Showing posts with label ladder. Show all posts
Showing posts with label ladder. Show all posts

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Day 443 Positive reinforcement, does it allow self discovery?


Positive reinforcement does it allow self discovery?
I have heard many schools say to me that they use positive reinforcement.Let’s look at this, especially in a group of peers where some have more exposure to a wider opportunity to explore and discover. If it is learned that knowing something gets a reward, the reward becomes greater than the discovery, self discovery. It has been said that self discovery if the strongest way to learn. So why, then do we have a predominance of positive reinforcement as an method believed that develop character? 
Imagine positive reinforcement being used in a classroom, the one who has figured something out letting everyone know and the verbal reward being given. Would this not interrupt the child that had not figured it out? Would this take away the self discovery of another? Would this breed constant comparison and judgement?
Allowing self discovery removes competition to win, and allows children to learn that discovery is the joy, which would breed a whole different character, one that realized the understanding within the self was  the value. Would this not develop an attitude of helping others. directing others to understand instead of being a game of comparison? With this approach, instead of wanting that colored star - for example - on your page, within yourself is the real value, that of understanding and the development that each of us, given enough time, can understand.
Realize that allowing and valuing self discovery would develop more of the practice of looking, which would develop the practice of following through and finding solutions.
In a profit based system, where money has been allowed to determine life, follow through and looking and problem solving are not valued assets beyond a certain point a couple of rungs up the ladder. And yet, behaviors that limit self discovery, such as a belief in constant positive reinforcement,  are a crime against life, the discovery of self as life. This life as self able to understand life because this is what we are as physical beings.

Discover yourself Desteni I Process Lite.


Friday, August 16, 2013

Day 411 Children love structure


We are not taught to see what is here, as the very life that we are. We are taught to stew in emotions and feelings, energetic insecure imaginations that are in separation from life. A crime that creates porn, starvation, abuse, destruction because it ignores the life that is here, the gift to become equal to creation, to life.
This we all accept and allow because we have lost ourselves of life, this which is structurally right in front of us as the physical world. Instead we built a ladder to the sky, a ladder that leads nowhere, only falling back down to what was real all the time, the physical world. Life. One could call this banging our heads against the wall, because it really is not different.

The state of this system we perpetuate in our ignorance shows us the outcome, just read the news, it is everywhere. Greed, corruption, destruction, abuse. In all common sense, how can climbing a ladder be life? It is such a silly structure, compared to, say, a tree. I mean think about it, a tree at least creates/produces oxygen. A ladder, is not good or bad, but when used incorrectly and made an idol, as a system, is not supportive, it will fall over because it cannot stand on its own. Funny, a ladder looks something like a DNA spiral, perhaps I should have described a spiraling ladder. A tree can bear so much more, and can allow one to rest and enjoy the view. A tree reaches into the earth, and out into the sky, produces and holds steady.  Trees also spiral, tree cutters can read the tree and sense which way they will fall when they no longer are able to live, especially on an earth that is slowly being polluted by a system that competes for profit before life, disregarding the very substance as the earth on which this game is played. A game against life. Which must come to an end because it fears looking at what is real, fears the very thing it seeks which is life.
I had a long talk with a Montessori teacher who had just retired after 33 years of teaching. She had been trained as a dancer at Julliard in her youth, the words she kept repeating again and again were that children love structure. She realized that the present day youth have a very limited structure, in every hand there is a small black box where the words no longer carry the vowels, every word is rendered with the consonants, harsh, no softness that the vowels bring. A reflection of this world? The structure of our words lacking the breath of the vowels? And the words used limited. I remember in teaching in a school, the teachers were of the mind that  teaching vocabulary was very difficult. These words a structure to enable us to speak and be literate, able to have structure in our ability to speak and understand. but in a ladder society, how better to eliminate the competition than to limit structure and thus structural awareness? Might we discover the abusive form as the present system were we able to read the structures i our world, coming from understanding structure instead of imagination? Can’t have slaves reading now can we. Literate; lite i rate, can’t have the slaves being able to rate the light, they might just climb up that ladder or climb that tree and realize themselves as life. There is no greater crime than suppression of life. We can no longer allow the ignorance allowed in placing profit before life. It is unacceptable. That we do not learn to feel the physical world, and that we build an imagination through suppression of physical awareness within and without for ideas in and as mind, as consciousness, being made greater than life, to the point where we have a separate heaven, and men on earth leaders of countries shouting about kissing the hand ( singular) that feeds us, if we cannot see the delusion and sickness of this it is time to stop everything that we are doing and look at this, because it really makes no sense and thus needs to be called out and looked at, without mercy. And realize it is only imagination that is being called out, thus nothing is dying, only an illusion.
I speak with people and when I begin to talk about physical reality, they begin to repeat themselves, like a deja vue, like they do not know where to go. They get very agitated, so much in separation from reality are they, and even as I say this I realize that i am in separation, just because I may have realized my own separation and, by degree, have begun to see the limited patterns as consciousness - a mind made greater than physical reality, does not mean I am out of the darkness we call light, as the imaginings of the mind lit up by energy. I am no different than anyone who has been taught to believe the mind is more than physical reality and it does not matter at this point why this is here, what must be done first is to bring ourselves back to what is real, earth, the physical. Heaven is an illusion of the mind, it is not real. Those with the most money, are laughing every day all the way to the bank. So much labor building citadels to an imaginary existence, that when it existed was of lesser substance. It was not real and could not sustain itself, it needed the earth. The earth did not need it.
Thus it is time to teach our children to become their full potential as life. It is time to teach our children to speak, to have structure, to have clear meanings to words that match the physical world, that do not have layers of emotional values to words, that do not have unclear meanings to words or lack in their vocabulary, it is time to have our children become living words.
This is the responsibility of the parent because this begins at home. our educational system, the same one in America now being bought by a federal government directed by the singular objects as banks and corporation that claim on a piece of paper ownership and make this real, cannot be trusted to educate our children. Not that all that does on is bad, it just is done in a manner that suppresses competition. And, here, the fault is not with these forms that are not understood, it is that we as humanity have abdicated ourselves as life, and must learn to understand what we have systemically accepted and allowed, and stand and change this system to realize the value is life, and thus that life comes before profit.


