Day 639 Mind consciousness or the presence of living here?

I met a person yesterday that had a profession that I immediately responded to with information I had about a character in a book of the same profession. I reacted to them, as though they had the potential of this character in this story.

Socially, their profession is low down on the scale of good jobs and less ‘ good’ jobs. Yet, as in the story I compared them to, the possibility of having the same openness and character as the character in the story motivated me to speak with them in a calm way.

This morning I woke up, heavy from the day before, and said to myself “ What is love?” The two things coming up in my previous day and myself bringing them forward in the morning of the next day, where I am at present.

When I played the violin, and I learned something new, it would take time, or, it would not. By this I mean, when I understood something, as in how to do something, the change into the new way could be incorporated very very fast. It is like saying that when something is ‘ pure’ and ‘ clean’ within one’s understanding as one's focus, one can find this again, employ the change without effort, and see the effects in movement within using the new understanding/measure. It is like entering a new space, and in that new space, movement is much easier and much faster - this being inside one’s self. Yet, this cannot be only automated, presence must exist, like expanding awareness more than just doing something over and over again.  And, the practice of ' practice' is about becoming aware.

Have I defined ‘ love’ here? Is love that direction that can come with such ease, one wonders why it was not always, all ways used? Would such awareness be what love is?

And, in relation to my reaction/response to a person who had the profession of a character in a story, am I moving as hope, and desire, in tandem with an idea, instead of being love, here? One is moving as knowledge and information, and the other is looking at space and time, here? One hangs onto something and the other looks in more detail, or presence, here? I ask myself. So, I came to the point of asking what is love, and what is being in the present system that functions on knowledge and information and/or moves as what creates an ease of movement that is so strong it cannot be forgotten. Yet using that action outside of the context within where it was noticed, in itself takes an effort! I ask here, is this an example of how stagnant moving as knowledge and information can be, in relation to moving in the present, using one’s common sense?

One is based on idealogical measure, and one is applying an ease that opens up insight to the forms of here as the physical. In word play by the very slow measure an order of words can convey when knowledge and information only, what is here, as in being brought forward becomes something that as limited knowledge, by design, I find, often repeats itself. (Like being in SLOW MOTION!) . Like, if I say this enough it will be real! When it cannot be real as knowledge and information because it is an idea about something! Yet, because of the system of knowledge and information being so huge, being placed before one’s common sense, must I use the game of association to direct me, as this is what this is? Can this giant ' slow mo" be brought back down to the measure of physical reality? And, is this not what our media is doing? No problems ever really solved?!

To stop myself from getting caught in a tail spin as my mind consciousness, I just stopped and asked myself, ‘ What is love?’ Can I breath, become calm, and then what? Is this where I define ‘ love’? Can I turn this word into my crutch to direct me here? lol And here I go into thinking again!

I , at this point, would say that love is always giving directions that allow an ease of movement. An ease of movement means directing one’s self  in ways that are grounded. Not fearing to be here, realizing that I am life information, which would be a form, hence the physical- composed of cells, the building blocks of sound, a stable, constant sound. Nothingness into expression, into form. Where else would such come from?  To move in ways that are grounded, one is aware of the present space, and has little fear, as there is no need for fear, because one is so focused that what is done is seen, and/or retained.  This is being love, having no fear that the greater awareness is a threat to one’s self in any way, as this is what one would want for one’s self. A ‘ greater awareness’ is being present here, substantiating the physical and its expression in ways that do no harm. What if we substantiated all children within this? That would be an amazing thing, as I see it from my limited mind consciousness!  What if we substantiated the physical world, became present as it?  What if we respected this form around us?

This is why life on this earth, for it to exist, the only solution is to give as one would receive, because having all of us move as we would want for ourselves, means giving all the space and time to see directly here, the physical world with ease. Directing as an idea, based on traditional roles, read in a book ( not a bad) ONLY, is heavy and slow, because pictures as the mind, is an after thought built from what is real, as the physical creation that is life expression!

