within the physical forms which is the nature of life, which is to do what is best for all, realizing that at present the imaginations of men have become more than what is real, which is the physical world.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from a group, and standing within and as me as a belief that I must attend to the beliefs of the group, and forgo, forget myself as life, which is myself moving as mind as a starting point of belief instead of standing as all of me as myself as a physical being, the manifestation of and as the means of expression of life, which is the physical.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that within this belief as contending with a group, I have accepted and allowed myself to become an idea as mind, before equality and oneness with and as the physical here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the physical world is the means of the expression of and as life, and as such, this respect of the physical, must be realized and understood as the starting point of choices made as self, which when the choice of each, would transform this world in a very short period of time, to a world of discovery, support, transformation: transformation being the real value, one lived with common sense, the most fulfilling experience because it moves in consideration of all life, of all expression, with what is tangible, as imagination is just this, an image in and as mind, and not the full sensation of life, as the physical.

When and as I find myself believing I must contend with a group, or as this, a belief system, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down and I see realize and understand that I am existing as idea as mind, and I look to the beliefs done in comparison in self definition as beliefs, and I forgive such beliefs, and investigate to see what is best for all, which is to consider all things as me, and to choose that which is good and does no harm, and within this realizing that at present because of the separation into and as limited ideas as mind before life, that this is going to take come collective effort to balance out from a past composed of choices that were made in separation from equality and oneness to and as life, and yet, can transform in less time than the accumulation of separation took in time, as time is the illusion of separation, and the physical world is here, as it has always been.

When and as I find myself feeling contentious, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I see realize and understand where I am reacting in self interest beLIEving I will lose a belief about myself- having accepted such as a self definition in separation from common sense, in and as wanting to prove, for example,  that I am worthy when the world is changing around me and I had remained in a past, or stop what I as belief find limiting and or unacceptable as my own generated energetic actions of blame and spite based on a cultural morality, or accepted definitions of gender, instead of as a directive capacity within the principle of equality and oneness, and or, join in to survive, I stop and I investigate within and without, to become a directive principle in and as what is best for all, and move as a solution  as that being what in practice builds step by step, what is of a common sense measure of awareness that is equal and one to and as the physical to see realize and understand that which respects the physical, which means in practice, taking that which is good and does no harm, here, as time is the illusion, and what is real can only be here, which many realize in their daily lives and as such, must be realized collectively and placed structurally as a system with all that is of this world.

Day 525 Using the Heart to stand within the Principle of what is best for all.

I have lead musical groups and within this remained directive and calm, focused here, using the structure of the music to stabilize me.

It really is no different when standing as a principle, especially the golden rule: to give as one would like to receive. As this, to hold the sound of this and remain unwavering within it, facing all objections and limitations within and without.

This brings to mind an event I experienced in Singapore. I was in a wet market looking for lemon leaves. One of the vendors directed me to a woman who sold the leaves. This vendor refused to serve me. I did not speak Chinese, but I knew I was not meeting openness, just a blast of rebuttal. 

I remained calm, because clearly, this woman did not want to serve me.

Then, someone appeared next to me, and they told me that this woman did not like Caucasians and told me where I could find the leaves I wanted. 

Being a white American, I had not faced such racism. I found this a new experience, and it scared me, I felt very hopeless, and realized that there was little chance of changing this attitude, and I also did not speak the language. My sister was with me at the time, and she reacted and wanted to leave. The person who came to help, came up to me, and I think it was because I remained calm, un-reactive. I went back to the market while I was there, my sister refusing to go, and I found I had made some friends, people would come up to me and try to sell me more mangos than I could possibly eat and asked me questions about my boys, and told me all about the people in the market. I found it cool that there were people here who were open and curious, sharing and enjoying differences, opening up and exchanging each other’s lives.

I also run a cooperative and have worked with others in organizing this group. What i find is that there are those who need the details walked again and again, and usually are really good at coming up with excuses, and even break the rules when it is an inconvenience for them to follow them. It does not matter how many times I reiterate the rules, they are broken. Every once in a while I have to state them again, and then things align again and function smoothly. We have even had people drop out because they find the rules too difficult. And the rules are not difficult. But, still, they seem huge to some. I have learned to remain calm and state them again, otherwise, I allow a Pandora’s box of emotion to open, and then I become the “ bad guy.”  I have even had others join in the task of maintenance, and they will end up leaving because they can’t handle the emotional storms. Which is an emotional storm in itself.

There are times when I feel like I just stand there and take the storm, again and again. And the bitch of it is that, reacting to it does nothing. it is to simply explain the guidelines again and again. But i have to say, there are some, that realize the guidelines and work with them. And even apologize when something comes up and a mis-take is made. it is surprising how mush an apology and an act of correction without me asking them, is supportive. The people in the wet market were the same, coming and correcting what was unacceptable. And there are many such people, but not enough, because if there were, then this world would be put in order in a short period of time. And the order, is just simple common sense, being responsible. That is all.

