Processing information and a false morality. Day 731

I begin to realize how slow I am within processing information. It is that I process information within my imagination, or my mind, abdicating myself from what is more natural, which is to see directly here.

Bumping up against the dogma that is what such a means of directing self is and does as a mis-use of the imagination. The reactions are more about myself, processing the disconnect, listening for what is a truth, and being empathetic, to give directions I would want for myself. This also involves realizing that I am the same as what is here, as all this physical world around me.

In a way, that is real power, to move what is stagnant and empty into becoming a river filled with life, with creation, with being engaged and present.

I must remind myself that thinking about playing an instrument is not playing the instrument. Playing the instrument means understanding the starting point, the smallest movements, the mechanics, and then practicing them which does not need as much time as one might think given the present systemic design of divide and conquer through beliefs, opinions and ideas without practical application. IN a way, words represent thinking and thinking is not one’s self being present. After all, I do not think when I play an instrument, I am with that tool- it demands focus more than thinking. The real divine, is being present, equal and one to the physical, which means, in this moment, for me, to value being physical, being here, sensing the physical, learning to process the information of and as it.

We have a system that wants to take an orange, for example, divide all the nutrients and sell them in parts, to manage our health, which is really us abdicating our own self responsibility to sense ourselves, of which the physical is us. We have schools that place us in boxes for 13 years, or more, and micro-manage what we think and how we think. All of this sounds good, as structure is necessary ( what is the physical?) yet it is suppressing the use of all of what we are, as we are sentient beings, here. Learning how things work in a paper context enables the control of information. That information can be divided and limited, a lie-by-omission, and it can be filled with bias ( the red flag being a formula of inflammatory language coupled to truths), because imagination and real doing are two different things. As I said, one cannot learn to play an instrument, or do a sport, thinking about it. Reading information is important, as it is how we can read about what is happening in places we physically have no presence in. Words are important because we humans use them to communicate. Reading words and speaking words are the same thing, what we sound we create, we place as measurable tools within ourselves. If what we accept, because we accept it when we follow its authority without cross reference, we place information without our physical bodies that is not directing us effectively, and does not fit into our bodies. We lose flow, our bodies age, instead of moving with grace and connection with the physical world. We lose an ability to process information that brings us into an understanding of really knowing something because we are ultimately happy when we are effectively engaged. We would only fear this if a change into such responsibility appears to be too much, such perspective revealing a state of a lack of ability to process the information of this physical reality. This would mean that we need more information, or have the space to see the steps back to ourselves as this, and realize that it is in deed, a gentle unfolding back into what we really seek, which is ourselves. IN the need, we would gladly, and respectfully, give the digits of our labor to this. It would be a way of giving thanks. 

If we go and look at a test that was given to students in the middle of the last century, probably  none of us could process the information on the test. This is how great the loss of ability, and self responsibility is within us. We have the compounding problems to mirror this effect in our children, as all the attention deficit disorders. The consequence of self abdication of self responsibility is all around us. It is there when we are sold the products in the supermarkets, that are over processed, losing nutrients, to the point where that same seller/chain has an isle filled with vitamins and supplementary products. Divide into many parts, to sell, for profit. This mirrors what we have accepted within ourselves, as it is really an abdication of our real power to be responsible. It is time to focus, here, in this physical creation that is life. The way is all around us. It is like a parent that wants what is best for all life.

The labor we do every day, being reimbursed through money, that we then define who and what we are through what we allow to be sold to us reflects our awareness, or the use of our ability to be aware. When we turn on the television, we are purchasing information, when we walk into a huge chain supermarket, we are being sold, through buying what is offered in this market. When we face new information, at a job, as a new way of doing something, we can blame nothing and no-one for a loss of our processing speed of information, because we paid for the public schools with the monetized digits of our labor through our real estate taxes, we bought what was sold and it has become our souls. We are souls who have accepted and allowed a system that simply reflects the abdication of a natural ability to process information as the physical- that world that we move in and get things done in. We have allowed a chain to exist as an authority, not realizing in accepting that, we have enslaved ourselves into a self accepted suppression of and as who we are as life. This must come to an end, and we can become responsible and be happy. 