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to direct within motivation, as an idea, based on knowledge and information gathered from a story.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become an association based on knowledge and information as a mind consciousness system only.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand how I can so easily, through habit, as what I have accepted and allowed to define me as information, polarized into goods and bads, ‘ opportunity and limitation” based on stories in and as my own accepted and allowed mind consciousness system of knowledge and information that I have allowed to become greater than  the life around me as the physical world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how I can become lost in my own habit, directing myself as this, as this is what I have practiced, instead of being grounded here, in practical reality, as what works in practice as a physical state, considers the physical, and gives me the ability to move in common sense, where I need not hide, as being here, as a physical being, need not hide, as this is life, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to move as love, where love is, as a verb, is similar to live, and living is physical thus, to focus here and direct here, as in being here, as an expression, and thus a verb, an action, so I focus here, to consider all things, to move within the principle of being a living word, which is to be equal to life, and to respect the life around me as I would want to be respected, as this is the principle of equality, to give as I would receive, to do no harm, to take that which is good, to realize what gives a constant directiveness that can withstand the test of time, to build a world that is heaven on earth, here, as we were told, the solution. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to move as my imagination, my mind construction based on values, ideas, beliefs and opinions, from knowledge and information that has had but forced application.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not love myself, to reprimand myself , like punishing the points of entity formations as ideas as knowledge and information instead of taking that which is good, and forgiving the overall imagination directions and placing them into actual practical living here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear moving into the small practical details , for fear of explaining myself and for fear of being rejected, as the measure of common sense can move against a mind consciousness knowledge and information without presence in reality as the physical consideration and respect that is life creation in expression, here. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become all a tempo as mind consciousness, instead of all a tempo with the practice of living in the presence of physical reality, here, in a life of volume equal and one with creation here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that moving into the small, as the detail of living and changing from knowledge and information means that something will be lost and failure will happen, when it is that moving into the small, is being present here, as the mind consciousness moves as set bodies of knowledge and information, serving self interest instead of living/loving here, this physical world, this world that is life in expression.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that moving into the small, as in being present here, not using only knowledge and information, cross referencing reality as the physical, will mean that something is lost, an illusion, as what is lost, or reformed is myself in love with life here, being considerate of the physical as life in FORMation.

When and as I find myself moving as idea, opinion and belief, as information in and as my mind, I stop, I breath, I slow myself way down, and I ground myself here, to see directly here, to become an expression of the insight of actual living here, to become love, in thought word and deed here.

When and as I find myself becoming uncertain, and/or, fishing/phishing for information as information only, as ideas, beliefs, opinions , in and as my mind, I stop, I breath, I slow myself way down, to become love, as in respect of physical space and time, which is only HERE, and I speak as that which grounds here, as this is what directs here, as this is what focuses here, and  as such, becomes an association to life, to what loves here, which is to love myself and all that is me, the same, as the physical.

When and as I find pressure within and as me, as a pressure around my torso, around my shoulders, in my solar plexus, in my knees, I stop, I breath, I slow myself down, I forgive the judgements of value based on limited mind consciousness, as a morality that is of survival in fear of being self responsible as life here, that which is the opposite of the weight of fear, that which moves with joy and ease, as I see it here at the moment from my habit of being a mind consciousness, and I forgive, and ground myself here, to begin the practice of being in tempo with life, as respecting the physical world that is life in form, in expression, around me, to begin to align myself to the tempo of life, to become love, to Live Of theVolume of the Expression of the sound of life as the physical world that is me, here. 

When and as I find myself reacting to the measure before me, I stop, I slow way down, I breath, I give as I would receive, I use patience, presence, to sense the form here, the me-lody as a mind consciousness and the grounding that is the physical, to stabilize myself here, in respect of the physical world, and I walk being present here, realizing thinking is the measure of my own constructed, accepted and allowed, mind consciousness that shows the tempo of my own accepted and allowed separation from respecting the life around me as the physical world, here.

