Day 469 The EXIT ment of fantasy.

I have been awake for a couple of hours, and I begin to notice that there are moments where I go into a fantasy composed of past events coupled with ideas as what would create a norm, as the values within our present system, because these are the stories I accepted that I build on as my soul/sole construct, as the social construct in which I spent my first seven years of life, one that has been built and touted for generations, this our present media ensures/maintains in the self interest of the product behind the presentation, because this is impulsing behaviors through belief, opinion and idea, with pictures and music and words. A tapestry of tools building an inner world, a collection of dimensions brought forward and played with to construct a following. And yet, this that is built is not equal in understanding to this physical earth, had it been, then there would not be starvation, deforestation, desertification, cancer, disease, animal abuse, substance abuse within and without. This meaning, the pollution of water and air, pollution of the human, plant an animal inner worlds: were we within, equal to the physical, in respect, there would be no abuse on earth. So what man has created, as the present system, is in separation from reality, from the physical, and thus, is in a lesser order of the use of the physical world.The consequence of this is a separation from an awareness, a connection to life, and as this a loss of depth perception that is a loss of connection, a loss of flexibility, changeability, a lightness of being that when suggested as such cannot be readily grasped as a movement, so accustomed have we become to the chaos and weight of friction and conflict, of stress. As such we have externalized that which is of no judgement and uses music and words and pictures to generate emotions and feelings into some order that is a very limited order, and yet, we see these tools created by machines generating these emotions, to which we all react and even call a “ Hallmark” moment. Within this we can directly see how our emotions and feelings are of no real substance, because they can be created with sound and color by a machine. And yet they are real? Can that emotion generated by a machine, feed the animals, or us? No. They really have no meaning, none. And, yet, this is what we are allowing to be impulsed within us?

I notice as I allow myself to go into imagination, that I am no longer present here. And within this that I miss here, I fragment myself from here, I allow myself to lie within fantasy based on limited dimension: my data as mind, as memory, is limited. And since I know there is electrical currents within my physical body, somehow, these pictures, as these memories, are held in place, my own personal halo in accord with the beliefs, opinions and ideas, that serve a system of self interest. So, this all started with me, as I accepted this and allowed this, and within this, as I look at the world and my own relationships, the disconnect can only be because I am not equal to what is real, as the physical. The confusion, as the lack of communication between people, is that these electric halos are not in sinc with one another, and each believes their halo is what is real, is what will enable their success - either through compliance or what to reject, both acts of separation because the halo is taken to be more than physical reality on which it is built.

If I slow down and look I will inevitably see that my mind as memory is my separation, and is a separation that is a collection of pictures that are based on ideas, beliefs, and opinions of a good hiding a bad, the bad being the judgement and the good being the justification for the judgement, a fragment of the initial separation as in wanting some idea to be more than being here, equal to physical reality.

And then, it is like a sadness as in not wanting to give this up, because it has been used - and taught- as how I survive. But this sadness is really like a deconstruction only, like letting go of a friend, but realizing this is not really a friend, it is only a comfort that in the end is not a real comfort as it is a comfort that allowed oneself to match a rhythm of a small group within a bubble, that in itself is a separation from physical reality. Is there a point within an addiction that letting go of the addiction is only difficult because the change requires an effort to rebuild and the grooves of self have built something that maybe worked in one immediate moment but have proven to not work within the test of time?

To slow down to such an extent, using breath, to see how often I cling to the past to use to build an idyllic future in the halo-graphic mind of memory using limited values is the separation from myself as life, equality to here as the physical world. Our pictures tell us what we are doing on so many levels, and because we are not here, we misread them, projecting our halo values onto them, our soul constructs, our sold selves to a secondary as an interpretation of reality as a judgement of one thing being more than another of which our media decides for us, this done by others who profit in their own self interest, identical in total separation but built of minutely changed measure of value and opportunity with a little more discipline. And this,  instead of seeing our equality, and enjoying the different manifestations of this orchestra of life as the physical. I accepted the supposed goods being sold, and these goods were in the house of my upbringing, so I used them to build my own separation, continuing a collective separation that now has a consequential outflow of abusing what is real, as the physical world, deciding that the within was more than the without of which the two are equal or life would not exist. And, the outcome of this is that life will not exist which if we take the time to look, we will see happening all over this planet, this physical universe.

