Correcting cognitive dissonance A battle for the mind Day 764

The degree to which we resist to what is here, is equal to the degree in which we cling to storied information as idea, belief and opinion over practical reality.

What is practical reality but what gets things done, and mirrored in actions that work with form and function in ways that do no harm. Such means having a presence that is a focus on this reality, a physical one.

The sound that we make as the words we use, what we emit from our bodies as the instrument of the sound, either reflects presence and awareness, or the storied information of our desires wants and needs, meaning how much of this reality we ignore in the interests of what we believe will allow us to survive. Yet, we use this reality to survive, we cannot exist without it. To consider only our immediate survival without ensuring our actions care for ourselves, which is all things, is a punishment of the self. When we label an action and configure it with value judgements, to paint/sound a limited story we actually stagnate our presence into being separate, thereby making the picture of our belief larger than life and as such out of synch with this living reality.  Thus the busy-ness of chaos is done with limitation. It is a non-sustaining sound. With each spoken word that is not in consideration of all things, we diminish who and what we really are. In this all death of non-awareness is a form of suicide of the self. It is basically a math.

Not standing up to limited story, that is only a value made huge in self interest, as bringing forward a value as a quality as the nature of something is not necessarily a bad, as this is the self moving in a focus of what is here, to realize form and function, movement and expression of the physical reality.  Using label coupled with threat of being labeled as less, is a false morality.  The quality of separation is as the description suggests, it takes one’s focus away from the practical actions that respect who and what we are a physical states of being, as being would be. 

Inherent in my desire to be intellectual, manifest as wanting to collect information and knowledge is a truth as an understanding of realizing something must be known, understood, realized. REAL eyes. 

Placing myself into a consciousness of fixed knowledge and information, causes a separation from real focus on this practical living reality that is and must be physical, or formed, or manifest, or realized.

I think of all the karate movies, or stories about people who have mastered something, like having lessons with a master. They have no patience for excuse. They stand. I remember going to lessons and having a teacher simply say to me , ‘ Stop being weird.” One must get beyond the morality of being ‘ nice.’ It is really an illusion, it is to speak up about this reality in a steadfast way, even when emotional reactions scream their false reality.  People are ignorant but they are not stupid. Creating a mind consciousness of a conscious, sub conscious and unconscious mind and going to public school to practice for six hours a day being in the conscious mind only, is by design, accepted and allowed by the collective, the means of controlling information, and the movement into a suppression of one’s real capacity. After all, what is the main complaint about public schools that has been consistent since their onset? The loss of critical and creative thinking skill. Or the loss of presence in practical reality.  What do I hear from many employers? That this generation has little if no, practical skill.  That is being weird, because reality is right here in plain sight. 

If I were to say something like that, as has been said to me in lessons, and I started to cry, there should really be no sympathy beyond a certain point, because this is allowing the means of one’s loss of presence, as the only choice is to lend what brings one back to what is natural, as being present in this reality. the insights of being practical, removes the desire to cry, as a passive means of defense of one’s already accepted and allowed state of separation into a limited story of information that is in itself a self interest of idea, belief and opinion personified and made larger than reality. This is really what a master who accepts nothing other than what is presence in application is doing. They are accepting nothing other than real focus and presence in reality. Holding that is the only way to be. 

This is why depression is always a state of self interest, a state of not taking responsibility, a state of being dishonest. This is a state of not respecting life.  If this scares me, then I am in fear, and I am not present in this reality. 

Every word we speak reveals the degree to which we are being responsible as life, because we are only speaking what it is that is the focus of who and what we are, here. 

Why do I write these things out again and again and again? it is the work of, the play of, the process of and as re-scripting myself into realizing the patterns within, of self interest, of fear, and re-scripting myself equal and one to the real common sense of and as all of me, as who and what I am as a living being on a physical planet that is creation in expression, here. 

DAY 529 The drama of ego upon structure.

I had a talk with my son today and he said that he learned to remain calm and follow the structure of a process and in so doing he ended up being an exemplar in his responsibility. What he noticed was the ego game going on around him, the others making things into big issues and competing to be important. In the end my son realized that drama so-to-speak going on around him and how unnecessary it was. In all, I have to say that that “ drama” is a form of entertainment also.

