Day 697 The separation from existence in the resistances to the real story.

The separation from existence in the resistances to the real story.

I can see when I resist. I can see this because I fear telling the real story, and instead I hold onto the lie. I know when I lie because I resist the real story. I see this when I react, whenI suppress expression as a movement when I fear losing a friend, or losing a job, or losing being accepted by a group of friends. My motivations as what I allow to direct me, in every move I make, reveal what I resist, and where I fear being clear. This absence of ease, and the tension of fear are me knowing where I am not telling the real story.

Yesterday I was with a friend and we sat for a moment looking at the roaring ocean, A man came and stood on the hill in front of my car, becoming a part of what was in the previous moment only a view of the ocean. My friend became annoyed and started to complain about that man having to stand right there in that moment.

This man moved away, and another man came and stood in the same spot. My friend suddenly said. ‘ Huh, I was so annoyed by that other man, and yet this man is not bothering me at all”

This friend of mine has had a stroke and is now trying to reclaim movement in the half of his body that has become paralyzed from the stroke. I have to ask myself why we begin to self monitor when something has gotten to the point of devastation in our lives. Why do we begin to look at our reactions to things, our lie-by-omission stories within, that are filled with resistances about and towards things in the world around us that are the same ‘ dust’ as us. 

This moment  revealed that we are aware of our resistances. It shows how our resistances to things - and ideas can be things -  we can realize in the very movement within ourselves.  We reject things, we push them in the form of blame and spite, our voices laced with irritation and anger, onto objects around us.  This act, of sound, really has only the power we give to it. It cannot touch us, unless we accept it. At times, we can use this, accept such dramas to detract attention away from ourselves, or into another subject. We use this to wind a way towards our own justifications for doing the same. It happens in many measures, with many colors of emotion. The shades of grey of spite and blame; an act of labeling without realizing the real potential within everyone. This means being a mis-use of a capacity to absorb measure and create with it. 

We spend our lives in such bubbles of ignorance until what we resisted accumulates and effects our bodies and the world around us, as a lack of our real potential is a kind of extinction of life. This is hidden in plain sight in our behaviors, as what we blame and spite, because projections of ideas about things onto others, objects and things is us resisting what is real as the physical world around us. We can realize this in those moments we spite and blame. This is not taking responsibility for one’s self, and being here, accepting the life around us that is what it is in plain sight.

Given that the math of what we accumulate within, effects what comes after, as the biblical math explains, what we allow as a sound within ourselves, lacking in real substance, as it is a house divided against itself,  what we believe and what we sound as a measure, as a belief, opinion or idea, if it is of resistance, it accumulated within us, and is passed down. From generation to generation we sound forward our self interest, effecting those to come. Because generation is what is generated/voiced/accepted, we give this to our children in the genes. If there is an order lacking in self responsibility, our children inherit our resistances. Or, our children inherit our lack of self monitoring, the degree of which is equal to the degree of spite and blame, as projecting name calling and label making about things and others. 

This can accumulate into dyslexia, and compound into ADD and ADHD, and autism. The drugs to control this, cannot remove this, and can even compound it some more, yet in the end this is what has been accepted and allowed. We can all see this, we all know this. It does and can get to the point of running on empty.  It can reverse itself, revoice itself, as each of us as well.  And it is done in the same manner as my friend. We ask ourselves through questioning our reactions to things, realizing where we resist. We realize the metaphysical resistances to and towards the things in our world within ourselves.  We forgive them, we use the gift of sound, the gift of life, and we sound anew what we are within ourselves. We do this before that stroke, we do this before our children bear the consequence of what we sounded. And why, because blaming a child for not seeing directly, is not an act of seeing directly, it is more of the same that has a consequence of paralyzing the within, the body, that then has a long road to recovery.

It is time to discover ourselves as life. To discover through questioning our allowances. This is gifting ourselves self responsibility, to be able to stand in every moment, never carrying a lie, and standing equal and one to the potential of life within ourselves. Remember, we see what we do, we know- so great is our capacity to sense the world around us.