Leading then means remaining consistent and stable within a framework, and in this case what is best for all, what will be a win-win for all parties involved. It means seeing objections and beliefs that are of limitation and directing them. It means understanding the limitation, and narrowing the focus of that objection , defining it and then finding a solution that is of a clearly defined goal with the practical steps delineated. It is remaining within the sound of that frame, that structure. This I can do, because I have done this many times, even with the competition breathing down my neck. It is interesting that one cannot be touched when standing in stability like this, even anger from another is tempered as it has nothing to project onto because the stability within the framework remains constant.

If one listens to the tempo of speech, one can align to this, and become the rhythm of this and then hear/here the limitations, and move at that speed. I realize that this will take practice, and that I cannot rush or charge myself in any way. It is to remain focused and directive, because in the end, if the understanding and constancy is not held and modeled, there will be no structure given that can withstand the test of separation in time and space. And, it is only a belief that the quality of myself will be lost, as an idea of what I am in relation to another, especially since competition will use such and run with it, destabilizing on purpose within self interest. This is where the quiet is of great benefit, because not only is this a place of focus, it is also where one hears the storm of  self interest.

In trying to figure out what was going on with my husband, before he died, I had a moment where I said out loud, STOP. And indeed, did everything stop. And in that same moment, everything that i had defined myself as as being important suddenly left me.. And in that small space, I realized that everything I thought I was, was meaningless.  And, in that moment, there was this bubble all around me too, which means that what I had allowed needed to be cleaned up, there was no escape. And yes, I feel as though I am standing in the midst of this and trying to clean it up, because this is not equal to here.

Interesting that in writing this out, suddenly there is a sense that there is so much more to myself and as such to others than we can imagine beyond our petty projections. I would have to say that this is a compassion, that gives the heart direction within consideration that everything that is here, is one expression and that is an absolute purpose of being equal and one with this in everything around me. as though it were me, like bringing everything back to myself , like one, in the end, does not sense with the mind, one senses with the heart.

Day 462 Aligning words into and as what is best for all.

So, if someone is standing before me using words to describe something, I listen to the words, and take them at their face value, and I take this equation of sound and I direct this into what includes all life, what supports all life, without blame, without judgement, like this is me and i am it, because in order for myself as life on this physical planet to exist in full potential, the totality as the forms and words must be what realizes all life as being the value. Thus any learned limitation or separation, which will physically manifest as a tension or burning sensation as the physical body,  any objection as only objection without solution that lacks the directive principle of considering all life as being the value, can be reformed and directed within and as the principle of what is best for all, as being self as life released into equality and oneness as life as self, here. Thus, a limitation, a touted limitation is the voice of self inner rest, that can be brought back into and as what is best for all. Forgive yourself the burden, the self accepted burden of your blame and the action of your spite, it goes nowhere, only accumulates into an entity unequal to self at ease as life, here.

Thus, I take the words as me and I direct them within the principle of what is best for all. I harmonize, meaning a take the words and wrap my arms around them - so to speak- and I take that which is good and direct that which is in imitation of insight within and as the principle of what is best for all. And, I do this with every moment, with the time I have here as life, to direct within and as what supports life.

This means that no matter what anyone says, I can only direct within and as my words as what supports all life, which means I cannot blame another. I can realize how money moves on this planet as debt and principle, and look to what does not allow the accumulation of debt. As debt within the present system cannot be paid, because all that really exists as the money is the principle, and since a private bank creates the digits, as the principle, then they pretty much own everything, and we have accepted this because we have not really investigated how money works.

I am defined by what I accept and allow myself to exist as in belief, opinion and idea within. Nothing outside of me, as idea, can define me unless I allow it.

What is the real value is right in front of us, the physical, which is why this is the most demonized part of existence, taught from childhood, because then what is the value is not realized but run from and impulsed to be dirty, and ominous, weird and aberrant, when it is in fact the direct opposite. The physical world determines what we are, thus how we take care of physical existence is a direct reflection of how we value ourselves as life. If we judge what is here in any way, instead of realizing what is here as being life, then we are in separation from creation, from equal and one respect and consideration for the very substance of ourselves.

Having said this, it must be realized that a hierarchy is a form of separation from life by its very design, thus, class structure determined by money is separation, as it allows the idea of money that is the value created and taken from what is the substance of life to support a judgement as an idea of physical forms being of greater or lesser significance, where, if we look at , for example a computer, each little wire is a part of the whole and thus each part is significant in that it composes the whole, without which that computer cannot exist. And, for that form to exist it must be what it is composed of and as. Thus, a human, cannot be what they are meant to be unless they are in full function, which means that which enables them to perform, to express themselves as their from and function as what is their structure. Within this it is to realize that in order for this planet to get into order, the instrument must be cared for, and be able to move itself within the space and time that is here, which means that the human must be educated, and that suppressing this within a human, as their innate capacity, diminishes life because the instrument is not functioning. 