The conversation started because I had talked about how I had realized this within the music profession. The same ego dramas happen. Clicks start with a peer group, and the combat begins. But what I noticed, even when I fell within this, that the one’s participating within the competition and need for recognition, did not have the capacity to remain consistent in their playing, and within myself, remaining within the structure of the music foremost, I moved up to the front, and began to remain there consistently.

Still, I find myself allowing uncertainty when the competition comes in with spite and off putting accusation of blame etc. If someone feels that another is a threat, they attack with little measures of things. But then again, ego is a little measure of things. lol

In all, this is about how I continue to react to competition that attacks, even when I have faced objections and walked them into a structure that calms the reaction. 

Now I have to go and face some people, walk with them for a moment. I find myself having some dread, but I realize that this is a lack of structure, I am looking at myself becoming inferior to here, as it is here that I am the director of my own executive function  and that I can move myself as a working memory if I have scripted the simplicity of what I am about in regards to the principle of what is best for all.

 It reminds me of seeing a man who turned into a demon, where the demon part was the emotional storm, and that storm seemed of no substance, so I realized that this man could have no effect on me unless I allowed it, and that behind that projection was that man, who was kind, and gentle, confused and lost. So, when I talk with others, I know this is there, because this is the nature of life, this is an innate desire to participate with the total fabric of this actual physical world that is the structure of life that enables the expression of life, and that it is the awareness of how we are also physical beings and not only a mind that imprints an understanding of physical reality  and that it is this function through which we are controlled and that ends up creating a projection instead of the equality to here, with ease, that is that which we seek. Thus, do I face the storm, to reach the joy, through walking the objections to here, using the principle of what is best for all as my constant, as this is the real “ angle mark” ( Spelling on purpose) Because, it is a mechanistic uni-verse of life expression that is a measure that the very substance that enables up to learn to crawl and walk and eventually talk,  that builds an executive function that is of a working memory that is equal to here in measure and precision and that that which builds is that which must remain in awareness to perpetually cross reference with that which enables awareness, which is the physical world.

It is interesting, because within the eyes of people one can see the fog, a layer of cloudiness and also the whole musculature of the physical in tension. And I suppose I see this because I have had to be aware of it within myself within playing the violin. I also notice that things come up in adults, and that this is not as thick in children. With a child one can reach a clearness at time, greater than with an adult. And all of this helps me to realize that within and as me there is a fog, and it sets me shaking ever so slightly. This is where I allow myself to become inferior to here. I am no longer at ease. And I realize that my lack of ease, is a belief in a constant protection and defense for survival. The irony is that I cannot survive all, because the all that is here as the physical, is how I exist, so if I eliminate others I eliminate myself, thus the only solution is to face the projection, as belief, opinion and idea, the sins of the fathers as the key board of DNA where such has been passed on because it has not been cleared by the collective of men on earth, it has not been equalized to that which enables life, which is the physical. It is as though we men, have been given the gift of creation and we have abdicated that gift because we held the object more precious that the formation allowing the act of creation as being the real value. Our real museum is the physical world around us, where we are the muses, creating life in expression as the physical.

DAY 417 Common Sense is Our Natural Learning Ability

All children are born with an ability to sense the world. They start ordering this world, sensing its structure with their very physical bodies, the tool to sense this world. This is why they start putting things in their mouths, to sense the texture, the shape, the size, all the qualities that an object of substance consists of and as. Slowly this builds into clear structures and awareness of properties of this physical geometrical world.

As well,  the child senses their own physical body and the way and means of movement within that form. This then leads to learning words. Words are structures that define the space of here, that describe the qualities of here. In Iceland, I believe there are many words for the various formations of water turned into a solid, and if one is born into this culture, one is taught how to read the solid water on the landscape. Important for survival in such a world.

But what if a world in which one lived, presented a limited expression of self? What if a world where a few owned what is freely given and with this form an added structure of power and control, taught a limited vocabulary that adhered to the values focused upon in self interest for the maintenance of that control and power? If words are keys to expression, then words can be impulsed within limited actions available to survive, diminishing the common sense, the natural learning ability into an arena that is of limited values and because the values are limited, not necessarily good or bad, but limited, the child becomes limited in their expression and thus their understanding of this geometrical world, where what is here as the physical world makes sense when investigated.