This means I have to stop and realize my own separations, readable as energetic movements within myself, coming up as emotions and feelings from my solar plexus, the collection of my own thoughts and the generations before me that were of the same separation, and my thoughts that are where I make one thing a good and another a bad, this thought voice a judgement direct and indirect, projecting blame instead of being responsible here in common sense, this being the use of myself as life, as this that built the halo, all of which is my own compilation of my own accepted separation from myself as life, here.

So, I slow down to realize every movement within myself, to realize the story of my separation, and to forgive this back to common sense so that I am here, equal and one with and as the physical world, as this is me and I am it because all of it is life, not just parts. I walk through the self corrective scripts I have written to ground myself here, back to common sense.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the weight of protection and defense as in not looking here, as in taking a value, a fraction of existence, as a color, an idea about something and using this as a support, creating an idol, that creates a friction within and as me that I use to hold myself up, with such effort that the burden of this weighs me down and the outward manifestation of this, takes the very substance of me as life away until I begin to so subtly  shake, this eventually diminishing my human physical body, my gift of life, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that all the times I became emotional in protection and self defense, that I was defending a lesser god as an idea, belief and/or opinion, and as this I was pushing away my own equality as life, my own solution right in front of me as the gift of life is here, as that which sustains me which I have rejected in favor of choosing a limitation because I feared what was really easier had I accepted and allowed it to simply be.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize this movement to define myself as an idea, opinion and belief as myself losing sight of life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the anger, as reaction, as resistance, as a damning of myself as life, self created, self sustained, has become a habit that only I can forgive.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that change is impossible, when in fact this that I have allowed is no different to a child throwing a tantrum, it can be stopped from one moment to the next, it is that easy, but when in the storm, self created, self blinding, that thin veil is only made big because it is all that I accept and look at.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that this inner accepted and allowed friction and conflict has no real substance, because it is not equal and one to life, and as this not equal and one to life as solution, as life is always forgiving as what one would like to receive, which is life, absolutely.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the joy of life is in giving absolutely.

Day 260 Children's books advertise fear and product use without solution and prevention overall.