Human beings are happy when they know something enough to do it, to stand and accomplish goals and simply get things done. In our homes we can learn how to care for that home, understanding what maintains the things from nature we use to build a house. When given the opportunity to do so, we are quite capable. The opportunity to do, to communicate with what is here, and with others, is fun. When we resist, as abdicate responsibility we suppress who and what we are, and sharing where we are in our understanding- realizing it is okay to do so because this is how we learn/correct-, which is in our connection to seeing reality directly here. 

Lately, I have looked at the point of having to say what I am. On one hand, because of the system of abdication of one’s ability to be sentient,  I have to use my systemic credentials to have some effect. Yet, having to say what I am, and what my systemic experiences are, is selling myself, instead of living what is best. This means, to speak in clarity and author what lends self direction here, in this reality. This behavior is living and being what is best for all, giving/being as I would want for another. Just as I look for potential, for what gives an awareness that is focused, engaged and potent with this physical life recognition within myself, so must I for any and all things around me. Realizing what is best for me, is what is best for all. 

lol, I realize, to some degree, I may have some morality around this point of ‘ not having to say what I am.”  It is a twisted form of indignation. Meaning, something like ‘ can’t you see my polish, my breeding!”  ( The nasty things coming from what I have accepted and allowed as belief, to survive in this system that is of and as such, and as a consequence, and within the law of compounding, a distraction from reality and a voice of self interest- this can only lead to isolation and a busyness in dogma that is not a state of being happy, real happiness!)

I have the capacity to be as water, to support this physical world, as be so clear that I can, instead of creating hyperbole to thwart and control- such as having to tell others what I am- I can ground myself and stand here, a self willed equal, as the value is realizing that taking self responsibility happens from within, and that means making mis-takes which need not define who I am, and as a process define my words into real relationships with physical living, to increase my ability to process what is here, and know what separates me from what and who I really am. I am physical. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist as a superior morality, believing that I am more polished that another.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist as some dark moral entity, as a belief, as words composing a thought, polarizing values, and distorting reality in and as a state of mind, as imagination without regard and respect to and towards who and what I am as a physical being, here. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist as a nasty, spiteful, verbally attacking beingness, not seeing realizing and understanding that this is myself in a petrified state of fear.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that this back chat that I have accepted and allowed is not what is best for me, or myself being a self willed equal to and towards life here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to divide myself from the divine of and as the physical as life, within and as accepting and allowing judgements, comparisons, imaginations, as this is a memory of illusion , based on a past of and as separation from who and what I am as life, as the physical.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear a morality, within myself, as what I have allowed to define who and what I am, as false positives that have no promise into what would bring happiness, as a happiness that can withstand the test of time, this happiness being defined as being grounded and potent, here, being sentient as what and who I am as a sentient beingness , being thankful for the physical creation as life manifested.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to miss the subtle morality I have practiced and embedded, as embraced as a bed of and as who and what I am as a self definition, that lacks equality and oneness with and as the physical.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to chase a carrot on a string within and as an idea as a moral of and as the nasty words ‘ don’t you see my polish’

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand the movement of silent indignation within and as allowing such a thought as ‘ don’t you see my polish’ something practiced as protection and defense in survival, to the point where I had to slow way down, and deconstruct my own movements as energy within and as my memory, my imagination, the accumulation of ideas, as information, to define me, and for this self abdication of myself as life, as that part of me that can in capacity consider all things as this is what is natural as the potential of myself as life, here. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand how the use of such words as a thought, become silent and barely readable within, as ‘ don’t you see my polish’ and have come to be my own acceptances that suppress myself as life, and , as an act of comparison instead of problem solving, isolate me from what would lend happiness as the real nature of who and what I am as life here. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from what is tangible, and potent, and real, as the physical here.

When and as I find myself moving into back chat, as nasty words of protection and defense in and as my mind based on a morality unequal to life, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I ground myself here, as I see realize and understand the real joy of being, as sentient being, that must physical be,  to enjoy being present here, as self willed, self willingness nature, like water, to accept all things and to take that which is good and does no harm, and to practice this, to restore what is natural, as myself as a physical being, to process the information that is here, as the physical to direct myself in ways that enjoy who and what I am for real.

   

When and as I find myself fearing to face my own morality, as false positive that has proven to have no real sustaining promise, I stop and I breath, and I forgive myself to inform myself equal and one to what is here, as the physical, and to process what is happening on this world, to remember myself to more than what is in my immediate environment, to practice processing information as an act of respect for all things, here.