But this is the problem, if the actual real physical world were what we were taught to read, we would understand this world. Instead we are taught to read behaviors of values as a personification of what serves power and control, instead of community with physical reality. If we understood physical reality before behavior to a central power, we would have the power of ourselves as our natural learning ability to realize the movement and function of this real, supportive physical world. In being impulsed to read the venue of a form of power and control as the without as us, we take in following an idea over the power that is innate within us to read and understand physical reality. We give our power away to a directive created with what is the directive, our natural learning ability, and we allow this to be the following of and as ourselves, a second hand. Another cannot direct the object of ourselves here because they are not here on our ground, they are there on their ground, thus their directive will be of a limited perspective. This is why there are many men, to allow the expression of men to be on earth to see what is physically happening on earth. If we are taught to read this physical earth, we must then value the ground on which we stand, then we will not only come to understand but also take actions that do no harm  to that on which we stand. A centralized power loses contact and thus common sense of the physical. Just think of all the bureaucracies that layer a state of confusion which is really to hide the lack of perspective from a central power because that central power has no sense of physical reality, being lost in directing and believing that they must control which is ourselves fearing our common sense and abdicating ourselves as life, ironically that which we end up longing for. And when the control does not go according to plan, more controls are placed. We keep doing more of the same expecting a change, when more of the same does the same. Those with the control and idea of power do not realize that it is the non development of man as the perfect tool to read the physical that when developed to read the physical geometrical world would become the structure that understands the physical and moves with and as it in common sense. It is like the tools are here right in front of us and they are of much greater ability than anything man has built, and yet we deny them, so great is our separation from reality. An evil, as it is the opposite of “ live.” Just read the news, the play-out is all there. And it is a crime to not look. All actions of blame are an abdication of self responsibility. Self responsibility is innate as our common sense, right here in front of us as us, thus self responsibility is common sense and this would be solution, absolutely. It is right here, right in front of us, and it is what is real. Consciousness/mind is the story of our separation. 

The answer is not in putting up more signs, the answer is in developing the carrier of common sense: man. Thus human “ rights” would “ right” the world, as man would be able to read the physical. No longer would abnormal behaviors be directives, the directive would be equality with physical reality. Ideas about the physical, limited perspective, that are in essence abnormal behavior, would end as they would be balanced out in common sense with physical reality. The rape of children would end. Starvation would end, we need only accept ourselves as life, take up our common sense, as this is the principle of what is best for all.

The physical world is a brilliant design, because it does not allow a centralized power, it gives the power of creation to all, it gives the very substance of creation, which is real power, through the total fabric of the physical reality, to enable it to work with what causes no harm to any part, thus things that form are what is best for all, sustaining a state of balance. When this power is made second hand, this second hand cannot choose what is best because it is not equal to all parts, it has taken on a value of being more, of believing itself to understand, when as its very starting point is of a separation. Thus, by giving/allowing natural common sense to all of life, as the forms created working together,  the total functions.

This is why a Living Income Guarantee will begin to “ right” the fabric of earth and begin to remove abnormal behaviors that are not in accord with respect for all life, that are not in accord with causing no harm. We have been behaviors of survival for so long, stepping out of this habit may seem like a death, when all it is, is stepping out of a limitation and back into our natural learning ability to structure this world into an order that understands the myriad qualities of the physical world and “ plays “ with then to express creation, a much more fulfilling state of being than a lesser substance, known as energetic movement, as emotions and feelings that are the accumulation of limited values as thoughts of dictate to serve a lesser god of centralized power that is by form and design in separation from physical practical understanding of this geometrical able-to-be-read world. It can be realized within this that the present structure is a crime against life. Period. Thus a change into a system of equality, is really just coming home. What we have all been seeking.

Stop the paranoia of unknowing common sense, start self forgiveness and self corrective writing yourself back into and as yourself as life, your gift of life, your common sense, your natural ability as life. Time to stop the mind, we need to get this world into its natural order, life. This is FREE

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Day 159 Letting go is only reformation

