Looking at the word " sharing ' Day 788

Sharing,

 redefining the word sharing.

Show air, open up the form, bring it forward to rebalance within principle of and as what is best for all.  The principle of oneness and equality, into what respects all things, taking that which is good and does no harm. This being a state of ease, of reciprocity, doing the math, moving in accord of an expression of creation.  This being, from my perspective, a presence in synch with a knowing that is  a state of certainty. It is a form of not telling a lie. It is a form of what is more eternal,  it is a state that no one can take away.  It is living potential with a steady absolute purpose- the only place where the absolute stands,  as in that word - absolute- one is living the realization of  ab/a-way solve, or a-way son/sun,  a way of creation/expansion.  The prefix ‘ ab’ means away, so as a movement, absolutely - ute, can be to always give/send away the solution, as realizing there are no problems and only solutions. Some take patience to resolve, yet, just as in sailing a large boat, one holds, the balance.  I notice that when I have not found that steady solution,  I become loopy, like children that cannot hold a word, as there are too many emotional triggers erupting from experiences from a past of wanting to survive in an environment.  When I cannot remain in what is actually more natural, I become loopy, I am within a state of not being able to structure a correction that I can apply with greater ease. Interesting how words can narrow a focus, and lend structure, to then bring forward clarifying forms that allow one to ground one’s self  into the small movements that are the means to the end as practical actions.  The ideas, beliefs and opinions, no longer predominant on the horizon,  distracting one from applicative actions in real time.  Paranormal activity, is but the use of limited information that then uses ad hominem and hyperbole to fill the spatial lack, which in itself creates that same distractive business. It is what I recently read, as that movement of using only 10 percent of one’s presence into a limited construct of information- lol, it is like living in a hot air balloon .  It is not the ‘ air ‘ as the space of what is here all around us, as the physical.  

Thus, the word ‘ sharing ‘ is the ring, as the reverberation, of airing, as focusing here, as airing what is here in the context of respecting all things, as no longer projecting a limited construct from within,  and opening one’s self up to realize the ring, as in ringing, as in the sound, of life, always present and always right here in plain sight. As I live in the moment, here, where the practical is lived because this is where one directs, as nothing was ever done within thinking about it.  

Thus, the word sharing, is to embrace my own accepted and allowed limitation, the consequential inflated and protective value judgements, and the practical, as the action of respecting what is here in this moment, to balance the focus of myself, within what brings ease, as a state of knowing, that then expresses what practical small and simple movement, is the means towards what  ‘ rings ‘ true, as what opens a greater ability to remain present in this reality, this physical and practical living reality that is always around me, composed by and of, the potential to realize  what is best for all. 

When I am in fear, which is being inferior to life, which is self interest, as separation from the realization that I am equal in substance to all things, as all things are eye in another life. I move into comparison, imagining worst case scenarios,  fearing an imaginative loss, forgetting to respect all things, allowing a limited ideological resonant belief to define who and what I am, via a mis-use of the imagination, and comparison, always a form of projection with values judgements,  that i attach to objects from the world around me.  In this I am not living solutions, with a sense of giving, as the realization in fact that what is here is me in another life. 

Thus, sharing, is listening to what is here, in the moment, placing it in the context of all things here, as respecting and realizing who and what I am as a physical form, on a physical infinite planet, and doing a math, as assessing this reality, to realize solutions, as opening up the space, to make the only choice, which is the choice that is best for me, is to consider all things, taking that which is good as what does no harm. This opens focus onto the form and function of here, through the realization of a limited focus on a self interested system of values that is a mind consciousness  system, back into what is more natural and can process living reality,  as the self as life that is always here, and need only be embraced. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to compare myself to others.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that within and as living principle, I realize greater respect of all things, and within that I see further.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to move into comparison, in a bubble, within limited constructs of information, colored with value judgements, at myself in fear of loss, which is an idea, and not myself being present, as I am allowing distractions of and as value judgements, and not focused here, in respect of all things here, as who and what i am in totality, that is what allows me to exist in expression as life, here, as life is physical.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that when I have a pain, in my physical body, it is a constriction, a suppression, a lack of real processing,  of and as focusing here, airing out, as opening up,  beliefs, opinions and ideas, polarized and colored with value judgements, as what i accept as a list---ening of myself as order, as form, as energy, and not myself paling myself here in this living reality, to respect all things, and reciprocate reality, the living reality, as this physical existence, where if I look around, all things are a composition of and as what is here, and all things are the consequence of the hands of many, as the haptic actions, where we are happy when we are focused and unhappy when we are not.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when and as I become anxious, I am not processing reality, as respecting all things, taking that which is good and does no harm, I am not being present, presenting what is here, grounding in what I am as a physical manifestation, realizing where i am projecting value judgements, which is myself allowing inferiority, as I am in fear and as a distraction, not in a consideration of all things, opening up to life, to what is real, airing out the space of my own dis-empowerment, as self interest, to see , realize and understand all of me, to embrace all things, and make the choice that is the only choice, as to respect all that is me, that is all around me here. 

I forgive myself for projecting a lack, onto objects around me, imagining worse case scenarios, as threats, that are a metaphysical self interested math/action/projection composed of energy, which s a red flag for my own acceptance of fear, a busyness, that is limiting, and not being a directive principle of and as showing a sharing as airing out limited beliefs, to open up and enable myself to embrace all of me, as the life that tis me, that is all around me, as having enough information, to self realize self as life here. 