When and as I find myself reverberating back chat that is nasty and dark I stop and I breath, and I see, realize and understand my own accepted and allowed morality, based on survival, and I stop, I breath, I slow down and ground myself,  and I practice using common sense, as who and what I am capable of as a sentient being, to understand here, and stand as what is practically best for all, speaking as measuring, as stating in words, to build thoughts that move as deeds to and towards a knowingness that stands in lasting joy and happiness to share a process in action, that realizes the value of creating in tandem with who and what I am, the physical, and to within this realize that what is here is me, and what is here as all men, is the means to the end, as it has always been, as many working together to build heaven on earth. 

Day 585 Believing that I Have to Say Something to Prove my Worth. Self Forgiveness

This point of believing that I have to say something.

This came up and it is in my left inner thigh above the knee.

It is like an entity that wants to jump forward, to grab attention, as in allowing myself to remain in the game. Like this is what I am supposed to do to participate in the world and make myself known, and by this I mean even on a small scale, as within a small group or talking with another person.

A memory comes up with a friend who was a pianist, who had played for more years, applied the craft for more years/hours than I had at my craft. So, when I was in her presence I felt that I had to say something. Which means I felt inferior, or was busy judging because I accepted and allowed a stance of inferiority, instead of remaining here, in practical application within common sense. It is know that it takes 10,000 hours to learn to play an instrument, thus learning, becoming aware of something as its shape and form, takes time, takes steps, building understanding, as the actual physical world would be. It is to say, we live in an actual existence, physically manifest. Thus it is to investigate all things and take that which is good, take that which makes sense, as in causing no harm.

This is always, all ways right in front of us. So, to note here, that a physical world that can build cars and transport these cars to all places on this earth, means that we can transport what is needed where it is needed, and we can get the goods and services needed to organize this earth into a functioning unit of life, as this is what it is, because it is a physical order, visible, actual, here.

It makes no sense, that in a country where there is so much land, and so much resource, human and environmental, that there are bathrooms in elementary schools where children do not have the most basic of needs, such as toilet paper. That outside on the fence surrounding the school, there is all the while a large plack, with the name of a corporation boldly advertising their logo, touting a good, but missing the most basic of needs. It is enough to wonder what is being taught in such an environment, with such a capable physical form as that of the human. There is no excuse for any of this, and it is time that it stopped.

That memory, that entity that rose up as  a past self accepted actualized belief in the form of energy with no real sustainability, rising and peaking causing an emotional storm of dis-empowerment lacking all common sense of seeing directly here, this within me as what I had accepted and allowed, an inferior stance because I had not investigated practical reality, and  instead raced to become superior within my bubble of belief in thought, word and deed. This is for me to being back down to reality, to actual physical expression of life, as this is the real life where I exist, as this is the gift to become equal and one to and as life. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become inferior to life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to compensate as belief within and as my mind as a thought, as an idea that lacked investigation into practical reality, a physical reality, becoming inferior based on an idea to another, because I compared myself to a step in a process way down the line from me, and instead of looking practically at the steps needed to be walked to get to that point of development, I judged myself as inferior, and then tried to compensate to make myself appear superior, and felt that I had to speak up to become of equal measure, an act of ignoring practical reality here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to compare myself to another, instead of looking at the measure of expression, meaning the steps needed to become aware of something, the practice of becoming aware of something, practically.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I must always say something, to substantiate myself here, in self interest without reference to life, as what the physical is an expression and means of.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to disqualify practical physical reality.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to rush within myself, in thought and deed of words to create a value for myself where I project in words a more than for myself an order of comparison, which is being competitive, as a belief that I must appear to be a good as or better than another.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that within this I am in effect creating, but this creation is of a lesser state of being, as it is an act of self interest based on an idea of more, and as such, myself inferior to practical physical life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from here, from actual living, which can only be here, within this breath here, in this moment here, as this is where the practical is walked, to build understanding and an actual practice of common sense.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being less than another, to have allowed this to become greater than life itself, as the physical, where the gift is to walk into awareness of what it means to be physical expression of life.

When and as I find myself wanting to prove that I am not inferior to what is around me, I stop and I breathe, and I slow myself down, to see realize and understand that self awareness means to be equal in understanding to here, in an actual physical expression as what life is in reality.

