Whorling / Worlding What does a structural resonance ? Day 801

Recently, I have noticed information flow in a way that moves to normalize what is not normal. It does so through repetition, the infamous way of repeating something again and again until it is considered a truth. This even gets to a point as statements made that appear to be of fact. One of them is that Autism is not a problem, it is special. It is saying ONLY that this state is a different kind of being- so to speak, from my perspective.  Interacting with a family member that is autistic and having the people around that child react to that child in different ways, shows me that being autistic is not something considered to be special, but by the one carrying the everyday burden of such a “special” state of being. Autism is a consequence of human acceptances. It is not normal. To want to normalize such a thing is a consequence of not wanting to take responsibility. At present, this child I interact with, is a teenager. I have known this child since they were a baby. What I see is a human more capable of processing information than before, yet caught in what is called stimming movements. This is like a larger interrupting “ tick” interrupting the attention of the young person. When I am with them, I say to them to not go into their imagination for entertainment. They stop that stim and look at me. Then they bounce back. It will take a huge effort to change that behavior. A behavior run by a structural resonance of actions repeated again and again until they are believed to be what that child is and does, and then labeled as “ special.” Also, I can see where this child is bored in so many ways, because of being stuck. In effect their physical systems are not flowing and moving as they should. It is visible in plain sight and therefor, to normalize a state of dis-ease - instead of being able to move with grace and successful interaction in this reality - is not something to make normal, even though it is something that must be corrected which will take time, and effort. In this present system, within how money moves, and with adults who had they known how they worked, would never have allowed a state of function as the state of autism to exist in the first place, are who is taking care of these children, which means it is like asking those who refuse to look to be responsible for the consequences of not looking. How is that going to work? We need only look around to realize it is not working. Yet, within this, there are small movements of change, so it is not all a doom and gloom scenario. It only needs greater specificity. Is it not interesting that in the word “ autism” are the words “au and stim “? It is as though we tell ourselves in an apologetic way, which is a form of confession, and a form of projecting outside of ourselves a sense of the math we allow as our movements within,  as what we embrace, that as that apology or confession makes us a good person, which is simply another form of justification. It is taking negatives and repeating them again and again, creating a feeling body as a statement of making the state of lack “ special” as a good, that is really a spin of avoiding real acknowledgement , real understanding, the kind that realizes there are no problems and only solutions. Within the word we use to label the resonant mathematical construction of values, metaphysically in separation from practical application, from living and thus effective focus and movement, we call out the problem, make it into an idol, that as the word hides the problem in plain sight.  Autism is a form of suppression/stimming of a natural auditory ability, which is an absorbent ability, which is presence. Creating stories of a lack as being special, or a state of cognitive dissonance as being special, is living a logistical fallacy. Two negatives only build a false positive.  It builds a state of inner resonant chaos locked in associative thin-king because the source of separation has not been sorted out and living consideration of all things, as our bodies are the perfect means to sensing this reality. Our sentience is locked in a bubble of limited values. 

If someone cannot explain something clearly, a reason for something, then they are not yet specific enough to justify choices they make. If they meet resistance to their lack of specificity, then forcing a change is not going to work. Rejecting those who are not in agreement only shows an agenda that is superior to developing real understanding. Yet, this is the problem that caused the consequences we now face in the very fabric of human behavior. In this, wording statements in such a way to normalize autism is an abdication of self as life. This normalizing of autism as being special, is cultish. It is a culture of giving up. Cults take values and hyper inflate them, to serve in self interest, within a collective, which has a visible outcome in the environment. If the environment is in balance and prolific, it is in a state of harmony, of balance, it generates support. When not, it is a form of hiding, that is what making something abnormal normal is as a state of hyperinflation a picture that is making a lack larger than reality. It is a form of grief. A collective wallowing. It is a state of default. It is a discipline of focus on a lack. It is a business of avoiding the ordinary. It will become the shame of missing the extraordinary. It is a state of mis-using a natural ability to build through consistent action, one does the same only moving into limitation as being normal, which is the reverse of life. It is a state of cognitive dissonance, an inner resonant structural dissonance, instead of living one’s form of and as a human being,  as coming into synch with the physical reality. What is moving with grace and specificity in this physical instrument called earth? Do we not call such things, or abilities a state of being a master of a skill? 

I was talking with a foot reflexologist this week. We started to talk about memories in relation to rubbing feet. She also said that one person could not read the memories coming out from rubbing one’s feet alone. I thought, well, yes, this is true we need one another, yet, if we sit and direct ourselves based on our past, with a series of movements as beliefs being what composes a memory, meaning we build our own resonant structure, or blueprint, of skill sets, why is it that we cannot remember the steps we chose, and read them as we read a movie flowing in front of us, or read a book? After all, a musician must always cross reference their technique, to check it, or it can run away from the player and automate in separation from presence.  If we shut our eyes, we see darkness, and then we move into reading what is flowing where? Right there in our minds. From where does this picture show come? And yet, we can rub our feet and have memories come up, which is what is being said within the Desteni I Process, where one walks timelines to reframe the movements of these memories embedded in the flesh as can be seen and acknowledged by foot reflexologists? What is a state of anxiety but a false narrative resonant within?  I have also found other methods of looking at memories coming up into the imagination, as the visual manifester we might call the imagination. My point here is what I see around me, as systems that acknowledge that within us we hold memories that accumulate in the flesh and interrupt a natural ability to process the information we encounter in our living physical world, that place where one moves to get things done. We can either acknowledge this, and wallow in it, and get lost in an endgame of and as normalizing this state of being that is visible in our words, as equations of apology and/or confession with a qualifying statement that sounds “ positive” and yet is a excuse to not be responsible, as in making something that is abnormal, normal? Or, we can realize our own resonant constructions to acknowledge what is in plain sight as to how this works and rebuild to ensure that we are present in this reality where things get done and that state of getting things done, as creating stable and functioning systems. This is where we will find real joy.  ( And realize that what we practice accumulates, as compounds, to the extent that the next generation may be in a state where this structural resonance is so in reverse of being practical, as in living a common sense of reality, that it disturbs the machine to such a degree that machine has a very hard time functioning with grace, with direct focus onto reality!) Could we call this being autistic? Does the label reveal the problem, as being an auditory problem ( and I also want to add that perhaps the straws on this camel’s back are also from environmental practices that were not what is best ).  The feudal system by design is a form of monopoly, which started with a tiny movement, which builds a following of authority, and rituals that become holidays, that forget that the disease around us, is a tearing apart of a natural permaculture that moves through symbiotic communication and respect of form and function. 