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that unbalanced limited dimensions of an accepted focus, composed of making polarized value judgements that have a quality of and as my actions as projecting onto objects that which I have rejected of and as my self as life, as my capacity to problem solve, to realize limitations, and to embrace myself as life, holding what is a directive principle in and as forgiving myself as life, as that realization that there are no problems and only solutions, here, as it is here, that the practical application is the means to the end. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to compare, to move into a comparison, that is a resonant emotional projected body, of and as a fear, where within the  storied enflamed value judgements, are the expression of fear, as a fear of loss, and not myself embracing life, as me, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize the shadow world, composed of storied memories of and as ideas, of loss, ideas of failure, as the only thing upon which I focus, to realize this, forgive, and to redirect, within a directive principle, to realize applications that take that which is good and respects all things, which is to hold what can withstand the test of time, as to move as a process of elimination, as to realize side effects, where  the airing of reality does not move forward, as the unfolding of and as real presence, that is a process of dis-covering self as life that has always been right here, to realize in thought word and deed that which is best for all and as such,  aires out and grounds real presence and respect of life, here. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to mis-use compassion, in self interest.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have back chat, that when and as i share, and revelations are realized, even in lending practical and simple actions, that self empower , there is back chat that i am not enough, from my past, where I focus on lack, instead of directive actions in moments, realizing self discovery,   enjoying this,  no longer fearing to move into the unknown as the known, is always here, as everything is known. 

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand the simple, as it is within the simple that the ordinary is lived that moves into greater awareness, as even within playing the violin, the simple was cross referenced, as allowing the simple to automate, was allowing a state of forgetfulness, as realizing the smallest of actions, were the means to the end, and that the small could be so well mastered that one could cross reference this in a split second, as that very state of understanding as awareness can be a construct of mis-information that becomes hyperbolized as protected because it is of self interest and thus inequality to this living physical reality, that ends up, as a construct of separation, running away with the self into separation and a loss of self mastery, thus the simple must be mastered, with clarity, and always cross referenced, which is supportive and feels good, as the simple is the means to the end, here. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to rush to believe there is a place to rush to, when life is here, and to realize within this that a sense of rushing manifests as slower processing,  as it is self emotionally charged and not grounded here, where one lives the practical and the simple, in the moment,  to be in respect of all things, as the practical that builds the life that is me here as the physical.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when and as i move into a sense of inferiority, there must be the opposite of a desire for superiority, which is myself moving into comparison, into competition, and not myself being present in common sense, as practical application within the principle of equality and oneness, which is being a living respect of all things, as all things are the same as me, as life in expression in another life here. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become angry, as nothing, even if I am ‘ right’ was ever resolved with anger, as anger is a state of blame, which is a  state of fear, which is a state of fearing to take self responsibility, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to want short cuts, to have an idea the something should be easy, which is following an idea, instead of walking the practical applications with in a directive principle of and as realizing that the value is life, here. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that things are impossible, when creation is here, as me, all around me, here, living practical applications that in essence are a directive principle of and as taking that which is good and does no harm here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to want to protect myself,  within an idea, that there are threats around me,  which is to, again, project an idea of loss, as though something can be lost, which then creates as the opposite an idea of gain, when in practical reality there is nothing to lose, and nothing to gain, as I am life here, a life that is physical and practical, as common sense is and does, which is living in thought word and deed, as allowing life here, airing life here, as bringing life forward, as simply allowing life, as a focus on as respect of, the physical reality, in plain sight here. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting this physical manifestation of and as energy that is like a dagger, or an arrow, of energy, from a vertebrae in my upper back, that is like this grasping form, like it has claws that appear to be unreleasable, that is my past, where I am also feeling like a child, caught in a coffin, or a web, where I cannot process the information, and have already lost myself in a construct that I can no longer see the boundaries of and as, and within this storm, I am clawing and scratching, looking for a way out, not being able to process the movements, wanting to attack, and not wanting to attack as though on some level, I understand this is not solution and yet, this is the information that is me that I have to work with, that I have accepted ,  where I am in a fury of not wanting to accept the unacceptable and yet, cannot see the resolutions around me as I am lost in a storm of value judgements, this manifesting as this point in my upper back, just above the heart, as though this is a new point opening up, where the pain is most intense, a cycle, or sequence I have lived within this process of birthing life here,  to realize this is like a projecting weapon, as a reaction, of and as anger, as fear, where there are objects of and as to place this fear, which is that past, of an as a construct of and as a belief that there tis no way out, and yet, a part of me, will never give up, as though I existed within limitation, moving as that lack, was unacceptable, and in ways, it is moving in complete frustration,  which is fear, and reaction, where the way out, was greater understanding, as having enough information, as dis-covering a natural ability to understand the practical, here. 

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand a movement into victimhood, as self pity, that is like a mask around my eyes, pulling down presence, as looking directly here, into believing a math of and as self pity, that is that vein of a belief, in the impossible, that then manifests as such as the words “ i tried’ or ‘ I did my best’ or,  a sense that this storm is ‘ too muchness’ when all of this is an illusion and myself caught in a belief system that is a distraction form what is natural, as being present equal and one to all life that is here all around me as the physical reality, here, where all things are myself in another life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe this sense of what could be called righteousness, as a sense of this is so real, so true, so needing of revenge, when I have walked this path and realize that this is not being solution, and to realize that because of accepted and allowed beliefs, this state of separation, that has a quality of protection and defense, as blame and spite, is habituated, and as a set body of resonant  limited information, that need not define who and what I am here, as I can breath, slow down, and ground myself here. 