For this world to become the order of life a system that supports all life must exist. Our present system of inequality must change to one of equality. This means creating that which is best for all in practical fact on a physical level, which means forgiving ourselves within as judgement as some values made larger than actual physical reality. Support the Living Income Guarantee, to walk the process of life, of birthing life back into what is the order of equality to physical existence to create an earth that is extraordinary as heaven on earth. Become the life you are meant to me, love your neighbor as yourself, as they are you equal and one in sound substance as life.

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Day 428 Self forgiveness on the changing forms of colony: settlement, form, cultivation

I have been reading Nicholas Shaxson's Treasure Island, so I wanted to walk some self forgiveness within the context of this book.  The system is a manifestation of what each of us has accepted and allowed. So, each of us has a responsibility to understand how we are divided through belief within and how our system is designed without, to begin to correct our separation from a common sense that is innate within us to put and end to destructive practices on earth so that life on earth can begin, There is really not other choice.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when I get angry it is because I have an expectation, wanting agreement within an agenda of wanting to win, without walking the necessary steps towards understanding, these steps simply in looking here, with what moves in practical measurable ways, that are what supports all life as what is best for all, an outcome that gives what is here as the form of what is here a visible measurable equality within to the without as the physical, within equal standing, this a confidence that is a state of ease, here, where behaviors of lack are the separation, as only parts have been impulsed to serve a lesser god of greed where a few believe themselves to be an elusive “ more worthy” than another, knowing full well that this is illusion, one that must use the resources of earth to voice its separation, where this separation does as it is, destroys the nature of life to impose what can only be idea as one thing being more than another on the face of creation as earth, where only that which creates, which is that which supports absolutely can exist, all other actions of disregard and thus of destruction, thus, a system of inequality, where lack is actively imposed on men, cannot and will not work as creation, which is what is happening on earth, thus the only solution is to do no harm, to take that which is good, and support life absolutely, to support creation, to become equal within to the without as the physical as this is creation.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to  see realize and understand that offshoring is a crime against life as it becomes an isolated entity, hiding from any and all nations, through dividing administrative parts of a whole functioning group, lends money from one section to another, to perpetually ensure that the principle remains within the corps, slowly, drip by drop, taking all principle  of value created from freely given resources and the labor of men, and giving itself ownership thereby eliminating any and all competition, as those on the top are the same as us, lost in fear, inferior to life, existing within bubbles not looking , seeing, understanding the interconnectedness of all life, thus the corp. of commodity creation, a form of dis-creation, discretion the means of hiding the abuse - the movements of greed behind happy face ambiguous, disingenuous through abstract platitudes of no real revelation, disclosure that generate happy feelings the affixation of man in a chemically controlled stew of “ happiness” where each does not have to face the abuse within that each has accepted and allowed that is the source of the separation from life that exists on earth.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become disgusted, and/or angry/ and or righteous about this, as this is an act of blame and spite, instead of follow through into solution, within the realization that the physical world is the gift of life, the signature of creation this that is what is best for all, this that allows the expression of life, this that would manifest as movement in ease, here,