When and as I find myself weighted with energy, in comparison, I stop, I breath, I slow myself down, I forgive the mind consciousness belief measure, the inferiority and superiority values as the mind justifications , as the tempo of fear, and I ground myself, taking the time to realize my self accepted separation to life, my habit, practiced through imitation of a morality system of values,  and instead I take that which is good and does no harm, as that which considers all things, as that which respects all life, as this physical world, to practice the gift of life, as the ease of being here, as life in expression as the physical which by nature would what transforms in ways that do no harm, and shares understanding in thought, word and deed, as the measure of here and all that is of that which substantiates form as the physical around me and as me, here.

Day 638 Peeling back the layers of belief that I repeated again and again.

I begin to feel that I keep saying the same things again and again, Yet this repetition is how I have built my own separation from living here, equal and one, in respect of reality, as the physical world. Thus, as I peel back the layers, what I find is a composition of value judgements, where I polarize into a good and bad. I place blame and spite on all manner of objects; animals, inanimate objects, plants, people, in total abdication of common sense. Common sense is to respect reality as the physical. I avoid looking at this when I become a mind consciousness of value judgements , I accept and allow my own separation. I bear the consequences of this myself, and I carry the burden of this self created and accepted game of division as my own television defining myself, a composition of justification instead of living. I am the demise of not existing in my own full potential as life. I can blame no one for what I have accepted and allowed.

If I have chosen to be inferior to this reality, it is a movement that I accepted. Given that our present system is to order this separation in all of us, I have to work with this system reflecting separation of men into hues of value judgements, acting in self interest to hide what we all realize we are doing, not realizing that getting out of the layered spin of this is going to take some effort on our parts. Something that no one can do for us but ourselves. Only I can change what I have accepted and allowed. Any movement of blame and spite, of believing this to be too hard, too difficult, is not going to change that which is moving as energy, manifest as measures of projecting blame and justifying actions within judgements via thoughts as word within me. I allowed them, i accepted the measure, thus I am responsible.

Changing a bit appears difficult, yet the more one understands how that habit formed within oneself, the more structural awareness one builds and this structure gives one the means to change. This is what education allows. In this world, if one has access to a computer, one has the capacity to do this. Those who are bearing the consequences of a mind consciousness system instead of a life support system, do not have the means to access to change, they are in survival mode only, thus it is the responsibility of each of us that have the means to look here at practical reality and to become the change that creates a world where life is lived in dignity, where there is no harm, and where that which improves our lives is used in respect of living as physical beings because life must in all common sense have a form, and that form is right here in front of us as the physical. 

I walk the Desteni I Process to forgive what I have accepted and allowed as value judgements in fear of life, to stand in respect of life as the physical world, to make sure that I understand and thus realize what I allowed to make sure it never happens again. What is cool is that I let go the burdens of belief and begin to move with more ease in this life. So, I suggest to walk the Desteni I Process to realize yourself as life, to enable self to walk through the eye of the needle, to become equal and one, as light as a feather, to and as the life that is you, here.

Day 637 I am the Self Directive Principle of Me.

I noticed this week that in not reacting to the words of another, as the very measure of value and/or understanding about being here, that the emotional reactions as I see them manifest - as justifications based on good and bad, as a fear of ‘ what if’- quickly passed. The momentum into concept understanding moved to a greater degree, being more fun than the reactions based on belief that sometimes voiced itself within me as words moving through my mind.

I would let things go and look to the construction and reform. It is a very creative process, and one that takes focus. When I look at this, as having done this more often, it is really quite fun!

In all, this is simply sharing being creative, meaning to look at what is present and realizing it cannot define unless it is accepted as such, which if allowed to define, the means is of self interest instead of being present in the moment, because in all reality, we can only be here.

