Showing posts with label reflection. Show all posts
Showing posts with label reflection. Show all posts

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

as- KING Day 783

In working with children, I realize how much that absorbent ability, as the child, does not have boundaries. Meaning that absorbent ability takes in what is around it, and becomes it. There is no separation. Yet, this is and what would be the very nature of our natural absorbent ability! We learn to define the qualities we absorb over time and define ourselves as that, when that is really a process of clarifying what we are seeing and what we are being, as a expression in a relationship. I say relationship because I am here, on a physical planet, moving in a relationship with all that is here, composing an expression as the whole as the physical as this earth, as creation. 

I can get caught up in my review of the reflection of what I have taken in as a value within the process of defining who and what I am as a physical form on a physical planet. I can forget what iI am and take the resonant ‘ copy’ as what I absorbed as a form, and make that larger than life. Then I become a con-sciouness of separation.  Amazing how our schools are this manifest, showing ourselves to ourselves as how we are allowing informing as separation from the practical reality. And we do this with words, mis-using sound, to create more and accumulating consciousness’s of separation. An instored/in-spired/in- layered/in-storied set body of information. Can we ask ourselves why we can’t remember what we did last year? If we are following a resonant construct of limited - information,  as a set body of information, how can we be present realizing the reality around us, in ways that do not cause conflict with the physical reality? Our actions do not fit into that reality, the one we absorbed that created a picture that then, through allowance, became larger than life!  

This begs the question, as as-KING, as self reflection with regard for what and who we are as physical beings on a physical PLAN-it,  where there is a at-most-fear,  why such a thing as shaking within ourselves exists? Is it possible that the sha- KING is countering a set body of resonant information? One moves against acceptances and allowances, as a resonant construction, when one QUEST- ions with as-KING ? Meaning, when one reviews one’s reality outside of that set body of resonant belief, as limited information, where one no longer is using that natural absorbent ability that can have no boundaries, as the process of understanding this reality, that is a natural action and is how we expand and realize who and what we are here? 

Within me, I can, in this moment, sense a righteousness. Meaning, my manner of wondering why we cannot see this, is in itself colored as being righteous. As always a truth is present, yet when made larger that life, it can lead to righteousness. Which is doing the same as what I speak of, making something larger than the practical. 

I can realize how stagnant I am from my own acceptance and separation from processing what is here, from reading what is here. In so many ways, it really is to get my processing speeds moving, meaning to realize what I am allowing as what I have absorbed without principle, and at the same time, reconnecting to having a real relationship with the physical reality around me. It is to become a master of who and what I am, to ground myself in this reality, a physical reality here.

That righteousness is a form of wanting to fix things, as rebalance things. It is wanting to have things move suddenly, which is an expectation. Then, that expectation is not lived out, and a reassessment takes place, which is a process. Yet, being present in this reality, within the realization of the principle of life, as being as doing no harm, is not yet lived with that natural absorbent ability in every moment, as this is the only real choice. In this, there is realizing in every moment, wth every breath, that there are no problems and only solutions.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not recognize moving into righteousness, as the colors, as the hyperbolized value judgements, rushing within me,  as an accepted and allowed practice of and as a false morality, that when and as I move against my own acceptances and allowances, I begin to shake, revealing my acceptances and allowances to myself, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to move as an idea, as an expectation , instead of slowing down and breathing, cross referencing here, assessing here, investigating here, to listen to here, to as-KING here, to ensure a stable and steady balance, within regarding and respecting all things, as who and what I am here, as life, that is physical in manifestation as creation, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to slow down and realize, see, and understand every movement within and as me, as a intellectual set body of information, believed to make me superior, as a more, within a survival game, not realizing how I work as life, and rushing to win, to conquer, when I am here, inherently able to absorb the form and movement as expression of what is here as the physical, to become aware of, as myself, to define me, within relationships of all that is here,  and the balance of and as what does no harm, taking that which is good, leading to a living breathing, changing, expression of life in FORMation here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to move, to self direct as a set body of information, from and as a consciousness of separation instead of  moving from the heart of me, as life. 


When and as I find myself moving into conflict as resistance,/rejection/reaction, I stop and I breath, and I embrace with as-KING  to ground myself here, to assess and investigate, to balance and realize  the practical in the moment, the simple ordinary, the hum --bell expression within realizing a principle of recognizing and respecting living reality as the expression of life, composed of relationships of and as working/breathing/living in harmonious balance, that moves with ease, as there is no rush, there is here, where the value is being life. 


