Friday, November 30, 2012

Day 221 Behavoirs of conjecture

My sons would have friends over to the house. Sometimes the behaviors were unacceptable. I would want to make a statement that this, or that friend was no longer allowed at the house. I would also feel quilt about this, and also get behaviors from my children as a consequence. Reactions of anger. So, I had to try and explain. Eventually, I got the the point where I would say that the friend had many qualities that were fine; for instance one friend would play a lot of guitar, and he taught my son to play - this was fine. Then I would go onto explain that it was some of his behaviors that I found unacceptable, it was the emotional storms the friend would go into that were not only unacceptable but dangerous. This one friend tended to brake things in the house, in some kind of reckless abandon. So, I told my son, that I could not let this behavior into the house, as it was a behavior that was not in the best interests of my son…. as well.
I even talked with the boy one time and tried to get him to see this. But it did not stop.
Needless to say, one night the boy took my car and drove himself home, without asking. These are the kinds of things this child did. At the moment, when my son is home, this other boy is not here. He has been cast out from being allowed in the house. He would come and apologize, but then, inevitably come and do something like this again.

With this boy, most of the time, he was polite, in that he would say hello, sometimes come and talk to me, we even played together a couple of times. But then suddenly, it was like he was possessed with a desire for something, like he was afraid he was going to lose something. And then the reckless anger ( perhaps ALL anger is reckless!) would take some action and something would be broken, and he would go running out into the yard breaking things. Something was obviously bothering him and whatever it was he had to get it under control.

Some “ idea” had become his state of mind, lol, his state of being as mind, as a limited sense, caught up in some desire to placate his fear of some loss needing justification within some kind of attention.

A noun, can also be a state of being. A thing. So a person becomes a state of being, within desire, want or need, as behavior, driven by the e(ergy)motion to meet that supposed “need”, so possessed, what is here is forgotten. And it has nothing to do with what is actually here. ( Unless ofcourse, you are a starving child, starving because some “states” within this world, like the United STATEs, believe themselves to be in need, so possessed by their own consumerism that a perpetual tantrum exists within want that this possessions ignores what is actually here.)

If we, the human, were taught to be here, as in seeing what is actually here, and how what is here functions, instead of being told we cannot understand what is here, ( I mean, there arefarmers in the Swiss Alps who read the plants to determine the weather!) the only place to go is into conjecture, and on what basis would such a thing exist? How can it be believed that “here” cannot be understood, and then decide conjecture, as what is not here or physically validated, then be understood and/or followed as being a guide? This is just a man-u-factured illusion actually blocking common sense! Also, if looking at here, at nature, one notices a tree looking unhealthy, then what is needed is to see what is missing from the tree that it requires to become healthy, this is simply seeing a lack within requirement physically.

If a behavior is not dealing with what is actually physically here, then it is an idea, belief, or opinion, imagination, judgement based on some limited viewpoint, believing some kind of attention is necessary that has no real value or self directive capacity as what the physical, in common sense, is able to do!. So the physical world is actually a directive within being here with what is real. So anything that creates a fantasy, such as pictures on a tube, or words on a page, cannot be taken as what is, as it is a picture drawn of something real and not the real thing. So, a state of being, as a desire, want and need fixed into some fantasy and imagination that cannot even be verbally expressed, and ends up as a behavior that is reckless and destructive in missing/wanting some relationship not being made, and that, probably within some agenda or made huge emotional need, like a strategic planning to get something. I mean, just think about the whole sex seeking scenario, it is the same. And occupying. Thus, there can be no such thing as self interest only, because we are on a physical planet that functions within specific forms, all working together. Force actions of monoculture on this, and use a force of creating some invisible scenario, limited in design to create that monoculture and what is real is destroyed as it is taken apart to be placed into a lesser design. In this way, the physical is the gift of what works, so it is to become with what is actually here, to be here, seeing, looking at what works here, where what is here allows what works to actually be seen. A real “god”/parent would not have conjecture, only abuse would use conjecture, for personal gain. And what happens if this “conjecture” is taught to children? As what is real? And it goes on for generations? Welcome to hell on earth!

