Who am I? What do I process as information? Day 732

I had one of those situations where I realized I was not doing the math. I was not looking at the numbers, I was not looking at the equation. I simply followed something that had been said again and again, and accepted this as a truth.  I was not really LOOKING. I was not cross referencing HERE, this reality and what mendacious formula was placed to and towards me. I was not seeing the gossip. I was not processing the words, and relating them to reality in common sense. 

How much d I do this? probably more than I realize at the moment. For example, I never realized that a virus has never been found! Viruses are described by what other things are present, so what describes a virus is what the virus is not. Or, a virus supposedly must be present because other things are present.  By law, one cannot say that something happened unless the thing is measured, and yet, within viruses, we accept decisions about a virus by what it is not.  This is another one of those things that is a subtle manipulation, in that the laws say the thing justifying the means, must be measured, and yet, the dogma propagated is what something is not, thus what is used has never been proven as fact, and yet we are lead to believe, through statements as a word, as ‘ virus’ as really being something that exists, when it has not been proven to exist and yet, accept its existence and accept recommendations about it based on its  non-defined existence. I can see where I could spin around in this, and probably already am. I am a product of this system, as this was the information around me, and I followed, meaning I did not investigate beyond the string of words presented. This is how an uninformed consent happens. This in tandem with a school system that imparts a general scaffold of information without real living opportunity to investigate and direct one’s presence into a real physical understanding through living experience.  Here, I have to realize, in space, that somehow, I learned to crawl, I directed myself within that, thus I must have the capacity to move through the eye of the needle, meaning I must have the capacity to sense space, no matter how small. After all, I practice the smallest of movement of my hand to learn to vibrate on the violin, and I can see where my presence can sense that tiny change from the top of the back and forward movement of my hand with a relatively fast reading sense of the space! When it is said that one should be able to hear/here the grass growing- which I expect must be an awesome experience - it must be something we are able to do! 

This would mean that one’s focus must be HERE. 

I could also see where this would be so incredibly fulfilling, I can only imagine! The way out is not to imagine, but to focus here, in this creation in manifestation. It would be to get to now /here ( no-where, no wear, know-here) , as all of me. Yet, the separation into a bubble of imagination must be resolved, the math done, the presence here, accepting life, embracing myself and what is here,  as I would not want to be left behind, and therefor, I would not want anyone to be left behind! 

I must master what has been mastered into a mind consciousness, as imagination, that is using a limited math to live, instead of seeing directly the very math of creation here. I cannot do that alone, and yet I must do that alone, as all as one, as equal, too.

The very labor of me, must stand as this, unerringly, which is going to take practice and standing up from mistakes as I learn to realize what I accepted and allowed, as ideas, beliefs and opinions. Here, that labor of me, standing firm, staying the practical course, learning all details, processing the math of separation and the practical reality here,  as I as this, can create a movement that is sustainable, directing the labor of me into digits as the system exists, in a solid and supportive movement as no one can take that away. I am not beholden to secondary forms of support, what I am and who I am, and what I move as, stands stable, in every action, to support all as one as equal, here. It is a beautiful design! It is a design that builds real community. It is the opportunity for all to walk, on the ground, self empowerment, to be the change needed to bring heaven on earth, here. It is where the doers become the so called ‘ angel investors”, fulfilling themselves as life and spreading the living word here. 

My parents used to give me, for Christmas every year,  the figure of the hermit, the Santa Claus figure. They compared me to a person always caring a lantern, trying to bring light to things, trying to save the world. I remember being both proud of this and uncertain that it was not being used as some kind of insult. It both bothered me and excited me. Yet, this excitement that tends to cause me to rush, within this caring and throwing myself into something, is my own awe gone awry! It is myself, jumping into doing without processing what I am being within, and what is without, and the ubiquitous dogma as those ideas come to be accepted as a truth that I can blame no one for but myself, for accepting and allowing, as I did not really buckle down and investigate the details, and, as it was not modeled to learn to ‘ watch the grass grow’ meaning to really place my presence in discovering the smallest of movements that lead to a well directed self directive movement in this reality. I was too busy carrying that ‘ light’- so to speak. 