Day 696 Does Consciousness work differently than we think? What is the simple?

The simple makes the steps small, outlines them, structures them.

The simple grounds, lends ease and turns inflated ideas into possibilities, into measurable applications.

Fear inflates values, causing chaos and the loss of communication with life. This is a loss of connection to the practical. When that moment appears, that moment of clarity, then that which blinded and covered life, shrinks into points that are but specs in space. This is when one can see the potential in creation, that field of endless possibility that was hidden, or shrouded by one’s fear.. What was huge and distracting, as a polarized and inflated energy, downsizes and becomes a memory of information of a mis-take, a process for gotten as what it is- like learning to walk.. Guilt and shame and self pity, are more of the same as blame and spite. 

That point of believing the inflated values that distract from the simple, can in every moment be made small, as I can remain constant in accepting the world around me, the physical that is in plain sight. We can as what we are, do one thing at a time so there is the space and time to realize what blocks seeing what is in plain sight. 

We all have moments where we see a way forward that is clear, as though we suddenly see a structural whole, yet to direct ourselves here, means moving one small measure forward, just like building a house. That next step must be walked. If I were master of myself, would I be able in every moment to see the whole and remain in the small, as that point of creation building, as that next step? Would this bring joy and the satisfaction that comes with real focus in the present moment? 

I mean I can fret over taxes, yet my taxes are done within adding numbers together. This is collecting digits about things and placing them into a form. I mean, cooking food involves more than this. Food has so many more qualities than adding up income earned and expenses covered. I can go back and look at bank account detail and highlight each expense in a color, and then add them all up. Twelve banks statements is really a very small number! It makes me wonder how our government can have a deficit especially when there are lots of people adding up the digits.. In today’s world with data collection, how can our government have unaccounted for money? Why do we listen to mandates based on data by a system that has no account in other areas? The answer is that we cannot. It is simple. 

How is it that I can see this in one area, and in another moment inflate some value and react to something with charged emotion? This is revisiting the point of seeing a response of ‘ complicated’ as myself not being practical, and here, and in the moment. I am the cause of complicated, which is really myself resisting myself. I can blame no one but myself. And why must I return to the simple, realizing it is a signature of being present?  Because this is the only way towards that kind of focus that in nature lends a sense of real ease. This is accepting creation.

In other words, I cannot make a decision until I realize the measure right in front of me, and understand it so well, I can move around within it, as in assess the information from many perspectives, with ease. This is a fearless ability to stand and assess, to investigate, to define and to question, to build a framework within any given area, and move in ways that cause no harm. It is who and what I am as life, always here, and that is myself hearing the potential of creation in every moment. This is becoming humble in relation to life. This is forgiving myself in respect of life, the physical being life information.

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Day 287 Children and the "concrete stage"