At one point something was said to me, and I caught myself fearing that this statement would become something for which I would be blamed. Like, there was a fear within me that because I was in the very presence of such a thought, I was  going to bear the brunt of its existence- meaning the very formation of what was being said was the fault of me. It did not matter that perhaps I had not said it.

At this point I began to move into an inferior position, a doom and gloom scenario that this might be found out and that I would lose something if this should be found out. Overall, it makes no sense, it is just a belief that what was stated could be pinned on me- this being a thought that is taken as an end game, completely illogical.

This is complete paranoia, a fear. This fear is stagnant. This fear shares nothing. It is an act of self interest.  It is an act of not accepting life. It is an act of rejecting common sense, an act of self rejection. 

I mean, I can be this in a moment, and then move, becoming creative and looking at what is formed, and transform . Nothing is stagnant unless it is accepted and allowed to be so. 

What defines me is what I allow to define me. No one else can do this for me, unless I allow this. In all common sense, no one can decide what I am within, because no other human can really come within me.  I am the one who creates the very volume of myself. I am the one who builds the neurons within and as me, in reflection of the measure of what I accept and allow. Not even television can decide what I am unless I accept it!This means that ultimately, I cannot blame anyone for what it is that I am! No one. I decide.

Thus, I commit to becoming the self directive principle of myself. I realize that everything I allow myself to be, is by my own volition and no one else. Just as I cannot be responsible for another, no one can be responsible for me. I am responsible for myself. What I accept and allow can change, simply by using my own common sense, the very gift of myself as what I am, here. 

I can share what I am doing, I can ask questions and re-solve formations. I can choose to direct in ways that do no harm. I can become the directive principle of life, to investigate, and consider all things, taking that which is good and does no harm. I can then become constant, even building momentum within this, to find solutions and move into them, in thought, word and deed, to rebuild a world that is best for all, inch by inch, measure by measure. The ground is beneath my feet, I need only connect and feel its ever supporting presence. 

Day 636 Culture, Tradition, and Nutella. Emotional bonds and reality.

Culture, Tradition and Nutella. Emotional bonds and reality.

http://www.wired.com/2010/07/0707chocolate-introduced-europe/   Europe Discovers Chocolate

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/louise-mirrer/how-world-war-ii-changed-_b_2024730.html How the War Changed Everything, Even Our Taste For Candy

http://www.nutellausa.com/history.htm  The Origins of Nutella

http://serendip.brynmawr.edu/bb/neuro/neuro04/web1/kcoveleskie.html Chocolate on the Brain.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nutella A History of Nutella

http://www.iflscience.com/plants-and-animals/how-did-palm-oil-become-such-problem-and-what-can-we-do-about-it

Nutella was an answer to a war induced chocolate scarcity.  Using Hazelnut butter extended the volume of chocolate. Chocolate came from South America, where the beans were known to sustain energy levels and reduce feelings of stress. This benefit of chocolate aided the soldiers. The chemical effects on the body helped soldiers face the stresses of war. So, available chocolate went to the pawns fighting resource wars for profiteers who voiced their desires under the guise of development. This development, over time, lead to the monopolizing of resources into monocultures that erode forests and the environment. The starting point was of profit before life.  The story of Nutella, overall, is the story of changes made in organizing this world in ways that are not beneficial and sustaining for earth, and by extension ourselves.

Emotionally, we tie Nutella to cultural definitions, without investigating and understanding where and how and why this product exists. In the history of mankind, Nutella has not been around for very long. In essence, eating fresh unprocessed hazelnut butter would probably be a healthier choice then the acquired-taste-building-turned-national-icon - Nutella. Thus, that cultural tie, that is by association an emotional tie, is really an illusion. Investigating the history reveals this, and within this, can give the space to see more directly what is happening in this world. If we realize that our emotional ties are illusory, and lacking in any depth in man’s practice in living on earth, could we realize how little we use our depth perception? Why do we get lost in some idea made HUGE, as huge as our advertising makes a product appear in the space of our landscapes? We are lead by icons, tied to false positives manifest as a ‘ feel good’ moment, made history. A very limited history. And a happiness that needs to be perpetually fed to exist.