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand tat this inherent conflict is also a form of self hate,  as myself hating myself to not seeing realizing and understanding the accepted web of limitation, chosen in a desire to survive, this in itself a mis-take on reality, which means the only choice os to forgive this consequential anger/anchor into a limited belief system, of polarized value judgements of and as the end game of good and evil, that is a separation from commons sense as respect of all things as the physical reality that is creation manifest, as the substance of and as taking that which is good and does no harm, to move with and as the natural law, of respect for all things, realizing a balance that lends expansion here. 

Coupled with this word “ sharing’ is the word ‘ meaning.’  Thus, I will continue with the word ‘ meaning ‘ Thank you for reading here. 

When and as I find myself moving into protection and defense, I stop and i breath, and I assess my own reactions , I slow down and realize the means of this separation , as thoughts , words and imaginations, of and as what composes separation, as ideas, beliefs and opinions, of and as blame and spite, resistance and rejection, thus, I forgive, I stop, I use words I have defined, such as calm, as presence, as steadiness, and I move , as transform my self definition, and realize, that just as in slang a large boat, or in skiing down a hill, or in taking a life saving skills swimming test, or in performing, like a horse running across a field with purpose, directed, able to hold a steady rhythm, remain balanced, and moving in respect of all things, with ease, there is a great power within this, and this fine line is always here, and that i have experienced this, in performing, being equal to the sounds around me, balancing out, pulling on strings, remaining steady, within a form, where that focus, the presence, in respect of all things around me, within that framework, that state of steadiness can be actualized, with ease, with joy, with flow of movement, as that horse can be and do, which i have experienced in riding horses, cantering them on a beach, swimming with them in ponds, walk with them with and as state of ease, thus, is there power within that, just as I realize the sword of wanting revenge, as a storied resonant seed of mis-information, of and as energy, this need not define who and what I am, as I can breath, slow down, and uncover, being myself as life, as that power to hold not accepting the unacceptable and transform that into remaining steady here, in balance, considering all things, to become the living word, of and as being as dis-covering the life that is me here. 

In some respects, I can see where it is a fine line between becoming de-manned within righteousness, and or, slowing down and realizing a respect for creation, here. 

The solution is sharing, as showing the airing out of limitations, as accepted and allowed beliefs, opinions and ideas, to open this up, call things out by name, to disempower accepted and allowed limitations, and to ground one's self, here, to be able to run with the wind, as the life that is physical, and that nature of creation here. 