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I am looking at the educational concept of a child being ready for school when a “concrete” stage sets in, around seven years of age. This would mean that there is an ability to have a directing - so to speak - “constructive ability” within being able to understand a social interactive structure enough to move within this, thus, at this point a child is “ready” for school; a child is ready to sit and listen, to control their own behavior in relation to the group.
This would imply that there is a developmental stage where a child can hold a picture, a map, or a plan and follow a series of steps. Meaning, a child can follow a plan, hold a plan in and as their memory/mind. Which, in turn makes it clear that this is what the mind does, it creates maps - so to speak.
What if this map became what dominated actions, instead of that which created the “map”? And what is being fed to the child as the composition of this “map”?
Given the state of this world , would it not be clear that somehow this “map” is limited, as this world in definitely NOT in order? And how is it that this obviously limited “map” leaves behind what actually created this in the first place?
Children are not born with language, nor with religion. And here I think of some of the stories where spiritual/religious leaders have actually killed children because they were not “grasping” the religion fast enough for the parents obsessed with the ideas of such a fantastic existence as an alternate reality that is not here. Incredible.
Could this “map” become the carrot on the end of a string, and the actual physical/donkey that created the illusive-never-able-to-be-reached-carrot what is real? Is this in essence what we are doing to ourselves and our children?
And is this carrot a composition of limited beliefs, opinions and ideas, that are parts of this existence, divided up in different ways throughout this world within cultural divisions, where all the values exist they are merely spread out and sectioned off instead of being allowed expression directly through the physical, where this mind/map holder is really a means to aid in expression within allowing the physical to remain directive as the creator that it is able to create the map, and move itself here, sense here as is its nature, it being life, where this map, is a picture from a moment and not directly the substance of life, and only a secondary image? And would this not be an inter-dimensional replication of what man has created outwardly on this planet? And has this not become what directs us, just as our supposed mind/maps become what is believed to be reality, when in fact it is just a picture of reality, and even here, refractions of reality, pieces of the whole, as limited values - that in themselves are not necessarily good or bad, yet when made idol and all that is seen, destructive because it is a limitation in separation from realizing the whole with each breath, taking a picture of here, with each step, using this map in this way to move within what is immediate within one’s environment to be aware of what is actually physically real, to consider all that exists, so that all is moving as an expression of itself as life, and thus naturally being life, and thus being what is best for all, as this is what life is, as is the nature of life, life being absolutely considerate of itself in totality?
And if this is what has been accepted and allowed, by men, on this for-giving earth, this carrot/mind/map made bigger than life, are we not missing life?
And would not this, limited carrot/map/mind image actually be the fault of each and every human, in that the limited values of this, these selected values, not good or bad, but simply limited, be directives because they were made bigger than life, as this was feared to be let go of, because this was all that was seen, as self as life forgot life? Because, selfthought that self as object as image, was better than another. was better than something outside of self that was of the same substance as life as self, so this forgetting of self as life, is the root cause of separation, as this is separation from the equality and oneness of life in all existent on this earth, in fact in all that is here as life? Thus has this continued, compounding through eons of time, to where we are today, on an earth, rapidly being destroyed in the name of profit based on an idea, at the end of a string in the shape of a carrot, and meanwhile behind that carrot at the end of that string/stick is a whole see/sea of life, here to allow ourselves as life, be and live in equality and oneness in and as life.
Desteni is taking us to the water, yet each of us must stop and drink. For our children, there is placed a screen in front of that water/physical/creator filled with images of a pornographic nature, of war, of diamond rings, of Cinderella, of bearded gods, and thus our children die, become the cinder, a much less expected potential then what was felt when they were young, as they are starving because the water, as themselves as life, is denied them, and it is right here, ever present, it is simply being ignored and all because a carrot, as limited beliefs, opinions and ideas, is what they have been taught to follow.
And though I know I am no better than what I describe, any and all self pity or embarrassment, or potential attack about this, must be faced because the only way out of this is to self forgive the separation from life, to realign oneself equal and one to the physical, to realize this is the value and the means of life, that this present system must realign with the structures and forms that are here, to support the needs of this physical existence in ways that support all the life here equally, as life is the value.

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Day 140 Walking the Desteni I Process, the correction of self back to life

Cover of Feelings

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A chord in music is composed of tomes on a spectrum. One can learn to hear the individual notes, and recognize the chord, be it dissonant or assonant. We, the human are composed as well, we are collections of ideas, and beliefs, and opinions, and they create a “chord” as what we are that is our persona, our personification of what we have been exposed to. Our memories show us what we have beed exposed to, our reactions based on our past, the stimulus of our persona. Our family/parents,  education, society, religious beliefs all are a chord of what we are, as though our experiences build, or are the blocks, or notes of what we are. This is why we have archetypes, and/or characters we can recognize in the people that surround us, why we can place a label on a person, and place them within a certain class or group and/or profession. That we are able to do this suggests that the personas are actually built, composed based on… what i listed above. We can loop around in this, but standing back and slowing down and breathing, we can stand outside of this and see this persona as the signs we follow to move us around on this board here on earth, within a system that uses this, a system where money determines who lives and who dies. Within such a system such “sign posts” as personas are the rules (rulers) of the game of getting money, of survival, as we read them to manipulate them to survive, or some might say, to get what we want,. If we take this “get what we want” even further and do not just accept the face value of these words, as an end game, we will. as we stand back and breath, and slow ourselves down, see that the getting of what we want is what is needed to survive. Within this, the are variations of structures as personas, as chords, as compositions, that have a past, socially and within class as family, that believe their survival needs a degree of comforts, and anything less is a loss. Regardless, if this means that others have nothing, because all that is being “sounded”/personified as one’s composition, is all that exists, so busy being this personification and filling this embedded, impressed upon composition are we, the human, that we are no longer able to practically see this physical world.