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the very way and means that money has been allowed to flow as our present system is a crime against life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that I am in separation of life in and as the ideas that i have allowed to become how I define myself, this being a construct of isolation from actual physical reality, and thus from creation.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand the ridiculous nature as the idea of a heaven, as creation would have all dimension seeable, and would not divide life, as it takes all life moving as one to see, realize and understand that it is the balance of all life, all expression that enables realization as what is best for all, as what is best for all would be creation, it is that simple, thus the order on earth is one of creating disorder of creation to serve an idea that one thing is more than another, which in the end is destruction, as the bible reveals, that division into more than and less than leads to annihilation,  thus the bible is a confusion of order and dis-order as religion is the commodification of, the code of hierarchy and division, from what is real, the starting point of this separation told in the beginning, as the code of separation was the belief in the choice of a good and a bad, where this offer used the apple of the tree of life, thus this choice was not the choice, as the only choice was that which supported the tree of life, and that choice is what is best for all, where the patience of impulse, is the offering of an illusionary “ sweetness” of good when this idea of good is creating an idea of a bad, and thus the need to push away the bad, creating a game of polarity, that exists as it can only exist, within knowledge and information that is not only limited but also separate from practical application, but oh so caught up in the conflict of the good vs. the bad that nothing else can be seen, that tree, right there that is the real creation, that is that which produces the fruit of life, that which reproduces life, that which is composed of the substance of life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that memory  created in a system of separation from life, from creation as what destruction is, creates a membrane of pictures in the measure of separation from life into limited ideas, and the membrane becomes the dictate of the human, a membrane fed with limited knowledge and information without, or with limited opportunity as both collection of knowledge and information and with limited opportunity for practical application, maintaining a grid of separation as the parts that are in separation compose the image and likeness of separation into what is now the present system of abuse and separation from practice that supports all life, as life being the value is second to the profit of destruction and separation from life, as what this present system is and does.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand the irony of statistics, where statistics collects anecdotal evidence, actions and movements of men on the ground and creates a mean that does not tell of the extremes, and touts this as a truth, and meanwhile when a practice is wanted to be passed what is used to validate such practice is a study done in isolation of the common ground, and this is considered the “ truth” a contradiction that is a lie, because where this is one justification used on one scenario and not in another, this allows division and conflict as it creates a disorder, as it is distorting reality in self interest instead of looking at what really exists as the physical world, creation, the gift of life, that is so obviously being abused and destroyed thus the NSA uses statistics based from the common ground of anecdote to justify political action and the corporations use a controlled environment to justify through manipulation of time and space, a crime against life using manipulated perspective in self interest, this so clearly showing that that which is real, as the physical, is presented in parts to feed the disease of greed that is ideas made bigger than reality.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand the double standard being accepted by the act of complacency in men, where corporations give one another loans to hold onto principle, and meanwhile the masses are  given interest loans that cannot possibly be repaid, and thus the debt falls on the people, and as well within the pharmaceutical industry and the processed food industry, the principle gathered by a few, buys the policy makers, who protect the principle as money in self interest before doing what is best for all life, which means the whole political system of protecting the principle as the real values, allowed to be assigned to money, which each one as a part of the masses is tied to because money determines life, and this we are caught in protecting the principle as being a piece of paper, which must be realized must change to where money is given to all men, as we have allowed this to hold the value of life, the value created from resources and labor, the masses must stand and change the way this values flows, as it is not money, it is how this money moves that must change, thus a system that allows the life blood of support from earth, as money, to move in a design that gives a living income guarantee to all on earth, as this would be the common sense of men, standing and being that which is life, that which is the support of the right to life, because in essence what each of us is allowing is that which does not support life, which must end if we as men want to equalize ourselves to life, to no longer be lost in a belief that there is a choice of good and bad, but that the choice is life, to support the physical world as being the creation of life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the drama of decolonization was what was presented, all the while economic structures were set up in the form of offshoreing that enslaved economically all men, which must come to an end if life on earth is to continue, this  means that we as humans stand up and accept creation as the physical being life and do only that which causes no harm, an absolute, or life on earth will no longer exist.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the mind as consciousness if  the very form as the membrane ( memory brain)of fairy tale values as stories told in childhood that did not reveal the TOTAL story of how the physical world functions in fact,   of ourselves in a bubble of isolation from the physical within of memory as limited values then made more than the outside, as the physical,  the separation on earth that has manifested systemically in image and likeness of what each has accepted and allowed within, a separation from the value being life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that that which upsets the membrane of men, as projected characters and personifications visible as class, nationality, gender, race, are all a limited insight into what is beneath, that each of us are men, all the same, and as a collective men are the caretakers of earth, each and every one, which can only be done on the ground where each of us stand and thus, to limit the awareness of men through partial story, the ability of each to understand what is right here as the physical is removed, and thus the principle of the physical can be taken and divided in the illusion of idea as the membrane of limited values played out as characters dressed in pinstripe that are the same as us, warp the substance of life into limited values based on ideas of a more than, that has become boys playing with destructive toys which is not life, where the skill in building the toys is applied to destruction instead of creation, this an acknowledgement of the capability of men directed towards destruction instead of creation, abusing that which allowed this expression of destruction to even exist, thus it is time for a systemic change into what supports all life to allow the value being life to become what is expressed on earth which means becoming equal and one to and as the value being life, working with physical reality in practical application as that which is good and does no harm.

I commit myself to becoming equal and one in consideration of physical reality.

I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that that which I fear, as in standing outside the present system, where that system is not rejected, but that which is good used, and within this I stand and support a structure that can be stepped into that supports all life.

I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that grass root voices are where the voice of life exists, as the voice of the system is limited, and protective of the principle of creation being placed onto a piece of paper determining how life should be, when this choice is not a choice as we need only open a newspaper and read the news and we realize that what is the present system is not in fact taking care of this earth.

I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that corporate ideologies are limited and propose limitation and thus are a false god representing the separation from life, thus a system change must be built and walked into, beginning with moving money flow to reach all humans, to receive a living income wage because what we all want is food on the table, time to enjoy our families with ease, and opportunity for self development, which is self expression as life.

I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that Syria, for example, at one time produced its own food, which begs the question as to why this became a disorder that presently exists, where factions of men that are from offshore, as offborder are running around in Syria in the first place, and why do they have guns that could only have been built by those colonizers of warped economic gain that now hide in offshore entities of anonymous, ambiguous entities of no one name, a slippery slope of deception and abuse to life, a crime we all accept and allow unless we stand and as a group change into what is best for all, which means realizing what we have become as consciousness.

I commit myself to  seeing realizing and understanding that reaction as emotion and feelings are based on cumulative thoughts of partial story impulsed by the allowed voice that holds the accumulation of principle as money, thus what has been impulsed cannot be considered what is real only, which means realizing that our thoughts are not each of us in alignment with common sense as life, here, and our emotions and feelings are the program of service to limited ideas of good and bad, instead of equality and oneness with practical physical creation of life manifest.