Humans learn ( takes in ) what is presented. If new presentations given, with more detail, the accepted presentations held/under stood/ conceived/ imaged will need to rebuild/ reconstruct/ re-image to include new details. This requires letting go of what was previously believed/ idealized/ opined. This “letting go” to reconstruct/re-imaged/ re- under stood/ cause a re-formation. This process of reformation - for what it is , if not realized as a process/reformation, will then seem/appear/feel upsetting / unsettling/ uncomfortable ( the communicated “ fort” “set at your table” as mind of belief!) as the will-ing to change previous insight as accepted/embedded belief was not including all details/awareness of the whole.
Within this, behaviors as reactions are a “not wanting to change”- as we do not realize including more detail - we hide from what is here in upholding our composition as belief ( ignorance) - and this simply means reforming belief, a process of reconstruction, as understanding an awareness of which is not taught or practiced or understood as a process in and as itself!
What is taught, is just taking in the presentation without seeing it as a formation that is mutable in that it is just a formation. The process of understanding within self of forming self is not understood or clarified and learned as how we work.
Thus, we cling to the formations as the collection of details presented. If these details - taken in as a mind, the tool, as a memory bank of pictures that are a text book-like computation ofknowledge and information, are accepted as ALL the facts - meaning an absolute- and we follow them/ move as them/become comfortable with them ( if they happen to work for us - which is a very few- and thus not absolute) changing them becomes more difficult. It has become habitualized/automated and change becomes a seeming threat to this habitualized driving set of beliefs.
Presenting a limited set of ideas/beliefs/opinions is a crime against life, it is a starvation of life, it is a with-holding of understanding of life, it is being given limited understanding of life, it is an inner starvation of and as life. Thus, most of the world is starving physically because physical support is withheld, and we in the west are in starvation of ourselves as life expression ( pushing papers is NOT life) and all the behaviors existent as supposed deviation from the norm - the norm being the limited presentation - reflect the frustrations, the starvation of life expressions, that cannot and will not - as the will of life - fit into a relation - limited/secondary/ non all/ absolute/ construct that denies understanding/awareness of what/how we work/ the system works etc.
This presentation of limited values distorts reality, and we, as in-printable humans accept the limitations as absolutes, not realizing the relative associations that our experiences are as the presentations.
This distortion becomes all that we know - and it is only a collection of knowledge and in-formation! In other words, fantasy is distortion; we as mind have made the fantasy - as the in-formation- real! A complete separation from life!
Thus, our fantasies, the dreaming, the memories, in and as the mind never tell the whole story, so when reality sets in, the dream - that is the distortion - as it is a composition of limited values- is the song of separation from what is actually here. It is a song in and as mind, composed - of not necessarily bad values- but of limited values to the point where we no longer are reading what is actually physically here!
Movies, dreams, imaging is a distortion of reality, a separation from being absolutely one and equal with what is physically actually here. And being here - one and equal to this physical world would fill the senses of self within the physical, as being in direct connection with this physical/actual/real world.
No secondary dreaming in pictures necessary. Within this, Equal Money is the “sale” of life. It is giving self what is real. This physical actual - fully sensational world - a gift of actual, physical, real enactment as life, HERE.

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Day 140 Is life expression moving?

Money moves things around in this world, things. But what moves life expression? Would not expression as life, flow in moving around, as forgiving of itself as itself? With money being what is moving around, and a lot of it debt, meaning not even real, it is actually a mirror of what actually exists here on earth within this system of inequality called capitalism, or any centralized regime that has existed that has not supported life equally. There is not much expression going on if 22,000 children a day are dying of starvation, and 2/3 of the world is either busy dying or struggling to survive, not having clean sustaining basic needs, their bodies building a debt, as a lack, of what is needed to be an expression in full potential as life, as what the human is in fact. Like this earth is a canvas, and the picture created within it needs some serious development and direction.

But this is just it, there is no ability for direction, because a lack of respect and support for life, for the very substance that is what we are all, that which is not what is flowing and moving and expressing.

I look at the words I use, and I realize, within each day, the words I use are what I have encountered within my environment recently, so much of a robot, reflection of my world am I, as what is expressed around me then begins to move through me. I am a product of my environment. And I was lead to believe I was unique and special, when I am not, I am just a broadcast mechanism of my environment. And this environment is not broadcasting anything of real value as life, it is looking for something to hold onto, as objects and paper, and not what is the substance that is the paper. An image, as idea, opinion and belief, turned into want, need and desire, secondary, removed, leading, diminishing potential, ignoring what is the value, life.  It really is not something that can be held onto, thus it is like a nothing, and this nothing has to move, to flow. But this expression is dissipated, evaporating instead of rejuvenating itself and moving itself as life, through what is here as earth, giving itself as life expression.