So, I am going to look at asking questions here. Sometimes I will ask a question and I will get a happy feeling response, where the person will say something like, Oh, but they are doing a good job. And, the human has been trained to not go against a “happy face” energetic , meaning energy response, meaning e-motion-al, response. Now this is emotional because it is not looking at the question asked, it is side stepping this question and placing a happy face value on what exists, where if one- as in the social etiquette, should stand up and “kill” that happy face response, it will upset the human’s happy face presentation and that person that gave a “happy face” will feel rejected, as the “happy face” persona has been ignored, disqualified. Oh no! Terrible, so terrible! lol.  : )  

On the other pole, a question asked that, in effect, does not want to be answered as this might open a pandoras box - of practical consideration- can be met with bullying. Here, the answer is something like, “that is the way it is.” Both of these are endgames, simply avoidance tactics to not look at all the consequences, or recognize what is able to be done as the potential. Looking at these means changing what is here, and that persona will have to lose some of it’s criteria as what upholds it. The chord will have to  change, transpose, reconfigure, look at itself. This will involve some deconstruction, some depth perception, a reality check, looking at what is here in totality. 

But if one has followed one chord for so long, the grooves are so embedded, it is going to take some work to change this, to transpose this, to reconfigure this, to change this, to thus be able to answer the question instead of  becoming the bully or the happy face. Emotions are energetic movements, not actual physical doing within what would build a society of value, where the supposed exception to the rule becomes the norm, the exception being what has reached a level of potential beyond what the majority reach. 

Thus we know we build our personas, and we know that the exception shows us the potential, and we know that emotions and feelings, as bullying and happy face talk are avoidance tactics. And we know we have an economic system on this earth that is not supporting life as the norm.

As we age, our personas get so NOISY that we can no longer hear anything else. So, if someone comes and asks a question, the questioner will get this diluted, compounded, no longer seeing potential accepting a supposed “norm”  answer where the respondent will not even see anything else, and expect the questioner to see what they see! And within this, the respondent will become emotional should the questioner not MATCH their composition.

This is really fucked up, yet this is what the human is.

Imagine children facing this? Imagine children standing up to this? Children who have no “chord” ringing in their ears, and no developed vocabulary with which to express themselves to face the  separations as the personifications the adult has accepted in loss of depth perception, in loss of hearing, here-ing, practical common sense, as they have accepted enslavement supposed “norms.”

Not to mention, the adult speaking in assumptions the child cannot fathom, the happy faces and the bullying, as what is no longer able to perceive and who has not developed potential, thus has not become what is able to sense and perceive this world as all that is seen is a simplified image as persona where the construction of which is no longer fathomed, meaning no longer remembered as the notes that composed the image, as the notes are so distant that the pixels, as the parts, are no longer seen.

This separation must stop, as this separation has created this world of abuse, as within so without. Thus it is the responsibility of the human to stop and breath and see self as what self has allowed and accepted, to clean this up and realize the composition as self, and what is on this earth, is of our own creation. We are the creators, we have created this. This means our potential is great - so to speak, yet we are not living this. It also means, as the composers that we are, that we can compose a world that is best for all, and allows full potential to be the norm. 