When and as I find myself beginning to speak out and up from a starting point of self interest based on a value judgement done from comparison within a limited value system, as belief, I stop, I breath , I slow myself down, until I am stable within and as breath here, and I look at the actual living physical reality to see, realize and understand in thought, word and deed, what is best for all, which is to take that which is good and does no harm, as each is me, in another life, thus the only choice is the choice of what is best for all here.

When and as I find myself moving into competition, wanting to move into a more, an energetic movement within and as me, I stop and I breath, and I slow the rush to a morality of more, built of limited values as good and bad, where the bad is what does not define my accepted limited self definition and the good is what I believe creates a value as a self definition, an overall outcome of separation, limited as a narrow focus as mind in relation to actual living expression as what the physical is, here.

When and as I find myself wanting to appear, as words, to be more than that which I have made myself inferior to, I stop and I breath, and I look here at practical reality, to see, realize and understand the practical, common sense steps of what it means to investigate and practice the building of awareness to master something, to know something enough to share the information of it in such a way that each is self empowered to be and reach their full potential, which is supporting life and realizing all resources, including human, as having the value of life, here, where each part realizes the full potential of life within, creating a world that is the actual of best for all.

Day 530 Being in Charge.

I get charged up with being unable to answer to what is essentially objections. The thought comes up that I “ don’t know where to go” or that I can’t answer it”  and then I have no standing, I allow myself to become inferior and my fear is that of losing ground, which means I move into an agenda of wanting to be superior. But stability of remaining here, on common ground, as what I am, looking at the details of what it means to execute the physical mechanism that is the form of me as life here, my memory is subject to here, thus my memory to function must be a working memory of what is here as the physical in practical application.

If the measure of my working “ memory” as past experience is not of the detail of how the physical mechanism moves, and is charged with a value, it means that I am not equal to that which moves me, here, and I become uncertain, which means I require investigation and realignment to common sense.

Since the physical determines myself here, what I allow that does not regard the physical with every breath, with every objection,  will end up destabilizing myself as life. Thus to sense here I cannot have any charge, because I can only move in constant cross reference to the physical, which means to investigate and bring back to here, in common sense.

So, how to bring myself back to investigate what is essentially being normal, means looking at here, at the simple detail of how here moves, and to realize what brings stability in gifting what beings ease to another. This means slowing down and looking at details in common sense towards something that can remain a constant, that gives purpose, that is consistent in direction so that a structure is built that makes a sense easy to remember.

In so many ways, words that have no charge and that give direction opens awareness to detail here, so that the executive function of myself as a physical form aligns, here. Thus, it is to always bring the words to what makes sense in detail as not only awareness building of the measure of this physical fabric that allows me to exist here, but also, at the same time, in opening this awareness as a focus, to then exhibit a constant that never leaves, because the measure has become equal within to the without. No manner of loss be present, and no manner of discord need destabilize because the points can be brought back to what I am as how I can exist, here. Facing objections means to use executive function of sensing here, using a working memory of words as a collectively given name of how here, as the physical moves/exists - no added values necessary. As such, added values of measure as one thing being more than another, is a crime against life. 

A lie by omission, with a threat of gain or loss, as both are similar because they destabilize, must come to an end. This, as such, in our present system, moves all liability and ignorance onto the many at the base of the hierarchy that is a system moved by judgement instead of discernment. And it uses the gift of life as the wealth of earth and transposes this into money and then, places laws and borders to order that wealth in ways that separate each of us from our true potential, through omission of opportunity and what is needed to support a physical mechanism that allows life. Thus, for those who are able, it is time to stand and change the system within, through equalizing ourselves within, in common sense of physical reality, which means stepping out of our minds and coming back down to earth, realizing all resistance as objections to slowing down and aligning ourselves back into being normal, and as such, equal and one to here.