The human is enslaved to characters and personas taught, propagated within a system of inequality, profit, consumerism, that has no interest in life, as this would mean equality as life, where each would realize self value as life. The mind is a reflection of separation, which is self allowed and thus a part of self in pieces that must be brought back , the separations forgiven. All an illusion of fear.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear not being able to pull this life substance as self together and to stand and direct and become one and equal to life substance here, to realize that I am just a vessel expressing life here, that all these thoughts, emotions and feelings are simply recordings, re cordings, re cord rings of what the fuck is here, as seen in my words, as i have noticed that I tend to reiterate the words I have heard from my environment around me, thus I am the reflection of what is here, and not some individual being, as in being special, I am life here one and equal to what is here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that all I can do is practice becoming one and equal to myself as life here, to stop all these thoughts, emotions and feelings, this picture show of no real value what so ever, as it is only memories of what i have seen here of this world, related to propagated values that do not, and will not consider the value that is here,  that which is absolute and equal in all that exists, which is self being life, expressing life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that my thoughts, emotions and feelings have nothing to do with life, they are the divisions created, impressed upon, by a society of more than and less than, a pyramid with a weighted scale atop, creating enslavement, friction and conflict within separation of self as life and thus and not allowing life and within this diminishing potential.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that this weighted scale is the burden of our separation, unnecessary and abusive, and thus must we, the human, stand up and create a system that supports life as the value, using money within an already existent structure to support all life, as there is no life until all and everything on this planet is in fact an expression of itself as life, self directing, self sustaining.

I forgive myself for not taking this will of life, that I have suppressed and stopping all thoughts, bringing the pieces of myself back together again, through self forgiveness, corrective application and breathing, taking myself as life back into me as life, and expressing myself as equal and one to what is real, to create a world that is best for all, as self being forgiving of myself as life here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that a fear of loss, is myself allowing loss.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that as life, I have abdicated my own autonomous generation of what I am as life substance, respecting my human physical body, and the sound as life as what i am in and as, within and without, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that what is being lost within our children is simply themselves as life, without all the impressions taught through parents, society and education, that teach children to consume what serves the division of earth’s resources in self interest of a few who have control of what is actually freely given, creating a society of slaves, where even the wealthy are enslaved.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the mind is a recording device and will mimic what is placed before it, thus the potential within children/humans to learn to self direct is taught to follow the whims and greed of those in control, themselves following whims and greed, creating a system of survival instead of a system of  developing what is the value, life.

I commit myself to realizing that anything in and as my mind is showing myself my own accepted and allowed separations.

I commit myself to realizing that when I allow myself as mind, as the images to be the directive of myself, based on the values in separation from life as what is broadcast on this earth to serve a system of inequality, I stop and I breath, and I bring myself back to myself, and I do not allow myself to follow what is my mind, realizing that it is what i have accepted and allowed, as me, to no longer allow this to separate myself from what is actually physically here.

I commit myself to no longer fearing looking at what is actually physically here, to have the courage to stand as myself, as fear is an illusion, thus it is only the illusion as the separations of the mind that stop the expression of myself as life.

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Day 51 Staged acts are defense.

Day 51 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to blame, to place blame onto objects outside of myself, where if I look at myself as blame, I realize that my blame is emotional and not considering the totality of existence on earth.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that when I blame I am not really looking at what has been allowed on earth within a system that actually writes laws that say a corporation must make a profit and that in order for a corporation to make a profit it must divide and control the physical resources of this earth, and to do so, must take control of the resources and create scenarios where this resource is either limited or available in oder to control the behavior of, what in essence is also being used as a resource, the human.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to question that there need be a law that states that profits must be made, as this is in contra-diction to what it is that I as a human, a physical body here on this earth is in fact, as the physical earth gives without a signature of ownership and the ability to work in such a way that many expressions of life are able to exist, thus a system of profit is alien to this physical world, separate from consideration of this physical world, and in this ignorance, abuses and misuses this physical world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the G20 riots in Canada, where police were hired to create a drama of violent social unrest, lighting police cars on fire and then not sending in the fire trucks to put out the fires - to enable a dramatic propaganda story to be broadcast by a media paid for and bought by the very system that used taxed humans to continue a system of law stated profit before life system, to justify attacking humans who were protesting peaceably, where the human does not realize that protest is blame and thus inaction, as the profit driven system of control has developed a structure to impose the division of what supports life, to provide for a few over the many, and thus it is the structure that must be stood up within in oder to change what exists.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting my self to realize that it will take many to stand together where not one can become a Judas and fear a voice of tyranny and must have an absolute understanding of tyranny in order to be able to stand in clarity before a story that is limited by design as it does not consider all that is of this physical world, and is so locked into itself as an idea that it can no longer see what is actually here as life, and were all that profited most from a system of inequality to realize themselves as life, nothing else but equality would become the choice of life on earth, thus is this system of inequality not to fear, only to reform, to reorder into and as what is best for all.