Right now, we, the human, are existing in reverse, we have impressed the supposed “norm” with the exception being an exception, where it is the opposite, the exception is the norm as life, one and equal, the exception is more in alignment with life being in expression, lacking abuse.

Thus this world has no justification for starvation, for sexual abuse, for animal or plant abuse, for homelessness, for ill health. All of it is of each and every one os us and what we have accepted and allowed. There are no excuses, and realize that any voice that comes up in opposition to this, is self lacking the use of self as life, of the ability of self as life to perceive life as the value.

Thus, the way out is to walk the process of slowing self down with breath, self forgiveness, and corrective application, as practical tools to realize the separation into and as what has no substance, that which manifest as energy as emotion, as this energy is self dissipated into no longer looking at consequences, no longer considering all life and only hearing/here-ing one singular desire - as what the advertising world promotes, thus this world is without, what we have become within.

Take the desteni I process walk, pick up the tools, realize self, lose everything to gain everything, live the principle, as what we know as it has been given and spoken many times,  to give as you would like to receive,  to become self as what is the actual norm, the potential of man to be and become creators of life. 

It is time to stop the mind, through breathing, through self forgiveness, through self corrective application, The desteni I process is simple, walk it, one step at a time, to reveal to unfold the personification of self fitting into what is same within and without, to enable self to hear life, to begin the process of taking what is here, that is not good or bad, and realigning it to support life, to allow life, within full potential becoming the norm, to exist.

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Self forgiveness Blogs walking the 7 year Journey to Life, a drop in the bucket in time, which will take time.
Eqafe the history and stories of how we became what we are, to understand, see and realize ourselves as life. And yes, presently this existence takes money to survive, and what is asked is actually not that much. One cannot live in this system as it presently exists without money, so suggesting that this should be free, is being what I talked about above.
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Day 138 What happened to the potential in our children?

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I had to drive a distance today. In the car, in a lot of traffic. So many thoughts coming up, daydreaming. Stop.  Knowing the thoughts will just loop around and go nowhere, not solve anything, much like anger, an act of tantrum and not an act of direction. Simple common sense. The daydreaming, suddenly there, so habitual. So consuming, so pointless. like anger, as I said.

To get on top of my thoughts, emotions and feelings as myself in separation, myself with no direction, just storming away. That is what they are. No substance at all. This takes time. How mush more is there. A lot, because I am not absolutely directive. I had the heavy feeling of not wanting to write tonight. But the writing gets this out, pulls it out, to the point where there is no choice but to write, to get more of this separation back into self, so that self can begin to have some substance and not be so divided and conquered by the mind, by the storms,  of no substance.

How much further can one go, to the point where this can be brought up in the children?

Imagine children, no longer loosing potential, as what I have heard so many parents say. I have heard my father and another man, say that their child showed so much potential as children and then go on to describe how their children were. And then the solemn look on their faces, like the longing for the feeling of the potential of the child is all there is, instead of the question as to what happened. This must not be part of the program, to ask such questions. Here one must face a fear, it is more comforting to wallow in the memory of the child’s potential, and to wallow in the pity of lost opportunity. This makes one feel as though one has meaning? The drug of emotion, the memory of hope. What is this, does this do anything? It is pointless. And obviously, it can have no substance, as it is a wallow and not directive, it is a wishing, about as productive as throwing a coin in a well and uttering some words. Has superstition, placing/projecting a want, need and/or desire onto something worked with absolute accuracy? No, definitely not, or this world would be a different place. Obviously.

There is nothing wrong with the want within this scenario of children, but asking an invisible force to comply is ridiculous, because the magic is in doing this as self, being this as self, living this potential, thus how can someone else do this for the child? They can’t, it has to be realized, physically realized, self directed, lived.

And this is not happening. Instead the child grows up and becomes the same as the father, sighing and imagining a moment of seeing potential. And so it goes, the sins of the fathers. Generation after generation. Is there a message in the use of the word “generation” within signifying the past?