Day 302 Disgust Character Imagination Dimension

Imagination Dimension Disgust character
I notice that when I get into an argument and become angry, I become a sneer, like I am so possessed with disgust. There is some development going on next to me, and I talked with the developer. he did not like my question, and became immediately defensive, I could feel anger coming up in me, so much smaller, yet still there. I begin to project disgust towards this person, distain, and a glee, in thinking that this person revealed themselves to me and now I have license to attack. This is all based on fear of loss, and it is the same behavior I encountered with my parents, which I wrote about in a previous blog. This, “ okay, you are acting in self interest, bullying me, so you are now equal to me, and no better than I in my own self interest, so we are even, even to be the same.” This wry smile, a glare as an expression on the face appears, like Pnadora’s box has been opened. What does this do? Nothing. And we all do this, it just moves so fast and has been done so often that we do not even notice it anymore. It is done indirectly, directly, aggressively and passively. Were it not done, than this world would be a different place. And, since this is a movement within, this suggests that this need not be what we are, as even one moment of being forgiving, means that this is what can be the movement within, it is only ourselves/myself stopping the forgiving of myself as life, within and as the principle of what is best for all. The situation I spoke of above, is about money, and all this other person could see was a threat to their money, to their survival and since these behaviors are accepted, this survival to not lose, to not face a death, be it the final death, a death of social status , a death of monetary support as in loss, within consideration of immediate self needs only, without considering what goes on for all inhabitants of earth, is criminal. How can living in constant worry about survival be an expression of life? How can we even consider that there is any other option but to care for all life, especially in the face that we have major transportation and communication systems across the earth? There is food grown all over this earth, there are robots now that can lift heavy things, I mean, there is absolutely no reason, what is here on this earth is not being taken care of as life, needs met. The only thing stopping us at the moment is an entrenched behavior of complacency. If we/I could just take a deep breath and step outside of our metaphysical minds, in not much time at all could this world be turned around. The first step is to stabilize what is here, with food and shelter and clean water. Then, once this is done, move from there.
In common sense, there are major distribution centers all over the world, I mean we can sure get guns and tanks and naval ships every where! There are even cards measuring every oyster! I mean really! There are satellites circling in space, taking picture of the earth. And it is not that rich man with the money in his pocket that placed that satellite there, the money moved the resource un-equally, but it did not physically move that resource, what has been dictated is a metaphysical idea imposed as a picture in the mind that that money created that satellite, this is, in all common sense NOT what actually, physically happened here, as a movement to place that satellite up there in space. This satellite could just as well been placed there within a system where all life was supported, because the hands of men are here, these hands have been developing what is here to enable that satellite to come into existence, for generations. Metaphysical mind is a new term for superstition, all fancied up and used in higher education for some glorifying nuance that is actually shades of grey of separation in the world of shadowy illusion, the metaphysical tool of the mind made bigger than life.
So, this disgust is my separation into self interest because I believed someone else was doing this, thus it means it’s okay for me. This is, “ Let’s open Pandora’s box together and play metaphysical dress up with separation into and as energy, let’s impose a fantasy on the physical world, a limited one at that, and cut our noses off despite our face”
The problem is that here is no such thing as win and lose, the action and belief of this means separation from here, from communication in common sense of what supports all life, where what is supportive, really supportive of self is supportive of all on earth. Thus there is only a win-win scenario within providing what is necessary for a dignified life for all of existence. And the means for this are here. This is life having a real free will, a will of itself as the substance of self, being free, and this is the nature of life, mind in place as the tool that it is, that which takes a metaphysical picture of life, but is not life, thus does the actual physical world show us the outflows of our perception, allowing us to self realize ourselves in equality and oneness in and as life. What the human has done is gotten lost in the action of the mind as the metaphysical image mechanism. It was only the desire to be a “god” that turned the mind/image maker into a reality.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that if I encounter self interest , as fear of loss, that I then have the right to join the game, because if you are doing it than it is okay for me to do so also.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand immediately how I have judged another as acting in self interest, to stop and not allow myself to become disgusted which means I have already also become a judgement instead of becoming one and equal to the separation as a separation from common sense, and to within this to breath and take the principle of oneness and equality, of what is best for all is best for self, and to direct myself accordingly.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the moment I imagined escaping punishment as a child, and joining the behaviors of separation as what my parents had learned and existed as, I joined in the game of win and lose, energetic polarities of separation as a total package that is an outcome of loss, yet the immediate outcome appeared to be a win, which was in essence a superficial win, as the eventual outcome would be death.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the disgust was myself that I then projected onto my parents, as I became a justifying state as a feeling in and as glee, as I had only won a momentary reprise from punishment, beginning a slow death into existing as fear, a fear of loss.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that this is the past, and not myself here, and thus judging myself , and/or continuing to allow this as an adult, is unacceptable.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to spite myself and the world around me, I enter the game of separation and become disgusted, wanting all around me to suffer the same.
I commit myself to no longer accepting and allowing myself to project disgust onto another, to when and as I realize what i am doing, as I remain in and as breath, here, I stop and I do not allow myself to become a habituated behavior learned in childhood in protection and defense in and as becoming a lie.
I commit myself to no longer accept and allow myself to compare one thing against another, using a value system of limitation from common sense of physical reality, as what was taught within my cultural upbringing, where when I find myself judging one thing as more than I go into a behavior of self disgust/inferiority and or judge something as less than where i project disgust onto that which I judge as less than and allow myself to feel superior through glee , all of this a protection defense mechanism to remain within what is believed to maintain survival within a system of inequality.
I commit myself to realizing within and as every breath, what I accept and allow in every moment here, to realize that any emotion in and as disgust is myself not wanting to stand one and equal to what is here, rejecting equality and oneness, communication with life, as I am allowing a belief, based in an image from a past as mind to be what is real.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that judgement is an imposition in and as comparison of a more than and a less than categorized value of reality according to what was learned to enable my own status maintenance to survive where I would react in a projected disgust towards what was taught as less than, and also, a self disgust for separating from equality and oneness in and as myself as life.