Saturday, February 2, 2013

Day 273 Fear Of speaking Imagination Dimension

The other night I had this dream. I woke up and thought someone was walking around my house with a flashlight. I suddenly realized that this was not what was happening, that this “light” was somehow coming from me. It was like following the source of the light all the way back to myself. Like an inversion process, through what creates an imagination. All I can say, is that image of something walking around my house with a flashlight remains, and it seems real, but it is not. There was no one there, there was just me, waking up from sleep.
This has a quality of not looking, and if I am not looking how can I speak? I cannot speak if I am not looking. And the projection has not substance, thus it is limited, and so will my words be limited. My words will describe the projection and not what is alive, what is here, thus my words will reflect what is not in touch with reality, what is here, instead my words will be about something less substantive than what is here, what is real, this physical world.
Thus, must I face all the beliefs, opinions and ideas, as the very limited culture within which I was raised, to realize how i have separated myself form here, into and as ideas in separation from accepting in totality what is here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand the very projections as thought as opinion, belief and idea of what is the story here, as how life moves, not seeing realizing and understanding that what is here, as what has been allowed to exist on earth, is not at ease, and thus not aligned with and as life, as life would be a state of ease, and what is on earth as the system at present is not a system that creates ease on the face of this earth, thus what is the face of this earth, is not equal and one with and as life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that the memories of myself as a child, as to how I began to perceive myself are based on judgements, as limited values taken out of the context of life, the substance of life, and made huge, such limited values then misaligned with the substance of life, creating polarities within judgement, as judgement delineates a supposed good and bad, ignoring the depths, as ignoring what is same, as the starting point as all being of the substance of life, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand how I have built imaginations, as justifications, as superimposing stories that tell of belief, opinion and idea, and thus are projections and not myself aligned equal and one to the physical world, as the physical is composed of the substance of life, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe in the comparisons, existent within our society as the limited singular ideas presented, made within my childhood, all based on face values that distorted and warped reality into limited values, and thus separating from life, separating from being directive as life, separating the expression of life into limited values, causing frustration and lack of all life expression, causing disease and instability here on earth.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I am less than the values within my family, that I lack, where some I lack and others I do not, within what is a selection of limited values, and the behaviors that maintain the limited values, as these limited values adhere to a system of profit based on limited values for control, having separated from life, where the value is being life, and thus no one value is more than another, as the value is life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand in absolute clarity how I have separated myself form being here, equal and one to and as life, as the physical world.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have conformed to the limited value system presented, in order to survive.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in order to accept limited values, I had to deny myself as life, a crime so huge that the only way was to only look at the separation and turn this into a “positive” polarity, which in essence was placing a happy face on my own separation, my own judgement of a limitation being bigger than life, and such all longing is really for myself as life, all sadness is myself realizing what i have done, and since i have allowed the limited value to be what I am, I no longer am aware of myself as life, and must walk back through all accepted and allowed separations into and as judgement, as limited values, and realign myself back to and as life, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge myself as not fitting into limited values.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that a set of limited values determine what i am here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that existing within limited beliefs as the beacon for direction, I separate myself from realizing myself as life, directing myself equal and one towards, and as, what is best for all, where the separation, as the limitation, as the judgement of more than or less than, I compound as the limited values, comparing myself to such limitations as my starting point, and end up rushing as I chase the image and likeness of a judgment as a limited value, manifesting as behaviors of anxiousness and fear, as separation from life, in a vertiginous quality as fear, and thus does my judgement remain in and as me, manifesting in dreams, showing me my own story of separation, where this becomes so personified in and as what I believe I am, that I become completely separated from reality, and thus if all men on earth are this, the system of men, at present, is an act of separation from what is real, from what is substantive, from what is life, ignorant of this life and how this life in fact functions, and thus destructive of this earth, which is what is presently existent on this earth, as the profit is based on beliefs, opinions and ideas in separation from valuing all life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that when I become angry , I am in essence being a personification of what I chase as an idea, that is separate from myself as life, in equality and oneness as life, a judgement wanting to be a “force” of more than, which is an act of less than, as this is taking apart/ a part of reality and losing self as life, being what self as life is within being one and equal to what is here that is real which is the actual physical world, and within this to become one and equal to and as the very substance as the sound of equality and oneness, the silence of this, which moves in self trust within what is best for all, fearing no loss, as self as life is the value.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that myself as life can stop and breath, remain here, as here is life, use common sense within investigating what is best for all, remaining with what is good, and directing within and as what is directive within what is best for all, here.
I commit myself to, when and as I find myself becoming anxious, to see, realize and understand that such anxiousness is myself chasing an idea, belief, or opinion, a “more than” based on the limited value system taught within family and culture, nationality and an existential system of inequality, thus a system that does not support life, should such a system exist, then earth would be at ease, and it is not, thus the only way is for earth , this collective of men, to stop and to breath, and to slow down, to investigate the rejection of self as life, as what self longs for, through realizing all judgements as thoughts, emotions and feelings being the voice of separation into and as a more than projection inacceptance of a less than fear within a system of survival, as being separate from self as life, and thus separate from self direction in self honesty, equal and one to and as life.
I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that imagination reflects what I accept and allow, thus this is a reflection, so, within this, my imagination cannot determine my self direction unless I allow it to become what is reality as I only believe this, even in the face of common sense of how this reality, as this physical earth, in fact moves itself, directs itself, which is done by the physical, thus I slow myself down, I breath, I realize my mind is the voice of what I chose to see here, where I can allow myself to become this projection, this personification, or realize this for what it is, and to stop, and to bring myself back into and as breath, to realize the physical as what is real, an once this is practiced, to begin to see realize and understand the present systems without, and to investigate, and to understand that the present system is a manifestation of the mind as consciousness, the reflection, believed by men to be what is real, and so, the cause for what is in effect a massive misalignment causing abuse on earth, destruction on earth to plant, animal, children, humans, all constructed around a mind projection, and thus self interest from a starting point of self inner-rest in separation from what is real, which is life, which is what supports, which is what is forgiving, and so, I stand equal and one to and as breath, to realize separation into and as mind, and bring myself back to live and become what I am, life, here, as it is only here that I can direct myself.
                                                     Desteni I Process Lite