Day 329 More on Rejection Character: I am my own rejection

If I accept and allow myself to react to what another does or says, and take this personally I become a rush of a fear of rejection, of loss, but what is it that I am going to lose? Yes, if I were in a situation where I lived in an impoverished area and there was not enough food, all i would be able to think about is getting food, and I would probably not have the education, even, to realize that - should I live in certain areas of the world, areas of abundant resource in contradiction to the support systems available on earth - to see that what was right under my feet had be assigned with a piece of paper ownership to some distant entity hidden within a corporate name laundering the value of the resource under my feet through dirty practices where the labor in extracting that resource was made to pay for all aspects of acquiring that resource, while the value generated from that resource came out clean and beneficial for a few on another continent where there existed no starvation. But, I live where the resource has been laundered, and there is no starvation because of lack of something to put in my stomach, even though what is here that has been laundered in another way, has very little substance of physical support, like I am a bee on a lower level within a hive, and am only allowed what maintains a “lesser” physical state, which can be counteracted where I live, if one takes the time to investigate what is eaten. Even here, the amount of pollution in the world reaches into all of us. So, what we have created, accepted and allowed is here and has come back to us, the consequence of our human actions are here.
So how do I allow myself to be bullied, how do I allow myself to fear the energetic reactions of men, how do I allow this is touch me, because becoming affected by the emotions and thoughts and words that created, allowed this state on earth, actions that disregard practices that are not supportive of earth, how have I allowed them to affect me, where I get caught up in the storm of this disregard, this that does not allow/work with the expression of what is here as the physical, within and as how it functions within the form of itself in common sense, why is what is here ignored and not allowed to be what it is, how it is, why is it not worked with?
How can humans allow a system of usury, when it has been said that this will not work? When it is known that usury leads to enslavement? How is it that we have allowed chemicals to determine our health, to be touted as what heals, when right in front of us, there has not been healing? Why are we accepting what is unacceptable? The excuses have no validity, they are not facing here, an excuse if simply saying, I don’t want to look here. The problem with this is that this means that one is being a “ non-looking” and as such takes everyone else along. it is abusive because it effects everyone here, the plants the animals, the soils, everything.
So, when I become a fear in facing a non-looking state of being, I am in effect allowing myself to be bullied by a “non-looking” and if I accept and allow this, I perpetuate this. Such behaviors cannot be allowed.
I mean how can a president decide to pass practices that are being questioned all over the world with studies that reveal the detriment of such practices: here the rush to pass and allow such practices is a realization that such practices do not work, because the passing into allowance of such practices at a time when there is evidence that such practices are questionable reveals that this is known. It is like, hurry up and pass this or we are going to lose this, and then make a bunch of commercials and articles presenting goodness, hurry up and resonate goodness to block the reality that is gaining ground.
And then this same president takes away support for the elderly at a time when prices are rising. This is an act in direct contradiction to supporting life, and it exists on a world of abundant resource, thus it has no basis in reality. The President of the United States has no awareness of reality, he guides by ideologies, by ideas only. And this was clear with the initial presentation of hope without full disclosure.
I had this experience in my twenties where I saw a floating head in a room, a very angry expression in the face of this head. One of the things that “hit me” in the moment, was an absolute certainty that his “head” could not touch me unless I accepted and allowed this. Thus, I had no fear of this “thing” and looked at it head on - so to speak, even wanting to talk with this, which I did not do, which perhaps I should have done, but should have could have, would have is pointless at this moment, it is in the past. THis morning I thought , how could I have had a sense that this thing could not touch me unless I allowed it, and within this to not be affected with fear in the face of this, and here i am having a problem within someone in a group I am in, becoming all emotional and egotistical, thinking I am being abused - which maybe I am- but reacting to this within protection and defense and wanting to bully, to become angry, is simply more of the same and is not what steadily directs into a solution that resolves the friction and conflict, and the spiteful actions causing discord? I am becoming the same anger, the same frustration.
If I allowed this while I was performing or playing the violin, i would learn this this way, and then I would probably lose it during performance, or as I was playing I would see a subtle thing suddenly that i had not noticed, because i had not been looking while I practiced the piece. At such moments , I become regret because I has missed an opportunity to experience a subtle expression within a piece, and the moment was gone. I have had this happen, and sometimes just let it go, because in suddenly seeing such a thing, it was also a gift, it was to have had the opportunity to have seen it in totality.
This can only really happen with being forgiving of self, to be present here. Steady, constant, directed, accepting and listening to what is here, without hope for gain or fear of loss. Humans cannot be here if there is fear, is there is worry about food, if there is worry about shelter, which is a crime as there is enough. An example of this stares us right in the face, where the countries of incredible natural resource, are somehow the poorest. As I have said in other posts there is enough space on this earth for humans and animals, and we know how to build up soils and build structures that last, and we know what is needed, that the huge mansions with innumerable rooms cannot be lived in by a person, more than likely there are only a few rooms used, the rest is just a show, such space for a few is unnecessary, it is based on an idea that has no basis in physical reality. It is like building a huge instrument that does not fit the scale of the form of men, such things become useless, wasteful and unplayable. Some of the instruments built by men are useful, but many are a waste, and the waste is polluting the expression of life on this earth.
Why are we building things that are based on ideas that are so out of proportion of common sense of this actual physical world?
Why am I allowing myself to be out of proportion of what is physically real here, in and as how here works in common sense? Why am I allowing myself to take something personal, am I allowing myself to fear losing something that is out of proportion within myself as an idea i am holding onto that lacks perspective of how here functions, to the point where I exist within a warped reality? What this means is to walk in common sense of what is a solution, practically, to bring the reward of being able to “play”, having the human scale size instrument to “play” to be and exist as the gift of life.
In the end the person with the huge house and the person with no house have no instrument to play/express themselves as life, the extremes are in lack, one blinded by ideological-lack-of-reality common sense, and one without the sustenance means to use common sense. And those in the middle, we internet users, exist within limited means to the point where we do not really learn to read, we do not really learn to understand mathematically what is going on, we do not learn how to play a musical instrument, we do not learn to be able to direct ourselves within the simplest of tasks such as hammering a nail into a board. The middle is in petrification of being here, of standing up and realizing what is real as this actual physical world and the systemic structures that are not taking care of this earth, that are now directed by representatives that are directed by a monetary profit system that by its very nature is in direct opposition to what is best for all. Usury is a systemic form that is in direct opposition to what is a practice of what is best for all, To have such a form, a systemic action, and then to give others the ability to represent the voice of many will lead to the representatives choosing in their own self interest before what is best for all, what is good will be placed second to their own profit. Thus such a system cannot work, will not work, and must stop.
I have been taught to defend and protect within a bubble, I have not been taught to look to the whole. This I will have to do myself, as naturally, within such a system of profit such would not be in the interests of the law makers and representatives benefitting from this chance to direct within what gives them more, before what is best for all. And the structures they allow are not instruments that support life.
Thus my behaviors, what I allow must be brought back to self, and held steady within absolutely directing within and as what is best for all, as there is no gain until this earth is realized for the form that it is, and this understood and supported, because if we cannot learn to play this earth, then how can we be allowed to be given our own instruments to play? We have not mastered what is given as a gift to understand life here.
My inner ideologies are a warped reality, they are ideas made huge in separation from what is realistic and supportive here, as this gift of life here. They are myself spread out into pieces lacking peace with here. The only thing is to align the very substance of myself within and as what is best for all, to realize that the only thing that can be lost is not accepting the subtlety of what is here in common sense of how here works as what is here, as the physical and what is best for all within this, is what allows oneself to be.