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Day 122 The flood of abuse

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I have a choice.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that in believing I have a choice, I have not considered all life on this planet, where the only choice is what is best for all.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that if I attempt to juggle what I believe or opine , or idealize, I will in effect weigh myself down and be unable to move.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that if something does not allow a human to become an expression of life, self directive and self honest then it is not what is best for all.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that a cow can walk in a field, get exercise, eat grass and no human has to bring that cow feed, tether that cow to a fence, or within an enclosure, and thus that cow is able to, in conjunction with this earth, this physical world, be autonomous in and as its expression as life and thus within this, realizing that the systems created by men, where this very same form as a cow is confined within a stall completely dependent in all its actions unable to express itself as life, thus is such a scenario creating complications for men, even within the toxicity of the products of consumption and waste caused by this ignorance of the nature as the form of the cow.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that this cow has lost all ability to be itself as life, as the form it exists as, and so it is with the human, as the human has created this same scenario for itself and believes that “this is the way it is” when the form of this earth, in practically looking at what is here, can function through “reading” the very form of what is here and allowing and supporting it to be that which it suggests as its function within its form.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that this from and function of living things has been separated and divided and conquered against its expression to allow ownership for a few, as they must take what exists and make everyone believe that this is the way it is, where the presentation ignores what is physically real, and this is dictated through all the means of communication within and as how this world allows a few to be the voice of communication through every printed and broadcasted word, and thus all that is seen is the bars of the cage as the presentation of limitations only and not what is real, thus we are as the cow, confined within a small cage where we spend our lives in ignorance as all we see is the imprint of the televised images and words presented by the few who we have accepted and allowed to control what determines who lives and who dies, and how those living exist.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to step back, to slow down, to become breath and to see what is presently allowed to exist in this earth that is unacceptable and makes no sense, as it is no longer capable of sensing what is the function of the form of what is here, as  belief has been imposed as an idea, opinion and belief that man is superior to nature, when given that there is so much starvation and abuse on this earth, man’s idea of superiority is obviously a lie as the word believe suggests as it sounds be lie, and thus our words tell us in fact, as sound what it is that we, the human, are in fact.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the human, as myself has become so separated from what is here, even as the words we speak, that we no longer are capable of even fathoming that words are actually composed of sound and that even this is a substance of this earth that creates what is here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that within this I have no choice but to look at what I am in word and deed and the same goes for all words and deeds of those around me.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that what I am asked to do is to not consider the whole, and to only look at doing good within a bubble, not realizing that many of my do good in consideration of solving needs within my immediate environment do not consider why such an action must exist within the totality of existence, as all I seek is feeling like I have done something good for the world, when what must be done is a system change that support all life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when common sense is abdicated and given away to a system within a system of ownership and profit, the human is as denatured as the cow, and thus looses all capacity to be self honest as the form and nature of self, and over time becomes completely ignorant having ignored self as life, and within this allowed a supposed invisible “one” to determine what is best for this denatured human as life form abdicating itself in fear of standing up in common sense of life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that, that this process exists, this division and conquer, thus taking and raping of the nature of the human, that is able to be self honest in and as common sense of this physical world,  reveals in and as itself that the human, as man, has this to be taken, other wise the taking would not exist.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand to what extent the separation from life the human exists as within a system of inequality, a system that must divide and conquer every form of expression, must take and rape all in the name of believing itself to be god, to be superior, in separation from itself as what is equal in all that is here as life, as the substance of life equal and one to all of us as what we are.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in order to get this world to function as life, the present system must change, as there is no choice, to a system that utilizes what is here as life and works in tandem with what is here, realizing it is one and equal as the substance of life, a technology far greater and thus imitated by man, abused by the human, within a be LIE f of superiority that is the separation in and as itself from life here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that there is no choice but to do, with every breath I take, what is best for all, what supports life absolutely, and thus to stand away from seeing only the relatives presented that are of opinion, belief and ideas within the dividing and conquering system of inequality that is the basis of a system of profit that creates a game of survival and competition and more than and less than, in what people are, in who owns what, and in what is right and what is wrong, where if there is a question of right and wrong than what is best for all has not been realized in common sense and what is blocking this must be realized and cleaned up, as there is not choice but to support all life, to work with all life here  - that itself has been confined and separated from the function of the form of itself to the point where it is dis-ease ridden and not even living the life span that it has the potential to live, as we see with dairy cows which live about 4 years, and yet are able to live much longer lives, this is the extent to which the human has denatured life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the human is one and the same to this, a being on this earth that is not living to its full potential, and also, just as that cow, existing within dis-ease, so obvious in that the present day pyramids, as towers within and as our cities are often hospitals, where we worship the doctors as the towers we build in our service to them, not standing back and asking ourselves why such towers exist, why is the very expression of man, as what is in our cities, structures of dis-ease focus and not structures of an expression of the full potential of life and what the human is capable of being?