I commit myself to realizing the mind as limited stories is the superstition and that the physical world, as what works that does not harm, is the reality, and thus I commit myself to breathing, to slowing myself down, to self forgiveness and corrective application as that which is best for all through investigating the design of the present system of division and conquest, as parts of a story, as a lack in equality with physical reality, where common sense is always right here in front of us. as this is the substance of life made manifest, thus abuse to this in any way, is a crime against life.

I  commit myself to facing the membrane of separation, a veil of isolation,  composed of limited values, as the fairy tales of childhood that disney has rigged with subliminal images of distorting physical intimacy away from the joy of simply being a physical being enjoying physical touch and expression with all the physical world, in every moment as all moments are the value being intimate with life, earth,  to with every breath, face this storm of separation, that is energy that has a high/intense point and then fades as this cannot be sustained, and to stand in the face of this, and bring this back into common sense as that which is best for all, as that what we each seek, ourselves as life here.

Day 391 Add money to peace keeping and it becomes military and security forces. Is this acceptable?

“ In other words, the privatization of UN peace and humanitarian operations to the private sector: an objective of several billion dollars annually the cartel of private military and security companies have coveted for many years.”

In the above statement from this article:

http://www.globalresearch.ca/the-privatisation-of-war-private-security-companies-on-contract-with-un-humanitarian-and-peace-keeping-operations/5342155

What do we have as the equations of the words? We have a misleading double speak, UN peace and humanitarian operations becoming military and security companies. Within this, suddenly, there is several billion dollars that have been “coveted for years.” 

So, peace is not profitable and security and military are? Is this why we have so many children being killed, so much war, so much destruction?

If we give the poor and the dispossessed guns, as their land is shrunk from mis-use of water and deforestation ( to name a few), and then play the hero with military and security, what dies this say? This says that we are the cause in totality of the demise, and the abuse of this earth is caused by greed, a desire to own natural resources in self interest, for profit, BEFORE life. This is egregious behavior, it is criminal, delusional and unacceptable. 

The few who have used the inequality of usury, where the debt grows and is placed on the many, and the few control the principle, which are who pay for the guns because the poor cannot ( so why to we blame the behaviors that come from the tools given, such tools that can only be paid for with money and only a few have access to this) , this few, as we see, own the capital of this earth, and they are not interested in peace, which they say they have an interest in, but the actions are another story. Security and military are protection and defense mechanisms, they are not peace keeping actions.

Peace keeping actions are giving men the tools and the means to be self responsible. Taking the land and the means away to allow this self responsibility creates/allows the discord, and then inflaming this discord, this survival behavior with tools of destruction creates a scenario of destruction. Thus, the military and security mechanisms are a consequence along a chain of greed behaviors, self interest without regard or respect for human rights, animal rights, earth rights, respect for this physical world. The chain of this is crime against life.

The solution is to change the system. Usury does not work, will not work, cannot work, it is a pyramid scheme.

Destroying land through deforestation, displacement of indigenous peoples, through signatures on pieces of paper that these people laugh at because they realize that in the end, the land is the value and that it cannot be owned and abused, thus , though they are ignorant on some levels, this is used and abused, this is not the behavior of a leader that considers life, a leader that takes on leadership to lead the ship of this earth and care for all life. Thus we do not have leaders on earth, we have a few who own more and believe that they are more because they are drugged with power, a false belief in separation from life, and their actions make this clear.

Ironically, this uses the hands of men in self interest, thus it admits that the hands of men are needed, even to make and maintain machines that take on the work of men, machines that have been developed over generations by many men and so to claim ownership is once again, a delusional idea that bears no witness to life, to the physical world. We could call our present governments insane asylums, because it really is not any different than such a place, it is a bunch of men walking around actually believing that they are better than others, that they are some kind of god. Should we ask them to stop breathing? Would this not reveal that they are the same as all life on earth? Without breath, does one does not exist?

What is the solution, at the moment to take care of this? It is to stand and organize this system into one that provides to all the tools necessary to become self responsible as life. I would not even bother with trying to explain to extremely delusional power brokers the consequences of their delusion, because they are so happy playing with their toys that they will not be able to listen. I mean, try getting your son away from a video game sometime, all that happens is a body that seems to engrossed in the game they do not hear you, and then you have to yell, and them you are accused of being aggressive and then a whole series of blame reactions and spite reactions come up and it all becomes one big battle field. This will not work. Thus, the solution is for the many to stand and place a system on earth that supports and values all life. Though this may seem small and impossible at the beginning, realize it will take time and consistent effort. This is to realize what supports life, what gives the human the means to become self responsible, to become the life that we are when given what allows us to develop in self sustaining ways. A Basic Income Guarantee will allow this, and will realize that it is the many hands of men who have created the values that support life, from generations back, in developing the resources of this earth. These resources are us, we are them, they belong to life, to earth , to all men, all creatures, all plants, - these plants that are very efficient in making the air that we all breath that enables us to experience life. We cannot blame the life that is here for behaviors of lack when behaviors of development are not consistent, stable, efficient, practical, and directive within allowing self direction. In many ways it is like the human is a machine, and when given proper instruction and tools to express, the outcome is self directive behaviors of equal consideration and respect for life. Humans simply reflect what has been allowed on earth. Thus, the human must change. The dictate on earth must become a principle of what is best for all, which means the development of self direction as life, as life would life.