Yet, the impetus of a joy, an awe, simply tipped into ideas, as a mind consciousness,  means this can be balanced out through breathing and being present here, walking myself as my presence, with patience, back into, living here.  How awesome is that!  That is a real joy. I could weep for joy, and realize how much time I spent fighting and waring, and ignoring here, this reality. I have been doing this for so long, it is as though a part of me cannot believe I have potentially found what I had lost  and that it was always here.  It is like I left myself behind, chasing accepted mis-information. This creates a mixture of joy and shame, like how in the fuck could I have done this?  And, it was all ways, right there in front of me. I can only forgive myself, as begin to walk, in real time, discovering myself and real living, touching creation, a gift in-measurable in  the beauty of its design. I can enjoy, being here, it is who and what I am. 

Day 394 Paranoia of the Unknown: Superstitious Society

Paranoia of the Unknown Superstitious Society

We all can agree that the mind carries, or is the broadcaster of memories, we all have them, we wallow in them, we hold them dear as though they are more real than what is here as actual physical reality. This is a superstition onto reality. I am not saying that memories are good or bad, that images in our mind of the past are necessarily good or bad, but when given more value than reality, we become a superstitious society, because we are believing the image in our mind to be of more value than the actual physical reality. 

I listened to this talk about viruses, and at one point he asked a woman that came into his office if  she had changed in behavior after having a blood transfusion. The woman had said yes, she was “ stronger and more angry.”  This naturopathic doctor had said that she had the DNA from the person she had received the blood transfusion from, and thus she had the behaviors of that person as his DNA. I wonder if she also had new pictures as memories running through her head? I am not sure that I agree with all this man discusses, but I found this part of the lecture to be in line with what desteni has been saying about how the physical has a inter-dimensional system that holds images and that the mind is directing us as images, as thoughts, as opinions, ideas and beliefs.

This would mean that as children we get the memories of our parents, and that we take on the memories, or weave stories as new images in our minds as we live our lives, and also have new images fed into us via media and television. Thus, if we are a society that would make the images in our minds greater than what is actually physically here, and we have images from the past as our DNA, and we can also add images as memories as photos within having blood transfusions, what are we doing to ourselves in allowing all of this and living as a superstition as the function of the mind as image rebroadcaster that we make more real than the physical?

Is this why this physical world exists with so much harm going on instead of harmony?

And is this used so that a few can live some superstitious ideology that is an image and likeness of being more than something else, because they have images of themselves as some kind of emperor wearing elaborate clothing? And that this image is more real than reality? How does one maintain this to their advantage? 

Create a society where images are fed to entertain, to misrepresent reality, to create an existence of humans that live in a separate reality unknowing of the physical reality? I mean, within this, if the physical world were laid out in how it functions clearly, then it would be realized that our present system exists as superstition instead of as common sense, this natural ability we all have, a gift of life, to equalize to and as what is real as life, this is being shut down with the present system, which we are all accepting and allowing.  We each create the present society that is what it does, a system of inequality as the basic needs of the physical not being met, and thus the consequence a system that is unequal to life. A system that in its inequality to life is ignoring the physical, using this physical world to feed a superstitious reality that is limited. And I want to say, this does not suggest that this grid that is here is all bad. Having a family is precious, but the inclusion of realizing the physical world stands as ordering this system to include all life, valuing all life, as life being the value as the physical form that is what is real and allows us to exist, and as this wanting for your neighbor what you want for yourself, the chance to live and enjoy having a family, having animals, having children, interacting and being here with this physical world, taking care of it, valuing it as this physical world is what is real.