Within this there would would be no need for a separate peace as in a separate heaven, a separate place where peace would be found, as this “state of being” would be here, everywhere, not needing to be there, not needing to be something sought, not needing to exist away from here, not needing to become a idea of something separate, dreamed about- taking attention from here- because here would be heaven on earth, equal and one, and this is what is best for all. In all common sense.
Thus it is to bring myself here, and direct this desire for gain to protect a fear of loss, and to realize that rejections that are reactive and thus not directive within common sense self forgiveness within and as what is best for all are based on a separation from what is real, which is the physical world here this which is self as life, as a forgiving natural expression of self as life, seen at moments within our children, that which we bully into generational cultivated behaviors for survival in a bubble, without consideration of how the present system is one of inequality, unsupportive, habituated, where the only choice is to stop and breath , and slow down and look and realize that the value is life.

Day 328 Rejection Character

Fear Dimension Rejection Character
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being in common sense with and as life here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to slow myself down, to breath and to become without desire here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that life is here, that all that I can do within this moment here, is physically apply myself in common sense with here, as I am one person, one body only able to do what I as a human can do physically here, on this physical world, thus, all I can be is the movement of myself here in relation with the life that is here, in common sense, thus looking at what is actually here, and interacting with what is physically here is all that i can be in this moment, thus the focus of myself can only be on what is here, to communicate with what is here as life realizing how here works, where if what is here is taken away from what I am as a human, I have no opportunity to be able to look here, to interact with here which is to say that if what is here is taken how can I become self responsible as life?
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become angry with a system that is a construct of the taking of opportunity from men, through media, through education, by design, as design is understood to be a means and way to organize what is here, and thus the systemic design is a creation with a purpose of serving a few only, the same who design the media, the educational system, the prison system, the economic system, and thus the blame can only be on myself for having accepted and allowed my self responsibility to have been given/abdicated to a representative voice, despite the common sense that it takes many men to fight in a war, that it takes more than one human to grow food, that it takes more than one human to process animals in existent CAFOS, that it takes many men to present what is presented through the media, which is a group of men accepting and allowing disinformation, the dissing of the from of self as life, forgiving of self as life here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear rejection should I allow myself to become equal and one with common sense, allow myself to be vulnerable as life,speaking up in common sense, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that common sense is not dirty.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that the limited beliefs, opinions and ideas are impenetrable.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that to fear common sense is abuse of life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear the emotional and physical abuse implied within the word , as the definition, of being vulnerable which means being in common sense of life, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have an idea that being rejected by another means that I am somehow “dirty.”
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the veil of consciousness is a veil of fear, a veil of separation, into self preservation within a system that acts in self interest without consideration of life as being the value here, a system that is the image and likeness of my own fear of self responsibility, self honesty, self directive principle in and as what is best for all is best for self here, where the common sense of myself is to take what is good, to stand as what is best for all, equal and one.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear pointing out a limited belief, because in so doing I am actually “killing” a limited belief, which will initially create a reaction from the carrier of such a limited belief, where that belief must be brought back to a common sense of this actual physical world, and thus this limited belief can no longer be what defines.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how limited beliefs are the web holding the present system of inequality in place, a system that is abusive and brutal as it acts in the self interest of a few and does not in common sense realize itself as life, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that in rejecting common sense I am separating myself form life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to reject common sense of here into and as accepting limited knowledge and information, into being and becoming taught knowledge and information that has no experience with application with the actual physical world.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to reject applying/ walking knowledge and information through common sense of the actual physical world, to fear asking questions that demand answers within and as realizing knowledge and information in relation to common sense of the actual physical world, such questioning often a confrontation for the allowing of oneself to a limited belief bearing no witness to what is systemically existent on earth.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear aligning belief, opinions and ideas to and towards common sense of what is best for all, which means understanding the present system, investigating how the present system functions, a system of self preservation for a few, so engrossed within this system that all common sense of earth has beed veiled and thus within this, it will take many to stand and move through the veil of inequality, of limited beliefs, opinions and ideas, to stand in common sense with and as the physical, to create a strong voice of common sense of life, and this voice of common sense to walk the land of earth to realign this earth, in gentle step, one step at a time, to create an earth that is self honest as life, self responsible as life, this that each and every human being longs for, where all that is needed is to accept self as life, to step out of themind/consciousness and to breath, to become equal and one to and as the physical.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear common sense.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to accept a system of one way communication, where as media exists that dictates instead of shares, a system where ourchildren sit and take dictations as how they spend their days as children, a system that does not allow the human child to interact, communicate, become one and equal to and as their physical body in common sense, a system that develops knowledge and information without practical application, thus creating robots that spew the ‘party line” of a centralized system of one way dictation without allowing the ability of humanity to become equal and one in understanding of self as life, as what self is a composition of, and thus able to self realize self as life, in common sense.