So, obviously, the present system of invisible hands, and invisible gods is a travesty of conjecture. It is not here, existing with what is actually here. To keep this limited illusion that uses what is actually here, our children are educated into the illusion and not taught to work with what actually physically exists. And they are fed images via TV, and sugar to keep them in some excited STATE in separation from here. I think I would run outside my house and want to break things too, but this is not a solution. The solution, is to come back to what is here, as the physical. To investigate what has been accepted and allowed, and to stop, to allow equal and one understanding with what is here, the physical world.

An Equal Money System will allow those who presently are actually looking in common sense of what is physically here, before they are asked to skew data to suit profit, to do what the actual physical world reveals. As of now, what the actual physical world needs, in may places where children are starving, is not being met. Even though this world is able to send aid, and distribute guns, and get drugs over borders in government planes ( interesting how the government resembles what was considered Mafia behavior more and more everyday as the monoculture begins to crumble) , and organize school systems to indoctrinate, and get telephone wires and radio waves everywhere to broadcast things. With all this, a system ofcommunication and transportation already exists. And obviously since there is massive amounts of food wasted every day, there is enough food.

It is like, instead of understanding how water works and functions and all its properties, what exists is a system where a few are allowed to build a structure that allows them to control that water, where so much effort and energy is spent on getting this human control, instead of actually developing an understanding of what water is in totality, and sharing that understanding with every human so that each and every human has an understanding, and thus respect for that water! In this way, what exists is a crime, as it actually blocks understanding of the substance here on earth supporting life, and instead teaches the structure that allow one/ a few to be dominant. And look at that water, it is all the same, as a water molecule, existing within its nature to do what it does - which i do not understand because I have never had the opportunity to be taught this because I was taught to serve the ONE as role play of dominator. That/this is really really messed up.
Even that “dominator” does not understand water, because if they did they would become as that water, this substance spread all over this earth giving freely, being itself as what it is, able to be understood if the attentions of men were not drawn away from this actual physical world!
To think that water can be owned means that you are a zombie - as we tell ourselves with the movies we make- and have become the good servant of a system of ignorance of life, that you have accepted and allowed the diversion from self as life, and are caught up in an illusion and conjecture, where this illusion determines your behavior, a behavior developed to be ignorance! Thus, man has become the blind leading the blind.

Generations generating ignorance.


TIme to start playing on the band wagon of life, pick up your instrument of life, your human physical body, and support Equal Money, and walk the process of realignment back to the physical and away from a taught conjecture. All the king’s men and all the king’s horses cannot put you back together again. But, the good news is, that you can do it yourself as Desteni. Start with a free course; Desteni I Process Lite. You will never look back, as life is better than a dream in front of your television set.


The Century of Self : Part 1 Happiness Machines
Psywar
The Trap
The Power Principle
Human Resources: Social Engineering in the 20th Century
Catastroika - Greek Documentary
The Marketing of Madness

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Day 220 A thought of " I care"

I  forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have a memory of myself turning within a directive , as a movement based on a positive feeling of “ I care”, within a relationship offear of punishment, as a positive reaction towards a choice within the fear of punishment.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to place a negative value on punishment, to create a positive relationship within fear as the motivation to face the fear and have a desire to make the perceived object of the fear to no longer exist, wherein an attempt is made to face the object of the fear within an idea of care, as in saving the thing made object of demise , through making a decision to face what is presented and questioning its logic.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have an idea, as an image in and as myself fixing the object of the action being presented, without having adequate communicationskills and understanding of the formation of the object and the objects presentation within its construction and thus confronting confusion within processing effective direction of myself and what is being presented as an expression , here as life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that when confusion is encountered, then something is lacking within common sense, which simply means investigation until common sense is reached .
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become the character within a persona of wanting to save, to show and tell care, not having an understanding of the mechanics of the mind as a consciousness system, where a thought alone, without breath and common sense, a view of one part made reality and used to make judgements, the compounding of which causes a possession of a distorted reality, leads to consequences lacking in common sense.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to imagine my self stopping accusation and fear within another to avoid punishment.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into anger when attempts to end accusation through care are not what is expected.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have voices in and as my mind of retaliation, which is the same action as blame and spite presented, within abdication of common sense.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see how I have allowed myself to continue with fear as reaction, instead of remaining clear within common sense as what is best for all, through remaining here as breath, realizing nothing can be lost but myself in separation= fear, whereupon I enter the game of friction and conflict and create an agenda to diminish my fear, where when this is not instantly met, I allow myself to become a reaction as fear, based on an idea of instant gratification, here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that my human physical body, as an instrument of life, constricts , blocks, physical sense of this world as equal within and without, to place a protection and defense of projecting cause and effect onto an object or action of another, not seeing realizing and understanding that the consequences playing out are a separation from solutions that give self direction and allow self support for all objects and elements involved, where no burdens are left for anyone to carry, and thus the next moment can be lived within absolute expression as life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being accused as a cause and effect as being detrimental, or having been unaware, as though this is a crime, instead of seeing realizing and understanding that as life the only solution is to forgive within solution as what is best for life, as what the human and all that exists is.