The physical acts are what are real, what we are allowing on earth, is what is real. Facts based on  pictures in our minds are not what is real, especially since the pictures in our minds can be influenced by what is presented in the media controlled by a few who have managed to control information, and pictures on a screen are information, they in-form us, as we as mind take in the pictures presented. it is like the pictures presented are a dress code for ignorance, this code serving the self interest of a few. And meanwhile the rest of us are existing in our own  self innerrest as superstitious images as mind being made greater than the actual physical world.

I would try self forgiveness for them, because the heaviness of these images can be diminished through self forgiveness, and then equality to here can begin, and one can begin to become the “ lightness of being” allowing more ease here with and as real life, the physical.  Ironically, this “ lightness” is turning off the lights as the picture show of the mind, the picture show of superstition creating an unknowing of what is real, what is the value, which is the physical world that allows us to understand life, become equal and one to and as life here.

So, we come into this world, senses relatively intact, and we absorb a world of adults being directed by superstition as memory made greater than physical reality, and we watch images on a screen that serve the self interest of the few who supposedly represent us, who have self interests of their own as they were raised within the same superstitious environment and want to maintain their own superstition, so what is presented will feed the fairy tale superstition of the mind as limited behaviors and thereby creating an attention deficit disorder from the actual physical world.

Now we know why we are making so many zombie movies, because in essence we have all become zombies, as our mental reality, this mind within us that holds pictures, that uses the physical and cannot exist without it, to separate us from actual physical reality.

And in essence we are all to blame, because we accepted this.

Within all this the solution is to look at the physical world in fact, to look directly at how the physical world moves and functions, how here works. This means to realize that if one dumps chemicals into the water, the water is going to become polluted upsetting the natural world.

This means that if we confine a four legged animal into a cage and feed it something other than is was designed to eat, that animal is going to get out of physical alignment and will eventually exhibit characteristics of frustration and disease, and that if we eat this, we as well will become diseased.

This means that if we follow the pretty pictures presented on TV that suggest coke is fun, without actually looking at what is causing our ill health, and at what the total consequence of this corporation, this corps(e) that coke production creates on this earth, in detail, from the plants used and the state of the labor that produced them, and the effects on the actual real physical environment, then we are in effect existing in an idea that bears not witness to physical reality.  And, make no mistake about it, there is no excuse for this ignorance, none. It is unacceptable. Here we must ask ourselves if the images we exist as as our reality in and as our minds, are they worth more than our children and the trees, and the water and the air? No, they are not worth more, and I am not rejecting  some of the values we exist as, I am not denying family, I am saying that if family is valued - then what we have allowed on this earth as the present system of inequality that is a pyramids scheme based on limited ideas in and as our minds - must come to an end. It is the system mimicking the mind that is the  elephant in the room that is taking the space of reality/real life, the potential for heaven on earth.

There are even war veterans saying that there is an elephant in their room as their minds, and it is showing them that what they accepted and allowed as crimes against life serving the interests of a few, are screaming so loud in their heads that they can no longer deal with life, as they realize they are not living life, and that there are too many people ignoring themselves as physical beings choosing superstition before life, and as this, this screaming veteran feels helpless to change this world, to get people to wake up and listen to what is really happening on  this earth, this that is the only choice, to stand and realize that the physical world is what is real and that a system must be put in place that cares and works with what is real, the physical, and that this is the value as this is life, this is what allows life to be and if we do not start to care about the actual real physical, and stop blaming and spiting one another, and stand together to actually stand and create a change, we are missing life. Because a life lived as the mind, as pictures in our heads, is a life that has not been lived, because the images consume our flesh and what is left is death, here on earth and as self because life as the physical was not supported. We become the corps(e) that we have accepted and allowed. And we are the corps(e) because this is composed of people.

And any real parent would not allow this. A real parent would realize that the only choice is life, thus rejecting life is not possible, so the suffering that is self created by all of us, will continue until we get so sick and tired of being in a state of disease, we finally stand up. This state of disease we leave behind for out children those we pro-port to love. if we really loved our children, we would step out of our minds, reconnect with what is real, as this physical world, and get this world in order. It is the only choice.