Behind that cultural identity that has no real history, there are animals and the biodiversity in the forests, a real history, dying to serve a lesser god that supposedly makes one feel less stressed and more energetic. Somehow, this is addiction over what is best for all. Is this separation from the real history of earth the cause of that stress and consequential need for something to sustain energy levels? Are we doing the same things again and again and expecting change without really looking and investigating reality- the very cause of the effects we want to seek solace from?!

Our game of association composed of emotional values brought forward using dimensions of the forms and functions of practical reality,  are the chaos separating us from practical actions that respect and support real living.  And this game is stressful.

Boredom and stress are similar, they are both a consequence of lack of practical FOCUS on reality. The story of Nutella, and the havoc this product imposes on the physical world is the story of our separation from reality, and the story of our disquiet state of beingness. 

Meanwhile, to segue out of this systemic structural violence there are solutions that lessen resource abuse in many ways. One suggestion is to use the oils from algae. This can be grown anywhere, lessening the use of shipping- which lessens the use of fossil fuels. At one time, the vegetable oils in Nutella, which was not directly stated, yet implied, was the cocoa butter. Somewhere, other vegetables oils were used to create, or maintain at lesser production costs, that smooth spreadability of Nutella, this hazelnut butter and chocolate paste. If we withstood that change, could we not withstand another?  And, do we really need Nutella? Do we need men working in a factory all day to make this stuff? What order on this earth could we build that gives men the space and time to discover and respect all aspects of this earth? We can use the resources in ways that do no harm, we are ingenious when we use our common sense. We can find ways to live that are stress-free, no longer needing a chemical motivation because we are happy in a constant way, because we self direct in being aware of, in being focused on the value being life. 

Day 635 What is a thought? What is a feeling? What is an emotion?

All over the world we have what is known as education. People pay money for this, and communities create schools for this. We all understand that the apple does not fall far from the tree. Thus, we can all understand that when we have opportunity, we are exposed to all manner of things. And this exposure is what expands us. Then why do we not realize that people who lack opportunity will not develop practical common sense? A person who is developed, as exposed, is more self directed, more successful, more able to do. Any lack in a person, no matter their race, is a consequence of lack of opportunity to build understanding. Thus blaming lack for being in lack, in a system that only allows access through money, is by design a system of suppression. It places one in a box, it is a control mechanism. It is in all regard, a crime against this physical life. That lack, is the ignored external formation, hidden through a mathematical mean, based on judgements after the fact, that enables some the delusion that they are more than others. Yes, one could say they are more, but this ‘ more ‘ is a consequence of natural development, not the ‘ end’ as a starting point as we are lead to believe, as what is touted through media and each of our words because it is each of us that has allowed this. We have allowed that shadow of belief about ourselves to direct instead of seeing our constructs of belief about ourselves as being a consequence of measure about the world around us. Many, many are suffering because of this crime against life. Especially the animals and the microorganisms that are the building blocks of life in our soils. We each have, in effect, allowed a shadow to overrun conception. And that shadow has manifest as a lighted picture in our minds and as our media without. We are the zombies we fantasize about. These zombies we create in the movies we watch are our own resistance to what we have allowed ourselves to become. These movies are another form of our own shadows as our own halos of thought. Thus, we can blame no one for what we have accepted and allowed, no one said we had to do this.    

So, what is a thought? What is an emotion? What is a feeling?

A thought is an idea about something, an opinion about something.

An emotion is that thought repeated, again and again until it becomes an overwhelming force that directs one’s self. I mean we learn through repetition, so what you repeat, as what you think, is what comes to direct you - that self inside and as that physical body. And this can be passed down, as the sins of the fathers, as the repeated beliefs as measures that your parents and your parent’s parent’s programmed themselves as, as their beliefs, as their measures.