I went to find a web page promoting children’s books. And this is the first one I found : http://www.creedgriffon.com/buybookonetheroadtodendura.html , about the book, TheRoad To Dendura, by C. L. Lewis
On the image, which I see as a replica of a book cover jacket, are these words.
‘Few words of advice;
avoid going anywhere
alone, never lose your cell
phone, and absolutely refrain
from picking up money you find
lying on the ground.”
The problems I see with these words, are the limitations within the words, as what the words suggest and direct a child to be, as what the child learns to consider in relation to this world. These directives do not present any questions or solutions within why such behaviors are being presented in the first place. Thus, they are limited and suggest a need to exist in fear of the world, they suggest to walk within constant consideration of protection and defense only.
Given an understanding into how the mind works, this limited presentation gives no direction within how fear remains unless the reason for the fear is clarified and understood. This promotes being afraid and taking measures against some ambiguous force that is not understood. It also promotes and sells cell phones, giving children a justifiable excuse to convince their parents to purchase a cell phone for every child so that they are supposedly protected.
I am sure, this will not protect a confused young teenage girl, a girl who lacks self understanding and direction within a system that is really a pyramid scheme that is a system of inequality, where a game of power is how this is maintained, meaning limited awareness must be promoted in order for power to be distributed unequally as is the nature of monetary power at present. Really an archaic system, unacceptable, especially in the age of information, where what is happening on earth can be known, seen and realized with even a modicum of common sense. Thus there are no more excuses.
Given that the mind, if developed to be a directive without physical awareness, can be imposed with imagery that then becomes what directs, and the imagery ambiguous and limited, cartoonish and distorted, no longer having any real value in relation to what is actually physically real, such limited presentations, as this book and the “magical” story, coupled with a consumerist demand for a cell phone within a system of self interested profit, is it no wonder our children and us adults, have any sense of the structure and method of operation existent within this present system? And what is promoted, as the escapist mind dreaming stories, touching on truths, such as “to not give up” ( suggestinggiving up exists!) and to be careful ( admitting that what is here on earth is a problem) there is nothing within really seeing how the mind/physical relationship functions and a common sense looking at reality, as the present systems of borders, as nationalism, racism, economics, class, negligent environmental practices. When the Egyptian unit on the social pyramid is taught in the third grade, is there any relation made to the present system, and that this very structure taught is by nature a system of inequality? And that this form of organization within our present profit based system, is simplistically the structural cause of survival behaviors that create the need for a child to “ avoid going anywhere alone, never lose your cell phone” !
Such a story as this, promotes unqualified fear, breeds day dreaming, ignorance of the actual physical societal structures, ignorance of what the mind is as a tool, feeds a consumerist dividend producing agenda. All a limited collection of parts of this existence without pulling it all together and recognizing how one creates the other.
But this is just it, there is no spatial development of physical reality here, there is not awareness of the structure of the present system, even though it is taught in the third grade in most schools( sometimes fourth). Relationships are not drawn as to how one reflects the other. So, what is here, right in front of us, is not considered within the context of the whole. Another way to say this, is that there is a disconnect with common sense of the actual physical world, how the physical world is in fact moving/existing/organized and how the form manifests the symptom.
So, from this one aspect of our reality; a book of fantasy, this world can be seen for what it is.
The mind takes pictures and manipulates them.
The physical body is the carrier of this, thus the mind cannot exist without the physical.
The imagery can be placed on this world to be what is programmed into each of us, as what is believed to be a value - and it is a value- but in this value being made huge, reality is warped and the retention of this is held as it is not equal to life- needs correction to become “clean” as life, this misalignment creating a separation from the physical. Which begs the question, is this pyramid form, in itself a distortion of reality? Is this form as archaic as the Egyptian story?
Look around at this world. Yes, it is, it is an archive of separation from life.
Then, within the present economical system of inequality, what images as to how one should appear, as what is needed to move up the pyramid, can create behaviors of competition, this driving a need to constantly compare within the limited values presented as what moves one up the pyramid of inequality. Thus, a constant fear of “not having this or that,” “ needing to have this or that” , “ knocking out the competition”, judging another as being less than, or more than”, worrying, becoming overwhelmed, being anxious. In other words becoming the fear, a fear of survival.
This then breeding a whole group that has no chance of ever becoming the polished image and likeness of those at the top. Or lacking the ability to become the brutality needed to not consider all life in order to climb to the top.
Finally, that such a structural form, as the way the present system functions, would mean that it would be better to not go out alone, and without a cell phone.
This whole system is not working, it does not support life, it does not support awareness of this actual physical world. It builds mind maps of limited values, values so separate from reality they no longer have any real substance, no directive capacity other than spite and blame, jealousy and fear. Such behaviors are in themselves a lack, a separation from common sense, as common sense by nature is seeing and understanding what is physically here, because it realizes through what it is as life, that itself as life, is how it is able to exist within common sense of what is here.
The solution to stop this game of separation, to allow positions of power and of “no-power” to no longer direct, is to remove the pyramid scheme, the structure and form of “ more than and less than.”
This means telling the whole story, and not just parts. This means having a common sense starting point, that the value is life. This means telling stories that explain what exists for real, in relation to the present system, and not allowing fantasy stories entertaining to the mind only, in absence of physical reality.

This means realizing the actual physical world and that working with the actual physical world is, how real values are created and able to be shared equally, one and all. Thus, equality within this physical world will no longer necessitate the need to be in fear out there in the world, as there is no longer a separation from what is physical.
The rewards of such is an earth, where no matter where we are, we are able to walk in anyone’s shoes, to build an understanding of this physical world, without fear of loss. The behaviors of our children will no longer be of fear, but of expression, as life. To fear, is to suffer, to suffer is to be ill at ease, meaning lacking ease. On cannot judge in relatives here, ease must be absolute, unwavering, even within transformation. Does this exist on earth?
Can there really be any greater reward than to see a child, walk out the front door, at ease, looking forward to interacting with the world, knowing that life here on earth means communicating as life through and as the physical, the gift of life, here?
It is time to organize a system of equality, a system that supports all life, a system that has not need to promote fear, as what is promoted is an understanding of how this actual physical world functions, a system that realizes the needs of the physical to become life expressing the full potential of life, here.
Support an Equal Money Capitalism System, where the capital of this earth is as this earth is, freely giving, in support of itself as life. Remove the pyramid of inequality, a structure in separation from life,