What if we realized that what accumulates within us, are actions of and as not having been focused on this reality? What if we realized and normalized that when we are not present and in substantiation of this living physical and practical reality, we end up in a state of grief? What if we normalized the realization that when we have a resonant shadow that creates a form of such-lack or resistance in relation to communicating with others, that we are in effect carrying a resonant belief/inner movement/shadow idea around with us in the flesh that is a state of separation from being in common sense of this reality and if we look at that resonant spin, a metaphysical resonant spin, it is composed of the same sequences known in the stages of grief? What if we realized that not being in common sense of this reality is a state of not substantiating who and what we really are? And that being in synch with this reality, this physical system, in ways that we work without doing harm, is the place where real focus exists and that that direct/real focus is where we will find we are most happy?  I mean, what are the stages of grief? Could a polarized memory as an emotional action, or a “ make what is unacceptable normal through a label of good as what a feeling is ( justification),  accumulate and compound in the flesh to the degree that it becomes more and more difficult to focus on that most practical of actions that lead to getting things done? Would the whorl of this, within, get so thick that one is a whorl on this WORLd? Can emotions and justification “ feelings” become a HUGE, yet in reality, tiny WHORLS of and as a state of separation that persist until one stops resisting them, and corrects them, to open back up what is the real and natural state of being on earth? What is being apologetic or confessing without real applied action of correct, or correcting the resonant script?  Does it appear that our autistic children are WHOLRING around in chaos, unable to physically direct their limbs effectively? What is a resonant construct? How is it formed? Why do we have systems talking about resonant memories? What does it take to realize the discipline of lack, that indicates we are all able to discipline ourselves, and therefor can change and walk ourselves into embracing the physical reality, to do the same we are doing but in the opposite direction, to employ discipline into being focused HERE, right here, respecting the physical; the animals the air, the water, the food, the plants, this that is in plain sight?  To have real connection, real touching, real sensing of the nature of things, to move with them, in mastery of an instrument, is a state of ease and flow, grace and agreement! Are we not happy when we connect and agree and our agreements move with grace and a lack of friction, is it not here where we get things done? Are we not happy when we complete a project and realize the fruits of our labor? When the fruits of our labor withstand the test of time, is that not a legend that was built in stability and effectiveness? 

What are the stages of grief, and can we look to that model to realize that a dissonance from effective and respectful living is the accumulation of a loss of effective self direction that no one can change but the self? What are the stages of grief, but a domino effect that is a whorl of stages of inner turmoil that is in itself not being focused on the practical, and that exists as a resonant memory within the physical body that exists through repetition as non balancing out, that is an action of discipline, that could use the same motivation to change and move in a direction that grounds one in real and effective living where one would feel less burdened and more at ease, moving with more grace and connection to life? And that, this resonant memory system is but a tiny thing, that when lost within it, and running from it, appears huge, and appears to be a storm, when it is only a resonant construction that exists from constant FOCUS onto that, and that as in all manner of techniques used to DISTRACT one from that until one sees the ghostliness of it, and the energetic PULLS of it, as a-PULL/apple of good and evil, right and wrong, more-than and less-than, that this is a state of hypnotic separation from reality to the degree to normalize this is a crime against life? 

And yet, realizing that we are caught in stages of grief, and acknowledging them as that, and realizing that they can become a form of and as an energetic whorl within, as memories, that can be triggered by a sound, or a picture -which is basically a whorl of color as pressures as strings of accumulated sequences of ideas, beliefs and opinions- that can build into emotional and feeling bodies that are in thought, word and deed, by the self,  a Structural Resonance of separation from who and what one really is as a living physical state of being! It is a discipline of lack, of grief, of fear. Yet is is a discipline, one that is of ripples. yet ripples can accumulate and become an elephant in the room, because that is the tiny focus of the self. 

At the same time that one might begin to realize this, would it be of benefit to rebuild using sound as words, to restore presence to being in synch with this real WORLED/WORLD? Is the means of and as working with this world, in ways that what manifests does no harm to anything, allow, in the nature of not doing harm, being a state to always approach something with quiet grace because the intent is never to cause harm, and to have the patience to do-the-math of what is here, to develop a real command of self as self being natural which is self being in common sense of reality- a physical reality? Could we balance out the present cult of separation from life, and become a living culture of creation? Is it possible that all the waters in the oceans are a result of past actions of destruction on such a massive scale that our petrified animals and trees are from a huge upset to the extent that the water from the oceans used to be elevated into giant trees to create a more temperate planet, as though the trees worked much like a radiator does in our homes? After all, what flows through our radiators? I mean, I could be wrong, yet I cannot see where the ideas of the water in the oceans, could NOT have been held in giant trees, that WOULD or COULD or MAY have meant a more temperate climate on this earth? Is it possible?  Thus, can we possibly realize that when we create states of separation, we are in effect mis-using a natural ability to create, which is a form of discipline, and can be composed in ways that ground us into living our lives as what and who we are as physical states of being, to realize heaven on earth. Why not normalize how this all works, acknowledge it, and rebuild to manifest an amazing system  that supports and respects all life? The means of separation are known, and the means to rebuilding are known, as the means of separation, is using a natural ability to create! It is only in reverse! Looking at the consequences of this state of separation that is life in reverse, in our autistic children, is not something to normalize. Realizing how we work, and how we can get lost in a state of separation that is basically the same as the stages of grief, we can reverse this movement, and use what is natural to ground ourselves back into life, as this is the place where we will find most joy, and our children will become expressions of and as that joy. This is the only thing to normalize- and the systemic steps are in plain sight.

