Day 96
I forgive myself for allowing and
accepting myself to fear facing the future.
I forgive myself for allowing and
accepting myself to fear losing the past.
I forgive myself for allowing and
accepting myself to have attached the past onto an object.
I forgive myself for allowing and
accepting myself to become supersticious of the future with and as my
past.
I forgive myself for allowing and
accepting myself to once again bite my fingernails as I am not here,
but in fear and not wanting to move which means that I am not here,
realizing myself as life in oneness in equality and allowing all
manner of fears and wants and beliefs to carry me, as the mind, down
a rabbit whole away from what is physically, practically here as
life, this gift that is given to allow myself to live and be life
here.
I forgive myself for allowing and
accepting the illusions of the mind consume myself here and build
imagery upon what is actually physically here, where I allow “here”:
to become heavy, where I allow “here” seem difficult. Where here
is the only place that is real.
I forgive myself for not allowing and
accepting myself to direct myself with what is here, and to allow
myself to believe that the future is some unknown place of doom and
failure, a place where some monster lurks with the intention of
eating me up.
I forgive myself for not allowing and
accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I cannot lose
the past, as the past is already past, and not what is actually
physically here.
I forgive myself for allowing and
accepting myself to be attached to objects where I presently exist
that I believe would be sad to lose.
I forgive myself for allowing and
accepting myself to believe that what exists here, where I am is more
than another place of existence, where in fact, all of this earth
should be a place where all life is being lived in dignity, where no
matter whose shoes I wear and no matter what ground is beneath my
feat, what exists is life being lived with and in dignity.
I forgive myself for believing that the
past of youth and “innocence” is real and is something to carry
as memorabilia.
I forgive myself for allowing and
accepting myself to not realize that this memorabilia is a
collection of memories to which I attribute a positive feeling as
what I seek to placate a fear of facing the future, as the future I
believe to be of uncertainty.
I forgive myself for allowing and
accepting myself to not realize that change, if seen as change, is an
acceptance of losing something, when change is simply change, where
the landscape may change, but what is real, which is life, is what is
here and within a “place of change.”
I forgive myself for not allowing and
accepting myself to see realize and understand that my fear, and my
action of not wanting to give up my past is one and the same as
myself stagnant within not wanting to move into the future, where
the illusion is of losing the past, and thus not wanting to change,
but the way to strengthen myself as life is to become one and equal
to life here, and thus to not fear what is here, what is life.
I forgive myself for not allowing and
accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in holding onto
an object that represents my past, I am so busy holding this object
that I am consuming myself with a past, in and as sentiments of past
experience, and thus I an cemented to my past, believing this cement
is real when it is just pictures and has no real value as life, as it
is images and not myself as life within the directive principle of
oneness in equality, of what is best for all.
I forgive myself for not allowing and
accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in living within
the sentiments of my past, onto an object which I have projected –
making an object of desire- I am avoiding and postponing the walking
of myself into life, becoming life, realizing that all that is here
is life, within which the illusion is that life does not exist
somewhere else on this planet, and is just here where I have a past.
I forgive myself for not allowing and
accepting myself to see , realize and understand that I am making the
future seem empty in bringing the past here as something that can be
lost, when the past is not here and thus not something that is real.
I forgive myself for not allowing and
accepting myself to see that the only choice is to be absolutely
here, one and equal to what is here, where the inner and the outer is
here, as this is life, and not the images of my past, thus for myself
to birth myself into and as life within this physical world, this
gift of life, I cannot fear what is here, and I cannot walk through
what is not here, thus fearing the future will create a sense of
falling, as I am trying to see what is not here, and thus I will
fall, as what is not here is not real.
I forgive myself for not allowing and
accepting myself to see realize and understand that the tiredness I
feel at this moment is myself resisting the realization that there is
only here, equal and one with what is here, that in existing as fear
of the future, I am within a stupidity loop pretending to what is non
existent.
I forgive myself for allowing and
accepting myself to burden myself here with the past and with the
future, in separation with what I am able to exist with and as,
myself as life here, as all there is is what is here, as I can only
place one foot in front of another , here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and
accepting myself to see realize and understand that in common sense,
if one foot is in the future and one foot is in the past, then I will
lose my step and thus lose myself as I am not here, this that is
here, this physical, here, is in this moment the only thing that is
real.
I commit myself to realizing that all
there is is what is here, in this moment, understanding how here
works, how what is actually physically here works, where all emotions
and feelings are not what is physically here.
I commit myself to realizing that self
direction , self responsibility can only be with what is physically
here, and thus any emotion and feeling is based on an idea, as a
picture, is an add-on to support the image and likeness of what is
taught/proposed/supporting a system of survival and profit to feed an
illusion of more than and less than, and within this limiting the use
of what is here, as this physical world in a way that supports all
life, and within this creating a working, vibrant organism as life on
earth, where life cannot and will not become and exist in absolute
purpose of expression as life until every part of this organism that
is life, that is the gift of life, that is each and every one of us,
is in fact allowed to be life, and that until each part can stand as
life working in tandem, life will not be lived and the eye of the
needle will not be walked though until each and every
one/thing/person/plant/animal/micro-organism – thus are the elite
of this world as screwed as the poor unless a world of oneness in
equality is lived/supported/dignified as life in fact, as is would
make sense that to become life, all must become aware of this
physical world and how this world functions, as no parent, no “god”
would want their child to not have full understanding of life, as
this is the gift. It is time to get this done. It is time for a
system that supports all life. One man, one vote. Equal Money here.
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