I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to see that hiring actors to enact violent protest within a calm demonstration is an act of defense by a system to maintain control, and thus this same practice exists within charitable acts throughout the world where any charity “enacted” has not in fact stopped the need for charity, making it clear that charitable acts are staged and merely a dramatic affect that is an act of defense with a happy face to support the structure of profit for the few, which is not in fact life, as defensive action is neither life expression on a micro scale or a macro scale, thus are those that profit most within a system of inequality a mirror of the individual mind consciousness system within each and every human being.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that until life is what is supported on this earth as the value, as that which all that is here is one and equal to, and stood up within and as this, the resources of this earth will continue to be abused and misused, enslaved to the law accepted by each and every human being, that profit must be made, not realizing the profit is life, where this system of profit as law was voted in by the people, and thus it is the people who must stand and reorganize this world to be aligned with this freely giving earth to support life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting my self to not see that blame is being unclear.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that in order for me to withstand blame I must realize all blame I have accepted and allowed within myself.

I commit myself to remaining here in breath, to catch the habit of blame within and as myself, where I realize I am in separation from myself as life, as directing myself as what is best for all, and allowing myself to abdicate myself responsibility as life through making myself lame, as being less than, myself as life, as being a directive of what is best for all, as the living word of equal consideration for all life, steadfast in being aware that nothing can be lost as I am life.

I commit myself to stop blame towards family, towards the education I lack or believe is incomplete for what ever reasons, towards the existential system of profit, towards the behaviors of the human, as this blame has no movement towards resolution and is simply name calling and thus, defense from standing and facing what is actually here.

I commit myself to realize that I have been told all my life that I have no power to change what exists, and to stop within this and realize that a system of inequality would naturally teach, through repetition -via media ; television/books/periodicals/education,and thus those that came before myself, such as family and all my friends - that I as a human cannot change as my “human nature” is “ this or that”  and within this is this is what I hear all my life it would become the norm and the change from this would be difficult as it has been believed for many generations.

I commit myself to realize that it will take a process to reorder what the human has allowed as a system of inequality that is manifest as a system of profit, but that the tools are here to support this change, self forgiveness - to resound the very resonance within myself, writing to place before me what I have accepted and allowed as the behaviors propagated by a system of inequality to maintain itself, and corrective application - to place into statement as the sounding of myself as equal and one to all that is of this physical existence, in order to begin to realize heaven on earth.

I commit myself to look at the emotional tenure of myself and to begin with self forgiveness as this and to stick with this for two months consistently where I will realize what i have existed as as this will be released and thus will I begin to see how much I am in fact an organic robot existing in separation as an energetic entity, where what consumes me and limits me will begin to be seen for what it in fact is, a limited expression of myself here creating stagnation within myself.

I commit myself to realizing there is nothing else but to stand and change the system of men on this earth, that there is no time for blame or spite, as these “being” of myself here will not change what has been accepted and allowed, thus all that exists is to use the self as life to stand and be the creation of life that is this physical world and to change this world to a system that supports life, as life is the value in implementing what is here into a system where one gives and one would like to receive, the voice of equality, the expression of life.

Understand the unconscious mind and the system of money/profit that has been accepted and allowed on earth.

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Day 48 Personality: the NO-I-SE-e self sound.