Things are built from a grass roots level, as a tiny movement consistently done, can grow into a HUGE tree. What must be walked on the ground is the very model of and as realizing the inner resonant stages of grief and letting them go. This must be modeled, and lived on the ground. It means to walk and communicate, to interact, to listen, to deconstruct and reconstruct, to look at the whorls as memories as resonant constructs that are causing separation, and are much like emotional storms in the machine, and to call them out by name, and then to refocus the self, to be present in this reality. It means to begin rebuilding with the small as the words, and at the same time to acknowledge a discipline in reverse, as an abdication of the self-as-life responsibility, to become in synch with a self directive principle that is what enables the potential of self as life to manifest. 

PETRIfication and changeability What is a structural resonance? Day 800

Petrification and changeability

One of the things I notice, especially in talking with people, is interest yet also, a sense of an inability to move, as in take the next step into following through. This would suggest, that an ability to realize is inherent, and yet that ability to change has a form of petrification. Anxiety is a busyness in itself, within consuming the attention, as it has the nature of being insistent. I mean, when one master’s something effectively, one’s ability to generate, has a more consistent quality to it, which feeds upon itself, and allows growth and faith in one’s ability. When one has the opposite, as a practice of being anxious, as having an insistent voice of and as “ what if?” what becomes the echoing voice within? What becomes of the resistance to actual doing that is that voice of and as “ what if?” ? Can such a culture of fear cause a resonant wall of belief that interrupts and petrifies?  One is able to see and yet, because things tend to automate, especially if we forget how this works, we have a resonant discord in terms of being focused and of that which leads to real mastery of something.

In research in children who do well in school, and those who do not, it is understood that the parents of a child do not need to have a degree in higher education for a child to do well in school. This is because the parents can walk the information with the child and learn with the child. This means that adults can learn as they are adults. This means that when one does not know something, be it in the form of knowledge and information only, or real understanding that comes with application, it is because it has not been walked, and yet, as research in education reveals, and as  stated above, parents need not have that higher degree for their children to do well in our current form of child education. This is also something that would embarrass many parents, because it places greater responsibility onto the parents. I am surprised that this is not something shared with parents by teachers in a consistent and constant voice. After all, how do television commercials work? They repeat, again and again. If anything, given this understanding, it is also the responsibility of teachers to realize this in word, again and again towards parents. 

Back to petrification. After all, if a parent is not doing this well understood and researched MEASURE, that makes sense because ultimately, things are built; understanding is built just as learning to crawl is something built, that things are built, what is built comes from both sides of behavior. If a behavior of insecurity continues, and is repeated, it is essentially practiced. If a behavior of careful and consistent movement within a discipline is practiced, with care, then one masters that skill. In essence, one is still within both scenarios, practicing the building of a skill set. That skill set is either of fear, as all the “ what if’s” or of the measure that lends effective self generation ! To believe that one does not have discipline, one actually is always disciplined, because one is practicing something, some measure, some idea, some value, some belief, some form. When one does that again and again and again, it is a practice, because this is how things work. In other words, as who and what we are we are practicing SOMETHING. This is also why we tend to blame ourselves, as in all hate is self hate, because we essentially understand in a kind of hazy forgotten way, that what we do, what we move as within, or without, is our practice, is how we have disciplined ourselves, is what we have chosen to be a disciple of! Thus, an inability to change, a resistance to change, can be a state of petrification because what we have practiced and/or repeated as a form as words and ideas within ourselves, layering this as a practice that builds a discipline, can either be of beliefs that limit movement of insights that lend a greater ability to flow with and change, and realize the awesomeness of real building, utilizing how we work for better behaviors which, in this context, would reflect as a greater ability to change because this is understood. If one is caught in limiting beliefs, that can become a resonant wall that petrifies one’s ability to be that parent without a higher level of education actually walking with the child, making sure they build an effective understanding to the degree that child can self generate with confidence. 

Thus, when I face a client, for example, and that client appears to agree, yet with time they appear to not move, what is it that hinders this movement, but an inner built resonant series of repeated beliefs that are causing a form of petrification in relation to living what is understood as a parent not needing to already have information within them, or understanding or insight, because they can grow and learn with the child and that this growing and expanding, is repeating in a disciplined way, something other than perhaps beliefs that have been repeated within again and again with a lack of understanding how this all works. It is incredible that in the research in teaching children to read, all of this is made visible in what findings that research contains! 

I have been in a school situation, where a boy that came from a home life that lacked attention that child needed and wanted. This boy would, when it came time to read, become so frustrated he tended to use violence towards objects to express his shear frustration at not being able to read. It was unfortunately out of control. Yet, this behavior was a loud voice and a practiced behavior for this boy. He had not managed to get beyond that mood or tone of expression. And, the very form of our public schools are not meant to be that for him. They are a direct instruction model, they are not meant to be the one on one model, because that is costly. Also, just as with animals, once a practice, as a discipline has repeated to the extent it becomes the master of the child, just as effective discipline becomes a mastery of a human, it takes an incredible effort to change that behavior because it is understood that it is more difficult to correct a mistake than it is to learn something correctly in the first place. That behavior can become a form of inner petrification, in that changing it appears to not be an option, yet, with great effort, it can happen. Who ultimately spends most of their time with children and are responsible for that child, but the parent? And, since education is the most important thing, it would make sense in our current money system it is the most expensive thing! And yet, it can be the easiest thing because a parent can walk with a child and build understanding with the child! I can see where there would be so many many justifications coming up in relation to these simple facts that are in our research. This can become such a wall of resistance to what is actually very natural! It means we as humans have great power, what is lacking is to accept this power and take self responsibility! Thus, what is petrification but a fear of taking self responsibility? It all narrows down to fear. 

What is the way out of fear? It is to use one’s discipline which one is using at all times, and to ensure that one directs one’s discipline into building effective understanding of the information that is this physical and practical reality right here, right in front of us as this physical LIVING reality. 