Day 223 Imagination Dimension Apprehension Character

Tattered and torn, 10 April 2009 (Photo credit: ed_needs_a_bicycle)

Imagination dimension within apprehension character.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become a character of apprehension, where i exist within a separate reality as the mind, playing out character roles of doom and gloom in fear of loss, as potential scenarios, where all manner of events can happen, based within judgements of more than and less than.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to imagine the future based on self judgements of past experiences.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that in allowing myself to become an imagination of apprehension, as state of anticipation within uneasiness and fear, I am occupied with this fantasy as mind as horror story and thus not here in common sense of what is best for all in walking practical solutions within the physical.
I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding what I am allowing to exist as I become apprehension, as anticipating with uneasiness and fear in playing out scenarios in and as my mind, which is myself in separation from here.
I commit myself to stop and breath when and as I become an energetic movement in and as an imaginary scene in and as a fantastic mind show of possible loss and success within thechanges being walked within my life at the moment, where to exist within this doom and gloom, worry about change I become my own picture show of projection into and as fear, and separate myself from here,
I commit myself to no longer participate with this habit, as what I learned- as worry being “good”- through stopping this drama of the mind, bringing myself back here to the physical and if necessary sitting down and writing out a list of what practical steps are necessary to complete the present changes within my life, as the projected scenes of fear “play-out” only perpetuate a loop within a devil and angel on my shoulder, a polarity loop into the fear as the negative and the hope as the positive, and as such an attention diversion away from practical common sense of walking here.

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Day 166 Isolation in mastering of fantasy

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into so many stories, as the layers built as belief, opinion and idea that support what I am, what I prefer as what I believe is more than something else, which is set of values I use to compare myself to others, to ensure my own placement within a hierarchy in self interested survival only, never considering the value being life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become ideas and beliefs as what is more than and less than, and within this to go into a fantasy within an idea of what I am, in my case, often being the cultured female interacting with a man, where not only do I look the part, I also, as I am part of a society that values education and has opportunity to have had a “supposed education,” dress myself up in ideas and opinions and facts about history and culture, thus do I have a dress code, I also have a “intellect code” that takes me into certain levels of society to allow me, as the images I have been taught , to remain within the borders of a certain level within the present system of inequality.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I am the female romantic, pining away for her Heathcliff, thinking my romanticism is okay because it is voiced in cultured and historical terms.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in a way I am looking for my Heathcliff, because just as Jane Eyre ( and I know they are different novels) wanted her man, but would not accept him within his lie, so am I as I will not accept a man who does not accept my children or for that matter, not even listen to my story where all I become is listening to his story, which is fine, listening to his story, but I begin to think, believing myself to be confused, that gee, my story in this scenario has never been heard, and then I feel guilty as though perhaps my story is not worthy of being told.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I often do not, or have not, told my story because I am too embarrassed to tell it, and I fear being told I am crazy, thus I fear it not being accepted and thus, that I will be rejected, so I am the cause of my own “supposed” story not being told.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I remain the demure female, in keeping my story secret, when it is really based in fear of rejection.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that this is myself fearing exposure for fear of rejection, and within this I overwhelm myself and then when I do get a chance to tell my story, I have had no practice and find it difficult to speak.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to thus, become anxious when I have to speak, because I struggle to cater to what will be acceptable to the listener and then translate the story into ideas through judgement of what might be acceptable to the listener and end up trying to fit a square peg into a round hole- so to speak.
And within this, I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to place a protection/defense border around my own story that masks the expression of myself, and also does not allow the listener to see who I am, and thus the consequence is that I am not seen, and the story is not heard as it is not told truthfully, it has become limited and of no substance.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become caution to the extent that I build a wall around me and isolate myself from living.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that this has become such a habit that I lose myself to anxiety and become breathless when speaking, I am the habit of a practiced suppression when and as I speak, often, with others, as I am so busy revealing only parts of what I want to say.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand , with real eyes, that this is much like what happened in childhood, where, as I faced my parents, I would monitor their reactions to myself speaking and gage reactions to see if I was going in the “right” direction within speaking or talking within a subject, thus did I learn to imitate their beliefs, opinions and ideas, as I recognize this in others really easily and it has been a judgement i have made of others. I see this because this is me. WTF.
Within this, I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, that I then would connect myself with people that matched the same structures I had learned to watch for and imitate, that were my parents, in others, as i could follow the “flow” so to speak.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to have understood that this is why it is difficult to be with people who, are essentially doing the same thing, are of different patterns, as this meant having to listen and “translate” my own “language” into theirs, where I did not take their words as what they were, thus was I not only trying to fit them into my way of using words and assumptions, I was also not listening to them because I was trying to fit them into me, which they were probably doing as well, thus unless both realize this and made an effort there was rejection and/or confusion, and also, even if an effort was made, it was the effort having to be made that caused a lack of ease, and this would take two, equally to work through, which our present system does not give the time necessary for such concerted effort unless it is done on one’s own time, but also this can be done if it is understood, and I have found this does not happen too often, so the learned imitated behaviors of suppression -as fitting into what our parents accepted as what they were taught, will take some understanding to real eyes, and then realign to and as insight into what is the cause of such limitation and then a re-alignment towards what is best for all.