The rewards are the opposite of what we have on earth at present. Clean water, clean air, sustaining use of resource, behaviors of giving and receiving that which one would like to receive. Systems that ensure all the soils are functioning, that the water is clean and reaching all life, that the animals are cared for, the trees are producing air.  I mean , what would happen to our rivers and streams, our lakes and oceans if the water were pure and clean, would our weather change? What would happen if our tools were made to last, cutting back 95% of resource use? What would happen if our homes were built to last, and we could trade our living spaces with one another, knowing everything would be valued and cared for, and thus we could see all expressions and formations of life on this earth? What would it be like to know that your children would grow up becoming a full expression of themselves as life, would this not be worth the idea of having great wealth as the present system touts and instead seeing your child become calm, stable, expressive, giving, communicative, physically active, present, stable?

I cannot imagine anyone choosing war over this. There is no other choice, but to remain where we are for the moment, and to support a system that supports us, and our children, and all life absolutely. This system is a Basic Income Guarantee. Check it out. It is time to remove this delusional double speak - the misuse of the tool of life as the physical - that has become so myopic, so repeated, so pounded into our ears and senses it has abused life and bullied a separation that has no connection to life, and thus it is the many who must stand and reform the government of men, the system of governing, to one that values life, that values earth, by removing that which divides and destroys and placing that which gives support absolutely, realizing that this will take time, as the behaviors that presently exist are going to take some time to correct back to life, that which we have all separated ourselves from, that has always been here, right in front of us, the mis-take was a belief that one thing was more than another. And for this, we must simply forgive ourselves and stand up, and accept ourselves as life, as this is what we are. Our minds are simply the voice of our separation. Don’t believe me, just go and watch TV, and read this article, It makes no sense.

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Day 364 Self Judgement Commitment Statements

If I read about some extreme injustice I become very angry and blame and react, so busy being blame that I no longer am here in common sense of the totality of what is here in earth and who I am as how I am within such a reaction. Then I have expectations that my righteousness will be understood and when it is not, I remain in ignorance singing the tune in and as my mind that another is ignorant or lack any semblance of care for another. Then I blame myself for not having made the situation clear enough, in some way. I remember before my husband died I kept thinking that the magic words must be there somewhere, I had simply not found them. And the answer was right there in front of me, it was what I had constructed as belief that was the separation, not the words individually, but how I used them, what I described, which lacked a complete understanding of what was going on. Even if I had placed my words to be clear, my husband had to take them and apply them himself, this I could not do, this was ultimately up to him, thus we are all to blame for what we allow, and cannot point the finger at anyone else.

I notice this tension in my legs, it is like they have this electrical circuitry that tenses them continuously and somehow, I am the cause of this as what I have accepted and allowed. So, I am attempting to write this out, as this is a behavior I have had for a very long time and it is going to take some time to slow this petrification of myself as how I am within me as how I am moving in detail as myself within.

It has even taken some time to see this, as I did this within my back and that took some time to get to relax. Self forgiveness is a much better tool than any drug. And I do not condone stopping drugs as they perhaps have a purpose for a moment.

I remember my father being able to hear an orchestral work and name the orchestra, the conductor, the piece. This was an ability to measure the character of these parts, which is to say the style of the conductor, and the orchestra and the piece were able to be heard through their combination of qualities. Which means that humans have the capacity to sense here in detail. There are those who can read every form water takes when frozen to understand the age of the ice, the strength of the ice, the atmospheric conditions slowly coming along. All of this is reading patterns, becoming familiar with this world. This intrinsic ability is the nature of the organic machine of the human, and the only reason it is not living up to this in full capacity is that it is denied development. I also think that the development of this is probably greater than any machine built by men today. Even though this within ourselves as humans has been suppressed for so long, we will probably need our inventions to help us discover what we are that some have achieved some level of ability within and as, to allow ourselves as life to be within our full potential as what we are as life, here.

In actuality, we have learned suppression, and this is maintained by a system, currently that is the manifestation of our own suppressions as life. We have completely separated ourselves from life, abdicated what we are as life, not realizing that the only way through to life is as ourselves. This is what was meant by going through the eye of the needle, one must become equal to the substance of life, to fit through, no machine we build is going to get us through, it is only equality and oneness to and as the starting point of life, the very substance of life, the “ sound” of life that is the building block equal and one within all of us. Must seem so abstract when looked at through a mind of chasing ideologies. Realizing these ideologies for what they are, idols to abdicate self responsibility as life, will seem like a death, but it is only a death of idol worship, as the only solution is to respect this actual physical world, as this is what is real. Heaven fed off of this, and it was a projection off the ground of earth. We have all been afraid of a lesser substance, and in the process become inferior to life. The joke is on you. And me. lol We are the creators of our own yokes.