Look at the well known statement of and as trying to get a man to look at information that would take away his salary because it would mean that the means of that man making in income would end, is a form of a fear of change. It is a form of being frozen in a set body of information, one that has been practiced again and again, one that has been through discipline, what that man believes. Thus, when new information comes along, that moves against that resonant blue print of information, that resonant body as the projection of information about something, that is used to direct that man, will ignore, spite, criticize, reject, attack, belittle in many ways, even hiding from that which upsets that inner resonant belief system. This is a form of rejection based on a fear. That boy who cannot read, he is acting out a practice perhaps allowed too many times, and without proper support that cannot be given by a school, to the extent what happens as the self direction is that of that lack expressing itself in violent form. It is the same, one is simply more manifested in reality in a different way. What humans tend to do is justify one action as not being as bad as another, this in itself a means of distracting from addressing the real issue- which is a form of gossip. Project the name of the problem out there, create a discussion around naming that thing ONLY, and time goes by and it is time to leave - this being a form of escape. Even been to a meeting and it appears there is someone there to bring forward a good, and extend that presentation throughout the timeline of the meeting so that what really needs to be addressed does not happen? Where does the statement that a man will not interact with information that threatens their job come from? One can become a master of FEAR, as this is really what this is, it is living being a master of fear. The terms, if one turns the word FEAR into an acronym  is Fear Everything And Run of Face Everything And Rise! We all have the responsibility to be that parent, the one who lacks understanding and yet, sits down and builds a correct discipline because in essence we are doing the same no matter which direction we allow. 

Petrification is being caught in a petri dish of information that one has practiced again and again and again, which is being disciplined!  Behaviors of that limited discipline in ignoring what is here as this living world around us, can accumulate and build into a resisting resonance called behavior. This is why, someone wrote a fairy tale about an egg that falls off a wall, where all the men around us cannot put that egg back together again. Which discipline has been the practice of you? And yet, this makes it clear that this was built, which means it can be un-scattered and rebuilt in simple ways  using the same that built it, a step by step consistent practice over time, until a change happens, which it will, because this is how this works. 

What is a VIRUS FREE MIND ? 

Using change to understand in order to find solutions Day 799

I remember some years ago complaining when interacting with a public servant. I was irritated when an answer to a question went from the collective into the personal. Meaning, when I asked a question about a process, and the answer moved into “ I don’t know,” I became irritated, and more than likely triggered aggravation in the person in the public servant position, changing the whole mood of the situation into protection and defense behaviors. The person from whom I sought an answer was suddenly suggesting that I was rude. IN such situations, one has to agree and then move on. 

I would rant about such situations, allowing myself to become frustrated with a person who worked within a system to hide behind moving into things being personal. Yet, as well, this is a well know logistical fallacy. When one cannot answer a question, a smoke and mirrors wall comes up of and as moving into something having been done on a personal level. It is a form of changing dimensions. Distraction can be used for a good, to direct, or for self interest when one does not have enough information, or when one does not have a large enough vocabulary. Meaning, when one does not have the ability to do the math, and be more of what humans are so capable of, which is to come up with new ways of doing things. 

It is much like standing in a piece of music, as words are never the real thing, yet they are things. Words are a fluid math, they are a reflection of focus, in terms of revealing where one’s within state is in its ability to register and share what is the movement and expression of what is around one.  Is one in synch with what is here, or is one in a state of separation from what is here? Can one remember what one did last week? If not, is one in synch with this reality? I mean, things have a progression, or change over time, if one cannot remember that, and realize what is actual, then is one really focused on reality? 

What I am seeing today, this moment, is that past belief, that had a truth and yet had no real ability to point out the smaller equations that created what was a sense of changing tense, or mood, using words, to a degree that I realize with more clarity ( and which begs the question as to how much I really know! lol) today. And, to add to this, I realize that at times in my life, I have noticed some subtle changes in the physical natural world around me, like a sudden red flag coming up, as sudden deeper attention onto the environment, the physical natural environment around me- that vast space outside a window, for example. I have to ask what I noticed, and often what I sensed and yet could not specifically name. Thus, my ability to attend to changes is natural, my ability to interpret those changes effectively, warrants greater development in terms of communicating that, which is investigating what are the changes composed of and as, such as color, or pressure etc. It is the same with human beings, in terms of noticing subtle behavioral changes, such as that tense and mood changes in the dialogue. We all know this. Ask yourself how a simple conversation that may start with a discussion about something, suddenly turns into something completely different, where the object of discussion moves into being about what someone said, or suggested about the person instead of the subject being discussed? This happens a lot. Just read the comments on any news feed, it is rampant in our society. And it is a huge means of distraction away from an issue. It is time consuming. On another level, if one had access to large amounts of money, could one with such power actually use this? Yes, of course. Yet, that happens on the greater stage, from seeds planted on the ground. It is like a false resonant tree of occupying through distraction purposeful mis-take in reality. It is, not ‘ like’, an imposed super story of business to distract while all the resources freely given somehow continue their movements out of Africa while those displaced because of this action, starve with justifications that the bureaucracies are too slow moving to get aid. Aid moves slow, at one tempo, and resource  extraction moves more fluidly. The construct should be a huge thing of question. I mean, how many articles are about resources not getting out of a country? 

I find it interesting, to note, that colder countries hold more of the administrations, and warmer, resource rich countries have greater economic instability. It is a formula for a perfect storm. The colder climates must get money to pay for physical reality needs, perfect places to build paper work processing factories. The warmer places require less structure, as that would mean more effective education and one cannot have that is one is interested in grabbing the resources. Again, this a general description of a math, a mode, a tense, a pressure, creating a form, determining an expression. It describes the use of the physical reality. A story, is a series of movements, of actions. With hindsight, those actions create our outcomes, of which are visible, over time, unless one simply does not look. In effect we as humans are intrinsically able to understand this. Why, because we use this to our advantage, though limited, we use it, thus we see it. It is a matter of expanding our awareness to realize this to a greater degree, in all the moving parts of what is here around us. The moment we move into resistances, as self protections, or through self protections in a moment, we can understand how we are a math, an equation of an as our movements. Our words are things, we use them. They reveal in their equations, in what they bring forward, our alignment conceptually to this living reality, and even what distractions exist on local and more global stages/dimensions/platforms. I mean, why are conversations called narratives? And, in all common sense, what is a veil? Is a veil something composed of a distraction that is of memory, as resonant experiences or practices of movement within? Wouldn’t it be cool to acknowledge this and begin to move more in the direction of creating a more functioning physical reality? 

Within myself, how to change moving into frustration and irritation, in relation to this living reality, as reactions towards things based on inner beliefs, into being more playful within understanding this composition of reality with a superimposed , as above, or floating on, and extracting from, as that veil, of a false and limited story of more vague information. Limitation is composed of “ unfocus. “  Where the on-focus is a quantum practice of following practices of protection as resistance to who and what we really are. It, by design, is a form of violence as it is not in synch with the practical and living and physical reality that is what and who we are here. 