Support a Living Income Guarantee so that we can clean up the profit before life system and get this earth into a structural order that is equal to life.

Walk the Desteni I Process Lite to begin to understand the delusion of your emotions and feelings and thoughts made bigger than life, to bring yourself back to physical reality so that you can begin to equalize yourself to life.

Saturday, November 17, 2012

Day 208 Fluctuating vertigo

Ladder, Vertigo
Ladder, Vertigo (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
I was up on a ladder today and suddenly had vertigo whereas one moment before I did not, and had no qualms about being up high on a ladder.
I had had this the days before, and had spoken some SF on the point, and a memory from high school where I experienced a man falling onto his head onto cement. Today I remembered a story about a relative that died falling off a ladder. It was cool, because when I started this project the vertigo was much more intense, and though it returned today, I “caught it”, and the duration of the experience, as mind, was not as overwhelming.
So I will walk some more self forgiveness on this point, and tomorrow see what happens. I have to say, I am not sure what triggered this, but perhaps it will come up.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suddenly get nervous about being up on a ladder, and within this losing all sense of the physical space I am in.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have had the thought that I wished i had someone there to help me with this one corner of the house.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that it was at this moment of “wishing” that the vertigo suddenly appeared.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I also had the thought that I was close to the edge of the house, and the end of the deck and the ground below the deck i judged as being far away, despite the fact that I had taken careful steps to secure the ladder, and had even been up to this corner of the house before, and everything had been fine and secure, thus there was no call to worry about distances and then to go into self pity about “having to take care of this ‘ all by myself.”
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that at this point images came up of a story I had been told about a relative that had died from falling off a ladder.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have imagined myself falling off the ladder, where within this image I hear the sound of the head of this man I saw falling off a ladder as it thumped onto the ground with a cracking sound, thus the story and the sound of a cracking skull came up as i began to fear my own death through falling off of a ladder.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have a memory of myself, just having gotten off the subway, as I travelled home from school, and began the two block walk home, to have come upon a man falling through the air and landing on his head on the cement sidewalk, where it all happened so fast, and that sound was so loud I gasped for air and was shocked that this man had somehow just fallen off this ladder.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have felt some guilt about this, believing this to be my fault, as i have another memory of a friend suddenly falling while i was walking along a sidewalk with her, holding her hand when she suddenly fell and hit her head on the sidewalk, and had to go and have stitches and her parents blamed me.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have had this physical sinking feeling as I was moving into vertigo, much like the sinking feeling I had when I experienced the man falling off the ladder onto the sidewalk on my way home from school.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that I had this same sinking feeling when my friend’s parents blamed me for their daughter having fallen on the sidewalk.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate from myself into and as fear of falling off a ladder based on memories from my past in and as my mind, not seeing, realizing and understanding that I was on a ladder that I had carefully secured myself, and climbed up many times in the last days, and had no problems being up on the ladder, thus to suddenly have vertigo was a clear indication that I had gone into my mind, as I confused the situation with ideas, opinions and beliefs, in and asemotions , feelings and thoughts, instead of remaining physically present in common sense of what was real within that moment.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge the ground being far away as scary, especially since I have to legs and two arms, that are perfectly capable of climbing a ladder, and two eyes with which to see what I am doing.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I notice this pattern of clenching my inner thighs, as my legs together whenever I become tense.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that I found myself doing this very same thing tonight driving home in my car, which is something I will have to look into.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have this reaction, in and as my mind, as a seemingly distant “back chat” where i begin to pity myself, as in wanting someone there to help, or assist, even when doing this ‘job” needs only myself, as I have had others help and found this unnecessary.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when I become uncertain about what I am doing, I begin to wish for help, then go into self pity about not having help, and separate myself from what I am physically doing and lose my own practical physical, here, sense of space.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to tense up the moment i become uncertain, especially through my legs, where, within this, I become heavy in how i experience myself, and actually dealing with what I am doing physically becomes harder.

The moment I become uncertain, be it within what I am doing as in making a decision, or an evaluation within possibility based on the physical situation and within both go into fear, and thus separation, diminishing my common sense of reality, I stop and I breath and I bring myself back to physicality.
I commit myself to, when I have to make a decision, and become uncertain, to stop and to breath, and to go over what I have physically decided to walk in detail to stabilize myself here instead of allowing myself to separate into and as uncertainty where I sidestep into self judgement based on societal values of myself as a womanforgetting my self awareness equal and one to this actual physical world, which is to say, I remove myself from “here’ into and as belief, opinion and idea and the ensuing emotions composed of such thoughts as judgements done over a period of many years of training to believe such self definitions lacking a self honest development of myself in totality in common sense of what is real, this actual physical world.

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