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that these towers devoted to disease cannot be what life is about, and as the word suggests, what the human has allowed is a state of dis-ease to be the norm, not realizing how insane this is in fact.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that this must be stated again and again as there is nothing else to speak, as within standing up and realizing there is not choice but to support life in supporting what is best for all, many accepted and allowed beliefs must be questioned and looked at, the stagnation of acceptance and allowance of what is here must be moved into seeing the constructions of belief, idea and opinion, are in fact relatives, taught by relatives as the parents and relations encountered in the first seven years by those who themselves accepted and allowed the separations that are the loss and lack of self as life, in common sense of what is equal and one in all that is here as what life is, as the substance that is the creation of what is here, which is life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the divisions as the words used to divide are the voices in and as my mind, as the me- more-I-es developed by a system that is  directed by an supposed invisible hand, a smoke screen developed by the hands of greed in and as a belief in superiority, where in order to have a belief in superiority, inferiority must exist, thus the mono, as the believed to be superior, monopolize the poly building the drug of dreaming and the murder of starvation where there is a continuum in existence varying by degree, of haves and have nots, all ending up in death without any awareness of self as life, without any potential as life expression reached, without any equality as self as life in fact lived, and thus is life never really understood, where there is no heaven until life is actually understood and honored for the gift that it is in fact.

I forgive myself for believing that I have a choice.

I commit myself to realizing that just as the debt grows so will the abuse, until the flood of abuse, as what the human has accepted and allowed, comes to each and every one of us, where at that moment I will have to pull my head out of my ass/ground and look at what is here and realize the structure of the system is the cause of the flood of abuse, and therefor must change and support life, absolutely.

I commit myself to realizing that this flood of abuse will wipe out this existence unless the human wakes up and realizes itself as the nature of itself as the form of itself as life one and equal to this earth as the gift of life, where there is plenty to support life, where even the budget for abuse, as war, could be used to support life in this earth.

I commit myself to realizing that the great flood to come will be a flood of abuse, as what the human has accepted and allowed, evident within the majority of money within counties being spent on war, a clear physical manifestation, accepted and allowed, that is absolute abuse, and this abuse is presently being allowed to flood lands where children exist without any consideration and regard for the life that is these children, where even this allowed and accepted  flow, as flood of abuse, exists in the very materials used, such a depleted uranium that is the residuals left by, this flood of greed as abuse, to deform the children coming into this world, an action that is an atrocity and a crime against life and must stop.

I commit myself to stopping the flood of abuse, through standing up and supporting an equal money system.

I commit myself to realizing that I have no choice but to stop the inner flood of abuse, as justification in and as the voices in and as my mind, that stop myself from realizing oneness in equality here.

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