Day 48 My Personality: the NO-I-SE-e self sound.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting my self to define myself according to relationships,where the relation to something defines who and what I am, to the point where I feel that losing that relation means the end of my self here.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to fear being single which is a belief that I am somehow less than another because I am single, where the word single means, within this culture, that I am “available” and that I am alone as though I am not my self unless I have a relation to another person, as in being in a relationship.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to allow relationships to be an indicator of what I am, instead of realizing that it is how I direct my self in every moment that determines my self here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting my self to cling to relationships in fear that something could be lost, when it is the being of my self here, as how I am within what I do, as in the being of my self here that signifies my self as an expression of life, as this is what I am, and that I am life and all that is here is life requires no relationship as I am here, thus it is the very being here as my self that is, no relationships needed as defining who and what and how I am, so the expression of my self here varies and is determined by the environment, where this earth is the environment, and thus how this earth is organized determines the expression of me as what I am, which is life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting my furniture to define who and what I am, where should I lose my furniture/house,  something of my self would be lost, yet this furniture/house cannot define, be what is the value, as the value of my self is life, where if I possess - meaning own- and defend what furniture I have I become a defender of furniture, as possessor of furniture/house as the expression of my self, where all that I allow my self to exist as is the defense of possessions.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that this being of my self as possessive of things separate from me to define me is in fact myself not being here and living, and within this to realize that the present system on earth is a reflection of what I as within have accepted and allowed, where I am caught in a trap as what i have allowed within, to exist in a system where I require an education to get money and cloak my self in certain objects in order to maintain a place within a hierarchy in order to survive, and were I to be born in a country of great resource, where the resource was desired by those only considering their own survival to the point where the resource was possessed through signature and the people who lived on this land were then swept away and denied support, I would be living this existence of being ignored and pushed away as the earth beneath my feet was possessed by the possessed who only saw their nature as possession as a belief in a need of something to survive and define as relationship, where the real relationship was with self as life, where self as life realized that all that was here was life, meant to support self as life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that expression cannot exist between two people when the directive is to create a relationship as self creation definition according to survival within a system that demands being in possession of the projecting of oneself in terms of a limited outlined structure within a game of survival, within this to realize that the being of self within this limited form/structure possesses self to the point where this is what is the director and the thing chased, instead of the self realizing self as life, being supported by the physical to express self as life, which is why disease exists and why disease has not been removed from this earth, as the limited form of profit is the reflection of self abdication as life.

I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to see, realize and understand that the design of my survival suit, a collection of believed needed relationships as self definition, are the grid that I follow and adhere to, am possessed by, and am diminished by, as this grid I have created within is what I chase and consume to be and project my survival suit, one and the same, and in totality, this is accepted and allowed relationships that I exist as that burn up and consume my human physical body into an aged burning grid of projection separate from the equality of my self as life to life, which I have denied in fear of loss and desire of gain to live, as I do not understand, as I was not taught/did not accept life, myself as, life one and equal to the substance as what I am that is life.

I commit my self to realizing all relationships as possessions of how and what I define my self as why I am the projection of my self  to survive, to forgive such relationship possessions as the projection of my self, to equalize my to to this human physical body, and earth myself.

I commit my self to realize that to attempt to have a relationship with another person who defines themselves through accepted and allowed definitions as relationships will only lead to conflict and friction, blame and excuse, justification and hiding, clinging and self denial as life, fear of loss and competition for gain, where the gain is the maintenance of personality, personality being a collection of relationships as values separated into a hierarchy, as the present system on earth, as a point of what is believed to be needed to survive.

I commit myself to revealing how personality is a collection of stories depicting more than and less than as a prop/as a grid/ as a survival suit/ as idol possession  manifest as projection in separation from life and self as life, divided and conquered into personas/personalities separate from what self is equal and one to and as, which is life, here, where the physical is the tool to exist one and equal to and as, to be an expression of life, here, to allow eternal life.

I commit my self to stopping the infinite design as possession of persona as mind consciousness system, the limited insight trap that never satisfies as self is not lived existing within polarities where, as is infinite design, the self moves within projections as possessions from negative, to neutral, to positive, eventually existing as only the positive conscious thought projection, where the layers of compounded energetic possessions consume self, as this is what self has accepted and allowed in separation from oneness in equality as self as life, that which is sought that is right here under the emperor’s clothes that is the persona the self follows that is the pied piper, heard in the back chat of the mind, leading oneself to a death - visible through the bent and crooked posture of the aged man as the burden of the self created grid as persona destroys the human physical body - absent of eternal life.

I commit myself to realizing that the rigidness of my human physical body is the constriction of my self as life, where my human physical body is revealing to me the personality I have accepted and allowed in separation from my self as life, where I have separated into energy and relinquished the sound of my self as life.