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that whenever I talk about children, I want to cry , as I become that child once again, and within this memory I am standing in front of my father believing myself to be dirty, and feeling so frustrated and somehow not having the words to express myself, and at the same time beginning to believe that perhaps I am dirty, that there is something wrong with me, and at the same time becoming so angry, and so self righteous, wanting to lash out towards my father,, with whom I spent may years fighting, to the point where when my mother would leave the house i was told that I was not to talk with my father so that a fight would not manifest, a verbal fight, as it was a verbal fight more than anything.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that somehow I did not want to accept this fact that I was “dirty” as somehow this made no sense, yet I did not know how to explain myself, as what i had been taught, was being taught to be, was a limited construct of knowledge and information and thus lacked the very learning of the movement of myself in common sense of myself as being equal and one to and as the physical, and within this fighting allowed myself to become the burning fires of righteousness, this a separation and blame of life, and thus did I veil myself from myself as life, in common sense of life, and within this, I was always chasing what I perceived to be gentle, as within my righteousness I came to feel that i lacked a gentle nature and thus would move towards men that I felt were gentle, believing this would somehow save me, projecting this onto an object in separation from myself , not seeing realizing and understanding that i am this, that this that is believed to be separate is available right here, as myself as life, that standing and being equal and one in common sense of life, does not need connection as separation into and as energy as mind to self righteous anger and fear, and that within myself my reaction as anger, manifest as fighting as righteousness is myself crying , is the movement of myself from myself, away from myself as the common sense of myself as life, into and as protection and defense in the face of the storm of emotions, feelings and thoughts as the mind of a con-sciousness as what my parents were within a system of inequality, a systemic fear of survival non supportive of life, here, where the only choice is to realize the value is life, and to create a system of equality, using the structures existent to begin to realign ourselves equal and one, through equal money, to finally live and create a heaven on earth.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that fearing rejection, is an illusion, where the fear becomes self, and thus within this looking here is no longer possible, where I must stop and breath, and look at here in detail and bring myself back here, stabilize myself in and as breath, to practically apply how here functions within and as what is best for all is best for self, where I do not allow myself to make an object as a person or idea a limitation, determining what i am here as the expression of myself here, I stand and I look and move and speak in consideration of what is best for all, as this is best for self, I essentially bring myself within my physical body and realize myself here, in common sense of here, where the words of another can be used to direct what is being expressed into and as what would support all life, equal and one, as life being the value here, where any belief, opinion and idea is simply a part/piece needing alignment into and as what is best for all, what would support all life as life being the value here.
I commit myself to seeing , realizing and understanding that what I face in fear, and/or in frustration are ideas being expressed, often again and again, when another speaks and reacts to what does not agree with limitation, will, just as with myself when learning something new, need repetition, restatement, time to consider, time for rebellion, as a limited idea made huge, in and as energy, does not want to change its view point and thus will react, such reaction will resist alignment within and as what works, within what is best for all, and will also react within not having agreement, as an idea in separation from life as limited insight in separation from equality and oneness to and as life seeks justification and will become reaction if it is not fed, and thus such behavior is simply a storm of separation from life here, not something to fear, simply something to walk into and as life, equal and one in common sense of life here.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that fearing the words of another, or fearing loss, as in fearing being rejected is simply myself fearing the loss of myself as an idea, and thus not what is real, as this physical world is what is real, and thus, all desires within and as myself, and without, can be brought back to self, equal and one to and as life here.
I commit myself to breathing, to slowing myself down, to becoming patient in the storm of energy, as separation from life here, to realize that myself as energy has a quality of “loopyness” that can be read, in and as the emotions, thoughts and feelings in and as my mind, which can then be forgiven back to myself as life here, realigned equal and one in common sense of what is best for all, where it is to recognize any and all blame and spite within and without, to stop and to breath and to not allow this energetic action, as it is an action of discord and ‘hunger” frustration and thus separation from life,, here.
I commit myself to slowing myself down and breathing, to not allow the anxiety within and as myself to become a search for justification in and as a morality of values taught in childhood and by a society if inequality partitioned into divisions of class, race, nationality, gender, age, to see realize and understand that such self definitions are limited as consideration of what i am and can only limit if accepted and allowed such expression, as the value is life, equal and one as what each and every one of us is, here.
I commit myself to slow myself down and breath, each and every time I notice and/or catch myself becoming frustrated and thus fearful of loss and rejection, moving into an energetic reaction of wanting to win, to see, realize and understand that in allowing myself to become a desire to win, I have already rejected life, here, and thus it is for myself to stop and to breath, to slow myself down and look here in common sense to align myself within and as the principle of oneness in equality, as what is best for all , to investigate what is here and to take that which is good, and to realize and make it clear that within a profit based system, a system of debt and usury, what has been allowed before life is the benefit of a few.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that in and as what I am as life here, am I able to use common sense through being equal and one to and as the physical to look and see what exists here and what is the course of action within and as what is best for all, through walking through ambiguity as the answer to and towards what is best for all is directly here, as this is the gift of life here.
I commit myself to taking the thought that I lack in gentleness back to myself as life, as this is not something separate from me, whether this self judgement of lack as a belief, is a cultural stance in and as something relegated within gender, or taken as being vulnerable, where within this belief, lies the strength of self as life, as it is the patience of gentleacceptance as a state of non-resistance that accepting and sensing what is here is the way and means of sensing the space here, as what is here is freely given in and as life, an act of gentleness by its very nature, as what life is here, thus has being vulnerable been made a behavior of ignorance and considered a weakness when in fact it is a strength, as the gentle patience of allowing oneself to be open and vulnerable is where self can sense what is here.