I mean, by the time parents have aged, they have become such good factory workers, for this system, that they choose to file into a church, a place of worship, and stand or sit in rows and listen to one voice tell them what they are, what to do, how to be etc. Just as they began, in school, so many years ago. 

Is there any self direction developed in this scenario? Is there any substance to this scenario? Is this bringing forth the potential of that child, seen and forgotten, wallowed away into seeking direction instead of being direction? Is not the answer right here? This absence of directive, self directive development?

Wouldn’t it make sense that within a profit based system, this very self development would not be a good idea, as self developed and thus self able, and thus self directed in common sense people/children would emerge and no longer file in line to school, file in line to the grave, from the school door to the church door. There is a lot more on this earth than these man made doors.

Wake up. Become something of substance. bring up that spark of potential in the child seen, make not of it a dream, but an actual physical, healthy reality, as what it is in fact.

This is what is life, this is the value, that unique spark in that child, ready for direction. This system of inequality will not develop this, as this is not profitable for a few, because this is allowing all to be life, to live the value, the substance of life as what we are in fact. Thus this system must change, to support this as the value. What is here is given freely to allow this to be, as this is what here is! This system of inequality denies this, and it has gone on for so long that we can no longer see this. This is the separation that exists as the human. Only Humpty Dumpty can put this back together again. We have been told in so many ways.

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Day 45 Advertising consumerism is the Pied Piper

Day 45 Advertising consumerism is the Pied Piper

I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to see, realize, understand that what is advertised in the media, product and  behaviors is the Pied Piper, taking children and focusing their attention onto products that do not support their health, where these children have no understanding of how these products are developed and do not understand the indoctrination through the use of emotional indoctrination through coupling fantastic super hero abilities with toys - used to pretend performance as an act of being - instead of actually developing, in common sense, the ability of the child to physically be involved with themselves and this earth and within this, to not even disclose the effects of sugar and processed foods on their health and the environment of the earth as a whole, where the parents have not even taken to the time to question what is happening to a human physical body that replaces its cells every seven years and thus asked what is it that creates the wear and tear on the human physical body.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to allow my children to blindly accept what is proposed within a system of profit, when I my self as the adult see people dying of cancer and other diseases and not realizing that what has been promoted ONLY is promises of cures of cancer with huge charities collecting money “for the cure” yet a cure has not come forth, where even the government states that chemo therapy does not work, where it is known that tunors are filled with pesticides, and where it is known that like cancels like, and thus the cancer cells can be treated in destroying the cell wall and thus eliminating the cancer cell with non invasive methods that do not cause harm to the healthy parts of the human physical body.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not realize that the medical industry has been built by men, where many depend on the present system to make money, and thus fear speaking up in fear of losing their income, where loss of income means loss of ability to maintain a home, and thus in order for practices that are detrimental to human development to stop, and an end put to the pyramids of hospitals on the landscape to be what is made huge instead of a landscape where ease exists, as presently - as in Boston, for instance, there are huge complexes of medical facilities as what we the human have on this earth- money must be used to support life instead of profit, as a profit based system locks people into serving what profits those in control of the interest of profits.

I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to  stand back and take a look at what is presented in mainstream media, the very foods that are known to not promote health, the pharmaceutical products that have not in fact cured disease, as many cities have huge hospital complexes indicating that the medical industry is enormous as it covers our cities and braodcasts itself endlessly through television ads and magazine ads where the ads cover whole pages, of which there are always quite a few in every magazine, and as who advertises pays the bills/salaries of the journalists and thus it is not in the best interest of the journalist to continue with his means of survival should questions be asked as to the efficacy of what is being advertised within the very pages/channels discourse about the world is shared.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not realize that the promotion of free will is in favor of a profit based system because not only does it give me hope in believing I have the freedom to achieve whatever I desire, it also gives a profit based system of industry the excuse to use free will to promote what is known to not support life, saying “ I can develop whatever I want , I can promote and develop detrimental products that are addictive so that I can survive in this competitive system of profit where money determines who lives and who dies and it is the free will of the people who chose to buy detrimental products that are to blame” when obviously a system of profit can control the flow of money through subsidies to make the poisonous products all that is available through affordability, where what is healthy and supportive of life is not subsidized and thus difficult for many to purchase.