I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that within and as fear, as a belief that something can be lost, or that I can fall, just as when childrenfall and are immediately comforted by parents, instead of allowing the child to self direct within having fallen, the child is picked up and held and asked if they are fine, where what is developed is a belief that falling down is bad and thus needs comfort- as care being greater than self direction and self honesty within the moment of the “falling down,” to physically see, realize and understand within self what happened within common sense, thus as a very young child is the human programmed to believe a “mistake” needs e-motional “caring” instead of self assessment and self honesty within self direction within and as the moment, thus are fear reactions ingrained to be answered with “care and comfort” seeking, instead of equal and one standing within what is actually physically here in common sense, and if this is the program, when the same feeling of non-understanding within and as the physical, as uncertainty and separation from physical awareness into and as a relationship being made with developmental moments of uncertainty, within the simplistic act of learning to walk, are coupled with care and comfort instead of self autonomous practical common sense development of here, then this becomes the program of the child in every moment of uncertainty within a process of becoming aware of life and how life functions, thus blame and spite are unacceptable, as these reactions are unresolved awareness of what is practically here and how here as the physical actually functions.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how this has created a world of “caring” for mistakes, without actually stopping and working out how this physical world in fact functions, where the resources of this earth are grabbed to “care” from a staring point of separation from working in common sense, within self development, in becoming equal and one with and as this physical world, where all corporate action presents “care” as all it sees, run my humans who have not walked through seeing uncertainty as fear as simply lacking common sense of this actual physical world, a development of separation from self equal and one standing to this actual physical world as what is best for all.

I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that real care is allowing the human to self realize self direction in common sense with the physical world.
When and as I see myself going into a feeling of care, I stop and I breath, and I realize, in common sense how this world function, in detail, the economic, the educational, the development of children, as the mechanics of the mind consciousness system , to realign myself equal and one to the physical and no longer exist within limited judgements as possession of thoughts, emotions and feelings indicative of reactions as fear/separation as lacking in common sense, where the cause and effect of this is friction and conflict as an inconsideration of the mechanics of this actual physical world and the system of consciousness as the mind of men made larger than life itself.
I commit myself to remaining here, one and equal as breath, when and as I react in fear, to stop fear being a trigger, as a belief in loss, to investigate the mind consciousness system of separation, as thought, emotions and feelings as products of reactions of fear, and within this to physically recognize fear as reaction within my human physical body as tension, constriction, difficulty in breathing with ease, and a sense of vertigo, among others, to recognize the movements of fear as separation from common sense as life, to walk solutions into and as equality and oneness with all life through common sense awareness of what is best for all.
I commit myself to realizing that care is the development of self awareness of how the physical world functions.
I commit myself to investigating the present human systems that present care, yet this care is within separation from life, as fear of survival, instead of equal and one physical common sense development.



The Century of Self : Part 1 Happiness Machines
Psywar
The Trap
The Power Principle
Human Resources: Social Engineering in the 20th Century
Catastroika - Greek Documentary
The Marketing of Madness