One must become in synch with the practical, to realize the more subtle actions, and then no longer move into reactions about them. It means moving more as always realizing the next step, the solution, that creates a lath of least resistance, because that path of least resistance is the place of acknowledgement to be effective in action. Effective action has no signature of violence. Effective action has more of a flow to it. In all, this is why in research in educational development, the greater one’s ability to use vocabulary, the greater a generation of successful action. 

Also, developmentally, and from my personal experience, things can move into what I would call, and others have called a plateau. This is where things are accumulating, and yet on the outside it appears that nothing is moving. I like to relate this to tree in the winter. They appear dormant, yet they are not, they are simply more busy underground. It is also similar to closing the circle, meaning one is busy filling in, or realizing the circle, to then make a leap into moving into greater understanding, or awareness. I can remember times when I did not see this, and become insecure, to the degree a level as a plateau, took longer than it might have should I have recognized this!  I became caught up in the distraction of resistance via fear, based on comparison and self judgement. I forgot the actual. I was not forgiving towards the process of development. Regret, guilt, or perpetual reiteration of such a story, a time-line of events, is in itself a form of distraction and an eddy of and as a state of inner resonant beingness, that can come to be one’s self definition as this, which is more of the same, because it is not being that development as an action of closing the circle, being pro-biotic, being aware of this reality, growing in awareness of the whole of and as what is here- just wanted to add that dimension too! ; )

Coming back to where I started, that state of becoming irritated by a mood change, that is a change in focus based on inner self definitions which are a composition, a resonant math of belief,  always recognizable in having pulls, or polarized values, I realize being a reaction to such a mood, is not calling the math out by name, is not recognizing the movement one is experiencing in relation to how all of this works. Usually, a change into the personal is within this context, a personal protection because of a lack of vocabulary, a lack of seeing the math, a lack of recognizing how much an inner resonance exits as a time-line of experiences that were in themselves more of that same action, practiced again and again until the entity of it becomes larger than the reality around it, as what one accepts persists, as what one resists persists until it is moved into greater understanding, a perfect means of self realization, to show what one is doing to one’s self. When I recognize a shift in tone, a shift in measure, within and without, I have to stop, slow down and breath, assess my information and reinform myself. I have to come down out of a resonant construct, and assess the reality around me, to realize where I am not in synch with who and what I am here, as a physical state of being on a physical planet. In this, my resistances are a gift to show me to myself. It is ultimately, my responsibility to use my changeability in effective ways and means. It is my responsibility to realize the vocabulary that is in synch with this reality. What I vocalize, what I focalize must be in respect of what is here and how all of this works. Becoming irritated with what is here, is like becoming irritated with a song on a radio. That song is a thing, that is all, it cannot define me unless I allow it and it is up to me to realize why I am reacting with irritation and to realize what are the steps that move myself into what would not be of that state of reaction. 

Protean is changeability. Day 798

More on what is means to be changeable

I am naturally able to change in a moment. The use of my words reveals my ability to change, as words are a reflection of my perspective about what is around me, they are the means of expression as me, because I am a human being. 

My skill with words, reveals the means and mode of my changeability in many ways. Yet, it is myself and on what I choose to focus, that becomes who and what I am, using this means of expression as my physical body, my instrument of and as being the life that is here that is me. I am physical, a physical embodiment of life, that is what I am here. It is for me to respect that which I am, all of it. If I allow my imagination to be larger than this life that is me here, I am disrupting life, a life that I cannot remember what lead me to be what I am here, thus, it is to realize and respect the physical that is the means of what I am here. My imagination, as the cumulative experiences I have embraced and followed, resonant within as me, can be a self created mirage,  which did not exist at birth and are the consequences of my environment, can become the mirage of information that I either realize as this, or believe to be more real than myself here, as the physical embodiment of what I am in totality. The physical is the reality of me, before imagination builds resonant mirages of information, with and as an inherent physical ability to absorb information, as my environmental information. Being able to absorb, as reflect the physical environment and the way the physical environment moves, even with imagined resonance, as mirages of belief, I come to absorb and either blindly accept or realize the differences and always look to the physical to ensure no harm is being done to what is real. I am an instrument that absorbs what is a perspective shared that is always about reality - a resonant construct about reality - maintaining a presence in the means as the physical instrument that is who and what I am here is my responsibility.

I can change that instrument with careful practice, informing the machine, as the physical instrument, to enable that instrument to move with presence as what I am as a physical state of being because what I practice can automate, and does come to automate me here. Or, I can allow myself to believe that my resonant mirage as beliefs, are larger than the life that enables me as the physical. It is interesting, because I remember creating music on an instrument. What could happen is that I would automate what I created, as specific forms. I could get caught in them, and not be able to change with ease, which meant that I had not developed a real processing of the means, as be able to instantly create new forms. I was repeating singular ways of expression. change from that appeared difficult, when the difficulty was moving counter to my own creations. A point of change is a point of most resistance, thus resistance is a way and means of realizing counter intuitive movements. Meaning, movement counter to one’s mirage. Or, what one expects, is not in alignment with practical reality. Same difference. What is friction but this? 

How I move, what I am able to do with ease, is a program of skills that I developed and utilized. This is changing the physical, or becoming a master of who and what I express with my physical body. Or, I can become an expression of abstracts about the physical, which is not being equal to the physical, as it is practicing changing only a resonance within me. Thus, change can be within my mirage, my mirror image of and as beliefs, a thing, a resonant object that is a form, and never the real thing, or I can be a real change as real skill development that brings the physical as me to move in practical applications with ease, being a master of me as who and what I really am in totality. This is respect of the physical.

I can see where I have allowed myself to believe the resonance, the mirage, within me is larger than reality, and how what I practice becomes the skills that are my capacity to effectively self direct as who and what I am as the totality of me here, as being a physical expression of and as life. What is interesting is how much a resonant construct when believed to be more real than reality, can be projected outwards, believed to be larger than life, and yet be so in separation from reality, it causes conflict in understanding and that conflict a distraction from the practical, consuming the life of the instrument, to the detriment of life, which is physical because this is the means of myself being here, in expression, as this came before the accumulated series of beliefs, opinions and ideas, that can create a separation from reality.  I am not processing what is life; the physical. Yet, I am the means to do so.