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Day 31 Embrace


Day 31 Embrace self
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to desire to be held
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to desire to have someone hold me, just hold me and accept me for what I am.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not realize that it is I that must hold my self and accept my self for what I am
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to believe that I need someone outside of my self to hold me and accept me for what I am.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not hold me as my self accepting my self for what I am for what I have accepted and allowed and that it is only me who must hold me and accept me for what I am as life, as an expression in and as life, as this is my self allowing and accepting my self to embrace my self as life here, as I am life here.
I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to embrace me as life here, all that I have defined my self as and thus to forgive this as this is what I am and not what I am as what I am is equal and one to all that is here on this earth as this is me and this is not me as I am life here of substance able to express as all that is here in and as breath here where I am all and I am nothing, I am not fixed as some label, I am not a separation from life I am life here.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to believe that the only way to embrace my self is with another, to have a picture of being with another in order to be embraced, where I am in every moment embraced by life here as I am life, I am in the embrace of and as life here as I am this, thus in embracing my self I am embraced and embracing my self, where I become one and equal as my self as life here.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to believe that I am separate from life, when I am life, and it is only a limited mind of reflection of what i believe I am not that is what I have allowed my self to be that is the separation, that is my self in feriority of my self as life, where I wait for validation, where I wait for a sign, where I wait for the embrace of life as being something separate from me, when this embrace as life is right here as I am this, I am life here, this embrace here has always been here, I have not looked, I have not seen, I have not heard, I have not felt my self as life here, embraced my self as life here.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to have abdicated my self for some limited idea of what I am.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to have abdicated the very life all around me, as the birds, as the grass, as the trees and the expression of life in people, in nature, in substance as I sought an embrace of limited design where I believed I needed a feeling and emotion, a fix, and energetic wisp of  a surge to be what made me feel alive , where this never satisfied, this never brought any sense of self being embraced, where I believed there was something wrong with my self in my application of communicating when In fact it was the act of looking for embrace without and attaching a feeling and emotion to this embrace that was what separated my self from finding/being/sensing an embrace of my self as life, where nothing outside of my self can validate my self as life as the way to embrace life is to embrace my self as life, so that the substance of myself as life can then embrace life as my self embracing my self as life, as though my self as life is the way and the means to connect to life that is here as all are life as what is here is life, one and equal.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not realize I have become so separated from my self as life that I will have to walk through all that I sought as self validation and bring my self back to self honesty as self as life in order - deconstructing the disordering of my self into and as dishONEsty as my self as life, where I forgive my self for not accepting and allowing my self as life to embrace my self as life here, where in common sense no teacher/parent/god would have this any other way, as the gift of life is what one is as life, given unconditionally to be and become an expression in and as life here.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not see/realize/understand that I am life, it is OK to EMBRACE my self as life, there is no shame, no guilt, no harm, no dishonor in accepting and allowing my self to EMBRACE my self as life as I AM LIFE or I would not BE HERE.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to believe that the EMBRACE of my self as life is conditional.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to fear embracing my self as life.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting myself to connect fear to embracing my self as life.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to fear my own fear.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to wait, to feel that there is something out there somewhere in some fuzzy logic belief that I am supposed to wait to embrace myself as life.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting myself to believe that embracing my self as life is contingent on entering some heavenly domain where a supposed “god” will give me the OK to allow my self to embrace my self as life.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I must hear the words, “ embrace yourself as life, my child.”
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to believe that the embrace of my self as life involves energetic love.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self  feel that embracing my self as life would be a selfish act, where ironically this would be SELF ISH as in self expressing the “ish-ness” of self as life!
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to be ashamed that I have not accepted and allowed the very gift of life given, my self as my self is life.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting myself to mys elf to miss the elf, the elf as life as “self” as my elf as life.
I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to not realize that I cannot give what I am not, if I am not embracing my self as life I cannot give myself as life and thus can I receive no embrace from and as life.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that rejection is of my own doing as I have not embraced my self as life here.

I commit my self to embracing my self as life here.
I commit my self to breathing, and with every in-breath to sense my self here as life, to sense life as all as one as equal, to within this realize that what i am with each in-breath is my self, where I face all that I have allowed as self in joy, in the realization that this is me, this is life, this is sound, this is of the depth of the expression of and as life, here.
I commit my self to enjoy this self as life, and to make my in breath equal and one to my out breath, where the breath of this equal and one breath is what all have on this earth, to walk what will allow all the embrace themselves as life, with all that is required.
I commit my self to accepting and allowing my self to breath, to embrace my self as life in and as breath here.
I commit my self  to realizing that self embrace is the embrace of life.
I realize that until I embrace my self as life unconditionally I am not as this earth, that which gives unconditionally.