I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to realize that the tax money I pay supports these subsidies and thus I support detrimental products and practices indirectly even if I have salary that allows me to purchase health sustaining foods.

I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to realize and understand that a child that exists on sugar, processed sugars, is being poisoned and as long as I am a tax paying citizen, I am supporting this as these very same sweeteners are made cheap through subsidies, where the abuse extends to the environment, as it takes a lot of water to grow corn, and even the corn grown is using petrochemicals that are being flushed into the Gulf of Mexico where there are areas presently absent of sea life, a clear indication that a lack of best practice in favor of profit, a system of monoculture,  is not in fact supporting life, as what is being supported is profit, where profit must create a hierarchy to survive, a scenario of more than and less than, a scenario of followers and leaders, where the follower is no longer a follower if what is of this earth is fully disclosed, were the full development of the human would equalize men, and thus put an end to leaders and followers, and that all that has been promoted with the idea of human nature being a nature of limitation, which is in contradiction of the ability of young children to rapidly learn languages with ease, learn to play musical instruments with ease, learn to use computers - when the computers where placed in slums in India the children learned to discover and understand seemingly complex relationships in science without having a college education, clearly indicating the capacity within a young child no matter their education, thus in every way, our present system of profit where money determines who lives and who dies, is not supporting the inherent ability of our children to reach their full potential, and it is only a belief, that human nature cannot change, when our children show us what we are in fact capable of.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not see, understand and realize that what is promoted in media, be it television or journalism, is promoting what supports profit and creates bling/blind followers and is thus, not the will of life, as life would not suppress the abilities clearly visible in the human child, and in fact, this system - evident in the promotion of sugar cloaked in the tantalizing idea of “free will” - uses poison, as sugar, to cause disease within the human instead of supporting best practices in health, as health is not a structure supporting profit, as health is a state of ease, as it is war that creates profit/discord/competition/division/fear.

I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to see, realize and understand that the friction of a survival based system is what is accepted and allowed and created by the human in separation from life,  in separation from best practices that consider what is best for all and that for detrimental practices to be what is promoted, best practices must be known and if I take the time to look within I will know where I have not been self honest as life as that which I am and within this realize that my physical self is here supporting my self, this physical that I have no awareness of, a lack promoted by this system, is greater than myself, as the physical determines the death of me and not myself.

I commit my self to realizing that the physical is greater than myself.

I commit my self to realizing that I exist because of the physical.

I commit my self to researching this physical world and understanding why best practices are not employed.

I commit my self to understanding why a poison is being promoted on television, to understand that advertising pays the salaries of the media, that the politicians can be enticed - mafia style- through the discovery of weaknesses as desires- as politicians are men brought up in a system that promotes suppression of potential, where any man, wanting to survive and suppressing self honesty within a system of competition where money determines who lives and who dies, will easily be manipulated as he is a product of suppressed potential needing outlet, where the outlets promoted are plastered all over this earth, as sex, power, money creating want, need, desire, instead of self as what self is, support by this physical world, as life able to understand from a very young age this physical world, that which is lost by the demands of a competitive, waring system of profit, here the aging and disease of our human physical bodies is showing to us our very suppressions as self as life.

I commit my self to waking up self as life through self forgiveness, writing and corrective application, to bring my self back, to equalize myself with, the physical, my  human physical body, the gift of life as the physical is life, as I cannot and have never transcended death.

I  realize that advertising and consumerism is the Pied Piper taking my children away from themselves as life and into an alternate reality leading to a death  where life has never been lived and potential never fulfilled as a system of profit is a song of death disallowing transfiguration of my self into and as life, here.

Speak Self forgiveness for 21 days.