This must be done by a huge collective. This means all of us that can read this. we must stand and place a system that supports the physical world, that realizes the basic needs of the physical, as this is what is real, to bring this earth to a point where physical reality is cared for and no harm exists. Here we give up the images in and as our minds, seeming to be giving up everything, when in fact we will gain everything. The mind is illusion, but the values that are a part of the images need not be lost, but realized in physical fact, here, on earth. Heaven - as the good that exists as parts of the images in and as our minds - can exist, we need only stand and order this world to care for all life.

Support BIG, a basic income guarantee, to give what is here as all men, as physical beings on this earth, what is needed to live, and as the system now stands, this means a living wage. BIG supports some to make more than others, as this is a step in a gradual change where the bringing of ourselves back to earth, back into the physical is not too sudden and drastic of a change from the mind superstition made greater than life, towards realizing that the physical world must be supported as a physical form if behaviors of suppression and frustration are to end. Humans are born with common sense, it is time to allow this to flourish and to use this to get this world in order.

If you exist as a superstition as the images in your mind being more than physical reality, this is self building a paranoia of the unknown, a separation from life, where the fears are simply self disconnected to what is real physical reality, a reality that can be known in structure and function. It is only a belief as mind, taught from childhood, that self cannot know how the world functions. The world is the gift of life, of course it can be understood, all it takes is to stop the mind and look. This is common sense.

Day 66 The folding of knowledge and information.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to want to know, as in be informed.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to know, to be informed, to have information, to have knowledge and information to discuss with others and my world, so I appear to be aware of what is happening in the world, where I base what is happening in the world on popular books and information sources, be it a magazine, a news show, a tv show, a journal, an educational degree, where I gather and collect the knowledge and information to decorate myself with, and regurgitate without looking at what the information actually creates, or is based on, in relation to this physical world.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to use knowledge and information to shield myself form a belief in a loss of social status.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand how much I walk a “theory” alone and not what is physically real.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to take a look at my life, and see where I am applying knowledge and information gathered through outside sources, and education, where I did not in fact live the efficacy of that knowledge and information in fact.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to take the words of others for granted without actually going and considering if what is said is in fact effective in this world.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to take knowledge and information and “play with it in and as my mind” and create supposed understandings through feelings considerations of theory, knowledge, information through what feels right instead of being here, with and as this physical world, not realizing that the entertainments of the mind, as story. in pondering the why’s and how’s of this world through the use of knowledge and information, is separation of what is actually physically here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be addicted to an energetic high in and as a sense of “knowing” where I have used knowledge and information and experiences from my past and constructed a sense of understanding and knowing this world, where instead of looking at this world, and realizing a change is possible, I wallow in sadness as to what exists on this planet.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be a story junkie, to collect knowledge and information and to then feel sad that this world is not living up to it’s full potential, where I blame some fuzzy entity not realizing that this world as the present system is created by men, that men are the anecdotal evidence assembling the whole of this system.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see the infinite loop of perpetual motion I allow myself to exist as , where I will cause damage to my human physical body, as I am not here, one and equal to this physical world, but instead of in my head, reading about history, the news, the arts, psychology, science, ( you name it) and then to take this in -form-(n)ation and fold it into my bible of knowledge and compassion and understanding and then feel as though I am compassionate, and special and caring and giving, as I believe this world is sad, and that each individual is not utilizing their full potential, where I feel sad and believe that life is not lived, where I have not considered that the human is so consumed by survival in a system that creates lack, and uses money to control the human through fear of loss, where this fear disallows human development for many on this earth.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that the knowledge and information presented serves a system of limited design and thus what knowledge is readily available within media and journals, supports what follows the law of profit, and thus cannot do what is best for all, as this would equalize and support life, where a system of profit brings profit to a few only, and ignores that which is one and equal to it, and that which supports it, which is what is real this physical world.

i forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that “shades of grey”  are actually turning the same information around and around again and again, refractions of  petty finger pointing where the simplicity of looking at this physical world and how things move and support this physical world is the practical solution.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that there is something to understand in and as my mind, when my mind can only move in singularities and therefor cannot solve problems, as it is not walking the practical steps necessary to get something done, where we have a system where a “leader” dictates to others what steps to take from a far, and thus does not actually live what physically happens and works, what destroys and supports, as the distant centralized government/corporation dictator is not present.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that within a hierarchy, a dictate can be given from above, to a “lesser” point in the hierarchy and that this person will lose their “fresh air” position unless they force those below them who are working with the actual physical thing, to complete assignments no matter what affect this causes to the physical world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that where the person giving direction bases their decisions on knowledge and information distant from the physical,  have the power to distribute,  release and provide what sustains life, thus, all starvation allowed by governments is in fact a crime, all starvation allowed by banks is thus a crime no different to the crimes of Hitler. 

I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting myself to see that  if one only looks at the knowledge and information presented, the wording will only focus on what the profits are for the few, where outcomes are lost in a drama of blame and spite.  

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that collecting knowledge and information that is of blame and spite, and self pity, and finger pointing and hate, and tragedy, is the drama used to hide the money flowing to a few, where the drama presented in the media is meant to wallow the listener in sadness, as emotion, as self pity, to hide the fact that what is real, is the physical world.

When and as I see myself pondering knowledge and information, I stop and I breath, and I remind myself that knowledge and information without practical effective application is useless.

When and as I find myself going into an emotion of sadness I stop and I breath, and I realize that this emotion of sadness and pity is myself caught in a self created addiction to believing that I care about this world, where in fact this action of emotion and belieVing that I care is just this, knowledge and information without any effective practical directive application to stop the abuse allowed and accepted on an earth that has the means to ensure a life of support as life, for everything on this planet.

I commit my self to investigating the amount of money invested in the development of war, and to realize that this money alone iS enough to support all life on this planet and that the effort used to built the “high tech” tools of war can just as well be spent to provide a life of dignity for all that is of this earth.

I commit myself to realizing that the money spent on perfume and alcohol alone can provide this world with clean drinking water.

I commit myself to researching agriculture, where crop rotation and the form and function of the cow is a perfect self sustaining system that circulates waste and maintains healthy soils, where what is presently being done causes MRSR, a form of strep that is resistant to antibiotics, where this is so prevalent, that hospitals are now placing signs outside of hospital doors where visitors must a mask to enter the room, as this is now in our CAFO meats and out vegetables.

I commit myself to realizing that my job and my pension are not going to do me any good if I am a walking disease full of super bug bacteria and viruses because I did not investigate how money is spent on this planet to serve profit for the few, and not what this earth gives unconditionally, the resource to support life in dignity.

I commit myself to realizing that the diseases of out children are caused by the pollution of this planet within and without, as the incessant broadcast of knowledge and information is resonantly talking over our children to the point where they can no longer focus and what we do is label them as ADHD, without realizing that they are refracted into many parts of no real value, separating a  connection to what is actually real, this physical world, as our children are becoming sex maniacs in the third grade, where girls are having their periods in the third grade.

I commit myself to realizing the folding of knowledge and information in and as my mind, into and as a story of righteousness and pity, an emotion of sadness and justification in and as believing that I have value because I care, is not a solution and therefor a mind fuck of no practical solution to be directly supportive of what is real, this physical world.

I commit myself to walking myself through how I become a back chat of blame and spite, self pity and righteousness to become effective in communicating the directive principle of oneness in equality through understanding my own separations into and a mind consciousness system, through writing, self forgiveness and corrective application, and thus being the process of stopping the mind, and walking one and equal to this physical world.

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