All of this reveals changeability. And it requires constant reference to this reality, to ensure skill sets ( a programing equal to communication with the physical, or probiotic resonance ) that are in respect of the physical reality. What I eat, what I think, what I choose, are all moments of change, and thus, my choices will determine who and what I function as within me, and what will be the effects of the physical instrument that is me here. The very resonant state of me, reveals what choices I have made, as the level of my synchronicity to life is reflected through the condition of my physical body. 

I am the creator of the change that is me, as this. And this is something that no one can be responsible for but myself. All of this reveals the very protean nature of who and what I am as a physical manifestation of life, where what I resonate shows me to myself. It is actually very simple. What complicates this is arguing for the state of lack that is the mirage made larger than life, which is a physical life. 

No one can be responsible for me but me, and I am the very means of being the necessary change to and towards what is best for me. What is best for me, is what is best for all, as I am the same, as equal, to all as who and what is the very fabric of me here, which is physical manifestation. In a sea of resonant mirages, the sea shore is always here, in plain sight. Thus, just as I realized my own automations within performing, as practiced and made resonant constructs, so can I be the necessary change to always relate to the resonance constructs within me, as my practices in the past, and cross reference the physical reality with and as every breath, here. I am protean.

Osho Tarot Card

Continuing with the word ' protean ' Day 797

Continuing to look at the word ‘ protean.’

One of the things I realize is how much I move into my imagination. This is change in itself. This reflects an ability to change, in a moment. From one moment to the next I find myself imaging things, imaging scenarios. I am no longer processing what is here, in plain sight. What did I miss? 

It is as those times, when being with people, conversing with others, that I realize I have lost a focus, and missed what was being said. That point of change, from listening to listening to what is within me, is change. Thus, I can change. Who is my master in this scenario? What am I allowing myself to listen to, to change to, to embrace, to accept as the attention of myself? Obviously, I am the one who allowed the change into a focus of something. Overall, this means I change, it is not someone else being that change for me, it is me. A contrast, is those times when I retained a focus on another, or a thing, and heard what was brought forth, or watched what was being done. In this, every moment here, as who and what I am, reveals to me that I am constantly living change, self accepted and self directed change. I am responsible for what I focus on. Also, no one can be the directive of that within me. I choose to watch television. I choose to read. I choose what I focus on. No one can reach into me, and make the decision for me. 

Thus, I have an ability to change, to direct my focus. If I interact with notes, building an ability to recognize notes, and by extension, patterns in the use of notes, I am building an ability to process the math as the notes, realizing the shapes, the forms, the tensions, all the dimensions of what it means to shape and form sound structures. It is no different with words. I am the instrument and the words are the notes, They are notes that can never be the real thing, they sound about things, our words as notes. It is that words are notations about things, this is communication. 

In the discipline of music, one must be aware of what one is doing with one’s body. If tensions build up, they accumulate and expressing the music becomes more difficult. The instrument as the human body, begins to compound tensions, and one must compensate, which is a distraction from being openly attentive to what one is doing. Then the hiding begins, as one does not want others to realize what one focused on as an accumulation of a distraction. And so this compounds. It is really no different than when we go to take a test. We know when we know something, when we focused on something in a way that builds an ability to change into it, with responsible self direction. 

I was driving in my car, and found myself imagining something- a form of entertainment, mirroring in many ways, the practice of watching television. I stopped, I breathed, I slowed myself down, placed my presence into my hands for a moment, a realized the steering wheel. I looked out at the passing trees. I am here. 

I have done this many times. This time, I also asked questions. I have started to use the where, when, what type of questions. Instead of only looking at the trees, I asked myself what are the relationships I am seeing that are here, right in front of me? The trees have a relationship with the air, with the sun, with the clouds. It was to look at the information that is here, that is real, that is physical, and directly in front of me. This, in itself, was myself changing. 

Thus, how can I turn this natural ability to change, into changing in ways that respect what is here, as this living reality. If I can realize that I mis-practiced a piece of music, because how I practiced that piece of music, remains when I go to perform that piece of music, the history of my every movement, as focus, remains with me, thus what state of being I allowed as a focus on myself remains if I do not realize how I was utilizing this ability to change, as to selectively focus on things, with this being within my imagination, or communicating, as interacting with focus, on what was/is directly here. My distractions remain, which is a gift because I show myself to myself,  within the choices, or the changes, I accept and allow. 

I am the very means of change. I am protean. I am as how I work, responsible for what I allow within this ability to change in every moment, because what I am, is using this means of change all the time! 

Looking at the word ' Protean ' Day 796

Looking at the word Protean

This week, I remembered AS KING myself in my twenties how I could be more able to change to meet the expression of a musical piece. Anecdotally, how could I be more changeable within in one moment, playing a  more classical piece of music by Mozart and then be able to change to the whole measure of a piece of music from another era, or genre, such as Brahms. I realized it involved being more changeable. After all, what is music but a math, a form, with different tensions, timings, measures, values, intensities. All things that I may change in a moment, just as I would change within the values of numbers, as in playing with a formula using numbers. And then, also, changing within a form of movement, as in building a set of steps for the entryway into my home from the outside. It all involves realizing, as seeing, as measuring, as being aware of, the values, the qualities of the things I am placing myself into a relationship with as a focus onto. The state of being of a person, in terms of their development in relation to their state of measure within, and the state of measure, as qualities composing the whole, as the world around us, as the without. 