I commit myself to realizing when and as I talk with others, that the difficulty in breathing while talking with others that I have, is myself trying to mince my words into an acceptable story/presentation where I am in fact using my past, as my judgment as my fear of rejection and loss, becoming outcast and labeled as insane, as what I experienced as a child, which is like a “song” of constriction and suppression and false “guide” within myself as fear when and as I interact and speak with others, even to the point where i do not speak at all, to stand up and not use this past as this mud-like funnel within me, that tightens my breath ( which I allow) to direct myself within my world, as this is dishONEsty with and as life, here.
I commit myself to realizing, with real eyes, that this fear, is the negative within and as myself as energy, and the presentation as the limited - fit into the box of acceptance/happy face story that comes out like a fairy tale, and thus has no real substance, and others, like me, are probably bored with hearing the same fairy tale again and again. lol
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• Day 164 In worry I begin to rush and lose my breath

Day 104 The character of unemployed

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that leaving my home will lead to not having a home.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that changing is impossible.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I need another person to help me leave my home, as leaving my home all by myself is opening myself up to vulnerable situations where I will be taken advantage of.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in common sense I am life, as thus I am able to face what is here, all by myself, and to within this use myself as life to direct myself as life, where I have been in many different schools where i live and noticed a pattern with the children, where the schools believed they were different, yet they were not, they varied by degree, yet the elements remained the same.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that the differences are illusive seeming and not what is real, as what is real, is life here within a form to express life, where the program of suppression is a pattern and limited by design, where the whole is not conveyed, thus within education for many there is not interest as the story makes no sense.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear facing change, to believe that another place is any different from what is here, where there are people being denied what is necessary to become a self perfected being, the capacity of which exists within each and every one of us.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear, to have an idea that facing limited perceptions is daunting, when a limited perception is just this, the missed understanding of the whole story.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the cyclops eye of self interest, greed, the voice of the media and the corporations as a collective supporting inequality is a desire for more than as illusion, as mind pictures, to fulfill a imaginary dream, an impossible dream, and thus a passable dream, as a dream is not what is real, a dream can only be of the past, and not what is here, where within this system, in order for there to exist more than and less than, a dream must be made big to blind into submission the many to feed the dreams of a few, as the dream consumes resource instead of walking one and equal to what is real, this physical world, as standing up as self and realizing that this physical world is what is real, as it is the substance of life, where all senses as the physical are employed and not just the image creator as mind.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that anything that is of the mind that is of fantasy is not what is actually physically here, though the lights and images of the mind have become so bright they appear real, and that what has been taught is to make this imagination be what is real, when what is real is this physical world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand the common sense of this, that any desire is myself in separation, as I am here as life, able to direct myself in self honesty as I am hONEstly life, physically here, thus a dream of the mind is not the full employment of myself as my physical self as life, where it is interesting that the outer reflects the inner, as this world, as this physical world is not in full employment, so evident with the increasing number of Americans losing their homes where there are more empty homes than there are homeless, thus this physical world is not in full employment and there is not excuse for this, which can only mean that the present system has not considered all that is here in equal measure ensuring all considerations when organizing and thus this present system is not working and must change to a system that employs all life, to consider all forms of life, as one and equal to, to get this organism of earth working in full employment.