Thus, an emotion is a repeated thought, which was an idea, as a measure accepted/taken/believed about living here in what enabled one to measure in the first place, the physical.

A feeling is the emotion compounded and turned into a justification for that emotion. This is like saying a positive is a compounded negative. In math, when we multiply a negative with a negative, we get a positive! 

Then that feeling is a desire, and anything that does not match that memory game, is resisted, rejected, cast aside. Congratulations, you have become a member of the self accepted formations within that are shadows on the wall of your mind, that is essentially, a zombified race. 

You are all charged up, just like a television. You have created your own tele-vision within. you are a hued-man. How about becoming what you really are? A man. one filled with great potential, and great creative ability, because, it is a creative act to build that television, just a misplaced one that is causing all manner/measure of destruction on earth. If enough of us began to realize this, the elite that use this in their self interest ( they are us, the same) would not stand a chance. And they know it. In the end, the ending of this limited information within, would be what is best for all. And we would realize that the choice of ending this, would be like giving up everything to gain everything.

This is why, we are all responsible for the refugees seeking asylum in this world. This lack is a consequence of ignoring this world, this physical life. These people are perfect machines of life, that can, with opportunity, absorb and expand and grow to become productive mechanisms on this earth, to support this life that is physical and that can be joy manifest if we would only stop the very limited and lesser dimensions of ourselves as our inner belief constructs as mind consciousness systems.

Men, are wonderful machines, each unique, each having a perspective that no other man can have, thus are we all equal and unique at the same time!  A really beautiful design, as life would be. And this life is right here in front of us, we need only joyfully accept it, and rebuild how we organize all that is of this earth, to become a functional system that is life in total expression. Besides, it would be fun, really fun, more fun that any of us could ever have imagined.

I suggest taking that leap. I suggest walking over that line, and starting self forgiveness, writing and self corrective application, to release and refine those emotions, to name those thoughts, to realize those feelings as being the limitation, where that bling in that energy as this lesser dimension of self, is what is slowing you down to achieving your real dreams. Begin the journey to life, start the Desteni I Process Lite. Listen to the Eqafe.com interviews. Suspend judgement and belief- that measure within made larger than life. Accept the physical, it is god giving you the chance to pass through the eye of the needle and into life.   

Day 634 Our use of water reflects our self interest that is in the end our own accepted lack.

http://americablog.com/2015/05/nestle-privatize-water-oregon.html

It is interesting to see that a local state bureaucracy manipulates freely given resources in self interest. In this case, selling off their water to corporations for so little return on that resource. And, the cost of infrastructure placed on the local people. Is it not understood that the cost of maintaining the roads and the buildings will more than likely be more than the money gained from the resource? Thus, what is the real gain for that self interested public service worker?

In the long run, nothing. And, did we not see this happening in Detroit?

In Detroit, there are people working at jobs that are not living wages that then are handed water bills way beyond their financial means, with a natural landscape that contains a huge lake. How in any way does any of this make any sense? It makes no sense and it is a crime against the life of the people and the animals and the soils on which we all stand.

We have managed to separate from one another through very limited values which are in essence judgements. And we judge without looking at the overall effects of our very limited bubbles of belief. So in separation from using our own water-like ability to take in the form of something and investigate it to understand it, that we participate in actions that end up harming us. If a municipality gives its resources away for pennies and then does not have the means to take care of the infrastructure and resorts to asking non-living-wage workers to foot the bill, we have to ask ourselves what there is to blame. It is us, each of us, remaining in a self accepted and allowed ignorance that has created this situation. When we look only at a short term gain, we end up with nothing, our pensions meaningless because they are not enough to support us.