Thought Dimension Rejection character
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have thoughts about another and about myself within and as I face anxiety in fearing rejection where I attempt to find redemption within seeking a point of like mindedness with another , to stop and to realize this is not a solution to oneness and equality here, where the solution is to stand here, stable within breath, to slow myself down and not allow myself to find a counter focus to hide my own fear of rejection towards another.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to peruse another person to look at how they dress, their mannerisms, their stance, their accent, their demeanor to gage a response to and towards them that will elicit an agreeable interaction, as this is myself shielding myself from an idea I have accepted and allowed that I will be rejected, where I have already become unstable into and as energy as a fear of loss, to at this moment stop and breath, and not react to any and all behaviors with which I encounter, to here, see, realize and understand that there are no answers within and as the thoughts, as the dialogue of limited values as what i was taught within defining another according to the morality within which I was born on earth, to here stop and to breath, and to simply see what is here as one and equal to and as me, and to direct within brutal self honesty within and as what is best for all.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how myself as mind has no stability, is an act of separation, manifest as emotional and feeling reactions, and thoughts that attempting to talk with another is impossible.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel in the face of another talking that it is impossible to communicate with them in common sense.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have the thought that another will not be interested in hearing anything but their own self validations.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have the thought that I must hurry, within and as explaining myself when talking with another person.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that actually looking at another person is too much to bear.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the thought that actually looking at another person is too much to bear, as what this is is looking at myself, and/or looking at what is consciousness, a mind in separation in and as thoughts, emotions and feelings, consuming what is here in separation from life, where this is simply an energetic storm that within specificity is able to be walked back into equal and one, to and as life , here, through thus stabilizing as breath, slowing down, and utilizing common sense allowing myself to look at the physical world, as this is what is real, right here in front of me, as what is here is life, equal and one, to and as what I am here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have the thought that I cannot do this, I cannot stop the mind, of thoughts, and the emotions and feelings in and as myself here, and to forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that i cannot change what is here, that I had not found the magic words to change actions that have transpired within and as my life and world, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become impatient with myself within and as learning to see what i have accepted and allowed within and as myself as thought, emotions and feelings.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that all thoughts are of judgement, seeking a self validation, an escape from facing myself as life, here, to giving up ideas about who i am, and what i am here, to see, realize and understand that in understanding how the mind works, it is to recognize thoughts as a shield from facing self, where there are thoughts as:
idols, of pointing out a positive, to avoid a negative,
a memory “state” as a desire to be within comfort in not wanting to deal with facing here, making decisions within realizing what I fear facing believing myself incapable,
imagining a gloom and doom scenario, believing myself to not have a way forward, which is a belief that a past failure is what I am here, which is an ignorance of realizing how this physical world works, where ideas as labels become what i am, which I accept and allow,
To have thoughts of blame and spite, wanting to run from here, not face here, allowing a self judgement as believing myself to be inferior and thus a hopeless case
I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that when and as I catch myself becoming frustrated, angry, self righteous I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I allow myself to become vulnerable within and as facing the storm of emotions, thoughts and feelings in and as energy, to become equal and one to what is here and forgive myself within looking at the energetic reaction , to become one and equal to and as it, gently, breathing, moving this through my chest, within and as compassion, in total forgiveness, without hope of gain or fear of loss, to give direction to and towards this within what is best for all, within what brings the gentle state in and as another accepting and allowing self forgiveness within allowing a vulnerable self to be open to whatever outcome leads to a solution within and as putting an end to the conflict and friction that is consciousness endlessly seeking self justification, to within being forgiving, as self as life, to realize that nothing can be lost but self as life, here, and thus the moment I find myself reacting in and as mind, within and as fear of rejection , I stop and I breath, and I find my own heart/earth and I allow myself to be and become vulnerable to stand as myself as life in self forgiveness to bearth/earth myself here, equal and one and to no longer allow my mind to become spite and blame, anger and fear, even if and when the storm of emotion and feeling and word as thought resists/becomes heated/bullies.
I commit myself to, when and as I sense a desire to become righteous, I stop and I breath, and I do not respond until I have brought myself back into the physical through breath, and slowing myself down, I remain here, stable and steady in and as being forgiving paying attention to what would be best for all, even admitting the need for investigation when necessary not allowing this to become a judgement in and as a weakness which is a belief that I must be perfect, an illusion as there is not perfection unless what is oneself in thought word and deed is what is best for all, in every moment here.
I commit myself to practice walking within and as breath, here, remaining vulnerable as in being open within and as being self forgiving within and as what is best for all here, this being an ability to answer within a state of ease, as the gift of life, is here, and this gift is freely given, here, right in front of us, thus the will of self need only forgive itself as life, to what is freely given here, which is life, given without any manner of condition, and thus the only rejection that exists is myself resisting life, as it is here, gently given, where the shame of myself is to not have seen this, right in front of me, this tool of self forgiveness to a gift given right in front of me, and within this it is for all to realize that somewhere, at some point everyone has been this for a moment, thus we all know this, all it takes is to become this as a constant, here, where this is right in front of us.

