I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to entertain my self with and as the mind, to fold the substance of my self into and as a story to be what it is that I am here as life, instead of realizing my self here as life one and equal to what is actually physically here.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to separate from my self here, into and as a driver of a the cylindrical tube of a player piano in and as my mind, where I follow the data of the mind, a collection of imagery from my past entertaining me with hopes wants and wishes that are like the wishing upon a star, the stories limited and superficial, only being of details that suggest a state of bliss, where ever behind the image of the princess is the wicked witch or the troll under the bridge, but the soil is never known, the animals are anthropomorphized and the flowers are always in bloom. Where there is no specific data on how the world works on how the soil works, or why there are starving children.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not realize that The stories of my childhood, and even the novels read in my teenage years and my adult years never talk about the totality of this earth, rarely suggest how this earth can be cared for, more often than not simply complain about the state of the world as though this is an indication of wisdom, where the complaining and finger pointing has more meaning and substance than solution, where the being of self as the dreamer or the “intelligent” seeming detailer of what has happened - meaning interpretation- has become the way of wisdom instead of directing as what is best for all.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting my self to slow down, to use my breath, to slow way down as my self and to try self forgiveness for twenty one days, to stand and push my self through this, consistently, for twenty one days to watch for the slightest movement of my self as what I am here, to see, hear and realize the very being of what I could possibly be as my self here, to realize that I am a form of sound and to stop and breath and notice this very substance of my self as what I am, and to stop following the billboards of my mind, to realize that real stability, that which I have never lived is through the realization of what I am here, that of sound substance, where should I learn to direct my self as this, and create a world where this was the director of what is here , where all that is here is realized as living one and equal to my self, then would this world begin to respect itself as life and so order this world into that which is what is best for all, where stability would reverberate as life through life here, as all as one as equal.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not realize that in such a scenario, the greatest story would become manifest on this earth that of being life here one and equal as all as one as equal.
I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to believe in the entertainments in and as the mind, to fold my self into and as a seeming wave of undulating movement in and as my self which is really the turning of a cylindrical column filled with self placed data in and as my mind creating the illusion of a figure eight as the sign of infinity, yet is the separation of my into and as my past which I use to dream about, worry about, connive about my future in a system of inequality, where all I consider is how to pay my rent and wallow in what was believed to be lost allowing my self to exist in self pity, not realizing if I took the time to look that the centralized governments existent on this earth dictate laws in consideration of profit before life, where each individual abdicates self response-aibility to a “representer” within a system of profit where naturally the best interest of profit becomes what is the action of the elected officials - as these elected officials are trapped within the system just as my self, where weaknesses in and as their minds in and as their addictions, are used to lock them into taking the direction of the interest of profit and money for the few or be exposed publicly for their digressions, and that they fear for their survival as much as I do, as they are accustomed to their level of existence and fear dropping down in the hierarchy of a system of inequality that is of a pyramid structure imposed onto this earth as this system of inequality that must stop, and where this begins is with in each and every one of us stopping the limited presentation of what this earth actually is, actually consists of, so much not included in the stories and lessons during childhood in a world that pastes images of war games and pornography all over this earth, which we allow, that become the sole sought after energetic limited rush as what life is, meanwhile we age as we are become separation from what is real, this physical world.
I forgive my self for allowing anda ccepting my self to want to save the world, not realizing that doing such starts with my self, where each and every person on this earth stabilizes self through realizing self separation from self as life, to self forgive the self separation and bring self back to what is real, this physical world, this physical human body which each and every one of us asked for through the birth a child that asked a question, the question being what is life, why does this earth exist the way it is, which - as we are one and equal- each and every one of us asking why this earth exists with so much abuse, as this question was posed by the very substance as what we are, the substance of life, thus must each and every one of us stabilize ourselves into and as what is eternal and away from what is absolute separation as the selective limited values reflected within the media, educational system, production system using the resources of this earth as seen in the agricultural practices of monoculture growing corn and soy to constitute a seeming variety of products but which in fact are the reformation of limited ingredients that do not support the human physical body, and actually rape this earth, just as we, each and every one of is the values of the mind, so reflected in the advertising of this world into and as monocultures of barbie and ken, thus walking one di-mensional images of what a man and a woman exist as, this being the image and likeness of total non awareness of this physical world, images that - as the roles we follow- are in fact the image to look perfect for an existence of sexual addiction and seeking, and that when one steps back and takes a look, as listening to what the mind focuses on every seven minutes a thought of sex, it becomes very clear that we exist in a world that propagates a monoculture with food, with the expression of ourselves as humans, with the dictates of the mind, and the monoculture grin of a smile, of the feeing of being happy as the expression in and as ourselves here, thus in denial of this physical world and a life of multidimension as what this physical world consists of right under our very feet.
I forgive my self for not accepting and allowing my self to realize that the physical is the eternal and the mind is eternal separation from this physical world, the mind being the vacuum of energetic highs and lows, a spectrum of feeling and emotion that exists as varying intensity, where feelings are of less density and emotions are of more density, the angel and the devil on my shoulders as I allow my self as mind to spin through the very energetic separations I accept and allow as I spend my life being eternal separation separate from the forgiving of my self as life, that which is eternal, where as I exist as energy, the excess energy demands release, and thus do I seek sexual encounters, to en-counter pent up energy in and as what I have accepted as my self as the mind in separation from my self as life, as all as one as equal.
I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to realize that I am life fueling this separation by my own beliefs , opinions and ideas accepted and learned within a system of survival that dictates, and ONLY presents, the formation of my self into and as either a barbie or a ken doll to continue the monoculture that is what is on this earth, that in order to exist, places most of the inhabitants of this world, be they plant, animal, human or microorganism into absolute abuse as I the human disregard what actually exists as this physical world as I allow my self to exist in separation following an impossible dream that will and cannot be satisfied as it is separation from the multi-dimension of life, where I must look at what I have accepted and allowed and bring my self back to self as life as sound and direct my self as life in consideration of what I am one and equal to, which is the very substance of this earth.
I commit my self to stopping the mind through self forgiveness, writing and corrective application to being my self back to my self as life, and to stop the eternal separation that is the mind, to realize the mind is actually very small, and a storm of desire that leads to an unfulfilled life as the very manifestation of the fear of my self directing my self as life.
I commit my self to standing and walking through the fear of my self standing as my self as life, to self forgive what I have accepted and allowed as mind, and to deconstruct these separations, knowing that as I walk this there will be many moments of frustration, as I will want to give up, as I have existed in absolute separation for so long it will take patience and the slowing down of my self through breath to see and realize what it is that i have existed as before I can even begin to find even the tiniest realization of possible beingness of my self that is something other than what I have accepted and allowed as mind, yet begin to see and realize and understand that there is no other choice but this, and once seen realize that each and every person on this earth must being themselves back to becoming one and equal with the essence of themselves as life and forgive the separations that are what the mind is in fact.
Equal Money System for equal life.