The solution is to give each the means to live, unconditionally. This will focus us back into what makes sense, to what supports this earth in ways that investigate what balances and retains a functioning earth. If we believe that things must be destroyed as the natural order of gain, then we have not taken the time to understand how things work, because in understanding how things work, we can transform what is here, using resources in ways that do no harm.  Sustainability is about using everything in its utmost capacity, which means respecting the very nature of things and using them in creative and self empowering ways, which realizes the value being life and all its forms on this earth. Inequality economically, does not work, and it cannot work. It takes just a few minutes of investigation to realize this. An article such as the one I posted makes this very clear. Give as you would receive, consider all things and take that which is good and does no harm. The simplicity of this is much easier to move as than being locked in a bubble of self interest without regard for the reality around us - as this separation is the source of conflict and a life potential never realized. We decide. Mathematically our proposals in water movement and management via a economic system of inequality make no sense. It is time to make a change that is best for all.

          

Day 633 The point of pride, riding a desire to participate.

The point of pride, riding a desire to participate.

In writing some SF today, I noticed a point of pride. I have noticed this point of pride as an impetus to do something, but have not realized the distraction of even a small measure of this as how I direct myself in living here. 

Yet, there is was, some pride riding another desire to participate in living, like a statement within me as ‘ I can move, as participate within this’ or that activity. The thought of ‘ I can’ coupled with the the excitement of participating and feeling proud to do so. Such a subtle thing, but a distraction none the less, and not a self honest directive in assessing what is before me, and moving as what is best for all. That subtle desire motivating me, instead of common sense in the moment.

A desire to participate in life is a good, yet it is a natural thing, because of what I am as a physical state of being. As an idea, in and as my mind, I race forward as this, instead of just being here. And also, I can see, in what has been allowed as a collective social construct, our system is like a revolving door construct of survival, so venturing forth means taking a risk, and this means that that game of this is the only thing seen, making it more complex and scary than need be. If I remained grounded, here, would it appear as something that is a risk or something that is more a smoke and mirrors show, that can only direct me if I accept and allow it, as this earth and how this earth functions is all around me, the harm being done obvious, when one steps out of self interest, and respects all things, taking that which is good and does no harm.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to direct myself in and as  a gain, in and as a belief as a thought that “ I can participate.”

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to participate, meaning being a desire, instead of a directive principle in and as an impetus of doing what is best for all as a starting point, which is myself moving in common sense instead of as idea, belief and opinion.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have the thought “ I can participate”

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become an excitement in and as an energy of “ I can participate.”

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see the negative polarity within and as this as a judgement that I cannot somehow participate

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting  myself to become a belief in and as a thought, as an idea, based on a morality of good and bad, danger and safety, that I cannot or that I can participate.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to in tandem with this, become a energy of pride, in and as self aggrandizing myself as a belief, which is a judgement, within and as a belief of good, in and as a motivation as idea, that ‘ I can participate.’

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that I am acting in self interest as a starting point

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that there is nothing wrong with participating in what is here, in and as simply being here, as the joy of being a physical state of being as life in expression as life information here.

When and as I find myself becoming excited, in and as wanting to participate, and as such being motivated as an energy of rushing, or jumping in, or watching for in entrance to participate, I stop, I breath, I slow myself down and I check myself within and as me, to become brutally honest with myself, to cross reference what I have allowed within, and what is around me without, to see, realize and understand that which would consider all things, taking that which is good and that which grounds me here, and I realize a movement that is one of ease, as in not based on idea, as an addition of rushing in, an action colored with pride, hidden in excitement, and I, after assessing myself as the world around me, then realize myself as life, as that which moves with ease, monitoring my breath, to ensure that I move as the directive principle of oneness and equality, as that which is good and does no harm, to stand equal and one with and as life here.

When and as I find myself missing my breath, especially when I am around a crowd or group, and sometimes even when I am alone, I stop, I slow down, I breath, until I am grounded, and I assess myself within and the world of life in expression as the physical information around me, and I ensure I am calm, at ease, my breath moving with ease, and I direct myself in brutal self honesty in and as joy, in and as an ease of respecting the physical as life, as myself, where nothing can be lost and all can be gained as this is a movement of myself, directing myself equal and one with and as what I am which is life.