                                                       DIP Lite Forgive yourself back to life

Day 178 rejection through having judged

Day 178
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that all judgements are an act of protection and defense, all thought are a delineation of myself from taking a physical action that is in communion with and as life here in and as breath.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to perpetuate the act of myself as a child, being in comfort of attention and energetic excitement as a feel good high, where the loss of this created a fear become anger as reaction, the sequence of which was in and as itself an act of separation from here, a development of myself from here, where I then began the behavior of survival, mimicking the influences as the same behaviors as all that was accepted and allowed within the social structures of the human, as the world within which I was born and bore as a self definition in separation from myself as life, where life was the physical world.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have had the thought that my parents needed pity and/or thought less of me, not seeing realizing and understanding their ownaddictions to finding solace in all that was known to them as the seeking of a feel good within and as themselves, an existence within a bubble of self interested realignment to a state of bliss as innocence, where this expression as life was not given development within expression in and as this physical world and instead developed into a inner feeling of bliss that required constant validation as it was not constant, as this was not an inner action of unity with all life.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the mind reflects the ideas,beliefs, and opinions of loss and thus is the sign of separation, yet the human has made the sign of separation what is real, not seeing realizing and understanding the true nature of what the mind is in fact.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the only choice is to face this separation as the signifier of what is feared being lost as the illusion, and thus the means of placing self into and as life, here - as though what is the divider is the guide, as the thing separating shows what it is as its nature, and thus reveals what it is, as actions cannot be hidden because they are an act and have a consequence.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to take my thoughts and use them to beat others into submission to and towards my own thoughts as the signifiers of my separation, in an attempt to make my separation valid and real, not seeing realizing and understanding that in one way this is making my fear more important and valid than another’s fear, because my hurt and injustice was greater than another’s, when this is the nature of injustice made huge not realizing it is “in just” not understanding what is the reality of this actual physical world and self as life within and as this, and all that is here is to support those who managed to control and build the biggest pyramid of separation from themselves as life as this is the system accepted and allowed that must stop and realign to and towards what is best for all through actual research of this physical world absent a system of profit that is structured to allow a few to horde what is given freely by this earth as this earth is life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that interaction with the mind as justifier and screamer of my hurt is greater than your hurt, is one long crying whine/whincing/ manipulating of self physically, and is the very act of separation from being one and equal to what is here, to actually learn and become an expression in and as life, that which is really sought by all that are here, as this physical world, yet the separation is what is believed to be real. WTF
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not stop, within and as breath, to see, realize and understand the mechanics of the mind, through listening and reading what desteni presents as how the mind functions, where self forgiveness, corrective application and writing are the tools to see what has been accepted as a quantum mind to stop the separation from actual physical common sense of this physical world into and as existing within a separate inner reality within a belief that thoughts are real and have value, and the state of this world reveals that thoughts have no value other than indicating how delusional and separate from reality man has become, and how this separation serves self interest, where a few have managed to collect more than in their own self interest as they are separate from life where the only choice is to realize that life is the value.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in growing up what was often said between my father and I was that having another pour their emotions and feelings out was crude, as this was an act of self interest and a manipulation, where I learned to “push back” on this instead of looking at the separation that it was admitted that this was, as it is a device of manipulation as seen in the documentaries Psywar/ a Century of Self/ The Trap which reveal how this is used, how the fanning of emotions into and as desires as beliefs of what is needed to make self more than and satisfied is in the self interest of consumerism and has no directive to and towards an awareness of how this physical world actually functions to become one and equal with and as life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand the anger towards this as a judgement is myself in fear of facing how emotions and feelings are a separation from life, of facing my own accepted and allowed emotions and feelings as accumulated thoughts as desires wants and needs that have no actual direction within and as becoming one and equal to and as life here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize, in practice, with and as every breath, self forgiveness and corrective application as the tools of support to bring myself here to become one and equal to what is actually here and face whatever emotion, thought and feelings within and/or without to stand within the directive principle of what is best for all, where through breath and common sense this is not difficult as this is equality and oneness with and as life, and therefor, what is best for all and what is best for self, here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the emotions and feelings cannot touch me unless I accept and allow them to as they are energy, unable to sustain themselves without constant validation and voice and thus have no constancy within and as common sense.
Thus, I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have back chat in and as my mind, in indignation, as “ Don’t pour your emotions all over me” or “How dare you waste my time with your self pity” and / or “Get the fuck away from me” or “ How dare you ask me in your insipid voice to tell me that I am hurting your feelings - this just makes me want to gag and roll my eyes” as such back chats are in many ways myself just wanting my own emotions and feelings to be center stage.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to regret ever having existed as such a personification of my own self interests in abdication of myself as life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that this character of indignation categorized my emotions and feelings as having more value than another’s emotions and feelings, and yet there was a grain of truth within and as this, that emotions and feelings are a separation from what is here- the voice of the mind in separation from life here and the voice of self interest.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that within this I accept and allow my own emotion/reaction of guilt when having emotions and feelings that are one and the same as what I denigrate in others.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see how this can create a character of self righteousness and superiority, actually separating myself from what is here, as this is not an act of equal consideration and self direction, and self honesty into and as what is best for all, as the separation into more than, covered with cultural more-alls is a separation from consideration that all ( as one as equal) is the real “more” in and as realizing that the value is life, here.

Within this I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become, and allow a behavior of rejection through having judged an emotion and feelings instead of realizing the separation and directing this separation back into and as self as life, as all as one as equal, here,
Within this, I commit myself to directing all emotions and feelings in compassion and humility to and towards what is practically best for all, to see, realize and understand that indignation is not a solution but a rejection of self honesty to and towards life, here.
I commit myself to breathing, to realizing that I have the tools, provided and shared by desteni to realign myself within the principle of “giving as one would like to receive” to no longer allow a character of rejection in and as indignation and righteousness.

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