So, I have this person I have known for many years. I went to a gathering with him. Now, he rants incessantly about how people are rude and ignore him. At this gathering there was another woman I have known for years, and I know her mother. Her mother is very much a mother in the traditional sense that she is constantly organizing and cleaning up, making sure things look in order. I know this because she owns a gallery and it is always in order, and this mother is constantly moving and tidying things up. She has been doing this for so long it is like habit as what she is. So, her daughter at this gathering was talking with me and my friend, when she suddenly turned and went to help someone she noticed was holding a bowl - as there was food at this gathering. The daughter went to get involved with the maintenance of the gathering, just like her mother, concentrating of this kind of detail, as though she could not help herself. I was looking at my friend as this happened in a moment, and the whole musculature of the face of my friend tensed and pursed.

We left the gathering and immediately in the car my friend started to go into the same rant about how people are rude and ignore him.  I said to him that this daughter was simply becoming her mother, becoming a role of taking care of the objects at the function, just life her mother, and that it really had nothing to do with my friend, she was simply becoming the habit she was taught. My friend said, I know - which he says all the time when something is pointed out - and continued to talk about how rude this behavior was.  I also know that the father and husband within this family does not believe that women should be in art. Which I will not explain here, so, I understand that this family has serious divisions within gender role play even in the face of this present world where women are more than capable of learning to draw and paint. There are probably layers of issues here that I will not go into, as the point is that it is beliefs, opinions and ideas that build our personalities and these beliefs, opinions and ideas playout in our behaviors, and it is all visible. Which is how my father could determine which conductor was conducting, which orchestra was performing and which piece was being played, and when it was written  and what culture it came from, as the details of the parts as the focus reveal the parts as what is not present and what is made huge and brought forward. And our divisions of quality create a persona that is readable, be it nation, country, tribe, family, gender, social level. All of these divisions where borders within the qualities are not allowed to be crossed, or so we believe.This organization has created separation and difficulty in communication, and this earth is in constant war and strife, thus, what we have created within all this is not working, our existential order is one of destruction and not life and therefor this must change. It is an order of limitation, the parts in themselves not bad, just simply ordered in such a way life is denied, withheld, and lacking communication as the parts with one another. Naturally, there are a few benefitting from this. Which begs the question, are they really? An ease of communication in totality would be a more fulfilling life, this cannot be denied. It is common sense.

So, what is it that is able to “ read” all of this” Can an idea “ read “ this” What is it that takes in all the “ sound “ of this and has some common sense of the parts, if this is developed? And can this “ reader” of here that is each of us, be taken into limited behaviors of blame and spite based in limited insight, as my friend was allowing himself to exist as, based on an idea of himself and what was needed to validate him? And why did he need a specific behavior the lack of which caused a reaction of blame and spite? All of this so silly because it is all wanting something that has no common sense of here, is of no communication of here as being life, living life here, learning to sense here and enjoy simply being here, learning to be and become equal and one in communication with life as what is substantial, here. This is why singular ideas as imagination are pointless, they are fantasies made huge and thus a separation from physical reality. We are actually living a language of fantasy, and this is based on the culture in which we were born. A selection of values creating a persona, and that fantastic persona is very limited. Were it not then an ease of communication would exist on earth. And it does not. Also, had we this, what knowledge and information presented by the media would have outcomes that were agreeable to all, and what is storied on the media is not doing this. The media only plays to each persona losing itself causing fear, instead of directing each of us to understand and stand as life in self responsibility.

And such attention deficit disorder is disordering life, as this is used to allow some to have more than others, and we allow this, because we are so caught up in blame and spite, idea and opinion, our thoughts that are judgements are ideas that something is more than another instead of placing what is here as expression into context with the physical real world, and in so doing this we separate ourselves from life, and our separation, our projection consumes the physical and we become habituated within our ideas, that are taught by those who were before us doing the same, and thus we end, we cannot move through the eye of the needle because we were never here, instead we were in our minds, believing our thoughts to be real our judgements to be real. These judgements when continued become emotions and feelings and then they become our behaviors, our personifications which are then constantly seeking validation, the memores as judgements wanting to be right, wanting a right to life, which is believing an illusion, being the lie of separation and suppression of self as life being here, reading here, understanding here as the physical is the gift to bring self here to allow equality and oneness to and as life here. 

I have to within myself see my own judgements that are separations from life, as what i was taught, not all good or bad, but simply limited, and as this a suppression of myself as life. 