Day 219 Self validations within the presented

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become lost within the consequences presented, abdicating myself as life, into and as accepting what is presented, and feelingoverwhelmed within confusion and frustration, as what is missing is not offered/presented within the context of what is real, this actual physical world.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the self validations as what is presented through all aspects of society and the training of this society, is limited within realizing the existence of expression and how this expression moves and what is here as this actual physical world, where the present system of consciousnessexcludes what is real in totality in favor of selected values fed a morality within the context of the human only.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that when in confusion, I have a physical feeling that there is no place to go, and thus I go into frustration, as what is here, as what is morally accepted and allowed considers the survival of men only, and ignores the actual physical world, thus, as within so without, a separation becomes what exists, with no direction within equal consideration, as the story is the more all within a singular dimension of men only.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that in becoming the moreall as the human, which is consciousness, I separate myself from the truemother and father as the earth and the sky, this being to total substance as the expression of life here, thus in ignorance do I deny myself as life, in favor of the resonance of what the human has projected through media, education, society on the substance of life here, thus I allow myself to give the authority of myself as life, to a limited system that in its limitation and ignorance of life, becomes friction and conflict in not having substance, as this being total movement within self equal and one to what is same as creation, which is the sound substance of life in all that exists, realizing this in equal measure within all existent.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that a sense of vertigo within is myself falling in separation from myself as life as sound, where the all is the story that ends in the more as myself being one and equal as life here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the present systemic morality is a more all, as men being the all, where in fact the exact opposite is what is real, where equal and one consideration for the “all” of existence is the more, as this is life as all existent in expression on this earth.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to save, though a mind that is consciousness, lost in thoughts and emotions and feelings, believing this possession to be what is real, having been trained/programmed to be this from day one within a system that generates this - meaning imposes and impulses this through the technologies created by men, even the social structures - what is then programmed into the child born without language and beliefs, and thus forcing the child into service to a moral for the human, where the human is caught as mind within polarities that have no answers because the answers are within a bubble of consideration of men only, of energetic separation as what energy is, as the consequence of separation, which is to look for solution within consequence, where all that manifests is blame, as the starting point was already of separation.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that there is not solution to be found within the outflow of consequence without looking through the consequence to the starting point, where what must be realized is the movement as direction within consideration of all that exists, as though this earth is the instrument of life, yes men seem to think they are the instrument, when they are a part of the instrument, and thus life is not being lived on this planet, as the systemic imposition of men as more separates from life, and thus causes consequences of destruction, instead of equal and one being with what is here as equal and one to man.


The Century of Self : Part 1 Happiness Machines
Psywar
The Trap
The Power Principle
Human Resources: Social Engineering in the 20th Century
Catastroika - Greek Documentary
The Marketing of Madness

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Day 218 physical constriction signifies separation

I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that constriction in and as my physical is due to thoughts as the judgement of good and bad in and as consciousness, as how themind works, through separation into polarities of judgement, where emotions are the negative and feelings a compound of the negative into the positive, always the devil and the angel, the acts of separation into judgement from what is physically here, as this has been made huge by a system as the mind of men, this that is called god, a belief in a more than and less than in separation from equality and oneness as life.
I commit myself to seeing, realizing, understanding what I am as mind, and to expose this system as mind as what man has created outwardly as systemic abuse of this earth, of the physical, as the movement of myself as thoughts, emotions and feelings is a separation from life.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that I have validated myself as my thoughts, emotions and feelings, not seeing, realizing and understanding how the mind in fact functions, not having learned how to see the separations, and myself as life, in common sense of oneness and equality to this physical world, where the value is life, and yet, the value of more than and less than is what is lived, manifest in and as the present system of money, where money determines life, and thus money is the manifestation of the god man has acceptedand allowed, where the choice is to stop and create a system that supports life, realizing life is the value on this physical world to manifest heaven on earth.
I commit myself to no longer validate myself in and as emotions, thoughts and feelings, recognizing the separation and the possessions of thoughts, emotions and feelings through remaining here , in and as breath.
I commit myself to realizing that constrictions within and as my human physical body signify compounded thoughts, as emotions and feelings, of which I have made huge, as beliefs, opinions and ideas, I have created personas, where this persona is the possession and directive in and as energy and thus is the real devil as this is separation from and as common sense.
I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that movement as thought, emotions and feelings creates consequences as this is a separation from life into and as energy, to stop and to breath and to become a movement in and as common sense as what is best for all, as what i would want for myself, which is to give as I would like to receive as this is self in common sense of life, that which is the substance as sound of which is one and equal, in and as what all of earth is, which is a constant, and thus the constant has always been here.


The Century of Self : Part 1 Happiness Machines
Psywar
The Trap
The Power Principle
Human Resources: Social Engineering in the 20th Century
Catastroika - Greek Documentary
The Marketing of Madness