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear becoming fully employed myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be the illusion and idea of what full employment means, to in and as my mind, set conditions on my own earth employment.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that if I rely on the ideas and opinions and beliefs about how to communicate, as how I am supposed to interact and have expectations of what an interaction should be the image and likeness of, I will not be here employing my self fully and thus will not create and manifest the full employment of myself here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in common sense, if I am not in full employment, I will not have a satisfying existence, nor will I be able to expand in my awareness of this world, nor will I have effective communication with this world, thus it starts with self, fully employing self here in oneness and equality with what is here as my physical self here, able to use what is the gift as self as life in common sense, employing common sense within every breath, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear changing as I fear losing the limited employment that I exist as, believing that I should be happy for what employment i have, instead of standing and realizing that there is no other state of existence than that of full employment of life here, thus this fear of loss of my partial employment is an illusion and not what is real, as life cannot exist, as heaven on earth until full employment is what exists on this earth, thus just as this system is not creating full employment and must change, so must I change, as this system is made of of people accepting less than full employment and this is unacceptable and thus changing what exists as a system that creates only partial employment must walk a process of change to get to a point of full employment on this earth.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that war, as conflict as friction is the past and the future, acts of existing in and as the mind, as the mind is an imagination built to support the suppression of awareness of what is real to allow a fear a bigger dreaming capacity while the physical world is used as resource for this, and thus the physical world is not included in the employment of the expression of life, thus life is not what exists on this earth.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the characters I exist as support an accepted existence in and as a belief that unemployment is existential, when in common sense it is not, it is only an indication that life is not understood, and that a system change within and without must realign its very organization until  all that is here as this physical world is employed. Period.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the existence of unemployment has been created by a STAG nation, a nation of men employing only themselves and not employing all that is physically here as what is real as what supports as what is not more than or less than but is a nation of life, and this life within this present system is not being considered in such a way that all of this physical world is employed as itself as life.

I commit myself to realizing that this begins with self, where I am able to stand in full employment in and as myself as life in common sense, where  this physical world is what is real and the fear of losing the partial employment of myself is  a fear of change and loss, where myself as life is already being lost as it is not fully employed and thus the only choice is to change and walk until I am fully employed as life here, as within so without, as above so below.

I commit myself to be the desire to be fully employed  and not only as a dream in and as my mind, instead of walking and changing what I have accepted and allowed as it has not created the full employment of myself here, where this is not a failure, as this is just simply myself not being fully employed.

I commit myself to realizing that the only failure that exists if not standing up and becoming fully employed as self as life here.

I commit myself to no longer allowing and accepting myself to believe that I am supposed to be satisfied with partial employment.

I commit myself to becoming fully employed as life here, one and equal to what in common sense is a system that fully employs all that is physically here as this physical world, where self diminishment does not exist, where the dream of something better being down the road does not exist, where heaven and earth are fully employed here, in this moment, in total health,  as this is life. 

I commit myself to creating a world where all hearts beat in sinc with life, as earth is one and the same with heart, just take to h and the e and realign them to create earth, it is as simple as that, thus what is stopping the full employment of the expression on earth is a mind illusion fear moving and realigning what is here as a “stag-nation” into a nation of life.

What is the substance that creates the picture? Are you fully employed as self as this? Or is someone else, in self abdication your employer?

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