The only solution is to take what I have used as ideas and beliefs and opinions as judgement of what is more than and less than, superior and inferior and bring these back to myself, take what is good and what prevents disease with here, and direct within the principle of what is best for all, even in the face of reaction and protection and defense of personification as behaviors of ego, which is to bring a limitation/ambiguity back to equal and one consideration of practical needs of physical reality, as it is the physical which is the source of life, not a heaven, not the idea touted by a media owned by a corporation that has an idea that it can determine what people need, as believing one knows what people need is to deny the actual physical world being more than able to determine what is needed as the physical is its own technology able to take care of itself, as it can “ read” here as it is life, the very source of life. Taking care of the physical world and allowing it to be what it is, especially the human, to be and become what it is capable of is the only solution, as this is the way of life. And that is just common sense.

Our economic system is not on par with life, it does not support life, it does not prevent disease, poverty, sexual abuse, ignorance, pollution, killing, animal abuse, soil erosion.  Fractional reserve banking within interest lending allows the interests of a few to not only serve in self interest, but use the profits as the principle, divided again and again under names of a different color, move the separated values into building a war machine to capture and divide resource and information; our media being the projector of limited information to diminish understanding and yoke understanding within limited means, all done in self interest with the idea projected that one hand feeds us despite physical fact that it takes many many hands to have built and to built what exists, making it very obvious that the outward manifestation as the order of this system is simply a macrocosm of what we are each allowing and accepting within ourselves on and individual/micro level as consciousness as thoughts as judgements as idea that one thing is more than another, when the order of equality as all being of same substance in expression in different rhythms as what is needed to be the physical world working as an expression of life, meaning on a practical level that physical skill is not more than intellectual skill as both are needed to support life, as where we stand at the moment. 

So, when and as I find myself imagining via a hierarchy of values about another, analyzing them and placing them on a scale of more and less value I stop and I breath, and I see realize and understand that they are me and I am them, that the present system as consciousness as mind, as personification of limited ideas, beliefs and opinions, exposing themselves within and as me as thoughts, that when repeated and used as directive, become emotions, and feelings, as fear of loss and justification for an action taken to hide the negative judgement in and as limitation and thus separation from here, I slow myself down and I direct within and as the principle of what is best for all, realizing that within directing as such, behaviors of protection and defense of personality will react in self interest, and here I continue to remain within and as breath, and to not allow myself to become inferior to the bully of the mind, and/or judge myself as superior as the only choice is to become the living word within and as what is best for all.

When and as I find myself reacting to a fear of being judged, I stop and breath, and I see, realize and understand that I allow myself to be judged as judgement need only be directed within and as what is best for all, of which is visible as all life on earth being cared for and developed within the inherent nature of man as a physical being to and towards communicating as life in awareness and consideration of all life, as is the nature of life.

When and as I find myself imagining a loss, I stop and I breath and i bring myself back here, and realize that the only thing that can be lost are thoughts as ideas, opinions and beliefs that are not in accord with life, with what is best for all,  and that the mind is an imagination and not what is real, here as the physical, thus the only choice is to stop and breath and bring myself here realizing what is supportive of life absolutely through care for this actual physical world, which means I have to place myself here and accept the physical as me, as what is real.

When and as I find myself moving towards a behavior as a reaction, as spite and blame, as comparison and competition, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down to “read”/look at the actual physical world here, to no longer allow myself to judge on a scale, through a scale, of more than and less than, and instead to look at what is real as the physical and to use my common sense to investigate what works as support absolutely, or to direct within what would support the physical world to prevent disease and allow the life that is here to become directive as itself within and as equality and oneness as what is best for all.

When and as I find myself tensing up in my legs I stop and I breath, and I take the time to slow down and see what I am allowing and accepting in terms of judgement as blame and spite, comparison and competition, that is myself suppressing myself as life into a mental fantasy of limited qualities selected as associations learned, and I direct without fear of loss within and as the principle of what is best for all, thus I walk through my smoke screen of fears as separations being used as label for protection and defense, of self abdication and I speak within common sense of what is best for all here.

When and as I begin to point out how the present system functions as a system of inequality, as a system that begins within each and every one of us, I stop and I breath and I do not allow myself to become inferior to here, within and as blame and spite, judgement of more than and less than via comparison and competition, as I take the principle of what is best for all is best for self, and I direct within this principle as myself as life, to begin to redirect this behavior of suppression I have accepted and allowed that is my own behavior of limitation in being equal and one to and as life, here.

When and I have a thought that something has been “ done unto me” I stop and I breath, and I realize that there is a whole past of judgement behind me, resonantly held within as belief, opinion and idea that broadcasts it separation via thoughts, emotions and feelings, which I no longer allow to be the experience of myself here, as I walk this through forgiving this back to myself and directing this within correcting this towards what is best for all via being equal and one with and as this actual physical world, as this is what is real and not the imaginations in and as my mind, as consciousness.

When and as I find myself allowing myself to believe I am being coerced, I stop and I breath, and I stop the circular logic as thoughts of bad and good, more than and less than, loss and gain, reward and punishment, and I take this catch 22 and see, realize and understand what would be best for all, placing the physical as myself here, investigating and speaking up within what is directive here in equality and oneness as what supports the physical world absolutely.

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