Many years ago, within standing in front of a classroom of 4th grade students, coming from being immersed in a musical environment, I looked out across that room of sentient beings, and realized that I was dealing with so many different measures of exposure to values that I could not possibly address each one. AND, I was in a system - as all things are systems, which is a series of relationships. This system was one of a direct instruction model. Meaning, my job, within the formula, was of one imparting information to many to bring forward a set body of information, composing a picture, abstractly,  to that body of many. Thus, my responsibility in that set of orders, was to bring forward a picture about something, and then practice allowing the body to build relationships into having some greater insight, that was then for the individuals to build within from, and upon. I, as the teacher, could not be that for the students. It is like a small means of building a greater understanding, one that can work when the given structures are built upon, as expanded outside of that initiating situation. It is just like a student with an instrument. Someone of more, or greater mastery, directs towards more realizations within the doing of the thing, that is then utilized by the user, to  expand in self discovery as to what the relationships as the values of that instrument exist within to realize a greater working relationship. Simple. It is an act of stepping into understanding a system, because in effect, everything is of parts working together, which means things are systems. This means that everything is essentially a math. This is how creation works. 

Within this, how can I be more flexible, more changeable, more fluid within myself in relation to respecting what is me that is all around me, as who and what I am in the physical state of sentience that is what is here? 

I remember parents coming to me to request violin lessons. Some would become my friend and then ask for lessons, with a story of what they could afford. It took me a while to catch this. When I said I could not survive on the sum they said they could pay, within me knowing, for example that they never drove a car that was more than 5 years old, they were suddenly no longer the friend they proposed to be. This was a hard thing for me to face, and it brought on anger and disgust. Here, I was moving, as my emotional reactions of blame and disgust, in self interest, not applying what I was using to realize/process the defaults ! Also, I had a hard time, because of beliefs in being polite, in pointing out certain logistical fallacies in the body of information, which was revealed through layers of information, as small anecdotal actions building a picture. This picture being the money being used not valuing the education of the child. Or, wanting the education of the child, which was understood, to not have too great a cost.  Ironically, educating a child is the most expensive thing, and why? Because, it is the most important thing. It is, in effect, realizing a proper use of a natural sentient ability to realize systems effectively. This brings me back to my own point, that of realizing greater changeability, or a more sound ability to process the values and relationships, within and without, about this living reality and my own built ideological constructs within that. 

I thought, or openly asked myself about living greater changeability in relation to musical practices, and yet, I did not relate this to the sounding, as the directives moving me here, as essentially being the same thing! An inner mis-use of the imagination, as an amplification of certain self defining values, is and can be a HUGE distraction! This can slow down an innate changeability. It is like the inner framework of accepted values, gets caught in its own picture show at the expense of everything else. This then becomes a program within that is not in synch with reality. It becomes what we can call, a slow processing dis-order. This problem is rampant in our public schools. I have sat with a superintendent, from one of the best high schools in America today, who has said to me that the number of slow processing disorders in the school are extensive.  

A general scaffold of information is not an education. Within a bubble of comparison, from a state of lack, it can appear to be a more. That is an illusion. This is how a ‘ good ‘ can really be a limitation. 

On a personal level, a general scaffold of a framework of information, within, using an abstraction about something to lend direction ONLY, creates a state that is missing effective awareness as it is lost in a mis-use of the imagination not having effectively practiced respecting  the qualities and relationships of what is in plain sight as this instrument of the physical reality that is the life that is here. Separation is done through a system, awareness is built through systematic and effective movement, as respect of living reality. In effect, because humans use communication, a mis-use of words can create a stagnant processing dis-order. It is really no different than myself sensing I should have a greater ability to be more fluid in changing in a moment, to expressing Mozart and then expressing Brahms.  If I have practiced processing information ONLY abstractly, without enough practical experience, would not my processing of information move into disorders within changing into another abstracted form of information? I have essentially practiced one mode of operations without application, which is slow and of a state of distraction,  misprint in the cells of the body, creating a misalignment to reality. I then become that, and change appears counter intuitive. I then get lost in a comfort zone of not-necessarily-bad information, yet limited information, where the lack of spatial relationships in reality, appears to upset that which I have practiced! It is a quantum imbalance, as a systemic series of relationships. One of which punishment for, is not a corrective process of balancing out, as finding solutions to reopen a natural ability to learn, to process information, to respect this living reality, and to learn to move in synch with and as it. After all, this is where real happiness exists, because we are anxious when we are insecure, and happy when we know something to the extent we can communicate effectively and build, as create, that which can remain stable, and that which can realize transformation, leading to no longer living in fear. In asKING, I can realize greater structural awareness of how all of this works, and call out the logistical fallacies that are polarized value judgements, that are a processing of information in separation from reality. We all know when we are in a polar vortex of limited constructs as ideas, spinning within, building friction and leading no where. We see this in a sudden contrast when we step out of it, and in a moment, sense the whole and the parts and wonder where we have been. 

Ineffective processing is an amplification of limited values, layered and resonant within, from a practice of focus on structures without real respect, as cross reference to this living physical reality. And yet, that ability to focus on ‘ something’ reflects an ability to process information. What i come to realize, more clearly, is that all the research in reading skills development, makes it so clear, that the greater our vocabulary, the greater our ability to process the notes, as the words, the greater our ability to do what is essentially the math of what is here around us. Our ‘ song’ within, must be able to move in synch with the math of what is here around us. Humans with a more effective vocabulary, are more able to process what is all around them, which means what is happening within, and what is without. It can process the past, a resonant amplification in the body, and what is focused upon in the conscious mind, and what is without, as the same constructs in other humans around us, and the math of this existence. If we as a species, actually are self honest with who and what we are, we already know this, and have flashing moments where we see between the limitations of a mis-use of the instrument that is who and what we are here in this reality.  It is simple, what is complicated is a math of limitation, that is a resonant mis-take of and as a reflection of this reality projected from within each individual, each instrument of and as the human physical body. One must develop a critical processing of this math within and without, to become more in synch with one’s shadow existence, as a system of relationships, and change to be changeable in processing the math of the systems around us as the reality as the physical, and a superimposed system that is on one front,  a mechanism to control that lack of real processing ability, that is what our bodies are the perfect means to be and do. Essentially, this means to accept the gift of life that is a correct use of this instrument. 

I will continue with the word ‘ Protean.’ 

Thinking Big, Acting Small Day 795

Think big act small

This is a phrase, that I find myself repeating at the moment. I ask myself what does this mean? 

