Day 106 A Parent setting conditions

I forgive myself self as a parent to create special days, such as holidays and birthdays where the value was placed on a past event and not on what is actually physically here, valuing life as what is real and not some past event.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that there is no such thing as the “right moment” to talk about what has been accepted and allowed within and as this world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in placing what is existing within and as this world into a “right time and a bad time” I am existing within a character in separation from life, as I am placing value on an event from the past and not  existing with what is actually physically here, interacting with what is real here, as this physical world.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist in and as a memory in allowing past days to be celebrated when there are children and people and animals suffering on this planet, as this system is not supporting life and therefor must change.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when I suggest that there are moments when things should not be talked about, I am abdicating my self responsibility as life, that until all this world is cared for and valued as the life that it is, there is actually nothing to talk about other than this.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that life cannot be celebrated for real, until all that is of this earth is cared for and given a dignified life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in teaching my children there are conditions on what is talked about in relation to social gatherings, I am suggesting that my children not look at what is being accepted and allowed within this world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in placing conditions on when one talks about what exists within this world I am teaching children to not stand up about obvious abuse in and as this world, and within this that  supporting family is more important than supporting life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to make a relationship to a past  more important that what is actually physically here, living and breathing as being here, in and as the value of what is actually here, as being life.

I forgive myself as a parent to have regarded birthdays and holidays as having a value never considering the life on this earth as being what is here, real, in this moment, living and actually one and equal to me as life.

I forgive myself as a parent for not having taught my children that the value is life, and as such taught my children to stand up for life no matter what, no matter the social situation.

I commit myself to revealing unacceptable practices allowed by men regardless of the social gathering, as the abuse existent is unacceptable,  and to not realize this in every moment, no matter what, is to not realize the value is life.

I commit myself being the love for my neighbor as myself, in and as standing up for life, speaking up, no matter what, that there is no other choice but that what must be cared for is all that is of this earth as life, as life is the value, any other choice is no different than the actions of Hitler.

I commit myself to standing for life, as all as one as equal, to become the living word.

Day 91 The character of believing I must have something to say.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear not having anything to say.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel that I must have something to say in response to what is being said around me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I will lose something if I do not have some kind of response to what is being said within my environment.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that there must be something said or I will not have the “gain” of being noticed or insightful.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that it is not about having something to say, or something not to say, it is about being here, in breath, being a living word, where what is real is what is physically here and not some image in and as the mind, not a continuation of friction and conflict as relationships are feared being lost, where I fear something might be lost should I not have a response.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see that there is nothing to be lost, as I am here, physically here and this is what is real.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that I am here, with breath, where in breath I remain here, and thus have common sense within the principle of oneness and equality.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that my responses within the need to speak, as in believing I have to add to the conversation are an opportunity to see what characters I have accepted and allowed.

Within this;

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I will be considered less than should I not find a response or add to the conversation.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that there have been times when I judged another as not being worthy of being given a response.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when I believe I must be lively, every minute and come up with some addition to a conversation, just to add something, I am exhausting myself, where I will become tired and then want to leave the social situation, thus what is best for myself is to utilize breath and remain here, and when I do not have something to say that is not forced I simply remain quiet.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that remaining quiet is anti-social.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to attach a negative emotion/polarity to remaining quiet when I feel the need to say something and in fact I simply do not have a response to give in every moment.

I forgive myself to fear being labeled as anti-social should I not constantly have something to say to match what is being said in every social situation.

I commit myself to remaining here, in and as breath, and to realize when I am saying something just to appear to be apart of a conversation.

I commit myself to realizing that in speaking to appear to be a part of the conversation I am in fact serving my own self interest based on ideas and values in separation from what is best for all life within the principle of what is best for all.

I commit myself to not allowing myself to exist in fear of being considered anti social should I not respond and add to every conversation I encounter.

I commit myself to no longer being the character of believing there is something I must add to conversations in fear of losing some social status.