It is to utilize the what, where, why, when, and how.  All of these a basic math, as one recognizes the present, this moment, as such lends attention to the small act that is what one can do in any given moment. Such an equation of recognizing qualities of and as the things that are here as the physical, that substance one uses to move oneself as what one is here, as a physical state of being. These are the means to looking at the small as a sum of parts to then make a choice that respects what is here, as the very means of being, and to realize a focus of consideration with presence of more than only self, towards that which enables the self to exist.  I mean, why not master moving here, why not learn to move here, in this physical reality with ease? 

It is the same as mastering a musical instrument.  One must be aware of what is moving within the self, and the effects of what is created on the environment around one. If I did not maintain a balance, meaning myself moving with ease, the imbalance, as a tension, would accumulate and attention would have to leave focus on the greater whole, and attend to what was not attended to in the onset within the self, and rebalance and correct. That which accumulated and took attention away from being in awareness of more than only the self, as one cannot perform with a group if one is not listening to all parts. 

One’s language , as what one speaks as sounds, representing thoughts, reflective of the values one chooses to place on one’s tongue are never the real thing, and always about what is here, as one’e experiences. When we only listen to what one says, without placing it into the physical and practical context , do we separate ourselves from what is real, and take the picture show  ABOUT what is here, to be more than what is here? I mean, a baby is not born with language, with the ability to manipulate a tongue into words, this they learn from their environment. As is made clear in all reading research, as research in reading skills development, those who have a larger  effective vocabulary, simply have greater success. An effective vocabulary is what one tongues, having a direct relationship to the sum of the parts, as the integrity of this practical - because it is physical - reality, around us.

This would mean that we often focus more on the equations as the words people speak, than we do on the reality. Thus, words are a great means of self definition and also a great means of manipulation. Words from a distance, meaning words dictating what should be done in a moment in a given place, on this earth,  cannot possibly be in consideration of all the things that are in that place, because the presence of the parts of one given place is not possible from a distance within a consciousness locked in value judgements misusing the imagination. Such is a human being who has lost all sentiment, or sentience, because listening to the words of another, and building pictures in one’s head based on a starting point of a set of words, is a state of not being focused in reality. This is what, in all common sense, has been done with children placed in a box, away from reality, to then learn about reality, in a closed room, practicing making pictures in imagination ONLY, over and over and over again. When we repeat an action, we become that action, as this is how one learns about things, to look and to attempt to interact until one realizes the parts. Thus, to say we learn by repetition, is a lie, because we try and try again until we see, until that absorbent ability senses the parts and then practices moving them accordingly, within proper function. This is what we did without  manuals, as we learned to sense our arms and our legs and our tongue; we in essence,  sensed the parts and learned of their relationships to the whole. In this, we acted small, to think big, we acted small to become aware of the environment around us, that bigger extension of ourselves, the reality we were in a relationship with. 

The fewer words a person effectively knows, the greater the tendency towards degrees of violence and frustration. These are actions of force, which means that one does not have the vocabulary to direct one’s self effectively. One has not integrated the necessary small acts that are required to get something done effectively. In order to increase vocabulary, one must not only practice the language, as place correct sounds on the tongue, utilizing the human physical instrument effectively, one must also build considerate relationships of and towards the reality that is what enables that tongue to accept a sound to use to communicate. 

One example, from my perspective that reveals how great is the separation from considering reality, a physical reality, are the social warriors, who believe that the personality, which is a composition of values used to define a person is greater than the real story of creation as the real symbols as the physical reality that is all around us, that is here. Acts of resistance towards anything that does not perpetually substantiate that self definition which is of shadow as ideas about one’s potential is in fact, in measure, a state of resonant separation from reality.  Realize from a subtle shift in perspective, it is threatening to realize a personification of values used to define the self are potentially limited on a physical planet, if the planet should be considered before in-culturated/repeatedly practiced as absorbed from parents of the same movements , as a series of value judgements/self embraced definitions are an act in lieu of respect for what is the same as the self, as the physical. This means a shift out of reality, into self inner ideas about who and what self is and does. Here, imagination is mis-used because one is using thought in a small way, instead of thinking big, as respecting all of what one is on a physical planet, AND respecting that before creating a shadow of personification of ideas, as which qualities are potentially generating a more, which creates a system of survival as competition to constantly compare qualities as values composing a combination of ideas about the self rather than who and what the self as a physical state of being really in practical fact is. Recognizing the small , as all things, moving as always being in a relationship to the physical reality, with respect, as focus here, is acting small, and yet considering the whole. It is to act small, and to think big. 

This is why, those who have an effective vocabulary, have more effective action in this reality. An effective vocabulary, is really having mastered a larger number of words, where the words have a direct relationship to this practical reality. Personalities fighting for their justification, are a series of words that have a relationship to a busyness in self definition without regard for who and what they really, practically, physically exist within and as. It is a mis use of the imagination, it is acting in self interest, as taking what one has inflamed into what one is as a singular value, and expecting everyone to make one’s self projected value judgement larger than the real and physical creation surrounding the self as a physical state of being. Most of us fear facing that ghost in the machine, because we are products of this separation from reality, so well defined in a box, for 13 years or so, in total separation from reality. What a beautiful design to cause whole generations of people to completely lose touch with what is real, the physical. I believe it is a post script to our churches. Or even a post-script-spell to a scare-crow type of figure when the crops failed as agriculture moved into more monopolized designs. Was our initial worship that figure to scare away the crows? Was that a small movement, or force, against nature? Was that the first personification made idol with the stuff of the physical?  What was that small movement that started a time-line of events that built a tree of less dimension, as a picture show lacking focus on working with the practical living physical reality all around us? When did we forget who and what we really are? When did we forget that we are the sum of all parts, as the big, where respecting the small was the means to realizing the whole. I mean, have a look, why do we start with the abc’s and end with the SAT’s? 

It is all a math, and it is time to form in the image and likeness of what is the means of being here, which is the physical reality. This is to think big and to open up effective practice, as to act small. It is so simple- that personification of hyper inflated values as the character of personification, is the ghost in the machine that is composed of value judgements that misuse the body, creating electrical currents to perpetuate the picture show in the head, that burn up the physical body because one is not in real presence with the life that is here, that is physical. One has no real integrity. One must become like a Sherman tank tongue, and speak up about this, again and again, and again, until it is heard, until one sees this, because as human beings, that are haptic entities, we are most happy when we are aware, we are most happy when we are thinking big and acting small.